Beidiao Workplace Illustrated Book

Chapter 97 Winter 2016 (7)

The blood flowed for a long time before the platelets began to coagulate. Chen Mo wiped the blood on his chin and sealed the wound with a band-aid. He had already uprooted the large and small warts. He didn’t know that a few days later, he was pulled out by himself Will the wound heal, and will those nasty warts grow back after healing.

The night was long, and Chen Mo was lying on the bed alone. He felt lonely, depressed, sad, remorse, and extremely sad. Although the apartment had started collective heating, he still felt extremely cold in the whole room.

He wrapped himself in the quilt, and added a layer of quilt left by Li Xiaoying on the outside of the quilt, but he still felt cold, even with some fear in this cold, he was inexplicably flustered and at a loss.He wanted to buy an electric mattress, but it cost money to buy an electric mattress. After thinking about it, he decided to forget it.

Now, he is unemployed and also a lovelorn. He even feels that he is a person who has been abandoned by the whole world. His mood has reached the bottom and he begins to reflect on his past.

People only reflect on their previous mistakes when they are most depressed.

Thinking about last winter, I broke up with Xiaoxiao. Of course, I was also broken up. At that time, I was proud and arrogant. I felt that I was showing off my manicure. But at that time, I was stingy and had no structure, so I just Miss Xiaoxiao, that cold basement made me feel scared and uneasy, so that winter, I was so painful.

But now, after a year, I was still broken up. At the beginning, I went to Piaokai.com, opened my eyes, and felt how great I am, so I was defiant. After returning to BJ, I felt that Li Xiaoying was relying on me, and felt that Li Xiaoying had no ambitions. , I felt that I was realizing my dream, so I started to neglect Li Xiaoying, but when Li Xiaoying really left me, I was so full of sense of loss.

BJ's winter is really cold, my room is really cold, is winter used to break up?Is winter used to torture yourself?Chen Mo sighed in his heart, and now, he lost this job again, this job that he once found boring, this job that he had planned to leave a long time ago, but now, everything is one step earlier than he expected, Maybe God wants to punish him, God has already seen what he thinks in his heart, he wants to break up, God grants him, he wants to resign, the old man also grants him in advance.

A person who used to be arrogant, a person who used to be defiant, a person who once harbored dreams, but now in the dark night, he is huddled alone in a small dark apartment outside the Fifth Ring Road of BJ, shivering with cold, he It deserves it.

Chen Mo went to find Li Xiaoying twice, but Li Xiaoying always ignored her and told Li Xiaoying clearly that it was impossible for us. Although there was a Band-Aid on Chen Mo's chin, Li Xiaoying didn't seem to see it, let alone asked what happened to Chen Mo's chin. At that moment, Chen Mo knew that Li Xiaoying was indifferent to him.

In the north wind whistling by BJ, Chen Mo waited for Li Xiaoying all afternoon, he wanted to invite Li Xiaoying to dinner, he wanted to have a good chat with Li Xiaoying, but in exchange for Li Xiaoying's words: "Chen Mo, I don't love you anymore .”

"Why?" Chen Mo was puzzled. For the past few days, he had been waiting downstairs in Li Xiaoying's company like a dog every day, just to pray for Li Xiaoying's change of heart.

"There's no reason, I can't say, I just feel that I don't love you anymore." Li Xiaoying looked at Chen Mo seriously: "Actually, we haven't been together for long, and the foundation of our relationship is not very strong. I have completely let go of you. There is no need for you." No more entanglement."

Looking at Li Xiaoying's cold expression, Chen Mo felt her indifference towards him. At that moment, his heart completely died.

What right does he have now to pray for Li Xiaoying's change of heart?He is a loser, an unemployed person, a vagrant, and Li Xiaoying, no matter how bad she is, she still has a job and an income, but what about him, what does he have?All he has is a small, cold little apartment.

From Li Xiaoying's company to Xiaoxinzhuang, it takes nearly half an hour to ride a bicycle, but Chen Mo doesn't want to ride a bicycle, he just wants to walk, let the north wind blowing on his face in the dark night, like a slap fan Waking himself up, he walked along Huilongguan East Street towards Xiaoxinzhuang.

The wind was blowing, Chen Mo was panting, with a cigarette in his hand, in the long dark night, he looked like a lost dog, and he was indeed a lost dog. Abandoned stray dog.

After walking for nearly an hour, he finally reached the alley of the apartment. There was an old man selling candied haws on the road. Chen Mo looked at the bunches of candied haws wrapped in rock candy. That night, he was going to buy a bunch of candied haws for Li Xiaoying to bring back. home, but he didn't have one, and now, even if he bought a bunch of candied haws at this time, there was no Li Xiaoying at home.

He bought himself a bunch of candied haws and swallowed them hard. The candied haws were really sour. The sour Chen Mo gritted his teeth, but tears came from his heart. He walked to the door, took out the key to open the door, pushed the door open, and still It was dark and cold. He didn't turn on the lights, take off his clothes, and didn't wash his feet. At this moment, Li Xiaoying's words seemed to ring in his ears.

"Take off your coat and sit on the bed,"

"Can you wash your feet?"

"Mo, let's discuss something and go take a bath."

Chen Mo's tears flowed, and now, those exhortations in his ears, the warmth full of love, disappeared in an instant. It was him, he himself who destroyed his love, and Li Xiaoying's trust and trust in him. Hope, he blames no one, he deserves it.

Didn't he always want Li Xiaoying to take care of him?Well, now there is really no one to control him, and the life he had longed for without control has finally come true.

Although he was exhausted, he still couldn't fall asleep. When he was alone, he couldn't fall asleep peacefully. Chen Mo got up again and went to the supermarket downstairs to buy two bottles of white wine. He needed to anesthetize himself with alcohol so that he could Be able to fall asleep quickly, no longer think about Li Xiaoying, no longer think about all the pain and sadness before.

For a whole week, Chen Mo stayed in that small apartment and didn't go out. He didn't feel hungry or thirsty. He didn't eat anything for two or three days. At night, he poured white wine into his stomach and lay on the bed during the day. In a daze, for several days in a row, the whole person lost a lot of weight.

He was decadent, decadent like a sick dog, no matter how that dog used to run wildly, running wildly for dreams, running for love, but now, he even finds it hard to lift his eyelids.

Another week passed, and Chen Mo only went out twice, one time to buy wine, and the other time he felt a little hungry and went downstairs to buy finger pancakes.

He misses home and his mother, but he can't go home. There is still one month before the Spring Festival, and he goes home early. What will his family think?What would the people in the village think?He must have gone home early when BJ couldn’t get along anymore. A homeless man’s guilty conscience told him that he couldn’t go home. All he can do now is to get through this month and wait until the end of the month to buy a ticket to go home. , At that time, the name was justified, and no one would notice anything when I went home for the holiday at the end of the year.

For half a month, Chen Mo spent every day in decadence and loss, but fortunately, those warts that he took off miraculously disappeared, and a small scab formed on the lower right corner of his chin. In the past half month, the only thing to be happy about.

(End of this chapter)