Shen Yi's Darkness and Depression

Chapter 234 The Eternal Light

"I'm afraid the two of us will have to walk up this mountain road." Ze Fenglin saw that Yun Wan was unhappy, and he didn't dare to talk to her along the way, he was a very good listener.

"Okay, then get out of the car and walk." Yun Wan was very pleased that Ze Fenglin could be by her side so quietly, maybe it was because she was exuding a chill all over her body now, which made others feel daunted by the distance.

"Slow down, be careful of slippery roads." Ze Fenglin felt that Yun Wan was very smart, and he deliberately changed into men's clothing for the convenience of walking. He had only seen Shen Yihan disguised as a man before she got married.

"It's okay, I'm wearing official boots, it's fine." Yun Wan walked alone, she didn't want to have too much contact with Ze Fenglin.

"Will you go to Tianshen River later? Let's go and see if we have enough time. It's very crowded." Ze Fenglin wasn't sure if Yunwan was interested in going to the river.

"Let's see the situation. We'll talk about it after we've gone to the Tenshen Temple, okay?" Yun Wan was in a very depressed mood. Once the Shangsi Festival passed, her heart seemed to sink into the deep sea without seeing the light.

"Are you going to make a wish to catch the murderer of Lord Duanmu as soon as possible?" Ze Fenglin asked curiously. He had never made a wish or asked Yun Wan about her father's case.

When Shen Yishuo and Murong Jingyu discussed the case earlier, Ze Fenglin just listened quietly and never said much.

"I hope. It's just that the case has been shelved. There is no news at all. I can't do anything but wait. I'm really afraid that the case will end without a problem, hey~"

Yun Wan sighed, wondering how Shen Yishuo went to Liangzhou to investigate and whether the Anshang Zongmeng was involved, "Lin Zi, do you know? Today is my father's birthday, but for the deceased, Birthdays are meaningless."

"Well, indeed, I even heard about my mother's death date from my grandmother. I was only three years old at the time, and I didn't have the slightest impression of my mother's death, and no one ever told me when my mother's birthday was. I asked many people, and they all said they didn't know, even my father said they didn't know."

Ze Fenglin shook his head, his mother's birthday was a mystery to him, he just wanted to confide in Yun Wan, not to compare her with anyone who was more pitiful.

"Listening to what Linzi said, maybe birthdays really only have meaning for the living, so don't get entangled in the past, the family members are hiding it from you for your own good." Yun Wan felt that she was compared with Ze Fenglin It's lucky, after all, she still has many good memories with her mother, "Then Linzi was brought up by Mrs. Zefeng?"

"Well, my grandmother loves me so much, so does my aunt, and Sister Han, they all take good care of me, but unfortunately, I don't remember my mother's appearance anymore." The more Ze Fenglin talked, the more depressed he was. His mother didn't even have the most basic outline impression, and there was only a pair of calligraphy and painting in the house, and he always regarded the woman's appearance in the painting as his mother.

"Then Linzi will also light an everlasting lantern for Ling Tang later." Yun Wan didn't know what to say to comfort her, she came to Tianshen Nunnery just to light a few everlasting lanterns.

"Will we see her again in the next life after lighting the ever-burning lantern? The bond between mother and child is too weak in this life." Ze Fenglin didn't know why he wanted to light the ever-burning lantern, since his mother's memorial tablet had already been enshrined in his family's ancestral hall.

"If there is a real destiny, we will meet each other in reincarnation, but the ever-burning lamp is to illuminate the path of reincarnation for the deceased, and bless his future life with peace and happiness." Yun Wan hopes that people really have souls that will live forever since her mother passed away. Choose to believe in the existence of reincarnation.

"Do you want to light the everlasting lamp for Lord Duanmu? I hope the case will be solved soon, otherwise it will be difficult for your father to rest in peace after being so wronged, let alone reincarnated with regret in this life." Only then did Ze Fenglin realize that Yun Wan was very pitiful and young. It is easy to lose the care of her parents and protect her young brother. As a woman, it is not easy to gain a foothold in the imperial capital by herself?

"In addition to blessing my father, I also want to light an everlasting lamp for my mother. As of today, she has been away from me for ten years, ten years! Fleeting~"

Yun Wan has never felt that time flies so fast, all the sorrows are fixed in the moment when her mother passed away, as long as she doesn't mention it, she won't worry about it or grieve.

"Then your Jiji doesn't make you very sad? Every Shangsi Festival is also very sad, right?"

Ze Fenglin did not expect that the Shangsi Festival has so many special meanings for Yun Wan. The mother’s death, father’s birthday and coming-of-age ceremony belong to the same day. It is really sad and sad. Who can imagine how a little girl can survive these sad things? .

"That's right, the year when I became Jiji happened to be the third anniversary of my mother's death. At dawn, I got up early and went to kowtow and burn paper at my mother's grave. I've lived a dull life, and I've been complaining to you about the impermanence of this world." Yun Wan will always remember crying while holding the clothes her mother sewed stitch by stitch.

The clothes were treasured by Yunwan's father for three years before they were given to Yunwan and Ji to wear. Besides the dress, there was also a letter and a jade pendant, which were all left to her by Yunwan's mother, especially the letter, full of Everything is mother's love and apology to Yun Wan.

"You father and daughter are really strong. It's good to help and love each other but your mother's wish. I think Lord Duanmu is really pitiful. He sent away his beloved on his birthday. He must be very sad." Ze Fenglin speculated.

"It's okay, he was attending my mother's funeral. He never cried. He was very calm and calm. As long as I can remember, my father has always looked indifferent. I will never understand his sorrows and joys." Her mother was very dissatisfied with her father, but the father and daughter still maintained a lukewarm relationship.

"Is there? I have met Lord Duanmu twice, and I think he is very kind, not as indifferent as you said? As a man, he will not cry easily in front of others, and who stipulates that you must cry when you are sad? Or will you cry? Are people qualified to be sad?"

Ze Fenglin cried a lot when he was a child, and most of the reasons were caused by Shen Yihan's teasing, but when he grew up, he never cried again, and he never saw his father shed a single tear.

"Most people have many faces, so they must treat colleagues and family members differently." Yun Wan knew that her father had many faces, and had different attitudes towards the old lady, You Chen, her mother, and Murong Jingyu.

"I don't like this kind of people with thousands of faces, it's too hypocritical. My father is like that. He is kind and respected in the officialdom, but he is sarcastic in life." Ze Fenglin saw this kind of hypocrisy, so he wanted to live. Be more magnanimous and free and easy.

Vegetation sprouts for life, and good luck meets; flowers and leaves wither for death, and the four seasons are reincarnated.

(End of this chapter)