Beidiao Workplace Illustrated Book

Chapter 324 Summer 2022 (2)

Only in BJ did I know how ordinary I am

Recently, every day has been extremely busy, and I feel that the eyes are closed and opened, and the day passes like this.Then the five-day working day ended, and one week passed. Saturday and Sunday are what I look forward to the most, because in two days, I can put down my work and devote myself to my love.

I work at sunrise and return at sunset every day, and the days seem to be ordinary. In recent days, I suddenly feel emotional in my heart, feeling that my life is too ordinary.

Maybe the word "ordinary" is the true portrayal of most people's life. Some people don't pursue any grandeur in life, and they are willing to live a relaxed and happy life in ordinary days.I used to sneer at this kind of thinking, until later, I gradually reversed my prejudice against the secular world, and began to accept different people and different ideas in this world.

A friend told me that he has a friend who has been working in BJ for several years, and what he pursues every day is hedonism. Since he is doing sales, his monthly performance is not bad, and sometimes it can reach [-] to [-] My monthly income, when it was low, was ten or twenty thousand.But after so many years, this buddy has not saved any money, nor has he purchased any cars or houses, and his life is still the same as it was a few years ago.In the final analysis, he likes to eat, drink, have fun, and spends [-] to [-] on food and drink every month. It can be seen that no matter how much money you earn in BJ, but the money is like running water, it will be nothing in the end .

I asked my friend, has your friend changed over the years?Or is there any improvement in other aspects?My friend answered me, no, day after day, that buddy wanted to get a driver's license a few years ago, and then bought a car.As a result, Ke Yi failed to pass the test a few times, and finally gave up the driver's license test altogether, so now he doesn't even have a car, and nothing else has changed.Work is also wobbly, each job does not exceed one year, changing jobs and jobs, has never been stable, except for sales and lip service, he has no other skills, oh, there is another skill, that is, the ability to drink , like to drink.

If a person stays in BJ for many years, in addition to practicing the martial arts of drinking and developing the habit of eating, drinking and having fun, other than that, there is no improvement in work skills and personal abilities, and there is no money saved. .Then I think that this kind of life is actually meaningless, at least not what I am after.This kind of life and life may be what he has been pursuing, or he has never pursued anything at all.A few years later, he is still the same. Ten years later, I don't know what he looks like, will he be better than now?I have no idea.

There are actually a lot of people like this in BJ. I have met and seen many of them. They like to play games, enjoy life, drink, eat and socialize.In addition, there are not many pursuits and goals. Some women like to spend all their time in the kitchen. They are busy with the kitchen every day, busy with the furnishing of the house, and keep the house spotless, but she is very happy. Enjoy that busy time.Some men like to play games, day and night, in the dark, only in the game, will make him very comfortable and relaxed.Some people like to go shopping, like shopping, like luxury goods, like all kinds of social activities and parties.

In the past few years in BJ, I have met all kinds of people, and I have also walked into their lives and circles, but I know that I am not the same as them, and I cannot integrate into their circles and lives.Therefore, I gradually stayed away from these people and returned to my original life, because people will eventually find their yearning after going through a tortuous road.

I was not used to their life before, but later I learned to accept it calmly and not to judge, because the environment in which everyone lived, the education they received, and the precepts and deeds of their parents are different, so everyone has their own choice. The right to life, everyone has their own three views and the way of being in the world. We have no right to define, control or change others, and others cannot change us externally.So, I finally chose to part ways with those who have different ways, and then follow my inner thoughts and be myself.

In the past few years, with the changes in my family and the growth of age, as I have experienced various gifts and baptisms given to me by the melting pot of BJ, the roads I have traveled, the books I have read, and the people I have loved, All of them subtly gave me a big change in thinking.I always think that people should pursue something. Every year compared with last year, we should make progress and growth, improve and change. Although our life may be destined to be ordinary, I don’t want to spend this life in an ordinary way. , I don't want to waste my youth in these few years in those ineffective social interactions, drinking and drinking, and virtual games, and I don't want to lie down in this life.Therefore, I am living very hard now, and sometimes feel very painful, but I believe that the current hard work and pain are temporary. If you want to be reborn from Nirvana, you must experience the pain at this time.

Looking back on the past few years, I feel that I will have new changes and growth every year, whether it is the income from work, or the ability to work, or the world I have seen, and the transformation of my thoughts.I feel that I have come to BJ for so many years, and I have lived up to my original purpose of coming to BJ. Even though BJ is a big dye vat, I have not forgotten my original intention, and it is getting better and better every year.

