Yusui Chang'an

Chapter 1108 Moved to tears
Rebirth is too unbelievable. She is probably the only one in the world who has experienced this.

She couldn't explain it to her closest relatives, or she couldn't say it out loud, because just because of her little girl's infatuation, her closest relatives had to go through such a tragic ending. Whenever she thought of it, she would torture herself in her heart.

From her rebirth till now, she has been on edge every day, not daring to reveal a single word of her thoughts or ask for advice from others. It's funny to say, but most of her current cunning and scheming came from trying to figure out the deep meaning behind Chu Chengyao's words and deeds in her previous life, and she learned from him. For this reason, she often felt that she was disgusting.

But An Zhixian understood her, understood all her concerns, and knew what she wanted to do. Even if she had doubts, he never pressed her, and even if there were risks, he was willing to fulfill her wishes...

It was like a burden that had grown into my flesh, a burden covered with swords, a burden that only I could see, and suddenly someone discovered it, and without asking where the burden came from, they just stood shoulder to shoulder, risking being cut by the swords, and helped me hold it up...

An Zhixian was originally upset because Lin Jinyan had drawn a line between them. Seeing that Lin Jinyan remained silent after he finished speaking, he felt even more depressed. He wanted to pour more tea for Lin Jinyan to ease the atmosphere, but when he looked up, he saw that Lin Jinyan's eyes were red. He was immediately panicked and at a loss:
"What's wrong? Did I say something wrong? I... I just meant that even if I was discovered, I could save my life. Even if I left Kyoto, I still had you as my ally, which would also be beneficial to Mingye Pavilion. I didn't do this for you, so don't feel burdened and don't think too much..."

After he finished stammering and failed to appease Lin Jinyan, An Zhixian made her cry instead. He stood up in a panic and bowed to Lin Jinyan:
"I must have said something wrong, but I was so stupid that I don't know where I went wrong... Please don't be angry with me, miss. I will accept any punishment you give me."

Having never seen An Zhixian so helpless, Lin Jinyan couldn't help but burst into laughter. She wiped her tears with a handkerchief, but felt a little embarrassed. She drank a cup of tea before speaking calmly:
"I was just thinking about something else and scared Boss An. Please forgive me."

Seeing Lin Jinyan return to her usual self, An Zhixian couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. He sat down and poured hot tea for Lin Jinyan, then asked carefully:

"Miss, I'm glad you're alright. If I said anything wrong, please tell me and I'll apologize."

Lin Jinyan raised her eyes and saw that An Zhixian had a thin layer of sweat on his nose in a short period of time, and she couldn't help but smile knowingly;
"Don't be afraid of being laughed at by Boss An. I haven't cried on my own for years. I cried in front of others with the help of the powder made from Angelica dahurica. I thought my tears had dried up a long time ago, but I don't know why, but my tear troughs suddenly became shallow for a moment."

Although An Zhixian didn't know what Lin Jinyan was thinking, he felt relieved when he saw her smile. He couldn't help but think:

Did her tears run dry? When? Why did she cry? Who made her cry?

Before he could think about it, he heard Lin Jinyan speak again:
"Boss An, you know all the things I did. When I was nine years old, I used Zhu Dianhua to destroy Qin Zhixu's innocence. A few days ago, I used dirty means to destroy Qin Zhixu, causing her to be infamous and die. And Zhou Yuexue, I also used despicable means to make her stay with my cousin and the King of Jin. I also ruined Qin Zongheng's body and reputation and burned his house. And Xiao Siming... and many more sinful things, too numerous to mention. People like me will definitely go to the Avici Hell after death. It's really not worth being treated so well."