Big Moon Ballad

Under the night wind, Ying Baoyue stroked the rocks of the city wall beneath her, her palms as cold as rocks.

In the same place, on the same Great Wall, Ying Su said the words that changed both of their lives.

He said, marry me.

Ying Baoyue closed her eyes, her eyelashes trembling slightly.

Li Ji saw the pain in his eyes and felt pain in his heart. He didn't know why he was hurting, whether it was for Ying Baoyue, for his own jealousy, or for the accidental past ten years ago.

He didn't urge him, he just waited patiently for Ying Baoyue to continue talking.

"I agreed to him at first because he said he was just pretending to be married to solve my urgent need."

"He said he needed a wife and I needed a husband, and everything was just right. I don't need to fulfill my obligations as a wife after marriage. He already has a son, and there is nothing I need to do."

Ying Baoyue raised her head, looked into the vast wilderness and said quietly, "I believe it."

"is it?"

Li Ji followed her gaze and looked calmly into the distance, "When did you discover that this was not the case?"

Probably only Lin Baoyue, who had pure love in her previous life, would believe Ying Su's lie.

Given Ying Su's situation at the time, marrying Ying Baoyue was a huge adventure. Not only will he offend his father, but he will also be resented by that villain Ying Hao. Both of these people have the ability to destroy him.

Under such circumstances, Ying Su insisted on marrying Princess Zhaoyang despite the disapproval of the world. It was not a deep feeling that he would rather die than regret.

This kind of emotion couldn't have occurred in a day or two. Li Ji felt slightly sad when he thought of the secret passage connecting Yingsu's bedroom and the Imperial Prayer Province in Afang Palace.

Apart from the glimpse of the deceased Lin, Li Ji had never really seen this person, but he could somehow understand his thoughts.

If it hadn't been for the farce of the Three Dragons Fighting for the Pearl, Li Ji felt that Ying Su might never have said those words to Lin Baoyue in his entire life.

"I……"

Ying Baoyue seemed to have something stuck in her throat, "I didn't notice it until he left."

Li Ji was startled and sighed in his heart.

It's not that he can't understand.

With Ying Su's age and city, he wanted to hide, but who could discover his thoughts?

The relationship between the eldest prince, who has always been gentle, calm and well-loved, and who lost his wife at a young age, and the disciple of the Imperial Master, who became famous at a young age and faced controversy...

This relationship is too shocking and too secretive.

Li Ji looked at the stiff girl beside him, hesitated for a moment, raised his hand and gently stroked her back.

Ying Baoyue shuddered and looked up at him.

"Hug the moon."

Li Ji tucked her messy hair behind her ears and stared into her eyes seriously, "He didn't want you to know. It's not your fault."

Ying Baoyue's breathing quickened, "I understand."

She was not someone who would blindly blame herself. With her mentality and experience back then, even if she could find some wrong details, if Ying Su didn't tell her, she would just think it was her own fault.

Later, she was able to understand Ying Su's feelings because she had to know her own feelings.

Only by loving someone's heart can you understand the love others have for you.

"He and I have not always been together," Ying Baoyue said softly after she calmed down. "After Master agreed to our marriage, I returned to the border."

Although she and Ying Su had known each other for nearly ten years, they spent most of their time together and apart, and could only see each other when she returned to Afang Palace.

She was used to it, and every time she came back, he would be waiting for her in the same place.

"The last time we met, he said he was going to go hunting with Ying Hao, and I gave him a medicine bag." "The next day I saw his body in the main hall. The medicine bag was beside him, but he was no longer there. ”

"Sorry," Li Ji suddenly grabbed Ying Baoyue's shoulders, "Stop talking. Baoyue, that's enough."

He didn't want to force her to recall those memories again. Looking at the struggle and pain of the girl next to him, Li Ji regretted it beyond measure.

"It's okay," Ying Baoyue shook her head and looked at Li Ji with a smile, but this smile seemed to be broken in Li Ji's eyes.

"I promised him never to forget."

In the Forest of the Dead, Ying Su wanted to erase her memory of him, but she chose to remember it.

"The moment I saw his body, for the first time in my life, I had the desire to destroy everything in front of me."

She didn't do it when she was abandoned by her biological parents at birth, she didn't do it when she was hunted down when she was young, she didn't do it when she encountered countless assassinations when she was young.

But at that moment, she had the desire to destroy the world for the first time.

Li Ji's hand stroking Ying Baoyue's back trembled, and he suddenly understood when Lin Baoyue realized his love in his previous life.

Love and pain go hand in hand.

Breaking through the heavenly realm is very painful.

Li Ji has been in pain, so he knows.

The severe pain that shatters and wipes out bones from the inside out is enough to drive any normal person crazy. Only by being reborn from the extreme pain can one become a heaven-level practitioner.

"In the seventh year of Taizu, the emperor's eldest son Yingsu died in the hunting ground. Lin Baoyue, the princess of Zhaoyang, broke through the heavenly realm and attacked the emperor's second son. He was restrained by the imperial master and imprisoned in the imperial prayer province. The emperor was furious and ordered severe punishment. "

Behind the simple sentence in the file was the severe pain that the girl had been unable to describe to others in her previous life.

Li Ji had been preparing for many years to break through to the heavenly realm. He could not imagine how deep the pain and anger could force a seventeen-year-old girl to break through the realm on the spot.

But in the end, she did not choose to destroy the world, but chose to self-destruct.

Although the file mentioned that it was Lin Shubai who restrained her in the end, with Lin Baoyue's explosive power back then, if she really wanted to kill someone on the spot, she could do it.

"Baoyue, are you..."

Li Ji suddenly understood why Li Zhao looked like that when he first met her in the forest.

Those eyes concealed deep despair behind the radiant brilliance, as if they were willing to sacrifice their lives at any time.

Breaking through the heavenly realm without preparation was a narrow escape. Lin Baoyue was prepared to die when she broke through the realm in the main hall.

Ying Baoyue knew what Li Ji had guessed. She didn't have that impulse at the beginning, but she knew she wouldn't make such a choice.

"I will not commit suicide," Ying Baoyue took a deep breath, "My life was saved by Master through all the hard work. I will not choose to die if it is not necessary."

If not necessary?

Li Ji's heart skipped a beat, when would it be necessary for her?

In fact, to this day, Ying Baoyue can't clearly explain what kind of feelings she has for Ying Su. It can hardly be said that it is a pure love between a man and a woman. It is mixed with emotions of family affection, attachment, guilt, self-blame, and regret.

But when she saw him again in the Forest of the Dead, she finally understood that she loved him.

She has never regretted her decision to marry him in her previous life.

Whether in the past life or this life, it was Ying Su who taught her how to love someone. It was he who awakened the long-suppressed love in her heart and gave her the ability to love again.

Because of this, she was able to clearly realize after regaining her soul that she had truly fallen in love with another person after he left in her previous life.

I wrote this chapter for several days and revised it repeatedly. Ying Su is such an important character and it makes my heart hurt to write about him.