Beidiao Workplace Illustrated Book

Chapter 322 Spring 2022 (5)
I want to redefine my life

This is the first article in May 2022. At this time, BJ is already in full bloom.No matter how difficult it is, we can prosper a country, and the forward development of human society seems to be like this, and we will eventually accept any hardships and ups and downs that this world gives us.

I changed a new job at the end of April, and started to enter the new company step by step to start a new journey. In addition, this year's plan is also advancing in an orderly manner. Last year, I realized many of my dreams. , to travel, to learn to dance, to love sports and insist on running, to create and complete new novels, to read some new books, to reshape an ideal life.And this year, I want to redefine my life.

I feel that last year, I was really restless, and followed my heart unscrupulously and started to go wild all over the world. In fact, I concluded later that throughout last year, I was exporting things. For example, I completed two films of 30 each. I have written a lot of proses in the novels "BJ Programmer" and "Traveling Lover" with 80 words. The words I wrote last year totaled nearly [-] words. This is the output of my own writing process and the output of my own thoughts.

Last year, I spent two months traveling to XZ and other places, visiting eleven provinces in the north, west, and northwest.This is actually outputting, outputting my time and energy, outputting my curiosity and pursuit of new things. This output is also rewarding, because you have traveled a lot and seen a lot of scenes. Cognitively, there has been a great improvement.

So after returning to BJ from XZ, I began to return to real life, and reviewed and reflected on my past year. I felt that my previous output was a bit too much, and I felt a little overdrawn physically and mentally. I couldn't help feeling a little anxious and panicked.If a person just walks blindly without thinking, then he will never grow in a real sense. I hope that I can be a person who can learn and grow for life, so when I return from the journey, I start to study quietly. Especially when I read some books that I have never dabbled in before, it is during this process of reading that I add some scenery I saw on my previous travels and some insights on the road, and I have a good understanding of the contents of the book. , I actually came up with a lot of ideas that I had never had before. This kind of idea can be summed up as, I want to redefine my life.

This redefinition of life stems from some works about Schopenhauer I read last year. I first knew this person because I overheard a famous quote from him. Schopenhauer’s definition of life is summarized as: life In fact, it is like a pendulum, swinging back and forth between boredom and pain, and its driving force is desire.When I heard this sentence, I felt that this sentence was like a bolt of lightning, so I started to read Schopenhauer's works, such as "The Wisdom of Life", "Positive Thinking of a Pessimist" "etc.I wandered in Schopenhauer's world of thought, unable to extricate myself.I feel that every sentence in his book can go straight to the depths of my heart, making me hate each other, like knowing a friend.Then, I started to read Freud's "The Interpretation of Dreams", and some original novels of famous film and television dramas, such as "Xiao Min's House" by Yi Bei, "Da Jiang Da He" by Anai, "Female Psychology" by Bi Shumin. Master, Liang Xiaosheng's "The World" and so on.Reading can calm me down and allow me to enter different worlds one after another, precisely because I have seen different worlds and met different people.I began to feel more and more that I needed to improve, I needed to change, I needed to calm down to settle myself, and I needed to redefine my life.So if you don't know how to redefine your life, you might as well read Schopenhauer's works, maybe his words will wake you up and make you re-examine yourself.

So at the beginning of this year, I re-edited the plan I made at the beginning of the year. I deleted the complicated and simply determined my new year, key plans and goals.

At the beginning of February this year, I made a bold plan: postgraduate entrance examination.

This society has higher and higher requirements for people, especially young people. Education and knowledge may not define everything about a person, but in a sense, it can define a person's knowledge. For example, I am reading "Da Jiang Da He" When he was young, Song Yunhui in the novel was a child born in the countryside. He studied all the way by himself, and finally won the gold list, which changed the fate of himself, his parents and his family.With my hard work in the BJ workplace in the past few years, I have increasingly found that society or companies have higher and higher requirements for employees, and education is a very important aspect. I also feel from the beginning of this year that I have always been I am outputting my own thoughts and outputting my own works.Many creations or ideas have no teacher.To this day, since I graduated from university in 2015, although I have never given up on my own reading and learning, in fact, after leaving the university campus, I have not received systematic and detailed teaching from others, let alone in a certain field. Or some kind of theoretical study of professional knowledge systematization.I think, I should accept a new subject, accept remaking, and accept returning to a higher institution of learning, so that I can learn and grow in a real sense no matter where I come from. And self-study is always behind closed doors, you need to listen to people who are more knowledgeable than you to preach, and you need the advice and enlightenment of the masters.I want to redefine my academic qualifications, redefine my knowledge, and redefine my level of education.

