only soft on you

Chapter 138 Fall
The night wind blew a little bit of coolness over her body, making her thoughts clearer.

But it was precisely because he was too clear that the slightest touch in his mind became more and more obvious.

She did not expect that Xu Qingran would be here, let alone that Xu Qingran would appear at this moment, and it was clear that she and Xu Qingran had not been in touch for too long, but Xu Qingran felt like an old friend who had been away for many years , Familiar with yet concealing a trace of warmth that cannot be ignored.

Perhaps, a drowning person yearns for a life-saving straw, and only with Xu Qingran can she experience freedom and peace, easy-going and warmth, and this kind of warmth still has nothing to do with love, just like a kind of long-brewed love. Drinking wine is a bit yearning and fascinating, and I want people to indulge in it.

Zhou Tang stood quietly on the spot, hesitated for a while, and finally did not intend to leave immediately.

She also knew that more contact with Xu Qingran would not be beneficial to each other, but she still stayed and waited.

At least, Xu Qingran told her to wait, so he had to say hello before leaving.

Soon, there was the sound of slightly hurried footsteps approaching from far away.

Zhou Tang subconsciously followed the prestige, and saw a tall and slender figure running from the dim light and shadow.

The man was dressed casually, but still sunny and handsome, just like his face that was slightly lit by light and shadow at the moment, handsome and gentle, even the smile on it was full of sunshine and gentleness that was indescribable.

Zhou Tang's eyes tightened for a while uncontrollably, and his whole heart was touched by the gentle and sunny smile on his face.

It was also at this time that she discovered again that Xu Qingran was actually very handsome, different from Chen Yan's aggressive and hostile good looks, his handsomeness lay in the sunshine and enthusiasm, as if he wanted to drive away all the darkness in her heart.

It even has to be said that Xu Qingran is first-class in terms of appearance, character and even family background.

This is a bright moon, clean and dazzling, but it is also something that low-level people like her cannot touch.

Realizing this, the feeling of being touched in the bottom of my heart instantly seemed to be poured with a large basin of cold water, completely cooling down.

When Xu Qingran finally trotted in front of her, all the ups and downs in her heart were suppressed, she just calmly smiled at Xu Qingran, and said politely: "Doctor Xu, why are you here?"

Xu Qingran said with a smile: "Do you think it's a coincidence? I arrived in Beicheng this morning. I originally planned to come here to accompany my family. I will tell you tomorrow. I didn't expect to meet you right now."

Zhou Tang froze for a moment, "Yes, it's really a coincidence. Dr. Xu and his family are here to play?"

"My family recently stayed here for vacation, and they said they wanted to see the red maples in Fengshan, so I came here to accompany them." Xu Qingran said naturally.

As he spoke, he glanced at her empty hands, "Have you bought yogurt yet?"

Zhou Tang nodded subconsciously, still remembering what Xu Qingran said just now that his family lived here for vacation.

And according to Xu Qingran's relaxed state, it must be impossible for him to be vacationing here with his tense parents, so it might just be his other relatives in the North City.

Zhou Tang's thoughts came to this point, so he didn't think much about it.

"Come on, I'll take you to buy some yogurt, I'm familiar with this place." At this moment, Xu Qingran said gently.

After speaking, he turned around and led the way. Zhou Tang stared at his tall back for a moment before lifting his heels.

The two entered the Leran Supermarket not far ahead one after the other. Zhou Tang took a bottle of yogurt and asked Xu Qingran, "Does Doctor Xu want to drink?" She wanted to treat Xu Qingran to drink.

Xu Qingran took a bottle of Coke, smiled at her, and said nothing.

Zhou Tang originally planned to pay Xu Qingran's Coke together, but unexpectedly when he arrived at the checkout counter, the cashier glanced back and forth between her and Xu Qingran several times with meaningful eyes, and finally, as if he couldn't help it, smiled at Xu Qingran and said: "Doctor Xu, is this your girlfriend? Did you come here this time to bring your girlfriend to show Mr. Tang and Mrs. Tang?"

