Beidiao Workplace Illustrated Book

Chapter 170 Summer 2018 (2)

During the May Day holiday, Chen Mo took the high-speed train from BJ to Shanghai.In his memory, this is the first time he bought a high-speed rail ticket at his own expense to travel hundreds of miles away.A high-speed rail ticket costs 500 yuan, which is 1000 yuan for a round trip. Before changing it, he would not spend this money, because he would never be willing to pay thousands of yuan out of his own pocket for travel.But this time was different. He felt that the money had to be spent, that it was worth the money, and that the money should be spent.He even lost the person he liked, he even lost that inseparable relationship, so what is this 1000 yuan?

People and feelings are nothing compared to money. Was it because Wu Xiaotian wanted to leave him because he was poor?Was it because he was reluctant to spend money on Wu Xiaotian?Didn't Wu Xiaotian think he was stingy?Even if he is willing to spend money for Wu Xiaotian now, he doesn't need it anymore.

There are many differences between people, and the concept of money is only one aspect of it. It is a side reaction of a person's thinking and cognition, knowledge and pattern.In the past, Wu Xiaotian always said to himself, Chen Mo, you are too stingy, you are not only poor, but also mentally poor.Yes, he is ideologically poor, because he has suffered from poverty since he was a child, and because his grandparents and parents were all born in poverty.He still remembers what his mother always said before, when he married into your Chen family, he was famously poor in the village, and the poor ranked No.1.Because they are poor, their parents have always saved their expenses.Because of poverty, my father has always been stingy and caressing about everything.Under such precepts and deeds, in such a growing environment, how could the young Chen Mo not be poor?How can there be endless thoughts?Even if he develops in the future, will the things in his bones, the seeds planted in his heart since childhood, change?

But this time, he wanted to change.He dislikes his past self, and he wants to get out of the poverty and narrow thinking that has been haunting him.

The high-speed rail exited BJ South Station, went all the way south, and sped forward.He thought of a lot of the past. When he was with Xiaoxiao before, he felt that Chen Mo liked to calculate and care about everything. He would feel distressed for a few hundred yuan for a meal. People will leave him.After breaking up, he thought about traveling alone. At that time, did he have money?Rich, he was not poor at that time. Although he graduated only half a year ago, his monthly income was more than 1 yuan, and he had saved 4 to [-] yuan by the end of the year.But he didn't have the determination and the courage to travel at the beginning.

Later, when we were together with Li Xiaoying, we also broke up and had sleepless nights. At that time, he also wanted to go to a distant place, to Nanjing, but did he have money at that time?Right, when he was fired by that media company, didn't he give him two months' compensation?At least he had the ability to spend a few thousand dollars to travel, but he didn’t have the courage at that time. He lived in the apartment in Xiaoxinzhuang, Pingxi Prefecture every day, staying at home, and only returned home for the New Year after a month of suffering.

What about this time?Does he have money?He is really not as rich as the previous two times. He is now burdened with car loans, and his monthly income is only more than 7000 yuan.Excluding the repayment of the car loan and paying the rent, there is only 3 yuan of income left every month, and he is only willing to spend more than 1000 yuan for living expenses every month. He has to save the rest of the money. Why save it?buy a house?Marry a wife?But with this little money, can he afford a house?Can he marry a wife?What's more, after separating from Wu Xiaotian, will he still meet the person he wants to marry?

The high-speed rail continued to gallop, and the farmland along the way began to appear. Chen Mo had a special feeling for the farmland.When he was young, he often ran around the fields with his parents. He had a strong sense of familiarity and intimacy with the farmland. He always defined himself as a farmer like his parents. How could a farmer be willing to spend money and time to travel? ?But now he is willing to, but has the courage to travel.He really changed from a quantitative change to a qualitative change. Why did his pattern and thinking suddenly become enlightened?Who gave him courage?Who gave him this determination?And who made him dare to break through himself like this, to do what he wanted to do several times but failed to do.

Is it the depression in your heart?Is it one sleepless night after another?Was it his mind that was already on the verge of collapse?Is it because he feels that he will not be able to hold on any longer?

Chen Mo doesn't know the answer, the answer is not important, what is important is that he is on the road now, he is already on the road.

He closed his eyes, wanting to rest for a while, to squint for a while, and to sleep for a while.For nearly a month in a row, he never slept for more than three hours at night. The quieter and darker the night, the more he couldn't fall asleep.The bright light on the high-speed rail, the galloping sound of the magnetic repulsion on the high-speed rail tracks, the crowd walking in the carriage and chatting in a few words, made him feel safe and drowsy. After all, people are not made of iron. If you don't sleep, you will naturally feel sleepy during the day.

After squinting for a while, I looked at the scenery outside the window again. It seems that the high-speed rail has left Hebei and passed Shandong. In two hours, I will arrive in Shanghai.

In the evening, Chen Mo walked on the Bund, looking at the bustling crowd, the bright neon lights in the distance, the dazzling light of the Oriental Pearl Tower, the rolling water of the river, the surface of the river was sparkling, and the cruise ships were shining. Driving slowly past the colorful lights, he suddenly felt much better. He finally came to the city he was thinking of, and saw the scenery he had seen from other people's circle of friends. All the depression in the past few days can be poured out. If there are not too many people around, he really wants to shout a few times to the lights on the other side and the rolling river, so that all his bad emotions will be released. All the depression is released to the fullest.

Walking on Nanjing Road Pedestrian Street, there are still bustling crowds. Chen Mo looks at the European-style buildings on both sides. The marble is carved into various patterns, and the orange lights shine on it. It is solemn and solemn, but also full of romance and mystery. I really want to Let people walk in to see what is going on, and explore the layout of these magnificent buildings.A huge ancient clock hangs on the roof of the building, as if time can record everyone who walks here, every word they say, and everything that happens can be permanently remembered by the ancient clock.Chen Mo stared at the ancient clock, stopped to think, if time can be turned back, when and where should it be turned back?At this moment, where should he be and who will he be with?
During the few days of vacation, Chen Mo walked all over the streets and alleys of Shanghai. He ate authentic Shanghai steamed buns. Standing under the Oriental Pearl Tower, he looked up at this landmark building, as if he saw the era of reform and opening up.He was walking in Jingzifang, and the bustling crowd made him suddenly want to love life and embrace the present.He went to the Drama Academy in Shanghai. Standing at the gate of this school, he took a few photos. This is the school he yearned for, and he has been here now.

This is his trip alone, this is his first trip after breaking up in love, how much he wants to find someone to accompany him, and share the prosperous world in front of him with him.But he didn't have any friends in Shanghai, and suddenly he remembered that there was a netizen on his WeChat who he hadn't contacted for a long time. He had chatted with him before, and that person seemed to be a girl of his age, a makeup artist, single, or a Beauty.Chen Mo sent a message to the other party, saying that he came to Shanghai and wanted to make an appointment with the other party, but the other party replied simply: no time.

Think about it too, people who have never met before, who would have the heart to meet you?

(End of this chapter)