Your Highness, the princess is going to paint your portrait

Chapter 184 Bondage
After Zhang Ruolian left, Jing Chun originally wanted to help Baicaotang clean up some things, but unfortunately Jing Chun didn't know those medicinal materials, and didn't know where they were organized, so they were persuaded by everyone to rest in the corridor of the courtyard.

Those apprentices wasted a lot of talking about Jing Chun today.

Jing Chun was sitting on a bench in the courtyard of Baicao Hall, which was a shady place under the hall, she just watched the sunlight passing under the treetops, the light seemed to fall through the water, a slightly cloudy weather.When it is projected onto the leaves, it is obviously out of focus but glowing with light, as if for the purpose of shining, so the brick red color of the flowerpot appears to be more stable.

Jing Chun leaned loosely against the corridor pillar, but he did not feel as relaxed as before when he was looking at the light and shadow. Everything in front of him seemed to be covered with a blue-gray filter.

Doctor Baili walked to Jing Chun's side, holding a cup of herbal tea in his hand, and handed it to Jing Chun.

"Doctor Baili..."

"It's those disciples who spent a lot of time talking about Miss Jing, asking the old man to bring a cup of herbal tea."

"Thank you, Doctor Baili."

Dr. Baili took advantage of the opportunity and sat down on the bench under the corridor. He saw the busy apprentices in the hall through the doors and windows, and said with a smile: "This is probably the benefit of raising some disciples. It can not only pass on the mantle, but also make you feel at ease."

Jing Chun heard something strange, so he asked, "Where is Dr. Baili's child? Is it the medical student?"

As he said that, Jing Chun looked around the hall, but he didn't see that the man looked similar to Doctor Baili.

"Child?" Doctor Baili laughed out loud after hearing this, "What do I want a child for?"

Although the words were correct, Jing Chun still felt that he had offended Dr. Baili, and was about to bow down to apologize, but was stopped by Dr. Baili with a wave of his hand.

"It's okay, it's okay, it's okay..." Dr. Baili looked at everything in the hall, and smiled faintly, "It's not a big deal to have no children, you don't know how comfortable I am alone, old man, waiting for these people to learn Well, old man, I can travel tens of thousands of miles with one person and one donkey, there is nothing wrong with that."

"What about Baicaotang? This is your painstaking effort."

But Dr. Baili said: "I can't take anything from Baicaotang with me after I die. Baicaotang is a medical center, and the inner essence is never profit? It's medical skills, heart, and wisdom. If those disciples can learn it These, in the future, I have a plan, so I can live a good life, I don’t need to worry about them, let alone the signboard of Baicaotang, my disciples are smart, and I will definitely create a far-reaching reputation than this old man in the future.”

Seeing Jing Chun's surprised expression, Dr. Baili smiled and said, "Perhaps you, a little girl, don't quite understand these things. Everyone has their own way. If you yearn for freedom, then pursue freedom. It's all up to fate, so let's let it go." Have fun with yourself."

"On the contrary, I understand the meaning of Doctor Baili's words," Jing Chun said happily: "I can't imagine that there are people who think the same as me in the world. Maybe Doctor Baili will think that I am not mature enough. This kind of thinking is just It is short-lived, but it is not the case in reality. I also think it is particularly important to pursue your own joy in life. There are so many people in the world who get married and have children. One more than me is not more, and one less than me is not more. If I can really find a path different from others Come on, it’s very unconventional.”

"What Miss Jing wants is a winding road to a quiet place?"

Jing Chun was stunned for a moment, as if he didn't understand what Doctor Bai meant by "winding paths leading to secluded places", so he asked, "Isn't it good that winding paths lead to secluded areas?"

Dr. Baili had seen countless people, and just by looking at his eyes, Dr. Baili knew what was going on in Jing Chun's mind.

Doctor Baili brushed his beard, shook his head and said with a smile, "Miss Jing is different from me."

"How is it different? Like Dr. Baili, I want to live for myself. Maybe that's not what Dr. Baili said."

"The reason for the difference is that the old man makes himself happy because he satisfies his own desires, but Miss Jing is restrained by her own desires in order to make herself happy, or in other words, Miss Jing chooses to walk out of a twist in order to be different from others. The reason for taking the secluded road is not to have the same experience as ordinary people, but not for my own happiness."

"I don't quite understand...am I a hypocrite?"

"Of course not," Dr. Baili explained: "If this old man can be in love with the woman he likes when he was young, and the husband and wife will be perfect for each other, or have a few more children, this kind of experience, this old man will also be gratifying. Girls are different, Miss Jing seems to have suppressed her desire for love in her heart...this requires more perseverance than ordinary people."

"Love?" Jing Chun suddenly felt a little funny and said, "But I have never experienced love, so how can I restrain it?"

Dr. Baili seemed to want to see through Jing Chun's mind, and asked, "Is it because she has never experienced love, or is Miss Jing forcing love into another explanation."

"what is that?"

Jing Chun frowned slightly, she seemed to understand Dr. Baili's words, but she didn't seem to understand.

"Only Miss Jing knows what it is, but according to my opinion, Miss Jing seems to be avoiding other people's good intentions. Miss Jing should be able to feel the kindness of others before she goes back to dodge. The love I experience is very limited, and I can't Whether this kind of dodge is good or bad is entirely up to Miss Jing herself."

Jing Chun did not deny this, just as Jing Chun dodged Cui Yi at Baicao Hall today. Although she was not the kind of person who took advantage of others, Jing Chun had troubled Cui Yi many times in the early days, so she naturally thought about what she could do to make up for it. But Jing Chun couldn't respond to Cui Yi's kindness as compensation.

Jing Chun replied indifferently: "Dr. Baili sees things very thoroughly. The authorities are confused, but the bystanders are clear. Dr. Baili is much more thorough than myself."

Dr. Baili smiled, "It's just that I'm older, or I can say that I have the same thoughts as Miss Jing, but time has passed, and everything is always more troublesome than I imagined. I understand some truth."

Jing Chun accepted this fact very calmly, and did not quibble to explain it to himself. Perhaps it is not a shameful thing to restrain one's desire, and this cannot be called a "hypocrite".

Jing Chun said sadly: "I probably understand what Dr. Baili means, and I also know that Dr. Baili's heart is to be comfortable with himself and put himself first. What kind of bondage is it, which bondage is beneficial to me, which bondage is harmful to me, or how should I break free from this bondage, and when will it be? Can everything I do now break free from the bondage... "

If we use modern thinking, Dr. Baili is the idea of ​​self-interest, while Jing Chun is the idea of ​​idealism. Although the two are somewhat similar, the meaning of realization is not the same.

　Did you dizzy yourself?
　　
　
(End of this chapter)