The cashier's tone was extremely warm, and he seemed to be extremely familiar with Xu Qingran.

Zhou Tang was caught off guard for a moment, squeezed the yogurt bottle in his hand, and turned to look at Xu Qingran.

Xu Qingran didn't seem to have much reaction or resistance, just smiled and said: "Aunt Wang, don't make fun of me, I'm a nerd who studies medicine wholeheartedly, how could a girl like me."

"How come, you are so good-looking and come from such a good family background. There must be a long line of girls who like you. As long as you nod your head, there will be no shortage of girlfriends." The cashier replied with a smile, and then He fixed his eyes on Zhou Tang, obviously not believing that there was nothing wrong with Zhou Tang and Xu Qingran appearing here in pairs at night.

Zhou Tang was stared at helplessly.

Xu Qingran turned her head and glanced at her, she understood, and politely said to the cashier: "Aunt Wang, don't stare at my friend, you're going to scare her. Just charge her yogurt to my account too." , I'll take her away first."

Only then did the cashier realize that he had lost his composure, and smiled at Zhou Tang apologetically and respectfully.

Zhou Tang smiled back, his mind fluctuated slightly, and then followed Xu Qingran out of the supermarket.

Xu Qingran seemed to be very familiar with this place, he led her around a corner, and found a long table and benches that were slightly sheltered from the wind.

And this place has a very good line of sight, and there is no obstruction in front of it. If you look down a little, you can see strings of street lights winding up from the foot of the mountain along the mountain road.

Some remote, some empty.

Zhou Tang glanced at the series of street lights going up several times, and when he came back to his senses, he saw that Xu Qingran had already sat on the bench, he didn't seem to plan to leave immediately, and he seemed to have a long chat with her.

Zhou Tang remembered that he had been misunderstood just now, so he also deliberately planned to avoid suspicion, and only said: "Dr. Continue team building, I'm afraid I can't do those activities without rest."

The corners of Xu Qingran's eyes twitched slightly, and he asked softly, "Is it because what Aunt Wang said just now made you a little unhappy?"

Zhou Tang frowned slightly, and was about to explain, when Xu Qingran continued, "She is indeed a bit gossip, but her mind is not bad, you can just listen to what she says, if you take it to heart and make yourself upset, wouldn't it be worth it?"

Zhou Tang said slowly: "I didn't, I just feel a little guilty that I caused Dr. Xu to be misunderstood."

Xu Qingran laughed, and said carelessly: "Many people have misunderstood me, and I don't care about it. Why are you sorry? I said Zhou Tang, can you be happier, don't think so much in your head, or you will be tired Only you."

Zhou Tang took a deep breath, and his complexion increased a little bit of remoteness and melancholy.

Xu Qingran patted the bench beside him, "I know you are strong and independent, and it is easy to think about everything before you do it, but being strong and independent is really not what you use, at least in front of your friends, you really don't have to collapse like this. Sit down Come down and chat for a while, anyway, I invited you yogurt."

Zhou Tang was silent for a while, then went over to sit down beside him, and asked casually, "Every time Dr. Xu sees me, he seems to like to preach. Is this the same when you practice medicine with other patients?"

"Of course not." Xu Qingran replied naturally.

Zhou Tang turned to look at him.

He met her eyes, the smile on his face was reduced by half, and suddenly he said to her seriously: "All the patients who have passed through my hands are not as preoccupied as you, and they have a lot of things to do, even talking to me." Every friend has to look forward and backward, without the courage, you say there are other patients like you?"

Zhou Tang said slowly, "I'm just afraid of hurting Dr. Xu."

Xu Qingran seemed to be emphasizing something, "It doesn't matter whether you are involved or not. If you are only worried about Chen Yan, then you don't have to. Don't forget, I was Chen Yan's lifesaver back then, and I, Xu Qingran, Chen Yan really Can't move."

As he spoke, his eyes met hers again directly and with a kind of comfort and strength, and he suddenly asked: "Have you thought about it these two days? Do you want me to help you leave Chen Yan?"

