What About Us Last Request

Selina Johnson | 17:30 | Johnson House

They say humans are social animals. The assumption of the words 'social' & 'animals' being supportive to each other is still a mystery I believe. To back that up we've had countless examples throughout the history of humankind. We've fought together, survived and evolved through the odds of nature. As for me, the curve is little bit different. Humans as in us in a civilized way, we try to introduce and present ourselves as the most appealing way as we can in front of the audience. But the thing is that it's just a calculated act of survival and selfishness. That is just to accept the appreciations among other things, which help us to differentiate and live a better life. And that's just the world is right now. The believes are different, these definitions are blurred. Yet we may not get left behind. Pushing harder is something you & I learn as we live through.

​To get ahead I made my own choices. To earn the self gratitude by presenting myself a piece of mind. It's the part of the life I would like to think. But to tell the truth, it seems I've earned more than just peace, it's happiness that I've found. Something I will hold onto through the rest of my life.

-Hey Mom!

-...,- Even through my childhood I mostly asked for a mere amount of appreciation, a bit of attention from my parents. It's easy to deduce this as a child's desire to get loved; yes to some extent that's only natural. But when you can get the fact that their motives weren't about that little girl they bought into this world, then the word 'love' will sound like a stupid exaggeration to you as well.

-Hellooo?

-...,- Maybe the absence of these words in me led to my bittersweet personality. And for that I'm still disgusted at myself. But at the end of the day I can rest easy knowing that I'm trying, to change, to be better. At least it's better than to wait and feel sorry. The best I can do now is to avoid the repetition of the nightmare I had to go through.

-Earth to Ms. Johnson, if you've lost control over your mind then please allow us to interfere(impossible shaking intensifies)... Mom!! Quit your daydreaming and listen..

-Okay; oh God! I'm listening, I'm listening Violet!

-Finally(sighs).

-You've gotten strong.

-You should see yourself when you're writing your imaginary novel. Someday you have gotta tell me that story inside your mind.