Lingzi is not too cold today

Chapter 201

"Where are we going?"

Tang Fulin stood by the window, looking at the students who were walking out with suitcases.

"I plan to eat the braised chicken in the cafeteria later."

Ouyang Rui said calmly.

"You misunderstood me, Ouyang Rui, what I'm asking is our ultimate goal in this life."

"What are people living for?"

"For that, I will go to the cafeteria to eat braised chicken later."

Ouyang Rui said seriously.

Listening to this dialogue, Gongsun Jin couldn't help thinking of a seagull cartoon he had read in his previous life, "Go to the pier to order French fries".

Tang Fulin took out his mobile phone and looked at the dozens of dollars left in WeChat.

He wanted to buy materials for the postgraduate entrance examination, but he couldn't afford it.

Mom and Dad are asking him recently if he has found a job.

He said that he was looking for it, but he has not received a reply to the resume he submitted.

"Gongsun Jin, tell me, what is the meaning of life?"

Tang Fulin asked again.

Gongsun Jin also lost his patience, and calmly said: "If there is anything, you have to ask what it means."

"Then, this question itself is meaningless."

"So I don't want to answer you, because the question you asked doesn't make any sense."

In the past, he might have comforted Mrs. Xianglin seriously, telling her about the souls in this world.

But now, Mrs. Xianglin stood in front of him and asked him if there were souls in the world.

Gongsun Jin's answer should be no.

When a person dies, he is just a mixture of organic and inorganic substances.

"Is it meaningless? The meaning of life is such an important question, how can you say it is meaningless?"

Tang Fulin looked at him and continued to ask.

"Don't ask me, I don't have an answer here."

Gongsun Jin continued to shake her head and left the dormitory.

Tang Fulin tried to ask Lin Hui again.

Lin Hui put on his headphones, picked up a few books for the postgraduate entrance examination, and walked outside.

"Katie is going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and I will accompany her in the study room."

"Ouyang Rui?"

"I'm busy, don't bother me."

"You have time to ask this kind of question, why not send out an extra resume?"

Without looking up, Ouyang Rui picked up his resume and went out to attend the interview.

Tang Fulin lowered his head and sighed, and left the dormitory.

Pacing back and forth in the corridor, wandering like a ghost for more than half an hour.

When the students passing by looked at him, their eyes were a little surprised.

I always listened to him talking to himself in a low voice, sometimes laughing and sometimes cursing.

Afterwards, Tang Fulin left the dormitory building and started walking along the campus.

When passing by the artificial lake, he looked at the couples snuggling up to the shore, feeling a little envious.

He picked up his phone again and tried to send Wang Xuetong a message.

Seeing the red exclamation mark, he was at a loss for a moment, and stood there for a long time in a daze.

"What is the meaning of life?"

Standing by the lake, he tightened his collar.

In winter, the weather is already very cold.

He was still wearing the thin coat he wore in spring, with no thermal underwear or woolen sweater.

The shoes on his feet were sneakers, and the pants he was wearing were not fleece.

"It's so cold...I really want to buy some clothes."

With his lips moving, he looked at the price of winter clothes on Taobao, and then at the few dozen dollars left in his wallet.

Do you want to call your family and ask for money?
Forget it, every time I call to ask for money, I have to be told by my parents for a long time.

It seems like a sin to take money from them.

"Maybe life doesn't have any meaning."

Tang Fulin murmured.

The winter wind made his ears turn red, and his lips were bloodless.

"Haven't you finished thinking about your thesis yet? I have given other people's thesis task papers and opening reports to me. Why haven't you made any progress?"

The thesis teacher sent a message.

Tang Fulin drooped his eyelids and turned a blind eye.

"You'd better not get married in this life, save money for your younger brother to study and get married."

"If other girls seek you out, don't agree, just say our family is too poor."

Mom and Dad's words are still lingering in my ears.

"If you don't look at what you look like, Xuetong will like you?"

This was the voice of the man who answered the phone when he called Wang Xuetong last time.

"Stop thinking about boring things all the time, it won't change your life."

"These questions you're asking make no sense."

"If you don't prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination, you won't be recruited by the school, and you won't submit your resume. What do you want to do?"

This is the voice of my roommates.

Tang Fulin suddenly felt very tired. Countless voices piled up in his head, so crowded that his brain seemed to explode.

At this time, he suddenly thought of Dazai Osamu's "No Longer Human".

Lost the qualifications to be a human being, but feel like a clown all the time while alive.

Small, mean, meaningless.

"Yeah... my life is meaningless."

With that in mind, he began to take off his clothes.

The students passing by along the way saw his strange behavior and looked over one after another.

"What is he doing?"

"Do you have exhibitionism?"

"Don't look!"

The girls covered their eyes.

Under the watchful eyes of everyone, Tang Fulin walked towards the lake step by step.