His gaze was firm yet soft, full of hope that Zhou Tang wanted to grasp.

Zhou Tang's heart seemed to be shaken by something again, and she subconsciously wanted to nod as if she was completely confused, but the moment she was about to nod, she reacted in time, and her heart fluctuated violently and struggling several times , finally suppressed the heartbeat.

She knew that Xu Qingran wanted to help her wholeheartedly, but perhaps Xu Qingran still didn't know how powerful his present kind of warmth like sending charcoal in a timely manner could exert in her heart, how deep his affection and throbbing could be.

But she is really rotten now, everything has been given to Chen Yan, living in the mud like this, she dare not touch the throbbing that belongs to Xu Qingran, because she is really inferior, I also know the difference between cloud and mud, and I don't have any qualifications.

Moreover, Chen Yan is a ruthless person. He would try his best to return anyone who offended him in high school, and Chen Yan didn't seem to have much respect or fear for Xu Qingran, so she was sure that once Xu Qingran intervened Regarding her matter, even if Chen Yan couldn't move Xu Qingran on the surface, he would use tricks behind his back.

Chen Yan is such a person who always seeks vengeance, and his means are endless. A noble doctor like Xu Qingran is no match for someone like Chen Yan who has lived in the shadows since he was a child.

She was also afraid that something bad would happen to Xu Qingran because of her.

Zhou Tang was silent for a long time before suppressing all his emotions, and said to Xu Qingran, "Thank you, Dr. Xu, for your kindness, but there is no need. Liu Xinuan will come to Beicheng the day after tomorrow. I guess I am about to be kicked away by Chen Yan."

Xu Qingran stared at her deeply, as if a little helpless and disappointed, "Is that why you are so unwilling to accept my help?"

Zhou Tang didn't dare to look him in the eyes, "I'm just afraid that you will be implicated, and it's really not worth fighting against Chen Yan for someone like me, and I don't have a deep friendship with Dr. Xu, so this kind of help Dr. Xu really doesn't need to mention it again, I can't bear it, and I can't repay it."

After speaking, he stood up and planned to leave.

Xu Qingran sighed, and smiled helplessly, "It's really the first time I've met a person like you, Zhou Tang, you really think too much, and I'll help you, and I don't ask you for anything in return. ..."

Zhou Tang froze on the spot and interrupted, "I know. I know Dr. Xu is a good man, but I can't support the wall with mud. Dr. Xu don't worry about people like me anymore."

As he said that, he changed the subject, "Doctor Xu should go back to spend time with his family earlier, and I'll go back to rest too. Goodbye."

When the voice fell, Zhou Tang simply moved forward.

Xu Qingran raised his heel and stepped up.

Zhou Tang frowned slightly, and turned his eyes to glance at him, but he smiled naturally and gently, as if he had completely suppressed all the helplessness just now, and did not continue chatting on the topic just now, but suddenly asked: "What time will you be tomorrow morning?" Some team building?"

Zhou Tang said in a low voice, "You can move freely in the morning, and gather at two o'clock in the afternoon."

Xu Qingran nodded, and invited her sincerely and earnestly, "There is a temple at the foot of the backside of Fengshan Mountain that has always been very effective. You have come here too. Let's go to that temple to offer incense at seven o'clock tomorrow morning. Make a wish."

Zhou Tang subconsciously said, "No need, I want to..."

Xu Qingran interrupted her and said: "Go out for a walk to relax, if you don't let me help you, then you can't refuse to let the Buddha come to save you. You see how depressed you are, go out and take a look properly, and then Make a wish, maybe things will go smoothly in the future. Really, the Buddha in that temple is very effective, I will make a wish every time I come."

is it?

Zhou Tang's heart fluctuated slightly.

In fact, she doesn't believe in Buddha very much, but Xu Qingran's saying is right, it's all here, so it's good to ask for a wish, in case it's a real spirit.

But she couldn't go with Xu Qingran.

