Big Moon Ballad

"You know what happened next."

Ying Baoyue leaned against the city wall exhausted, "Master stopped me. Take me back."

Li Ji hesitated for a moment, then stretched out his hand to let her lean on his shoulder.

Ying Baoyue grabbed his hand, raised her head and looked into those black eyes, "Aji, I do love him."

Even though it may not be a pure love between a man and a woman, love is love, and she cannot and will never deny her feelings for Ying Su.

Li Ji's arm stiffened for a moment, but only for a moment.

He grabbed Ying Baoyue's hand with his backhand and nodded seriously, "Yes, I know."

It would be a lie to say he was not jealous, but he knew very well that it was these past experiences that created the Li Zhao he met in the cloud forest.

"Come here," Li Ji pulled Ying Baoyue to his shoulder, "Don't lean on the stone."

"The stone is cold," he explained in a subtle way.

Ying Baoyue was stunned for a moment and showed a relieved smile. She didn't refuse and leaned against Li Ji. The water magician's body temperature was not as high as that of someone with both water and fire skills. Li Ji's movements were also very clumsy, but they gave her some warmth.

After she confessed all about her past, Li Ji didn't mind at all, and only worried about her in his eyes.

This is Li Ji.

Just like in the cloud forest, she told him that she had been married and had children, but the boy still refused to give up.

"Aji, my memory has not been fully restored," Ying Baoyue said softly, "I remember picking you up in the cloud forest, but I will choose the reason for leaving. What happened to me before I died, there are many I haven't remembered the key thing yet."

"Including when I decided to leave the Cloud Forest, why I made that decision? I haven't fully understood the cause and consequences."

Li Ji's eyes became serious, "Your soul..."

"It's not fully recovered yet," Ying Baoyue thought thoughtfully. She found one-half of her soul in the monastery, and with the one-quarter that she had previously recovered from Xu Bingqing, her entire soul has been restored to one-quarter. three.

A quarter remains.

But that quarter involves many important memories of hers, and also involves many key mysteries of her past life.

Ying Baoyue felt that this was no coincidence. Just like the most critical part of Li Ji's memory had been manipulated, someone should have deliberately taken away the memories that were most important to her.

Li Ji fell silent. Combined with the deviation in his own memory, he could probably understand the problem Ying Baoyue encountered.

"So, you don't remember about the headband either?"

He lowered his head and looked deeply into Ying Baoyue's eyes.

Compared with the conspiracy she was involved in in her previous life, that hair tie was just a small thing. The mastermind behind the scenes probably wouldn't take away her memories related to that hair tie, right?

Ying Baoyue was stunned, and her ears felt hot for no reason.

"I remember now."

Li Ji's eyes were fixed on her face, "So, sister, what's going on?"

His voice was neither fast nor slow, but full of force.

Ying Baoyue knew in her heart that no matter what happened today, she would not be able to get through.

"Sorry, I lied to you."

Ying Baoyue had never felt so ashamed, but she admitted frankly, "I secretly took that hair tie while you were sleeping."

Under the moonlight, Li Ji noticed the crimson color at the base of her ears.

Even Young Siming, who has experienced great storms, has probably never done anything so inconsistent, let alone admitted it himself.

Eight years ago, he took the initiative to give her a headband as a betrothal gift but she refused to accept it. Instead, she secretly took the headband away while he was sleeping and lied to him that she hadn't seen it when he woke up.

If he were still the kid he was eight years ago, he would definitely seize the opportunity to ridicule her. But looking at the nervous woman in front of him, Li Ji only felt sad.

He seemed to see the girl again carrying his token and walking towards death alone.

If she hadn't lived again, he would never have heard her admit it in person, and she would never have said it.

So Li Ji didn't want to make fun of her, he just wanted to understand.

He didn't want to guess, he just wanted her to tell him herself.

"Why?" Li Ji's breathing became rapid, as anxious as the boy eight years ago, "Sister, why did you do that?"

why?

Ying Baoyue felt like a lump in her throat, but she was ready.

This is why she remembered the past with Ying Su before.

When Ying Su passed away, she felt indescribable pain, and that pain was firmly engraved in her heart.

"The night I left you, I felt intense pain," Ying Baoyue looked up at him, "It was the same pain as that day."

Even that pain, clearer, more direct.

It was an almost uncontrollable desire. Even if she knew that doing so would hurt other people, she couldn't control herself.

She wanted to stay, not to be unable to see him.

But she couldn't do that, she couldn't even show it in front of him.

At that moment she finally understood that she had realized her feelings at the wrong moment.

The last time was when the person who gave her love died. This time, it was time for her to die.

Her feelings would eventually be buried with her, so she couldn't express them.

Although her memory has not been completely restored, Ying Baoyue knows very well that she does not regret the decisions she made in her previous life, nor does she regret choosing the path of death.

But just as she was on the road to death, she suddenly felt extremely lonely.

She had always been very tolerant, but that night she couldn't.

"I rejected you," Ying Baoyue smiled at Li Ji, "but I didn't control my desire."

"My memory has not been completely restored, but I guess that on that night eight years ago, I wanted to stay with you forever."

But this is a wish that she could never realize in her previous life. She could only quietly take away the hair tie to accompany her through the road to hell. At the same time, she didn't want the boy to know this to avoid carrying a heavy psychological burden.

Li Ji's eyes gradually turned red.

He was first shocked by Ying Baoyue's frankness, and then felt endless sadness and pain.

"That's enough, Baoyue," Li Ji squeezed Ying Baoyue's arm tightly, his voice choked with sobs, "Your words are enough."

The boy eight years ago did not wait in vain.

He had already received a precious heart, but he didn't know it.

"Aji?"

Ying Baoyue was stunned as she looked at the tears rolling out of the bronze mask under the moonlight.

"It's nothing," Li Ji shook his head, "I will always be by your side from now on."

No matter what happens, he will never let her go alone this time.

Ying Baoyue was startled, looking at his face she seemed to be hesitant to speak. But in the end she didn't say anything, lowered her head and whispered.

"it is good."