I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 638: Bridge of Tears
"You guys chat, I suddenly remembered that I forgot to turn off the gas at home."

In this situation, Xiao Zheng knew clearly that all he could do was to leave tactfully.

The responsibility as a wingman has been fulfilled, and Shura Field has finally reached the final moment.

No matter how things develop next, it all depends on the young master's own luck.

Xiao Zheng turned and left, taking the medical staff next to him away, leaving enough space for the three of them.

But he didn't go far, so if it was a Bad Ending, there would still be a chance to save people even if blood was splattered on the spot.

Thinking of this, Xiao Zheng cautiously glanced at the cuffs of the superstar's coat, fearing that she would pull out a shiny samurai sword from it and give this damn scumbag a just judgment.

However, no matter how dangerous the situation is, it is the young master's own choice.

No matter what, stand up straight and face it.

This is the transformation from a boy to a man, Master-san.

Xiao Zheng sighed in his heart, feeling that the wind in the mountains was blowing so unreasonably that it made his heart feel cold.

None of the three people who stayed behind spoke for a while.

The fallen leaves landed at my feet, making a slight "crackling" sound as they scraped against the concrete floor.

Chu Qingmian lowered his head and gently stepped on a leaf with his toes.

The whirling leaves made her feel a little dizzy. She thought she must have taken too much sedative and was probably dreaming.

Otherwise, why, after so much time had passed, was she once again standing on the rooftop where she had stood after the college entrance examination?
The same three people, the same silent and solemn atmosphere, and the same self who only wanted to escape.

Miss Chu is just kind and simple, but she is not stupid. Most of the time, she can sense Su Chengyi's wandering.

There are often missed calls, messages that are replied several hours late, and topics that we deliberately avoid talking about when we are together.

Chu Qingmian wondered, in those parts of his life when she was absent, would there be another person by his side?

It seems that this way, many things can be explained.

For example, when he looked at her, his expression would always be vague and his thoughts would wander, as if he was seeing someone else through her and thinking of someone else.

It was just that she foolishly gave him too much unconditional trust, wishfully thinking that he could handle everything.

Besides, on the other hand, she was also a little scared.

If she gets to the bottom of this, will the outcome be what she wants?

If the price of learning the truth is losing him, will she regret blaming herself for being too serious and impatient?

Chu Qingmian always felt that she was not brave enough.

In the past, when she encountered an extremely difficult physics problem that she had been working on for five minutes without any idea, her first reaction would be to run away.

It’s better to skip it and look at the following questions. A wise man never suffers a loss in front of him!

What's more, the question in front of her was so difficult that it seemed that if she was not careful, the wrong answer would ruin her entire life.

But now there is no way to escape.

Chu Qingmian lowered her eyes and felt as if countless transparent glass walls were blocking her way, forcing her to raise her head and face the fact that she had been avoiding for a long, long time.

But she still hadn't made any progress. Even at this point, she still didn't even have the courage to speak.

In fact, logically speaking, you can ask this question with confidence, right?

Chu Qingmian blinked and thought of many lines that would appear in melodramatic idol dramas.

"What is the relationship between you two?!"

"It seems that I came at the wrong time."

"Obviously I came first."

“It’s a movie about three people, but I can’t have a name.”

Ah, it seems to be the lyrics. It seems that I am really a little dizzy.

Chu Qingmian shook his head, feeling that just standing still required a lot of strength.

Chen Jinzhi stood in the wind, looking up slightly.

The fallen leaves were carried by the wind, floating from the withered branches to higher sky, then fell to the ground, tumbling a few times, and finally being picked up by another gust of wind.

They have no choice but to fly or fall.

Now this thrilling farce has come to its final ending. The security personnel in charge of investigating the scene have set up the prepared cordon, and medical staff are doing basic examinations with simple equipment.

Regarding this moment, Chen Jinzhi thought of many possible scenes, but none of them was as grand as the current one.