She politely refused again.

Unexpectedly, Xu Qingran seemed to have made up his mind to let her go this time. During the entire return journey, he patiently persuaded her and followed her all the time.

Zhou Tang was really determined at first, and she kept tactfully refusing until she got to the villa where she and Liu Yue lived. She was about to refuse again and bid farewell. Unexpectedly, Xu Qingran said with a smile: "At seven o'clock tomorrow morning, I will Waiting for you at the gate of Qingran Xiaozhu, keep waiting. If you don’t want me to stand stupidly outside Qingran Xiaozhu like a stone and be surrounded by people, you should come earlier.”

His voice fell, he didn't persuade him this time, as if he had changed his strategy, he turned his head and left after leaving the words.

Zhou Tang took a deep breath and couldn't help raising his voice, "Doctor Xu, why are you doing this!"

Xu Qingran said without turning her head: "You are my friend, no matter how close you are with me, I can't just sit idly by. Seven o'clock tomorrow morning, come early, and go out more to have a look and relax, it won't do you any harm. Otherwise, based on your current state, you will be depressed in two days. Besides, I am going to that temple to fulfill my wish tomorrow morning, and I am worried about not having a companion."

Zhou Tang froze in place, staring at his back that was getting further and further away, his heart was complicated and heaving, helpless.

When Zhou Tang returned to the guest room, he saw Liu Yue was already talking on the phone with her boyfriend.

The two of them have been together for so long, and they never expected that their relationship is still so good. After a little separation, they can chat comfortably and warmly for so long, and Zhou Tang has also met Liu Yue's boyfriend, who is steady and mature A man, he shouldn't be someone who likes to spend energy and time chatting with a girl for so long, unless he attaches great importance to and cares about this girl, so he can infinitely tolerate the phone porridge of this little daughter's love mentality, Even various coordination.

Lying on the bed, Zhou Tang listened to Liu Yue's soft smile, and couldn't help feeling a little envious in his heart.

Liu Yue has really met a true love who can pamper her and tolerate her.

And what about her?Chicken feathers all over the place, covered in mud and shackles, are in dire straits.

She was silent for a long time before going to sleep, but there was a message on the phone.

She picked it up and saw it was Xu Qingran's WeChat message.

Dr. Xu is practicing medicine: see you at seven o'clock tomorrow morning.

Zhou Tang read these words several times before replying with a 'yes'.

After closing Xu Qingran's WeChat box, she switched to Chen Yan's WeChat, thought for a while, and wrote: Chen Yan, how are you today?I have already rested in Qingran Xiaozhu, sharing a room with Liu Yue.Are you home now?Pay attention to rest your body early.

After Zhou Tang finished writing, he sent it out.

Immediately, his thoughts fluctuated slightly, his eyes sank for a while, and finally he sent a sentence to Chen Yan: Chen Yan, I miss you.

After sending out all the news, Zhou Tang lay on the bed and waited.

But two hours later, Liu Yue finished talking on the phone and fell asleep, and Chen Yan didn't reply.

The complex feeling in Zhou Tang's heart spread more and more, he turned on the phone again, and started calling Chen Yan.

But this time, the call was smooth, but no one answered it, and the system automatically hung up in the end.

Zhou Tang did not give up and continued to call.

This time, there was a reaction over there, but instead of picking up Zhou Tang's call, he cut it off directly.

The corners of Zhou Tang's eyes twitched, and the cold arc on his lips became more and more obvious.

After being silent for a while, she sent a WeChat message to Chen Yan with some frustration and sarcasm: Chen Yan, are you really planning to kick me away and ignore me?
After only a moment, Chen Yan's message came back: Give me some peace of mind.

Zhou Tang narrowed his eyes a little, sneered, and continued: How do you behave?Is it safe to not contact you at all for a day or two?Chen Yan, if you are still a man, just kick me out for Liu Xinuan, otherwise, I will never be caught between you and Liu Xinuan, and I will never be able to settle down and obey!
Chen Yan replied: Then you have to obey me even if you don’t.Zhou Tang, be honest with me and don't mess with me.

