When I Shall Say Goodbye

Her eyes suddenly sharpened as she never anticipated that she would be startled by the innocence of a child. She swept a side glance to Anthon but she saw danger in the way he shifted his gaze from her and her son. She suddenly ridiculed herself for thinking that way. There was certainly no way he would know. Only her. Not even her family. She swiftly calmed and composed herself and suddenly chuckled as she draw her son close to her chest.

" What are you saying? Do you want to add him as one of your daddies? You already have plenty of them. Daddy Joseph, Daddy Paul, etc.. "

He seemed unconvinced. "But his eyes are like mine." He shrugged his shoulders and reached out his right hand to trace Anthon's eyes.

" Would you mind if I call you daddy Anthon, please? " He folded his hands together as if he was expecting rejection.

Anthon looked so pleased. His gaze suddenly became gentle the way his eyes always spoke. "How can I say no to a beautiful child as cute as me? " He suddenly picked him up lovingly and hugged him tightly. There was a sense of longing in the way he held him.

A lump suddenly formed in her throat and she found herself having difficulty in holding back a tear. If only she was able to raise him up with his father! She subconsciously met Anthon's eyes. It held a dark and meaningful message. It could strip up her pretense in a moment if she would not harden her defenses.

"Go eat your cheesecake. You may as well borrow my phone and watch your videos."

The little creature quickly bounced his way to another table with a big grin on his face , grabbing her phone away. Little did he knew that he almost caused her a disaster. The shop attendant then came over to transfer the set of cake and drinks to his table.

"Are you hiding something? " His statement startled her but she was also as quick as a lighting in regaining her composure. After all, it's something she mastered for a lifetime. Somehow, a sense of bitterness crept in but she managed to conceal it with a smile.

"Stop being so serious. How are you? "

"Answer me. "

"That has nothing to do with you. After all, we each have our own piece of darkness and poignant memories and I'm sure you have your own slice to share."

He stared at her but did not say a single word. His eyes spoke no satisfaction in the answer he got. There was, instead, a sense of suspicion. She knew it was something he would do all

measures to find out soon. She had doubts after all that during that night in the Blue Whale Mountain Resort, he might be as well curious about it.