It was like a lengthy TV series of thousands of episodes announced without warning that today’s update would be the last episode. The final ending song sounded amid the falling leaves, the screen turned black, and the words “The End” slowly emerged.

So, what kind of song will it be?
When Chen Jinzhi thought of this, he suddenly raised the corners of his mouth imperceptibly.

It was very strange that when the ending that she was so afraid of finally happened, she was thinking about these unrelated things in her mind, and she couldn't grasp the main point at all.

There is a kind of therapy in psychology, the scientific name is called shock therapy.

That is, by directly putting the patient in the situation he fears, the fear can be eliminated by achieving the opposite effect when the extreme reaches its limit.

In simple terms, it means facing it repeatedly until you become desensitized.

Chen Jinzhi lowered his eyes and waited quietly for a while, and decided to acknowledge that this treatment was indeed effective.

That Christmas, when she first found out, she felt heartbroken, but she still held out a glimmer of hope.

However, every time she gained a clearer understanding, it was like a blunt knife cutting flesh, gradually wiping out her wisp of innocent hope.

There were countless moments of waking up from dreams, and every fictional and imagined possible ending was so unsettling that I could only stay awake through the long night, waiting for the day to dawn.

Chen Jinzhi couldn't remember how many nights like this she had experienced. Su Chengyi thought she took the medicine to help her sleep, but in fact, sometimes she just subconsciously resisted sleep.

Lulu always felt that she had scheduled too much work for herself and that her body could not withstand such pressure. She consulted a doctor with great concern and bought a lot of health products that were obviously a waste of money.

On the surface, Chen Jinzhi just smiled and said it was okay, but in fact, he had some selfish motives.

When you are working at a high intensity, it is difficult to think about those things. On the contrary, the moments of free time are even more difficult to endure.

For a while, Chen Jinzhi even wondered if this was the legendary retribution or disaster.

She must have done a lot of evil in her previous life, otherwise how could there be such a curse haunting her day and night.

She is not allowed to have a moment of joy, nor a good sleep.

Therefore, the filming of "The Awakening" was not actually hard for her, but rather like redemption.

Because when she plays the role of Jingzhe, she can temporarily forget that she is Chen Jinzhi.

Forget Chen Jinzhi’s boring life, forget how a perfect heart became full of holes, and forget Su Chengyi.

Perhaps because of this, she can stand here so quietly now, not like the protagonist of this triangle farce, but like a passerby who accidentally entered the set and had no idea of ​​the cause and effect.

However, in reality, it was her soul, which had practiced thousands of times, that chose to watch numbly, leaving only her body standing here to cooperate with the performance. It was hard to describe what it felt like, but at least, she could still stand here and wait for the final result.

In fact, she could continue to deceive herself as before, or even put everything aside, clean up the mess for him, and continue to cover up this lie full of loopholes for him.

But it seems impossible to do so, because I have seen the way he looked at another girl.

There is no doubt that it is the same love as hers.

Ever since he received the kidnapping call, his heart has never stopped thinking about it, and he no longer even cares about the so-called Shura Field.

This clumsy lie that he had been carefully repairing was abandoned in an instant because he realized that the other party was in danger.

So, everything that happened today was being told to her so clearly.

In his eyes, there is no difference between the two of you. He loves you as much as he loves another person.

After realizing this, Chen Jinzhi finally understood that her waiting these days was actually meaningless.

Because she will not be Su Chengyi's final choice.

He never thought about making a choice.

Su Chengyi looked away with difficulty, not daring to look at either of them.

If I were to describe this feeling, it would be like walking alone on a bridge with no shelter at all, under the scorching sun, in the hottest summer weather.

There is no way to retreat, whether going forward or backward. You can only stand where you are, with no way out.

Su Chengyi had actually imagined many scenes of the Shura Field eruption, and most of the materials came from the bloody soap operas he watched with Yang Liu when they were children.

For example, one morning, the heroine who was supposed to go on a business trip came home early, pushed the door open, and saw a very indecent scene.