Zhou Tang replied: Then you let me go.

Chen Yan: Dreaming, before I take the initiative to let you go, you have to stay with me even if you die.

Zhou Tang turned off the phone with a cold heart, clenched his hands into fists, let his nails pierce the skin of his palms, and let the pain rip through her numb nerves wantonly.

Chen Yan now seems to have made up his mind to treat her coldly, but he doesn't intend to let her go.

What does this mean, now that she has really become a canary that no one cares about but can't escape?
Zhou Tang wanted to get out of control and stab a cold-blooded and heartless person like Chen Yan with a knife.

The mood was also extremely bad, tossing and turning, Zhou Tang suffered from insomnia again that night.

Early the next morning, she greeted Liu Yue and said that she was going out for a stroll. Liu Yue nodded in confusion. After Zhou Tang left, she continued to sleep late.

Zhou Tang didn't really intend to give in to Xu Qingran last night, but Chen Yan's coquettish manipulation on WeChat was too frustrating for her, and her heart was so heavy that it was hard to attach it. All the days of flattery and calculations and even her own innocence were all offered to her. On the Internet, it seems that they have all been in vain.

This feeling of powerlessness and resentment made her almost unable to suppress all the restlessness in her heart.

She also can't think of any way to deal with Chen Yan. It's useless to please and be gentle, it's useless to break a jar, and asking for help is even more harmful to others and herself. With nowhere to go, she wondered if it was really what Xu Qingran said , Going to beg the Buddha, let the Buddha come and save her.

Zhou Tang only felt that he was going crazy, and he was so tormented by Chen Yan that he wanted to pray to God and worship Buddha.

At [-]:[-] in the morning, the sky is not yet fully bright, and the wind on the top of the mountain is also cool. There are very few people around, and only a few people who are used to getting up early are jogging around the lake for exercise.

Zhou Tang walked forward in a daze.

After walking out of the gate of Qingran Xiaozhu, Xu Qingran was already waiting outside the gate.

He is still dressed casually today, with a thin sweater and jeans. He is clean, clean and handsome.

He was holding steamed buns and soy milk in his hands. Seeing Zhou Tang coming, he seemed not surprised, so he greeted him so naturally, and then handed the breakfast in his hand to Zhou Tang, "I just bought it, and it's still hot. Come on, eat some."

Zhou Tang reached out to take it numbly: "Thank you."

Xu Qingran led her forward, and glanced at her numb and stiff face, "Didn't sleep well last night?"

Zhou Tang shook his head.

"Then why do you look like this?" Xu Qingran asked again.

Zhou Tang said indifferently: "I haven't slept all night, that's it."

"Can I know the reason?" He froze for a moment, his voice was a little soft, and there was a little bit of concern in his tone.

Zhou Tang lowered his head, not wanting to talk about it.

She was really in a bad mood, and she really didn't want to mention Chen Yan, a bullying scumbag.

She only drank two sips of soy milk, numbly followed Xu Qingran for a few steps, and changed the subject, "Doctor Xu, is the Buddha in the temple you said really effective?"

"Ah."

Xu Qingran responded, and the gaze that fell on her face became deeper and deeper. After hesitating for a long time, she finally didn't ask any more questions.

Everyone has everyone's secrets, and everyone has weaknesses and helplessness that everyone doesn't want to talk about, and in his eyes, Zhou Tang is the kind of person who wants to carry everything by himself and hide it.

It is also obvious that she is a weak girl, but she has to bear so much helplessness and withstand so many threats, and she is obviously living in fear, but she still has to worry about whether she will hurt her.

Xu Qingran really has no shortage of friends, and he doesn't necessarily want to be friends with Zhou Tang, but he really has never seen such a girl, covered in injuries and sadness, even if he stretched out his hand personally, it seems that she can't arouse her A little hope and light in her eyes.

