Siheyuan starts with silly pillar his uncle

Chapter 574.Bury the hatchet

During these five years of precipitation at the border, Li Dongsheng realized that his father might also have difficulties!
My life at the border for five years was really hard. Every day, I stood on the sentry post I was guarding, day and night, rain or shine,

When Li Dongsheng was on duty, he would sometimes think that when he was a child, his father would come back so late every day, so that’s how he came here at the beginning, right?

When he stood in this position and understood the responsibility of protecting the motherland and his shoulders, Li Dongsheng realized that he had been blaming him all along.

Thinking back on this now, Li Dongsheng suddenly realized that his father might have changed from the moment his mother passed away. Since then, he has become taciturn, and he didn't even notice that his father was already getting old at that time.

He feels guilty for himself, he feels guilty for his mother, but he can't help himself, and silently endured a lot of responsibilities on his shoulders. As a son, he has always resented him,
So he has never dared to come to him, but just looked at him from a distance. Could it be that he is really wrong?Or did I never understand him?What was Dad doing the day Mom left?Li Dongsheng wanted to ask,
Li Dongsheng took a puff of cigarette, looked at himself and said, "Dad, I have a question to ask you,"

Hearing his son's words, Li Qiuyang said slowly, "Son, if you have any questions, please tell me."

Li Dongsheng: "Dad, why didn't you come back to see my mother when she was sick in the hospital? Were you so busy at that time? Or did you never care about us?"

Hearing this, Li Qiuyang was stunned, his face felt astonished, and at the same time, he felt an inexplicable pain in his heart. After so many years, his son still blamed himself in his heart. Bitter emotions slowly grew in his heart, and he was silent for a long time.

Li Qiuyang said: "Son, Dad knows that you have never understood Dad, and you have always resented me in your heart. Dad also admits that I am sorry for you and your mother. It is because Dad is not good. He has been ignoring the feelings of you and your mother for the sake of work." .”

Li Qiuyang: "Dad is worthy of the organization, his comrades, and the people all his life, but he is sorry for my family. You hate me in your heart. Dad can understand. Dad didn't take good care of you. Alas,,,"

Li Qiuyang: "Dad was on a mission when your mother was sick. When I found out that your mother was in the hospital, why didn't Dad not want to come back? It's just that the mission was really important, and Dad had to lead the team to complete it himself."

Li Qiuyang: "When I came back from the mission, your mother left. Dad hated me at the time and wished he could shoot himself. But sometimes people really can't help themselves. Dad also wanted to take care of both, but Dad didn't do it. OK, sorry."

Li Qiuyang: "You and your mother are the most important people to Dad. How can Dad not care? It's just that I really can't help it. Dad is sorry for you. Dad is not a good father, nor is he a good husband."

After saying these words, Li Qiuyang broke down in sobs and burst into tears. He covered his face and began to cry, and the muddy tears slipped from his fingers.

Seeing the fragile side of his father, crying in front of his eyes, this is a scene that Li Dongsheng has never seen before, and Li Dongsheng felt as if he had been violently pulled.

In my impression, my father always has a serious expression, only strict and urging himself, and has always acted like a resolute soldier. Is the old man in front of me really my father?
At that time Li Dongsheng felt that his father didn't care about him at all, at this moment Li Dongsheng completely understood,
It's not that Dad doesn't care about the family, it's just that he has his responsibilities. You must have a country before you have a family. Dad, he just chose a different path, isn't he the same way?

I choose to go to the border guards to fulfill my ideals, and I can only put aside the responsibilities of the family and fulfill the responsibilities on my shoulders. How is it different from what my father did?Maybe I blamed him all the time.

Thinking of how after my mother passed away, during my four years in college, my father always took time to visit me, but I gave him a cold look,

During the years when I was in the army, my father still came to visit me secretly, and I was always strict with myself when I was a child. Maybe he has always loved himself in his own way,

I hope that I can become a talent when I grow up. Maybe he is not good enough, but what right do I have to resent him?He raised himself up.

And is my attitude towards him all these years good?As a son, I never cared about him, so what I did was right?Because of my incomprehension, I have always misunderstood him like this, maybe I am the one who is wrong.

Seeing his father with gray hair and age spots on his face, Li Dongsheng felt that he was really going too far. As a son of man, he has treated his father like this for so many years. Are he still human?
How did he get here in the past few years when he left?I have never thought about the pain in his heart, but on the contrary, my father has always been thinking about himself.

Thinking of this, Li Dongsheng's eyes immediately turned red, and he looked at his father and said, "Dad, I'm sorry, I used to be ignorant, and I blamed you all these years."

Li Dongsheng: "When I was a child, I never understood you, why you were always so strict with me and ignored my family. Now I understand that you have your responsibility. I have been ignoring you all those years. In your heart It must be very painful, right?"

Hearing his son's words, Li Qiuyang wiped away tears,

He shook his head and said, "Son, Dad is not bitter. It is enough to see you grow up and become a man. It is Dad who is sorry for you and your mother. You can understand Dad now. Dad is really happy. Alas,,,, "

Li Dongsheng: "Dad, don't say that. I used to be ignorant, but now I understand that it is my son who is not filial. I have never understood your difficulties,"

Li Qiuyang patted his son on the shoulder, and the knot in his heart for many years was also untied, and the grudge in Li Dongsheng's heart also slowly disappeared.

The father and son said a lot of heartfelt words, and the gap over the years gradually disappeared. The two smoked and chatted about the trivial things of these years, and the relationship between the father and the son unknowingly drew a lot.

At this moment, Qiu Yu also came back from grocery shopping, and as soon as he entered the house, he saw that the house was full of smoke,
He fanned the smoke with his hands, and said, "Oh, what are you father and son doing? Why do you smoke so much? I thought it was on fire when I saw it from a long distance. Brother, why did you bring Dongsheng to smoke so much?"

Qiu Yu: "Dong Sheng, if you are a good kid, don't follow your father's smoking habits. Your uncle, your eldest brother and two brothers all smoke. It's really worrying. The whole family is a smoker. The house is full of smog every day. I really don't want you to smoke." Don't worry, smoking hurts your body, so please give me less smoking."

　Sorry everyone, the update has been delayed in the past two days due to the epidemic, sorry.

　　
　
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