As long as you get better every year, then you have not lived in vain and wasted this year. Even if you have worked hard and worked hard all your life, it will be an ordinary life in the end, but you are worthy of the past. If you are worthy of every day you spent when you were young, then you will finally accept your ultimate ordinary without any regrets.

At the end of 2021, I read a book, "Dajiang Dahe" written by Anai, and then at the beginning of 2022, I read another book, "Female Psychologist" written by Bi Shumin. These two books The protagonists in all of them all interpret a truth, knowledge changes destiny, and people must have higher pursuits for themselves.I suddenly made a bold decision, I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination.The purpose and original intention of the postgraduate entrance examination may have a certain relationship with the authors of these two books or some content in the book, but the relationship is not limited to this, and may also have a lot to do with many ideas and long-term plans in my heart.

But no matter what kind of relationship and purpose it is, I think this year’s postgraduate entrance examination plan is a decision of great significance in my 30 years of life, and even a decision that will affect my life.Therefore, in the first half of this year, I was busy studying for the postgraduate entrance examination, attending classes and preparing for the exam.

Every morning, I get up at seven o'clock, memorize English vocabulary for an hour, and then go to work. After get off work in the evening, I listen to lectures for two hours. I often don't go out on Saturdays and Sundays, and study and review in the house.

But this year’s plan and goal is not just to take the postgraduate entrance examination, but to stick to the things I love. I started to write a new novel "Beipiao Workplace Illustrated Book" at the beginning of the year. This is a long novel that recalls my past. In half a year, Now I have written nearly 40 words, but the creation of the novel is not limited to this, it may be 60 words or more, because this novel contains all kinds of stories that happened after I came to BJ in the summer of 2015, the novel The end of the book should be written until the summer of 2022, that is, some of my stories in the middle of this year, a novel that carries all my past events for seven or eight years.

I want to make a good summary of the story of these eight years.Stopping at the intersection of life at the age of 30, looking back on the past eight years, is actually a very meaningful thing.You will connect all the stories that happened before, every detail of everyone in the story together, and then you can’t help feeling that everything seems to be God’s will, everyone you meet in your life, everything that happens, In fact, it is all destined, and it all happens according to your inner yearning.There is fate between people, even if it is just passing by, even if it is just a short hug, even if it is a long time of company, it is actually destined by fate, fate comes and goes, fate gathers and fate breaks up, it is all The brilliance that life gives you.This is like writing a script in advance. You are the protagonist in your life. Through contradictions and complex and changeable plots, you will act toward the script's destined ending.

This script was written by you alone in heaven. The reason why you chose this script is because you think this script is meaningful, so you can choose your current way of life in this world to open and close.

Because most of the time is used to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination, I only take time out to write this novel every Saturday and Sunday. The novel is written very slowly, but it will be finished at the end of the year, because I want to use this year's time , Say a good farewell to the past eight years, and in the novel, say sorry to those who have hurt you in these eight years.Make a reconciliation with those who have hurt me in the past eight years, and let go of those regrets and misses in the past eight years.After threading the past, I discover the truest self, and then move towards the script I wrote in heaven, and perform the rest of my life.Only in this way can my heart be completely quiet, and I will have more strength and energy to live the rest of my life, pursue the extraordinary in the ordinary, and become the person I aspire to be.

I feel that my current desires and pursuits are actually getting simpler and simpler. Work, reading, writing, and exercise, other than that, I don’t have any distracting thoughts. Those things that were irrelevant or destined to have no results in the past are rarely done now. , but a person's energy and time are actually limited. I feel that the past six months have passed really quickly. I haven't read a few books, haven't finished writing novels, and haven't fully prepared for the exam. It just passed by like this.

Even though the current life and work are full of many changes, even though I don't like the current life very much, I want to leave the city of BJ as soon as possible, bid farewell to the current life, and go to the distant place I yearn for.Even if there are all kinds of hills and valleys in my heart, but the reality is in a low valley, and I can't see the direction of the top of the mountain when I look up.But it’s okay, everyone has to go through the ordinary, the difficult climb from the bottom of the valley to the top of the mountain.As long as you are a person unwilling to be ordinary, as long as you are willing to use your life's hard work and struggle to change your own ordinaryness and the next generation's ordinaryness, you will be reborn from Nirvana, and you will grit your teeth and move forward even if you step on thorns.

Sometimes, bearing weight is also a choice in life.You have to be top-notch quietly, and then amaze everyone.

Liu Haifeng

Saturday, November 2022, 7
Yu BJ
(End of this chapter)