Stepping over the aquatic plants in the shallow water area, step by step to the center of the lake.

The cold water covered his ankles, his calves, his knees, and his thighs.

The water in the lake pierces the skin like countless steel needles.

Tang Fulin felt an unprecedented relief.

"Come and help!"

"Someone is going to commit suicide over here!"

I don't know who suddenly yelled such a voice, and the nearby students gathered around.

……

Gongsun Jin was walking around the campus wearing earphones when he suddenly received a call from the class committee.

"Hey?"

"Are you in the dormitory now?"

"What's up?"

"Tang Fulin threw himself into the lake."

"what?"

Gongsun Jin was very surprised when he heard this.

This guy, why can't he think about it all of a sudden?
Have you had a hard time recently?Or is it too much pressure?
"He was rescued and is now in the infirmary. Is there anyone in your dormitory? Hurry up and get some clothes for him. He is freezing badly now."

"Oh well."

After hanging up the phone, Gongsun Jin went back to the dormitory.

Opening Tang Fulin's closet, Gongsun Jin found that there was not even a single piece of winter clothes in his closet, and it was full of thin old clothes.

Gongsun Jin thought about it, and took some clothes out of her closet.

He doesn't usually buy clothes, but Shi Qing always cares about him.

When the weather cools down, she calls and tells him to put on more clothes.

Whenever she has free time, she will come to see him at school and ask him about his recent life.

When I go home during the holidays, I can always receive the new clothes she bought.

Just like mom.

No, she is the mother.

Looking at the white sweater and fleece jacket in his hand, Gongsun Jin suddenly realized that he was very lucky.

After a while, the class committee knocked on the door of the dormitory room.

Gongsun Jin opened the door, and standing at the door was the class committee member whom neither the university nor he had spoken a few words to.

"Have you packed your clothes yet?"

"He didn't have any clothes. I picked some from my own."

Gongsun Jin said, and handed over her clothes.

The class committee looked at the luxury clothes that Gongsun Jin handed over, and thought of Tang Fulin's clothes, and couldn't help but feel a little emotional.

"Has he no winter clothes?"

"No."

Gongsun Jin opened Tang Fulin's wardrobe and showed him.

"Why didn't you see him when you applied for the subsidy?"

The class committee walked outside with the clothes in their arms, frowning.

"He had a lot of pride and didn't apply."

Gongsun Jin was walking beside, shaking his head.

"Has he lost his love recently? Or has he been hit by something."

The class committee asked.

"He doesn't have a girlfriend."

"Then have you noticed anything unusual about him recently?"

"Strange questions are often asked."

"He jumped into the lake three times, and we had two gym students struggling to pull him up."

"I took off my clothes for the first time, and after being rescued, I put on my clothes and continued to jump down."

Hearing what the class committee said, Gongsun Jin felt even more puzzled.

When I arrived at the school infirmary, the school doctor consulted inside.

The counselor Zhu Yan also came here with a solemn expression.

What I am most afraid of when I am a counselor is that such accidents will happen to students.

It doesn't matter if you fail a class or something. The students can't think of self-destruction for a while. This is a major teaching accident, and the counselors can hardly absolve themselves of the blame.

If the parents of the students come to the school to make trouble, the impact on public opinion will be very bad.

"Gongsun Jin, tell me about his recent situation."

The counselor came over and began to ask Gongsun Jin.

Gongsun Jin doesn't spend much time in the dormitory. She only stays in the dormitory for a while when there are classes in the afternoon and the lunch break is relatively short.

So what I can tell her is limited.

After a while, Lin Hui and Ouyang Rui were also notified to come to the school infirmary.

Lin Hui was still carrying a schoolbag containing materials for the postgraduate entrance examination, with a look of surprise on his face.

He lowered his voice and asked Gongsun Jin.

"What's the situation?"

"I threw myself into the lake."

Gongsun Jin said calmly.

"Ah? Throwing into the lake?"

The surprise on Lin Hui's face grew even worse.

Ouyang Rui was also a little depressed, and had to end the interview in a hurry after receiving a call from the counselor.

"Why can't he think about it?"

"Who knows? Maybe it's because you graduated, and the pressure is a bit high?"

Gongsun Jin didn't find it strange either.

The three followed the counselor into the infirmary.

Gongsun Jin thought that he was just in a bad mood for a while, and was about to speak to comfort him.

Then I heard what Tang Fulin said to the school doctor.

"My brain has developed its potential now, and my IQ is already higher than Terence Tao. I can foresee the future."

"There is no hope for this world, and there will be a big war in the future."

"I am the savior now. I walk in the holy river because I am the reincarnation of Jehovah."

Gongsun Jin was stunned when he heard this.

Ouyang Rui and Lin Hui also looked at each other, and fell into a daze.

At first they thought Tang Fulin was just joking, but slowly, they realized that his expression was extremely serious.

