only soft on you

Chapter 274 Can You Stay With Me For Awhile

Zhou Tang didn't know what he was expecting, so he only glanced at him twice, then turned and walked away from him.

Chen Yan's eyes flickered suddenly, the few traces of hope in his eyes were suddenly shattered, and even his suppressed and manic mind seemed to be shattered by Zhou Tang's turning around at this moment!

He witnessed Zhou Tang's obsession with Xu Qingran, and Zhou Tang's helplessness with tears streaming down his face for Xu Qingran.

He is jealous, crazy.

With so many drinks in his stomach tonight, it seemed that at that moment, he couldn't suppress the boiling and impulse in his blood. He was so jealous that he wanted to go crazy, and he felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to explode.

But after all, he forcibly stabilized his mind under Zhou Tang's embarrassed appearance.

He couldn't do that, he didn't dare to make Zhou Tang hate him more than crushing Xu Qingran, even more, he wanted to guard her every step of the way, wanted to look at her, wanted to put that thin and tearful She held her in her arms.

He wanted to hug her, rub her into his bone marrow, and scold her to wake her up.

How could she cry for other men, he had been in such pain and drank so much recently, she didn't care about him, how could she cry for other men.

How could Xu Qingran deserve her like this!
But she is stubborn, she just doesn't want to love him anymore, that is, she puts all her heart on Xu Qingran, but Xu Qingran doesn't love her as much as he does, and how can she give up his grandparents' company for her!

But he can!He can do Chen Yan!
Now he can give up everything for her, as long as she can put her eyes on him again, as long as she is willing to like him again.

Chen Yan's eyes were blood red. At this moment, the wine in his stomach seemed to be churning wantonly, making him want to vomit uncontrollably.

But Zhou Tang kept moving forward, without even looking back, he couldn't think too much, and immediately staggered forward with his uncomfortable body, and finally grabbed Zhou Tang's arm with all his strength. wrist.

Zhou Tang was completely stopped by Chen Yan, and his wrist was so painful that it seemed to be broken.

Zhou Tang frowned suddenly, and immediately turned to look at him impatiently, "Chen Yan, let go!"

Chen Yan subconsciously relaxed a little bit, but he didn't let go of Zhou Tang's hand. His red eyes met Zhou Tang's indifferent eyes, and the calmness he tried to maintain on his pale face almost collapsed.

He said hoarsely to Zhou Tang, "Can you accompany me?"

Zhou Tang didn't have time to reply.

He continued: "It will be fine in a while."

He doesn't ask for anything extravagantly now, he just wants Zhou Tang to accompany him, and he just wants to get some comfort from Zhou Tang when he is injured like in high school before.

In the past two days, his mother's illness was about to wear him down.

He is indeed not a normal person, he can withstand all the blows outside, even if he was nearly killed by Chen Liebing, he could not change his face, but when Wang Sufang's condition worsened, he became a coward again. No force to calm down.

He was afraid of going to the hospital, afraid of receiving a call from the doctor, and afraid of hearing any hopeless news. He was already a mother. Once she really left, no one in this world would love him again. Will be completely alone in the world, with no one to accompany me.

He was terrified of this feeling, but there was nothing he could do.

He can't control the changes in his mother's condition. Apart from calling the doctor and yelling at the doctor to throw money, he can only hide in the bar all day long, in the dark, drunk, and even dare not go to the hospital.

He thought that when he was drunk, he would be able to forget all his troubles and fears. He thought that if his stomach pain recurred, he would be able to numb the nerves that were tense and about to break in the past few days with severe pain. Only in this way, he might really be able to Escape from everything, take it easy, but in vain.

The more he drank, the more he became sober, and the more he drank, the more afraid he became. He was so scared that his whole body was shaking and his heart was empty. After all, he couldn't help it, and came to Zhou Tang madly again.

He endured so many days in loneliness and fear, but he still came to bother her. He didn't want her to see his fragility and entanglement again and again. He just had no one to tell his pain and fear. He also really, paranoid and irrepressible, once again regarded her as his only life-saving straw.

Zhou Tang's brows furrowed more and more, and for a while, he didn't reply.

Her nose smelled the strong smell of alcohol from Chen Yan's body, and her gaze quietly settled on Chen Yan's red eyes, only to see that Chen Yan's eyes, which were usually indifferent and deep, were now full of obvious emotions. Vulnerable and helpless.

This look in his eyes seemed to be the same as Chen Yan's inexplicably emotional collapse one day in high school, helpless, frightened, and as fragile as a little animal that was about to die.

