only soft on you

Chapter 273 Not Even A Little Thought Is Qualified

Zhou Tang felt a strange dull pain in his heart, and his eyes just locked on him quietly, even the smile on his face was so stiff that he couldn't show it.

Xu Shi saw some of her state of mind, Xu Qingran smiled slightly, and gently joked to her: "Tangtang, why don't you come in, aren't you happy to see me?"

Zhou Tang suddenly returned to his senses, forcibly restrained his expression, and then stepped in.

Xu Qingran stood up at the right time, and pushed away the dining chair beside him for her in advance as he did when dining out in Canada. Zhou Tang looked bewildered for a moment before sitting down on the dining chair he was supporting.

Only then did Xu Qingran turn around and sit in his own seat, and pushed a glass of freshly squeezed juice to her eyes, "Take a couple of sips of the orange juice you like first, and I've ordered the dishes too, and I'll serve them right away."

His voice was still gentle and his movements were gentle.

He still remembered that she liked to drink orange juice, and was willing to continue to open the stool for her considerately so that she could sit on it, but the more he did this, the more uncomfortable she felt.

"What's the matter, we finally met, are you really unhappy?"

Compared to Zhou Tang's depression and silence, Xu Qingran seemed to be deliberately adjusting the atmosphere, and said this gently.

Zhou Tang took a deep breath, shook his head, and turned to meet his eyes, "Qing Ran, have you been having a bad time recently?"

Her voice was filled with undisguised worry and distress, and the sight that fell on his face was also a bit tired and melancholy.

Xu Qingran's expression moved, and then he smiled softly in relief, "Do you know something about me recently?"

Zhou Tang said in a low voice, "I just heard about it."

Xu Qingran sighed, and took all the worries and bewilderment in Zhou Tang's eyes into his eyes. After a moment of silence, he said in a low voice: "I have never been in touch with the management of a large company before, so I suddenly took over the company of my grandparents. It is indeed difficult to face the company's decision-making and board of directors issues. But the difficult adjustment period has passed, and I have become more and more proficient in the management of the company. I think I will be able to fully adapt in the near future."

is it?

His voice is calm and serious, but he described his running-in period so simply and lightly.

She also clearly heard from the discussion of those girls last night that Xu Qingran hadn't had an easy time at all.

So, did those girls exaggerate Xu Qingran's situation, or did Xu Qingran just say these things lightly in order not to worry her.

Zhou Tang's thoughts turned for a while, but he didn't speak immediately.

Xu Qingran continued to comfort her, "Don't look at me like that, and don't worry about me, since I have chosen this path, no matter what, I will go on well, even if there are difficulties and obstacles, I will Grandma and grandpa's company is running well."

Zhou Tang's complexion changed slightly, and he lowered his head subconsciously, feeling complicated for a while.

In fact, some worries are really not suitable for speaking, and they are pale and powerless.

Because at this time, Xu Qingran didn't need her worries.

And no matter what, even if his current situation is really bad, he still has bravery and piety, so he has worked so hard and determined so much, how could he not do this well, and where is his turn? Get her to worry about it.

And maybe she really should think about it from another angle, for example, even though Xu Qingran suffered adversity in his career, his current mental outlook is undoubtedly much better than when his grandparents passed away.

As long as he can pull himself together, there's nothing wrong with that.

Zhou Tang's mind fluttered, he didn't speak, but his face gradually improved.

At this moment, the waiter had already brought up the dishes one by one. Zhou Tang raised his eyes and glanced at them, and found that they were all dishes she liked.

"Tangtang, you're hungry, eat while it's hot."

At the right time, Xu Qingran's gentle voice came to my ears.

Zhou Tang turned his head and smiled at him, nodded, and subconsciously said, "Qingran, thank you."

Xu Qingran's expression changed slightly, and after a moment of silence, he said slowly, "You're welcome, Tangtang, even if we're not together anymore, you'll never need a word of thanks when you're here with me, and you don't need any strangers. .”

As he spoke, he raised the glass of juice in front of him, and changed the subject, "Toast to you, Tangtang, you won such a big photography award in Canada this time, and I haven't had time to congratulate you."

Zhou Tang took a deep breath, forcibly suppressed all the daze and paleness on his face, and raised his glass in return.

This night, Xu Qingran's words and deeds were still unbelievably gentle, and Zhou Tang even felt that his character and mood had returned to their original state many times.

It's just that every time she thinks like this, she will see his forced smiling eyes full of tiredness and vicissitudes, and see his straight shirt that seems to be completely uncomfortable to wear, and she will suddenly feel After realizing it, Xu Qingran's changes and tiredness really existed.

All, there is no recovery to the original, but Xu Qingran is forcibly covering up and cheering up. He seems to be really, really tired.

