One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 52 The sky is falling

The sky seemed to have collapsed, and the whole world became fragmented at the moment the child disappeared. Lin Yuxi hid in the quilt and collapsed crying, her heart aching as if being torn apart.

"Ugh... ah... why is this... why are you doing this to me..."

Maybe many people don't think so. It is very common for girls to have abortions in today's society, but Lin Yuxi said that this is a child given by her favorite person. Losing him is more uncomfortable than losing her own life. pain.

She used to think that she could face it calmly, but now she realized how wrong she was, and it was impossible for her to be calm at any moment.She regretted it. Back then, she must have tried her best to protect this child, even if she was condemned.

After a long time, I wiped away my tears and sat on the bay window, looking at the world outside the window, leaning my head against the window, tears streaming down my face, and murmured in a hoarse voice: "My child, I'm sorry, mom hasn't had time to let you Look at this world, I'm sorry, I really want to come and accompany you, but I don't want to let him worry."

This picture is really distressing.

Watching him break down and cry, watching her keep her hands on her lower abdomen, watching her muttering to herself, watching her exude utter desolation, watching her push herself to the point of no return .

"Brother Rui, I'm really sad, my heart hurts so much, I miss you so much, I want to hug you so much, I feel like I have no hope of living, I really want to walk with my child, but I can't bear you, I'm pretty useless, right?"

The longing, the pain of death, and the love poured into his life, spewed out like a spring, he took the dagger at the side with trembling hands, took out the dagger that had been idle for a long time, his wrist was instantly stained red, and his blood was stained with blood. A few scars on the hands were red. .

She smiled, the smile was so bright and beautiful, but once again she was immersed in her own thoughts and couldn't get out, but the pain seemed to be unfeeling, it seemed to flow out with the blood.

Recalling back then, one night back to school, my cousin who was driving suddenly took out a delicate dagger from his bag and said, "Here, for self-defense!"

"Hehe, self-defense is fine." Yu Xi couldn't help laughing out loud, this was an act only a real brother could do, and quickly put the dagger into his bag.

Maybe my brother never imagined in his dreams, but the knife he gave his sister for self-defense turned into a weapon to hurt him.

"Dong Dong... Dong Dong..." There was a knock on the door, and Lin Yuxi opened her eyes weakly, the blood on her hands had dried up, and the knock on the door continued, but she didn't want to move at all, once again I closed my eyes and ignored it.

Is no one there? Mu Nan stopped knocking on the door, and no one answered the phone. He hesitated for a moment before leaving with his things in his hands. The worries in his heart overflowed the screen. He knew that someone was in the room, but he didn't know what to do. It's good to do it, and in the end she had to let her be quiet.

At 9 o'clock in the evening, Mu Nan came to Lin Yuxi's house again, and kept calling and knocking on the door. Lin Yuxi finally responded, moved his already stiff limbs, stood up with difficulty while leaning on the wall, and opened it after a while. After opening the door, there is no need to think that it will not be anyone else except Mu Nan.

Mu Nan stood at the door with a food box, his face full of worry.

"I'll take a look at you, and I'll bring you..." In an instant, the pupils dilated, and there was glaring blood.He took her hand and shouted loudly: "What's wrong with your hand? Are you crazy?"

It is impossible for such a big wound to be inadvertent. He really can't think of other possibilities other than self-harm, but he really doesn't want to think about it.

Lin Yuxi withdrew her hand disapprovingly, the slight pain from her arm didn't affect her at all, and even her face didn't change a bit.

Mu Nan closed the door, pulled her to sit on the sofa, and carefully looked at the shocking wound: "Is there any medicine at home?"

Yu Xi shook his head.

Mu Nan took the mobile phone and quickly placed an order for the wound medicine. At this time, he dared not leave Lin Yuxi again.

Went to the bathroom and took a wet towel to help her wipe off the blood. The blood on the clothes had already turned dark red and looked really scary. Mu Nan didn't dare to relax the whole time, so he could only persuade her in a nice voice: " Xixi, can't you know like this anymore? It's not good for your health, don't let us worry, if my aunt knows you like this, she will feel bad. You don't want people who love you to worry about you. "

Lin Yuxi still remained motionless, she was just a puppet and couldn't hear anything.

"Xixi, be obedient, don't think about it anymore, the child is gone, it is useless for you to regret it, even if he is born, he will not be recognized, but instead gave him a lifetime of pain, you are doing this for his own good, it's not your fault."

Mu Nanyu said earnestly, he didn't want to say such realistic words, but now it is more important for her to recognize the reality, and not to be unable to get out of sadness all the time.

Lin Yuxi just didn't move, she heard what Mu Nan said, but she didn't know what to say, tears dripped down one by one, her eyes were still out of focus. .

She sat on the floor with her hands on the bed and pillowed her head, tears streaming down her cheeks, and she said in a calm voice, "Munan, do you know? I have depression, anxiety, and social phobia .They all say I can’t speak, they say I’m cold, or they say I just laugh when I talk to me.”

She smiled bitterly at the beginning of the memory: "I used to not be able to laugh, but now I can only laugh. Does it look really ridiculous?" She couldn't help laughing at herself countless times, hehe, self-deprecating. .

"But because of my previous experience, I don't know how to get along with people. I spent half of my life thinking about how to escape from my family and avoid my family. Later, I refused to admit defeat. I desperately resisted and went to another place alone. I suppressed myself crazily The fear in my heart, the frenzy to make friends and chat with people, suddenly I became the most popular person in school."

Her voice was mournful and desolate, and her sobbing appearance really made people feel distressed. She, who was once the most beautiful, was sitting on the ground and she had no image at all.

"When I came back, all my hard work was in vain. I still refused to admit defeat. When I arrived in Mucheng, I gathered with colleagues and leaders at any time and learned to get along with people. They only said that I was 17 years old and 26 years old. What no one knew was that I was afraid Ah, because I'm afraid that someone will hate me for not being able to speak, so I try my best to smile whenever I can, at least it can make people look happy."

Tears burst into tears all of a sudden, the whole room was completely wrapped in a sad atmosphere, and Mu Nan was half-kneeling in front of her.

She sniffed, brushed aside the hair in front of her eyes indiscriminately, and continued slowly:

"They say I love to drink, and they think I have a good time with my friends. I try to do everything just to get rid of social phobia. Maybe my depression will be better with the company of friends."

(End of this chapter)