So, at the end of last year, I planned to take the postgraduate entrance examination. I applied for the postgraduate entrance examination class of Offcn Education at the beginning of this year. After I passed the exam preparation, I could be admitted to a master of public administration in a 211 university in the BJ area. So from the beginning of February to the present, this For three months, I listened to online classes after work every night, got up early in the morning to memorize English vocabulary, and rarely went out on Saturdays and Sundays. I used the time I could use to attend classes, study, and prepare for exams. In December of this year, in the national postgraduate examination, I was able to pass the ideal school.

Maybe I am not the smartest, maybe it takes me a lot of time and energy to take the postgraduate entrance examination, maybe I may not be able to pass the exam after working hard for a long time, maybe it is not necessarily me who is rewarded by God.But I am not afraid, what I sow will reap what I want, even if I try my best in the end, the result may not be able to achieve what I want, but I will never give up if I am firm in my goal, not twice once, not three times twice, because I think What you are doing now is meaningful and has a goal. Since the goal is clear and the effort is meaningful, why not try your best?Only in this way, through your own efforts, you complete a longing but difficult plan, and get results that can change yourself, and even change your destiny and life, can you redefine your life.What's more, during the whole process of preparing for the exam and listening to the lectures, I found that what I learned, especially mathematics, was very interesting. It seemed to awaken some kind of memory from my middle school days. After taking the title, I have a strong sense of accomplishment and joy, and this feeling is an inexhaustible motivation to support me to continue to work hard and persevere.

So this year, the postgraduate entrance examination is my most important plan. In order to focus on important things in my limited time, I cut down my writing plan for this year. For example, I planned to complete three novels this year, but this year I only wrote one The first novel "Beipiao Workplace Illustrated Book".This novel has written more than 3 words so far. I only spend half a day on Saturday and Sunday each week to write some, and I can complete six or seven chapters a week, which is about 20 words. Regarding the requirements of this novel, I plan to do it this year. At the end of the year, the manuscript was completed with about 1.5 words.Compared with my previous creations, I get up every morning and night to write novels, and I can write nearly 50 chapters a week.I usually finish a 30-word novel in a month or two.But now, my morning and evening, I have to make concessions to the preparation and review of the postgraduate entrance examination, because I want to redefine my life, the postgraduate entrance examination is a short-term goal of redefining life, and writing is the long-term goal of defining my entire life.

This year, I have become more and more fond of reading books with deep thoughts. I have completely abandoned the chicken soup for the soul of Zhang Jiajia, Dabing, Lu Sihao, Zhang Haochen, and Liu Tongping that I liked a few years ago. The writers I like now are no longer It is those young writers, but writers like Schopenhauer, Freud, Liang Xiaosheng, Wu Xiaobo, Bi Shumin, whose works can arouse my liking and resonance, such as my current writing, no longer Just like a few years ago, it is full of sadness and melancholy, because I have been constantly redefining my life, so that my thinking level is constantly improving, and the works I create later are also more nutritious.

I am glad that last year, I was able to let myself do my best to continue to output, and only this year, I was able to calm down to study, go to the postgraduate entrance examination, let myself input knowledge and accumulate myself, and let myself have a good understanding of future life and life. I have a deeper thinking and understanding of life, because I feel that since a person comes to this world, he must live a different life, so I sneer at those who only know how to eat, drink, enjoy themselves in time, and have no ideals.If you are unwilling to be content with the status quo, unwilling to be mediocre, and want to change yourself, then you should set a plan and goal for yourself to redefine your life. You must know that you must read a lot of books, walk a lot, watch A lot of scenery, know a lot of people, experience a lot of things.In this way, life is not wasted.

Liu Haifeng

Sunday, March 2022, 5
Yu BJ
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