Beidiao Workplace Illustrated Book

Chapter 169 Summer 2018 (1)

Chen Mo dialed Gao Hao's phone: "Brother Gao, I wrote a song called "Walk Through Nanjing". I'll send you the lyrics and music. How about it?"

"Okay." Gao Hao replied.

After reading the lyrics and music written by Chen Mo, Gao Hao was very excited: "Chen Mo, the lyrics are very well written, and the music all reveals the ups and downs of sadness. It can be said that I have mixed feelings. Compared with the songs you wrote before, this song The writing of lyrics and music has made great progress, are you broken in love?"

"how do you know?"

"Only a broken-hearted person can write such a sad song."

"Yes, lovelorn, written to Wu Xiaotian, we finally broke up, alas" Chen Mo sighed long.

"I understand. You have finished writing the lyrics and music. Leave the rest of the arrangement to me. I will make a demo first. When you are free, come to me to record the song."

"Okay, Brother Gao, thank you, thank you very much."

After hanging up the phone, Chen Mo felt more comfortable in his heart. If in BJ, there is really someone who can understand him, it seems that Gao Hao is the only one. He can understand the songs he wrote, he will arrange his songs, All the emotions in Chen Mo's heart are integrated into the arrangement, so they will write a song, a song that represents Chen Mo's different experiences and emotions at each stage.

"Walking Through Nanjing" is the sixth song Chen Mo wrote after coming to BJ, after "Goodbye, My Hometown", "Too Long Memories", "Someone's Love", "BJ Summer", and "Looking for". A song written for Wu Xiaotian.He put all his feelings and past towards Wu Xiaotian into this song "Walking Through Nanjing". He didn't know whether he loved Wu Xiaotian or not, how much?But this time, after two years, he wrote a song for a girl very hard for the first time, so he must have loved it, at least he loved it then, at least he loves it now, at least this paragraph Feelings are really hard for him.

In front of my eyes, the past reappeared again. I returned to BJ from Nanjing, sat on the subway line 13, and the subway drove to Xierqi Station. Wu Xiaotian asked: "Chen Mo, if one day we broke up, what would you do?"

Chen Mo replied: "I will carry my bag on my own and travel, to faraway places, to cities I want to visit but have never been to."

But now, they really broke up, and there was no room for redemption, so would he really pack his bag and travel far away alone as he said at the beginning?

The previously rented apartment has been rented out again after the roof has been installed with fire protection equipment. Chen Mo and Xiaolong have also moved out of the apartment they shared together. Before, they had to squeeze into the same bed. Now, the two Each of them rented an apartment and started their own lives from then on.

I thought that Chen Mo could sleep peacefully at night after escaping Xiaolong’s snoring at night, but he often suffered from insomnia, and even suffered from insomnia for a whole night. When he woke up at six o'clock, he didn't know why he couldn't fall asleep even though he was very sleepy and exhausted. The whole nervous system seemed to be disordered.Whenever night falls, all kinds of scenes with Wu Xiaotian before will emerge in his heart. His heart is full of remorse and regret. The more remorse and regret, the more he can't sleep.

There are too many things hidden in my heart, too much sadness and sadness, too much remorse and regret, that's why I can't sleep at night. Whenever the dawn dawns, Chen Mo will squint for a while, and then A broken dream, and woke up again in the dream.

The long nights made Chen Mo feel painful and unbearable. He didn't know when such days would be the end.He seemed to be suffering from severe depression, coupled with severe insomnia, and from time to time he remembered what Wu Xiaotian said to himself that day: "Chen Mo, why don't you die, I hope you die, die."

Waking up in the morning, Chen Mo looked at himself in the mirror. He had already burst into tears. Tears are the most worthless thing in the world. He cried at night and in the morning, as if he would never be able to cry his tears dry. Looking at himself with rosy eyes: "You don't want to die, if you die, you will be free." But in the bottom of my heart, someone said to him: "Chen Mo, you have to be strong, life will get better, everything will be fine , you have to live bravely."

Chen Mo drooped his head and slapped himself a few times. He wanted to wake himself up completely. He was afraid that he would do something stupid. His spirit can be excited immediately, and he often has to wash his hair in the morning, rinsing his hair with icy cold water.But every time he washes his hair, he finds that he has lost a lot of hair. Those fine hairs, like the feelings and memories of the past, are washed down the sewer by the foamy water, but the hair can be washed away, but the memory can't be washed away. It can't be rushed away, but it is like a flood of beasts, devouring Chen Mo time and time again in the sleepless nights.

Having survived the difficult April, and the May Day holiday is coming soon, Chen Mo has always wanted to go to Shanghai, but he has never been to Shanghai.It's like he always wanted to love someone well, but he never seemed to really love someone.Love may be beyond his control, but travel is always under his control. This time he finally made up his mind to go to Shanghai.

Why does he want to go to Shanghai?Because of the four cities of Beijing, Shanghai, Guangzhou and Shenzhen, except for Shanghai, BJ has lived for nearly two years and Guangzhou for nearly a year.Shenzhen is also because I worked in Guangzhou before, and I have been there many times on business trips.He wanted to take a tour of the four most prosperous cities in the north, Shanghai, Guangzhou and Shenzhen, and take a look at them all.He still remembers the photo taken by Dafeng and Xiao Chen standing under the Oriental Pearl Tower when he was showing off his manicure. He still remembers the Bund in Shanghai and Nanjing Pedestrian Street he saw from other people’s circle of friends. He wanted to go there. Take a look, go for a walk.Go and see the bustling night view outside the Bund, the bright Oriental Pearl Tower, and those European-style buildings on Nanjing Road Pedestrian Street.

The familiar voice sounded again: "Chen Mo, if one day we broke up, what would you do?"

"I will pack my bag alone and go far away, where I want to go."

In front of Wu Xiaotian, he always seems to keep his word, and it is precisely because of this that Wu Xiaotian has always looked down on him. This time, he will be a person who keeps his word, a person who makes people look down on him.

In the past, he was always envious of others, those who traveled everywhere.But even more, I feel that spending my hard-earned money on travel is really a waste.He is always so stingy, stingy to others, even more stingy to himself, never willing to spend money on travel, the only time he spent was the trip to Nanjing.

What does he feel that he is working so hard to make money now?For yourself every sleepless night?Wanting to die because of my own depression, but still guarding this city every day, guarding this small apartment the size of a palm?He is always so stingy, always so unwilling to be self-willed, indulgent, and follow his own wishes.Every penny spent is always calculated carefully and always counted.

Where did this kind of stingy thinking come from? Chen Mo knew in his heart that this kind of thinking was inherited from his parents, and from the atmosphere of a rural child in his bones.But this time, he finally decided to spend some money for travel.He wants to toss, he wants to consume, he wants to break through his original thinking, and he wants to change his original cognition.If you are broken in love, you should go on a trip. If you are in a bad mood, you should go for a walk to relax. For yourself, it is also for the original sentence.

He wants to go to a city that he wants to visit but has never been to, to see the scenery in that city, and then he can let go of the past and forget the past.Even if the whole plan is futile in the end, it doesn't matter, because as long as you travel all the way here, as long as you follow your inner thoughts, it doesn't matter what the final result is.As long as people have experienced what they should experience, what they want to experience, and what they are caught off guard, it is already a great breakthrough from zero to one.As for the result, everything is left to time and to God.

(End of this chapter)