One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 51 Pain and happiness
"Love is love, regardless of whether it's worth it or not. He has a lot of involuntary things, and I also have a lot of unwillingness. I don't want to cause him trouble, I don't want to upset him. I can solve things by myself. That's right. Mu Nan, when you really fall in love with someone, you'll understand how I feel."

The little hand tightly covered his stomach, wishing that this little thing could stay in his stomach all the time, but it was useless to regret now, the child had already left without leaving any traces.But it will remain in her heart forever, because this is the treasure given to her by the man she loves the most, and it is the proof of their love.

Mu Nan's face was full of bitterness, only he knew that falling in love with someone gave up everything for her.And now, Xixi, I just want to protect you from getting hurt, but he can't do that either.

"Xixi, what are you going to do next? Go home?"

Yu Xi shook her head and said, "If they don't go home, they won't care about me. It's better for me to be alone and happy."

"I can't do this, the miscarriage must be taken care of, and the root cause of the disease must not be left behind." I can't go home, and I can't do it alone, what should I do if I am so weak and something happens.

"It's okay, I'm used to being alone, and I can take care of myself."

"No, I will take care of you during the day, and I will go home at night. If you still treat me as a friend, you are not allowed to refuse."

Mu Nan knew that she would definitely refuse, so he said it directly without leaving any room for it.The main reason is that she is really worried about being alone with her like this. She is not in good health, and nothing can happen to him, otherwise he will suffer for the rest of his life.Also, I really can't bear to see Xixi alone, with no one to share her wounds and pains. .If he had met Xixi earlier, he would never have let these things happen.

"Munan, you don't need to do this." Tears could not be rested, it was more touching than sad.I came alone to abort, but in the end the child's father didn't even say hello, and even caused trouble to friends. Having such friends in this life is enough.

"Xixi, I regard you as my best friend. You can't refuse my help. If one day I get sick, you will take care of me, right?"

"Thank you, Mu Nan, I am really lucky to have a friend like you in my life."

"It's my luck to have you!" Xixi, I can't be the one you love the most, then I will be the one who treats you best, always by your side, laughing with you and crying with you.

Mu Nan sat beside the hospital bed with a distressed expression, and couldn't help but hugged Lin Yuxi into his arms. Lin Yuxi didn't stop him, and leaned his head on his shoulder and began to cry.

"Don't cry, the past is the past."

Lin Yuxi choked with sobs: "But I just feel uncomfortable."

"I know you are uncomfortable, but you can't cry because of your own body now. I know you have someone in your heart, but you have done this for him now, what has he done for you? Forget about it, tomorrow is better The day is still waiting for you."

Lin Yuxi didn't speak anymore, immersed in sadness, and Mu Nan stopped talking and quietly guarded her.It has become a habit to guard her these days, and now it is more of a heartache, a heartache for this silly girl.How could there be such a silly girl in this world who would do nothing for a stinky man.

No matter who you are, that man, as long as you have a heart, you should blame yourself every day and review your behavior.

As night fell, she nestled on the bay window and looked at the dazzling starry sky and the incomplete moon, just like a corner of her heart was incomplete.Even the dazzling starry sky cannot make up for the incompleteness of the moon.

What is the human heart, love, and what is the meaning.

I used to think that there must be a reason to love someone, maybe because he is handsome, maybe because he is rich, maybe because he is kind to me, but since I met Han Qingrui, I realized that there is actually no reason to love someone.

He can't coax you, doesn't care about you, can't accompany you, never speaks sweet words, and only has his family and children in his eyes. Even when his lover is pregnant, the first reaction is that it is impossible not to want to take responsibility, and he doesn't feel sorry for the children at all. , Even at this most uncomfortable moment, I didn't think about taking care of people's emotions.

Even though I miss him day and night and cry silently and suffer silently, I still love him as always, and I don’t want him to be embarrassed, I don’t want him to be sad, I don’t even dare to ask for a little bit, and I bear all the pain alone.

This is love!Pain and happiness.

All the disputes, the endless grievances, the rare indulgence, even if the heart hurts to the point of suffocation, I still maintain the last sliver of reason, and seeing you suffer is even more painful.

I really want to ask: Do you love me?

I wrote, deleted, and deleted just a few words, but I still didn't have the courage to send it out and couldn't send it out.I know there will be no answer, so I'm afraid, I'm afraid you will leave me.

I can't really have you, but I also want to have a reason to chat with you.I never dare to expect to be really with you. Your smile and your hug are the greatest strength and happiness in my life. Even if my heart hurts, I can bear it; even if it is suffering every day, as long as I have a hug, I will be satisfied.

Never extravagant, never extravagant hope, it doesn't mean I don't want me not to hurt, I just don't want to embarrass you, but I don't want you to take me seriously because of this, thinking that I don't feel bad and that I don't care.

I really want to tell you: can you be nicer to me, can you take my feelings into consideration, I am really sad and distressed.There is no end to fate, no end to fate, no end to heartache, no end to longing, no end to tears when you open your eyes and close your eyes.

Watching the starry sky change from clear to fuzzy, watching the tears falling in my heart gradually become clear, the person I am thinking of seems to be right in front of me.He raised his hand unconsciously, and stretched out his fingers to touch it lightly, but the picture disappeared in an instant.

I don't know how long it took for the sun to rise slowly, and the sunlight shines on the bed through the curtains.Lin Yuxi opened his eyes lifelessly, and turned on his phone to see that it was only eight o'clock in the morning.These days I tossed and turned but couldn’t fall asleep, so I simply closed my eyes again, and the lingering scene kept reappearing in my mind, the unformed child and Brother Rui, who kept passing on their own pain , the only sweetness brought by Han Qingrui has also been submerged.

Touching her flat belly with her hands, her eyes flowed down without warning, without crying, and soon wet the pillow.The whole room was terribly quiet, only the faint sound of breathing could be heard, but the wind outside was sunny and the house was cold and windy.Lin Yuxi was like a doll with a broken thread, lifeless.

It hurts, my heart really hurts.The child is gone like this, she is the one who deserves to be damned, why not her, then she won't have to bear so much pain.

　You can always see the sun when you look up, but there are always shadows in the situation. .

　　
　
(End of this chapter)