He wasn't joking.

"Since you are so powerful and smart now, can you predict what will happen tomorrow?"

The school doctor smiled helplessly, and began to use Tang Fulin's current thinking to communicate with him.

"The world is in danger of destruction, but there is a silver lining."

"You have to do what I say."

Tang Fulin looked at the school doctor with determination.

Gongsun Jin stood on the side, hesitant to speak.

Those who wanted to go to Tang Fulin didn't know what to say.

He thought it was absurd, illogical, and incredible.

But the reality is like this, so caught off guard.

"Flynn, do you still recognize us now?"

Lin Hui stepped forward and asked softly.

"Yes, you are Lin Hui."

"Then do you remember what happened to us in the dormitory?"

Lin Hui sat by the bed and told him everything that happened in the dormitory before.

Tell him everything in detail, and Tang Fulin remembers it very clearly.

Not like someone insane.

But the words he said now are unbelievable.

"There is a poster left by the previous class of students on the wall of your bed. Who is it?"

Lin Hui continued to ask.

"Audrey Hepburn."

"By the way, I suddenly remembered that Audrey Hepburn was my girlfriend in my previous life. I married her when I was 26 years old."

The more Tang Fulin talked, the more excited he became.

Ouyang Rui and Gongsun Jin looked at each other.

"By the way, I suddenly remembered something crucial, but I have to find my glasses."

"Glasses?"

"When he threw himself into the lake, his eyes fell. Go look for them."

After the class committee finished speaking, they took Ouyang Rui to the lake to search.

It was already evening and the sky was dark.

The visibility was not high. The two searched for Tang Fulin's glasses for a long time, but they saw some signs of struggle in the shallow water near the shore where the water plants were bent.

The class committee said that Tang Fulin threw himself into the lake there.

After a while, the director of the Academic Affairs Office and the school leaders also came to the infirmary.

"Is he broken in love?"

"Have you been on the phone with anyone recently?"

"What did you see?"

Like prisoners being interrogated, Gongsun Jin and Lin Hui recounted Tang Fulin's recent words and deeds one by one.

These were not enough, the two went back to the dormitory to tidy up Tang Fulin's things.

From his schoolbag, to books such as "White Night Journey" and "No Place in the World" that he usually reads, as well as sticky notes for taking notes, diaries to record his mood, records of browsers in the computer, and so on.

The high school classmates who recently called Tang Fulin on the phone, Wang Xuetong mentioned in the diary, and his thesis advisor.

The school leaders contacted them one by one. They didn't want to take responsibility and were worried about being entangled by Tang Fulin's parents.

"Doctor, what's the matter with him?"

Lin Hui asked.

"Yeah, I feel that my consciousness is very clear, and there is no problem in communicating. Why are you talking nonsense?"

Ouyang Rui was a little puzzled.

"This should be a megalomaniac."

The school doctor is a bald old man, and he started to popularize science for everyone.

Gongsun Jin was listening, also surprised.

It was the first time he had heard of this mental illness.

"People with delusional megalomania delusional about being supremely talented. Fantasizing about being incredibly smart, rich, powerful, and status."

"Driven by this idea, the patient's spirit will become fanatical, and even have some religious content, such as believing that he has guidance from God."

"He said that he is the reincarnation of Jehovah and that he can walk on water, that's why."

"Generally speaking, a disease like delusional disorder is likely to be caused by a developmental defect in infancy, and it may even be affected by genetic factors."

"Patients are usually partially detached from reality, and generally have a complete personality."

"If the belief he insists on is wrong, it may even conflict with social reality and cultural background."

"Then, can this disease be cured?"

Gongsun Jin asked.

"It's hard to cure."

"Even if there are mountains of gold and silver at home, it can't be done well."

The school doctor waved his hand and shook his head again and again.

"Delusion can be intermittent or persistent."

"But usually it will last a lifetime. There is currently no cure for mental illness. It is his nerves that have problems."

Gongsun Jin felt a little heavy when he heard this.

"Then... what is the cause of this disease?"

"Personality factors, family education, and growth experience are all predisposing causes."

"This type of patient does not have a certain status in society, but thinks that he is strong in everything. In fact, he has low self-esteem and uses exaggerated words to satisfy his inner desires."

"Extreme inferiority complex and depression, if things go on like this, the human brain will produce a response similar to a compensation mechanism."

"Patients have an exaggerated idea of ​​their own importance and capabilities."

"He will believe that he has an extraordinary life experience, or has a special background. Maybe he is a celebrity, maybe he has noble blood, or he is a messenger sent from heaven. The patient may feel that he has extraordinary abilities, or he may have special abilities. function."

The school doctor explained patiently.

The counselor sighed and contacted Tang Fulin's parents.

"His current mental state should make him unable to stay at school. Please contact his family and let them come to pick him up."

(End of this chapter)