I hide the white roses behind me

Chapter 244 Those Beautiful Things
It is difficult to truly satisfy human hearts.

After one wish is fulfilled, there is always the next one waiting in line.

"This year is better than last year, and next year will surely be better too."

Under the cover of night, the colorful dance of young people's revelry filled every conspicuous place in the city as usual.

In this alley that is not facing the street, Bae Joo-hyun and Lim Na-yeon were strolling slowly. Whether they were taking a walk to digest their food or to clear their minds, they had no intention of returning to the dormitory.

"I hope so. Let's see what the company is going to do."

Looking up at the distant sky, Bae Joo-hyun tried to catch a few stars, but ultimately failed and only saw the moon.

After enduring a criticized debut and a bleak early period, life is a little better now.

But in many things, I am afraid of comparing myself with others or with my peers.

Especially in my profession, I live in comparison. Even if I don’t want to compare, fans and passers-by will push me to compare with other idols.

"Will they promote you? Music Bank has a pretty good effect."

Holding Bae Joo-hyun's arm with one hand, Lin Nayeon thought of her job as a host in Music Bank. She had received a lot of praise, so the rival company should not ignore it. They should give Bae Joo-hyun some resources to let her lead the group, right?
"Popularity is balanced. This is true for our company and your company as well."

Bae Joo-hyun smiled nonchalantly through her nasal cavity, shook her head, and pulled the scarf around her neck a little higher.

No one really doesn't care about personal resources at all, but whether it is personal resources or group resources, as long as it can bring the group together, any kind of resources will be fine. As long as there are resources, there is no room for picking and choosing.

"We don't want to think about personal resources anymore. Fortunately, the group is doing well now and we can make money in the group."

Thinking of the amazing development momentum of her group, Lim Nayeon was happy but could not show her feelings. After all, the life of this friend around her was not easy.

"Sometimes I wonder if I'm too paranoid. In fact, I'm not as quiet as I seem. I'm also a person with desires and things I want, especially when I see Taeyeon."

The exhaled breath turned into white mist and melted into the cold wind, as if giving substance to the cold wind. It rubbed across Bae Joo-hyun's cheek, giving her the illusion of being scratched.

"There are probably very few people in our industry who wouldn't envy her, right? However, you and she are in the same company, so your feelings must be different from the rest of us."

Everyone in this industry knows that the path blazed by the predecessor cannot be replicated. The current environment and market are no longer the same as before.

"It was originally the same, but..."

Some scenes she saw at Luge Hospital emerged in her mind, and Bae Joo-hyun narrowed her eyes, a little absent-minded.

Originally, she felt the same as everyone else. Kim Taeyeon, who had few friends in the circle and was very thoughtful, would not let others see her true self.

However, Dr. Lin seemed to have lifted a corner of the mask on her face, allowing Bae Joo-hyun to see it by chance.

Even though the senior's face was still mostly covered by a mask, it was enough to make her feel that "your feelings must be different from the rest of us."

"but what?"

They had never revealed it in public, so not many people knew that the two had a close relationship. Lin Nayeon was not smart enough and cautious enough to ask the question when she had it in her mind.

"Do you know Dr. Lin from Luge Hospital?"

After a brief pause, Bae Joo-hyun had a lazy look in her eyes and a playful tone, as if she was asking a question even though she knew the answer.

"Of course I know him. There is no one in our dormitory who doesn't know him. Do you know him too?"

Because of Ming Jingnan, not only Lim Nayeon and other teammates know Dr. Lin, but the agents and assistants also know him.

"Yes, I know him too. When I injured my foot, he helped me arrange a doctor to treat me. He also helped me arrange a doctor when we had a traffic accident. And when I was chased by a stalker, he helped me chase that stalker away."

Putting aside the fact that she was hit by Dr. Lin's sister riding a bicycle, Bae Joo Hyun thought about it and realized that she and Dr. Lin had a good relationship in the limited number of contacts and time. "Wow, a lot of things happened. Do you have any contact information?"

With her eyes wide open, she turned around and gently shook Bae Joo-hyun's arm around her.

Everyone said that "Doctor Lin" is good, so if you feel unwell in the future, you can go to Luge Hospital.

"No, I'm not your teammate, nor am I Taeyeon senior. They have Dr. Lin's contact information."

Bae Joo-hyun shrugged and spoke in a light tone.

"You haven't answered my question yet. How come it was the same originally but different now?"

It's not nice to ask too many questions, but since they are friends, the curious Lin Nayeon still asked a proper question.

"Although each of us will say that our seniors are our idols in front of the camera, the meaning of the word idol will change as we grow older and our identities change."

Although she is not to the point where she cannot hide anything from others, Bae Joo-hyun has no intention of hiding it from her friends.

"Before I became a trainee, I loved her, I was a star chaser, I thought she was my favorite idol; after I became a trainee, I was looking forward to debuting as an artist like her; when I was the oldest and endured the torment in the practice room for so many years, I was obsessed, crazy obsessed. If I hadn't been that obsessed, I might not have been able to make my debut."

After saying so much in one breath, Bae Joo-hyun slowly took a deep breath. Not a single line on her body was tense, and her tone was relaxed, so relaxed that no one could empathize with her.

You have to swallow your own pain yourself. There is no need to let others know so much, and there is no need to desire the emotional value given by others.

What can heal those wounds is the satisfaction of success.

"Now when I see my senior, besides feeling paranoid, I also feel envious and confused. I envy her success and limited freedom after paying the price. She can sing her own songs, meet the people she wants to meet, and go where she wants to go. I am the one who is confused. I can't see my future."

Bae Joo-hyun stopped and stood there, as if she was about to fall asleep. The more she spoke, the lower her voice became. Even the wind beside her seemed to understand her mood and paused for a moment, becoming quiet.

Lin Nayeon's heart skipped a beat, not knowing what to say, but she caught a point that Bae Joo-hyun didn't mention.

What does this have to do with Dr. Lin?
Is it...

"Unnie, what about Dr. Lin..."

Lim Nayeon deliberately only said half of the sentence, leaving the key to the second half to Bae Joo-hyun.

If Bae Joo-hyun is willing to speak, no matter what the conclusion is, she will keep her mouth shut.

If Bae Joo-hyun doesn't want to talk about it, she will change the subject and will not bring it up in front of her friends.

"I know what you want to ask. Although I admire Dr. Lin because I admire strong men, I have only been in the industry for two years. I don't want to have a relationship right now."

The voice was clear and firm, without any hesitation or haste. Bae Joo-hyun turned sideways and looked into Lim Nayeon's eyes. Her eyes were clear and transparent, and she was indeed not hiding anything.

“I think those are beautiful things, and I want them too.”

Suddenly, the wind started to blow again, and it grabbed Bae Joo-hyun's hair and swung it away like a sword, separating her and Lim Na-yeon's sight.

Unable to see Bae Joo-hyun's eyes or hear her voice, Lin Nayeon took a half step back. The cold wind made her ears hurt, but Bae Joo-hyun seemed to not feel anything at all. She stood in the wind, blending into the wind, motionless.

"What a coincidence. Good evening."

In the sound of the wind, Lim Nayeon heard another voice appear.

It's that person.

Then, the wind gradually subsided.

(End of this chapter)