Your majesty, Empress Xianyu doesn't want to leave the cold palace

Chapter 703 Extra Story: Liu Wanrou (2)

Seeing my father's angry eyes, I experienced disappointment for the first time, complete disappointment.

I know that my father will not believe me, let alone understand me,
That being the case, then I can only pretend that I don't know about Qian Shi giving me emery.

Because I know that in this family, no one is willing to stand by my side.

Liu Wanwan's mistakes are justifiable,
And if I do something wrong, it is a crime that cannot be punished.

On that day, I was kicked out of the Liu Mansion, and I was deaf in my left ear because of the palm my father slapped me in the ice and snow.

It was also on that day that I realized that the years of peace were nothing but my own compromise.

But even if I arrived in the suburbs of Beijing, Liu Wanwan still wouldn't let me go.

From time to time, she would come to make trouble for me and always want to vent.

This reminds me of the old days.

When she was at the mansion, Liu Wanwan was like this. Whenever she was in a bad mood, she would go back to my yard to make trouble. After smashing all my things, she folded her arms and looked at me proudly.

I know that she wants to see me cry and wants me to beg her.

Perhaps it was to maintain the little self-esteem left in my humbleness. I never cried in front of her, nor would I beg her.

Later, Mrs. Qian wanted to marry me to the flamboyant Zhu Guangye, and welcomed me back to the Liu Mansion.

I knew that Mrs. Qian wanted to be a 'good mother', so I expressed my wish and agreed to this marriage.

But I already knew about Zhu Guangye's temperament in advance, so how could I really marry into Zhu's family?
So he planned to take his life before marriage.

I think the worst outcome would be Koff's fate.

But I won't be at the mercy of Mrs. Qian, let alone marry such a person.

Sure enough, after Zhu Guangye died, my father felt that I was hindering him, and when he came back angrily, he slapped me again.

If I had any illusions about my father before, then after this slap, everything was shattered.

Some things, just because I pretend not to think about them, can mean that they don’t exist and haven’t happened.

Just like I always thought that my father was so negligent to me because of his busy schedule,
But my father's behavior over and over again made it impossible for me to deceive myself.

Selfishness is the nature of the father, and it has never changed.

In the past, I just refused to admit it.

Later, Liu Wanwan's ridicule also came as expected.

I was also kicked out of the Liu family for the second time.

Later, it was also part of my plan to use Liu Wanwan to return to the Liu family.

I made friends with Liu Wanwan on purpose,
I know that Liu Wanwan is Qian's favorite, and with Liu Wanwan by his side, Qian will always be more scrupulous.

Helping Liu Wanwan enter the palace was also intentional.

Because when Liu Wanwan talked about the emperor, I was too familiar with her eyes.

When you like someone, you can't hide it.

But the last thing I want to see is her fulfillment.

To lose her innocence is to make her feel the same shame as I,

Helping her enter the palace is to let her experience the pain of being close at hand but forever out of reach.

After all, the only thing more painful than killing the body is killing the heart.

Calculating Liu Wanwan was the first step. Later, Qian and his father were separated, father was dismissed from office, and Qian was dismissed from the mansion. Everything was successfully completed as I expected.

I know that the lifespan gained by changing my life against the heavens with the medicine stone will not last long. In my short life, I think it's good to just stay in the capital quietly and live under the same sky as him.

But I never expected that I would learn the news of his engagement from Feng Zhenzhen.

I have seen her.

She was just an unusual woman.

I don't understand, if he can have someone he loves, why isn't that person myself?
Out of jealousy, I did many things that hurt Forsythia.

After that, he came to see me.

Before that, I tried to think about many possibilities, but I never thought that he would come to see me because of another woman.

I don't know that everything I do will push him further and further away, making me look hateful,

But the unwillingness and jealousy in my heart made me feel for a moment that if the disgust could arouse his attention, if it could make him look at me more and pay more attention to me, I would be willing...

But it wasn't until I actually saw him that I realized I couldn't bear it.

I didn't see his disgust, he just ignored me.

Like never met me.

Also on this day, listening to his words, I realized that my behavior was completely like a joke.

And after that, I had the idea of ​​destroying everything.

I also thought about whether my life would be different if I hadn't met him that day.

Will I also be able to meet my beloved and spend my life in peace.

But what makes me even more sad is that even though I know it's sad, I still hope to meet him.

Even though this life is extremely painful, I will still be reluctant to think about it again.

Perhaps it was because the past was too bleak, but the moment when he happened to appear in his life was extraordinarily radiant.

If you smile before meeting each other, you will spend half your life at the first meeting.

Only by looking back at you, I think about the future and the evening of you.

It's a pity that the years are just like morning dew...

When I swallowed the pain in my heart, I lamented how unfair my fate was.

Fate arranged for an acquaintance, but only gave me an empty dream.

The people I put on my heart never put me on my heart.

To him, I'm nothing more than a human being he meets.

His ignorance made me do everything wrong.

Love is wrong, hate is wrong.

Everything is wrong.

Affection from the beginning, irrepressible.

The spread of hatred is endless.

So much so that at the end of my life, I recalled, discovered, pursued, plotted, and hurt others and myself. Unknowingly, I exhausted all available means and did all the things I didn't want to do.

In this life, I have been too tired.

I pretended to hate everything in my heart.

Now that things have happened, I don't know who I should hate, is it Qian?Father?Liu Wanwan?Still the same person who was ruthless to me from beginning to end.

But I also feel that the person I should hate the most is myself.

Everything is destined, no one can help.

I never feel that loving someone is wrong.

But my attachment to not getting what I want in this life is really exhausting.

If there is a next life, I only hope that I will not be so tired of loving my lover again.

Trapped people trapped themselves, hopeless to do in vain.

If I can meet him again in the next life, I won't wait any longer, and I will take a brave step forward.

I will tell him my name when I meet him, I will tell him that I am attached to him, and I will make him remember me as I remember him.

I have to take a step forward bravely, I have to have courage, and I have to dare to fight.

Now, I have reached the last moment of my life, but I have no chance to see the flowers bloom again.

I lowered my head, and what I saw in front of my eyes were blue and white fingertips, bright red blood, burning and dancing flames that were hot and warm, but the strength in my body was getting less and less.

I know that I won't be able to see the sun that will rise at dawn tomorrow.

Close your eyes, the east wind blows, I seem to have returned to the past.

When the scenery is the best in spring, I will stay under the pear tree when the pear blossoms are in full bloom, quietly waiting for the pear blossoms to fall, and when I breathe, my nose is full of the fragrance of pear blossoms. The time is gentle, and the people I miss are also gentle. Fangfei, wash away all the lead.

I think, after all, I don't want to see him marry someone else...

From then on, the end of fate, love, hate, anger, and ignorance have nothing to do with me.

(End of this chapter)