Then the female characters started crying and fighting, and after the male protagonist was slapped a few times, he couldn't stand it anymore and shouted, "Have you had enough?"

In short, it was a mess.

Or maybe some stranger got hold of the key evidence of the hero's infidelity and secretly sent it to the heroine just to watch the fun.

Then the heroine was struck by lightning. She threw the evidence in the hero's face and asked him in a trembling voice what kind of stupid things he had done.

In this way, these plot developments are more in line with reality.

Things like kidnapping by a murderer and the choice between life or death are a bit too surreal.

However, reality is often more magical than drama, and such exaggerated things just happened.

Fortunately, everyone is safe, except for a criminal suspect who fell asleep.

Unfortunately, the Shura Field broke out completely without any preparation.

Su Chengyi really admitted defeat this time. He had no intention of quibbling and knew that it was impossible to fool people again.

If Miss Chu used her brain a little, she would know that Chen Jinzhi would not appear here inexplicably and become the other option inexplicably.

Not to mention Chen Jinzhi, she is so smart that she should have noticed it a long time ago.

That's why she acted so calm when the kidnapping started, because she already knew the relationship between Chu Qingmian and him.

Moreover, without her calm handling and seamless cooperation, the case would not have been solved so smoothly.

Although Su Chengyi knew all of this, he still didn't dare to think about it too much.

It is hard to imagine what kind of mentality she had as she spent those days, and what she was thinking when she stood in the position where she was about to be sacrificed.

After all, the Shura Field was extremely cruel to both of them.

But it is hard to tell clearly, which is more cruel to Chu Qingmian who has been kept in the dark, or to Chen Jinzhi who knows the truth but deceives himself.

Now that things have come to this, everyone knows who should really stand up and take responsibility.

Su Chengyi took a deep breath, and the red string of the lost peace locket made his palm hurt slightly.

But what to say?

"I'm sorry, I'm a scumbag, I deserve to die."

"I have been lying to you all this time, but I am sincere to you all."

"I'm probably not the only man in the world who is attracted to two women at the same time."

“You are all my wings.”

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These classic quotes from scumbag men floated through his mind like a barrage of comments. Su Chengyi turned his head and glanced at Wu Shaobo's body, which had been covered with a white cloth. The weapons he was carrying had probably been taken away.

To be honest, he was so shameless that he almost wanted to shoot himself.

However, before he had time to figure out how to break the stalemate, someone spoke for him.

"that."

Chu Qingmian's voice trembled a little, and her drooped eyelashes flickered gently like the fluttering wings of a butterfly.

"I think I'm not feeling well. I'm going to see a doctor. I'm, uh, fine."

Her voice became smaller and smaller, and by the time she finished the last sentence, it sounded like she was mumbling to herself.

Su Chengyi didn't expect that it would be Miss Chu who broke the deadlock first, but this time she still chose to withdraw.

Just like the scene on the rooftop after the college entrance examination, if it weren't for the white paint accidentally stained on her back, no one would have known the feelings she had hidden for many years.

In fact, at this time, it would be best if the two heroines of Shura Field were willing to separate, so that the hero at the center of the storm can continue to talk nonsense and deceive both sides with those clumsy lies.

As long as you continue to take advantage of their feelings and sincerity, you can always continue to deceive.

Until you can no longer deceive yourself, or you are struck dead by the thunder of divine punishment on the road, then it will be over.

Su Chengyi stood there, silent for a while, and waved to the medical staff waiting in the distance.

"She's feeling a little uncomfortable. It may be related to the overdose of sedatives. Please take her back for examination."

"Ok."

The medical staff responded nervously. They were brought here by the Chu family, and they all knew that the young lady in front of them was the top priority.

Chu Qingmian took a step back, never looking up at Su Chengyi.

"Then, I'll leave first."

"Take a rest first, I'll come find you later."

Su Chengyi raised his eyes and suddenly said:

"I will tell you clearly about everything."

(End of this chapter)