One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 8 Distressed feeling.

After tossing and turning, she returned home, and her mother was sitting on the sofa watching TV, but she was still weak.Lin Yuxi knew that her mother's health was not good again. She had seen doctors for many years and never stopped the medicine, but she was still tormented by the pain.

What no one knew was that she was really distressed and secretly shed a lot of tears.But her family always thought she was a heartless, filial, and brainless child, so she didn't know how to refute it, because she didn't say a word in the first year after returning home, and she has always been taciturn.

"Mom, I'm back."

"Are you back? Have you eaten yet?" Li Mei asked.

"I've eaten." I added in my heart that I had breakfast. "Have you been in poor health for the past two days?"

She said with a wry smile: "Yes, the old problem has happened again."

"Where is Dad, is he at work?"

Li Mei calmed down and complained: "Hehe, someone moved and he went. My house held a banquet and no one else came, and he rushed up to give money. What do you think this person should do."

As soon as Yuxi heard this, she lost her temper instantly, and her voice raised a bit: "Tell him not to go, why is he always like this? People ignore him and even look down on him, and he even posted it as a gift for others." Money, what is he trying to do?"

To put it bluntly, this kind of man doesn't say that outsiders look down on him, even her own daughter looks down on her. They can see what these people do, and they really have nothing to say and can't understand.

Thinking of all kinds of things, Li Mei was full of hatred: "They are his relatives, and we are just outsiders living under the same roof."

"If he does this again, just yell at him, lest he go on like this unscrupulously, who can stand it?"

"Isn't it rare to yell at him? There is a lot of reason, but he has never heard of it from the beginning to the end!" In his life, he only had the word "family" in his heart, but these two words were never right. They, but those who looked down on him and bullied him.

But such a cowardly man, he still enjoyed it.

"I'm really speechless." She really didn't know what to say, but this was his father's unchanging bad behavior.

He didn't come back until night, Lin Yuxi greeted him lightly and didn't talk to him again, Li Mei had nothing to say to him, and talked to her daughter full of grievances, the whole family seemed to be in a dark mood, Filled with deep sadness.

"Your father, just watch them throw me around like a toy. How can you say he has the heart?"

"When your sister was first born, your grandfather and your uncles still played with me as a toy. The key is that they kicked me around desperately. At that time, I didn't even hum Dare to snort, cry and beg them, but it’s useless. From time to time, the family will come to abuse me, it’s really hard life, your father just lies on the sofa, eats melon seeds and watches TV.”

Hearing this extremely resentful voice, Dad always frowned, listening to his wife talking about his nothing, sighing from time to time and putting on a pitiful look, seeing Lin Yuxi's flesh hurt for a while , because her father knows how to pretend to be pitiful!He didn't say a word, obviously pretending to show her.

"Tell your daughter yourself that I haven't wronged you."

Seeing his wife frowning coldly at him, he stopped talking, but he had nothing to say, because these were unchangeable facts.

But he put most of the pain on Li Mei, but he has no regrets or apologies at all!

Li Mei just talked about the pain in her heart, but she could talk about the pain, and she didn't stop until she was tired.Lin Yuxi just listened to her mother quietly and felt her pain. She really didn't know how to express her distress for her mother.

It wasn't until late at night that I returned to the unoccupied room to rest.Looking at the furnishings inside, there is nothing of hers, because this is her sister's room.She doesn't have a room of her own, either to sleep with her sister or her mother, but the room that once belonged to her is to share with her younger brother who is already in junior high school, how can she accept it?
Lying on the bed, without the slightest sense of belonging, tossing and turning and unable to fall asleep, all the pain they put on themselves, but they never knew it, they only thought that they were very good, it was because they were disobedient, she was too lazy to explain, just let it go Bar.

Growing up desperately just wants to escape them and relieve the pain.

She woke up screaming in her sleep, and fell asleep again in a blink of an eye.

In the dream, her eyes widened in horror, her whole body was pressed on the bed and she couldn't move, as if she could see something extremely terrifying, but she didn't.In fact, the fear comes from her heart.

She knew that she had a nightmare again, and she was almost used to the long-term nightmare, but she still couldn't escape the inescapable fear, tears flowed down her cheeks, and the pillow was still wet in her sleep.

Can't do anything, can only keep looking forward to the dawn of the sky, the sun will rise early, and she can wake up quickly.

Living in such a depressive environment is really uncomfortable. Although I am not sick or in pain, I have left an indelible creation in my spirit and heart. No one can even understand this feeling.

But she could only hide these in her heart, because they never cared about her life, even if they said the pain, it was just a few perfunctory words, and they didn't really take it to heart.As time went by, she didn't bother to talk anymore, and it was good to bear the pain of life silently by herself.

After staying in a dark corner for a long time, she yearns for and pursues the light even more.

After enjoying the warmth brought by the sun on the Bright Avenue, how could she want to go back to that damp and dark corner to curl herself up.

Finally woke up, do you think it's easy?

No, the whole person became more depressed, immersed in the mother's sorrow, and shrouded in his own pain, I really felt that breathing hurts.

Mom was sitting on the sofa eating breakfast and talking about the past, and Dad was lying on the sofa stretched out.This is the daily life of her family, but she can't get used to it after so many years. She only longs for a normal family and a small circle of her own, but because they don't even have friends.

"How's work going?" Dad asked.

"Very good. I have passed the exam and converted to labor dispatch, with a five-year contract."

"Labor dispatch? It's good. I've been working in the unit all my life, isn't it also labor dispatch?"

"Oh."

There's nothing to say, let's hurry up, she wants to go to work.Although she is tired at work, she is carefree.

The pain in her heart made her unable to look at them calmly, as if she was being fostered in their home, without love, silently daring not to speak out under the bullying of her siblings, only living a cautious life.

(End of this chapter)