During the whole meal, Zhou Tang also forcibly suppressed all his emotions, and stopped talking about his career and his status. She and he were just chatting about some little things, including some interesting things about her recent photography work.

She habitually shared her life with him as before, but this time, she didn't wait until Xu Qingran pampered her head over and over again, encouraged her, and praised her, she only waited until Xu Qingran was dignified and restrained. Yes, just smiling and nodding to her in a gentle manner, without any extra words.

Until the meal was over, Xu Qingran answered the phone call at work and wanted to leave. After Zhou Tang smiled and nodded to say goodbye, she looked at Xu Qingran's determination that he hesitated to speak but said nothing in the end, at his struggling for several seconds but After all, it was still the figure who simply turned around and left. For a moment, all the unknown expectations and thoughts in the bottom of my heart seemed to suddenly shatter into slag.

So, what was she expecting.

What are you looking forward to!

After all, Xu Qingran held on to all the principles and did not give her any response or expectation.

And at this moment, she seems not even qualified to stay and fight for her, because compared with the legacy left by his grandparents, and compared with his current situation, she, Zhou Tang, always seems to be insignificant with Xu Qingran. Dragging the oil bottle will only drag him down, trouble him, and add chaos to him.

Zhou Tang's heart couldn't help but ache.

She frowned deeply, couldn't help reaching out her hand to her heart, and sat silently.

It wasn't until a while later that she suppressed the noise in her heart, got up and went downstairs, but just as she walked out of the gate of the Yueyan Building, she heard a familiar voice not far away.

Zhou Tang was stunned for a moment, then followed the prestige, and saw that Xu Qingran hadn't gone far at the moment, he was standing in a dimly lit place not far away, talking on the phone.

I don't know what the other party said on the phone, but he, who was always gentle, was so angry that he kept scolding the other party.

He was really so angry that his back was trembling. In his angry tone, there was a touch of powerlessness that couldn't be concealed.

Zhou Tang had never seen him so excited, nor had he seen him so angry and powerless.

After answering the phone, she saw that he seemed to have been emptied of all his strength suddenly, leaning against a street tree, his face full of anxiety and self-mockery, and then, in the breeze and night, he ecstasy from his pocket He took out a cigarette, lighted it, and smoked it.

His dejected appearance was suddenly tainted with a yuppie that didn't suit his appearance and temperament, which was very different from his usual gentle image.

Zhou Tang froze in place, staring at him blankly.

But at this moment, Xu Qingran seemed to have noticed something, and turned her head slowly, and those gloomy eyes met her directly.

Zhou Tang's heart was full of depression, and his eyes were inexplicably soaked instantly.

The self-mockery and anger on Xu Qingran's face suddenly subsided, and his face turned slightly pale. He locked his eyes on her for a while, as if he hesitated and struggled a few times, and then turned away without saying a word.

He just got into his car with a stiff back, and left so quickly.

It also seemed that all the decency and cover-ups, at this moment, he no longer had the intention to maintain and disguise in front of her, and it seemed that all the illusion of harmony that he had created suddenly collapsed, dripping with blood.

It was also at this moment that Zhou Tang fully understood that Xu Qingran was just like what the girls said last night. His career was frustrated and his head was battered. It was also at this moment that he suddenly understood Xu Qingran's decision to leave without saying goodbye just now.

Because he didn't want her to see all his downfall and powerlessness, and he didn't want her to be worried and sad.

From the beginning to the end, he was struggling to bear everything alone, and from the beginning to the end, he never thought of letting her accompany him, even if it was to share all his sad emotions.

Zhou Tang's heart ached unbearably, until Xu Qingran's car completely disappeared, she couldn't help but burst into tears.

Following Xu Qingran's example, she leaned against the street tree, blowing the wind for a long, long time.

It took so long that all the tears in her eyes were blown dry, her heaving and suffocating heart gradually eased, and her pale face gradually became calm and numb. At this time, she came back to her senses a little, and when she was about to stand up straight and leave, Her eyes casually moved forward, and inadvertently glanced at Chen Yan who was not far away.

Right now, his clothes were wrinkled, his hair was disheveled, and his beard was unshaven. The eyes that were locked towards her contained a kind of endless depression and madness, and seemed to be filled with endless pain and grievances.

His face was pale and colorless, his lips were pale, his clothes were wrinkled, his hair was disheveled, and his beard was unshaven.

He didn't know how long he had been standing there, he looked unkempt and extremely desolate, but seeing her discovering him, his oppressed and bottomless eyes gradually shook twice, and it seemed that he was suddenly in a desperate hell. A trace of cautious hope was ignited.

(End of this chapter)