Zhou Tang subconsciously choked on the words of refusal that came out of her mouth. Thinking of Wang Sufang's illness, she was silent for a long time. She didn't know if it was a crime of sympathy, or she had some feelings and pity for Wang Sufang after all. She suppressed her emotions and greeted Chen Yan in a low voice Said: "Have you been drinking?"

Chen Yan was stunned for a moment, then nodded helplessly and embarrassingly.

Zhou Tang asked again: "Is Aunt Fang feeling better today?"

"I didn't dare to answer the call from the hospital today, and I didn't dare to go to the hospital. I don't know if it's better." He said in a hoarse voice, depressed and decadent.

Zhou Tang took a deep breath, not surprised by his words.

After all, Chen Yan seems to be ruthless and strong, but when facing Wang Sufang's life and death, he is extremely vulnerable.

She was silent for a while before she said: "You should answer the phone call from the hospital, in case the hospital needs to contact you in case of any emergency..."

At this point, Zhou Tang subconsciously stopped.

Chen Yan's eyes were intense, and he couldn't help trembling twice, and then he was silent for a long time under Zhou Tang's gaze, and then said in a low voice, "Zhou Tang, it's not that I don't answer, but I dare not answer. "

As he spoke, his tone became more and more desolate, "I don't have the courage to step into the hospital, nor have the courage...to accept any results, let alone visit my mother."

Zhou Tang's eyes were full of complexities. For a while, staring at such a depressed and fragile Chen Yan, his mind was shaken, "Some things can't be solved by running away."

"I know."

"So Chen Yan, you have to cheer up, you have to face what you have to face, and Aunt Fang has her own nature, she is so kind, and she will be fine." Zhou Tang said in a low voice, bringing With a pious expectation.

Chen Yan didn't speak, just lowered his head, his face turned pale, he didn't know what he was thinking.

Zhou Tang lingered on him for a while before saying again: "Can you let me go?"

Chen Yan's red eyes fell towards her again, still with a kind of loneliness and sadness.

Zhou Tang took another deep breath, and for a moment, he was inexplicably reminded of Xu Qingran's reaction not long ago.

I once remembered that when Xu Qingran's grandparents had an accident, Xu Qingran was decadent and embarrassed, depressed and desolate. His state was actually the same as Chen Yan's current state, but the only difference was that Xu Qingran chose to suffer alone, heal his wounds alone, Putting himself in a space that suppresses grief and closes himself, even she, Zhou Tang, cannot enter and touch her.

But Chen Yan is different, Chen Yan is not only escaping, he even wants to share all his sorrows with her, and he insists on pulling her into his desolate and helpless world as if he is grasping at straws.

Right now, she can't say that Xu Qingran doesn't love her enough, which led to his rejection and letting go of her in the end, and she can't say that Chen Yan is so weak that he is useless, because Xu Qingran is always calm and thoughtful. , also know what he wants, and Chen Yan is always paranoid and lonely, always rushing forward, always acting on his emotions, and forever, trapped in the feelings and dependence of high school and cannot extricate himself.

Compared to Xu Qingran, Chen Yan is indeed not as clear-headed as Xu Qingran, but Chen Yan is indeed right, Chen Yan loves her more than Xu Qingran, even if it is a paranoid love.

"Zhou Tang, can you accompany me for a while, even if you go to the car with me for a ride."

Seeing that Zhou Tang kept his face sullen and silent, Chen Yan spoke again in a hoarse voice.

His voice was still vulnerable and begging, and it was probably because he was drunk that he showed her all her embarrassment so unscrupulously.

Zhou Tang came back to his senses for a while, and planned to persuade him with kind words, trying to cheer him up, "Chen Yan, what if I go to the car with you? This way you can cheer up and feel better. Do you want to? But you can never escape in this way, because Aunt Fang is still in the hospital, so at least for this period of time, you can't escape at all..."

But before he finished speaking, the cell phone in Chen Yan's pocket rang suddenly.

The ringtone of his mobile phone was particularly depressing and heavy. When it rang, it seemed to make the atmosphere around him dignified.

Zhou Tang subconsciously choked on the words that came to his mouth.

However, Chen Yan just looked at her so persistently, clasped her hand persistently, and did not move.

Until the mobile phone in his pocket rang for too long and was hung up by the system, and until a few seconds passed, the mobile phone rang again as if unwilling to give up.

Zhou Tang reminded in a low voice, "Are you not answering the phone?"

(End of this chapter)