She also seemed to completely let herself fall into the darkness, not daring to hold the hand he stretched out.It is also clear that the mountains and rivers are exhausted, and I don't want to involve him in the slightest. I just let myself continue to sink in all the ups and downs, hitting my head and bleeding, but I don't complain.

This is also the reason why he persistently wants to give her a hand, because this girl is so special and so distressing, it seems that a string that has never been in his heart is being touched by her over and over again.

So, if he really doesn't help her, really doesn't interfere, then what will be Zhou Tang's final outcome?
Depression, or suicide?

Xu Qingran's eyes tightened almost imperceptibly, and he didn't want to think about it any more.

He turned his head to look at the girl walking beside him again, forcibly suppressed all his thoughts, and then started chatting with her as usual.

Zhou Tang has been suffering from insomnia for two days in a row, and he is not feeling well either emotionally or mentally.

She knew that Xu Qingran wanted to adjust her emotions, but she really didn't have much thought and energy to deal with Xu Qingran's various nonsense chats, so she could only say a few words casually.

However, the road to the temple on the backside of Fengshan Mountain is much steeper than the road in front of the mountain. Because not many people take this road, some places on the road are covered with moss.

In addition, it was too early at this moment, and there was still some fog in the mountains on the road, which made the bluestone slabs on the road a little slippery.

Zhou Tang walked cautiously, Xu Qingran also thoughtfully reached out his hand, avoiding suspicion and like a gentleman, he only held her sleeve.

The two went forward all the way, and when they arrived at the temple, Zhou Tang burned incense, kowtowed, and made a wish in front of the Buddha very piously.

She wanted to completely break away from Chen Yan's control, wanted to go to Yuncheng with her parents for the elderly, wanted to find a quiet space of her own, and spend the rest of her life in peace.

She closed her eyes, clasped her hands together, prostrated herself on the ground devoutly, and made her wishes bit by bit.

After everything was over, she and Xu Qingran left the temple and returned the same way.

The mountain road up the mountain is very steep, and the wet bluestone road winds all the way up, with mountains on one side and cliffs full of maple trees and shrubs on the other.

Xu Qingran took Zhou Tang's sleeve again, silently protecting her, and asked gently: "What wish did you make?"

Zhou Tang said: "Doctor Xu, I can't say, or it won't work."

Xu Qingran smiled, and said to her with relief and determination: "The Buddha here is very spiritual, and your wishes can all come true."

"If it can be realized, then the Buddha and you are my reborn parents."

"Am I that old? I'm not married yet, can I be a parent?"

Zhou Tang was provoked by his words and laughed a few times. She didn't reply to his teasing words, but asked in a low voice: "Dr. Haven't planned on falling in love yet?"

"I just didn't find the right one."

"There should be many girls who pursue Dr. Xu, Dr. Xu doesn't like any of them?"

Xu Qingran smiled and said: "Fate is something that cannot be forced. There are many people who pursue it, but it doesn't mean that they are all suitable. It still depends on eyes and feelings, right?"

Zhou Tang deeply agreed, nodded, "Yes."

After speaking, he turned his head and glanced at him, and said sincerely and seriously: "But Dr. Xu is indeed a gentle and caring person. When you have a girlfriend in the future, your girlfriend will be very happy by your side."

The corners of Xu Qingran's eyes twitched, "Then I'll lend you a good word, but I have to have a girlfriend first."

The two talked and laughed all the way forward.

Zhou Tang's mood was much more relaxed than when he came here, but he really didn't have much rest in the past two nights. After walking up the mountain for a while, his physical strength was a little too much.

She didn't want to delay Xu Qingran's time, so she kept going up with her stiff and trembling legs, but when she reached the steepest section of the mountain road, the sole of her foot slipped, and she suddenly turned towards the cliff on the side of the bluestone road. fall.

"Zhou Tang!"

Xu Qingran was caught off guard, and subconsciously exclaimed, his fingers immediately clenched Zhou Tang's sleeves even more tightly, and his feet suddenly became unstable, and his whole body was brought down by Zhou Tang's falling body.

(End of this chapter)