I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 639: Red String and Jade, Tie Your Sweetheart

What Su Chengyi said was "you guys", a resounding "you guys".

What this means is that he really intends to be open and honest and have a thorough reveal.

Part of the reason was that there was really no room for maneuver in the current situation, and the other part was that the secret of this Shura Field had been hidden for too long, and he felt that he had reached his limit.

Now that Wu Shaobo has messed things up so badly, even those who have survived the disaster no longer have the energy to fabricate and maintain lies.

Su Chengyi felt that if such a thrilling incident happened again, his psychological defenses would completely collapse.

Therefore, instead of continuing to deceive others, it is better to stop deceiving yourself and choose to face the final outcome.

In the final analysis, it was all his own fault, and it was time for him to pay for it.

After making up his mind, Su Chengyi said those words just now in a voice so calm that it was almost cold.

"I will tell you clearly about everything."

Everything, how this three-person Shura scene started, how he had managed to get to this day with a mentality of just getting by and living from day to day, and what was the final decision he had to make.

It is obviously not an easy thing to explain all this, so it is obviously better to be honest with them both separately.

".good."

Chu Qingmian finally raised her eyes and looked at him. There was a layer of mist in her eyes, so that Su Chengyi couldn't tell what she was thinking.

At this moment, she was actually grateful for the effect of the sedative, which made her reaction slower and the feeling of heartache came later.

When Chu Qingmian turned around and tried to leave, he realized that his knees were weak and he almost fell down.

The medical staff waiting on the side quickly surrounded her and supported her in time. Su Chengyi's outstretched hand stopped in mid-air for a while, and then silently withdrew it.

Chu Yuanjiang and Wei Peilan, who were waiting in the distance, had no idea what the three of them were talking about. They were just observing their daughter's condition worriedly. They were relieved when they saw that she was finally willing to go back to the hospital for a check-up.

Chu Yuanjiang walked over quickly and patted Su Chengyi's shoulder vigorously.

"Thank you, thank you very much."

He spoke word by word, and each word seemed to weigh a thousand pounds.

"If you need any help in the future, just ask. From today on, the Chu family owes you a life, and nothing you want is too much."

This is a promise from Boss Chu, and its importance naturally needs no further explanation.

Su Chengyi knew that even if he said at this time that he wanted to be the equity helmsman of Jinhai Group, Chu Yuanjiang would keep his word and agree to it.

However, this was not what he wanted.

"it is good."

Su Chengyi simply shook hands with him, but thought silently in his heart that even if Chu Yuanjiang was beaten to death, he would never agree to what he wanted.

Maybe they would hire someone to drown him in the new building of the Offshore Group, or maybe they would tie him up with bricks and throw him into the Yangtze River.

Wei Peilan also came over, still with no expression on her face, but Su Chengyi clearly noticed that she was a little unnatural.

Like a robot whose programming had gone awry, she seemed unsure of what she should say at this point.

"Thank you for saving my daughter. Just like her father said, whatever you want in return, we will do our best."

After a long while, she finally said a more official thank you message.

As soon as Wei Peilan finished speaking, Su Chengyi suddenly thought of something. He raised his eyes and looked directly at the two people opposite him.

At this time, the two of them did not look like the two who occasionally appeared on the cover of the news. The media would add a lot of prefixes before Chu Yuanjiang and Wei Peilan, such as entrepreneur, philanthropist, rich man, and successful person.

But at this moment, they are just an ordinary pair of parents, looking haggard and with no image management at all, and they are just extremely grateful that their daughter is safe.

They are willing to give up all their life's wealth and career efforts for the "hero" who saved their daughter.

However, Su Chengyi was not interested in this.

But at this moment, it seemed that there was something he could take advantage of.

"You two, will you give me whatever I want?"

Su Chengyi's eyes were clearly black and white, and his gaze was clear.

"Yes, as long as we can afford it, we can do it."

The two people opposite looked at each other and then nodded.

Since I have made such a boast just now, it means that I have made all the preparations.

After this kidnapping incident, Chu Yuanjiang deeply realized that he could start over again even if he lost his career. After all, he had experience, ability, and connections, so it would not be difficult for him to make a comeback.

But there is only one daughter in the world who I have raised from childhood to adulthood. If she is gone, there will never be another one.

Chu Qingmian is his most precious treasure. Chu Yuanjiang sighed deeply.

He finally realized that he should have put away those unnecessary ambitions long ago, because with such a perfect pearl-like child, he had already won too much.

"So, here's what I want."

Su Chengyi paused slightly, his tone calm and firm.

"I want Chu Qingmian's freedom."

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As soon as he finished speaking, the two people opposite him were obviously stunned.

The thing that countless people could not pursue in their entire lives was right in front of him. He could get it by just opening his mouth, but he acted so disdainful.

"No matter what happens in the future, no matter what kind of life she wants to live, you can no longer use so-called responsibilities and obligations to hold her hostage. She is absolutely free.

This is all I want.”

Su Chengyi calmly stated his request.

Ever since the last Chu family dinner, he had made clear his wish, which was that people like the class monitor should be free forever.

The reason why she wished to be a whale in her next life was because she wanted freedom.

Su Chengyi originally thought that it would take a long, long way to defeat the capital dragon of the Chu family, but unexpectedly, the opportunity came to him in this way.

"Okay, we promise you."

Chu Yuanjiang let out a long sigh, feeling extremely complicated.

This promise was too heavy, much heavier than anything he had imagined, but it was also really touching that the young man in front of him was willing to give up a fortune and make such a request.

Having achieved his goal, Su Chengyi nodded slightly and took a step back.

"Goodbye, then."

Finally, all the outsiders were sent away, and only Su Chengyi and Chen Jinzhi were left at the scene.

Xiao Zheng didn't leave either, but he was very tactful. He was afraid that the blood would splash on him, so he disappeared in the blink of an eye. He just sent a message saying that he would contact him after the chat.

Su Chengyi tore off a piece of the sterile cotton cloth he had just received from the medical staff, walked in front of Chen Jinzhi, and leaned forward slightly.

The wound on her face was not deep, but rather long, extending along the beautiful curve of her chin, and was still slowly oozing blood.

Su Chengyi did not hide it and raised his hand to gently press the sterilized cotton cloth on it.

Chen Jinzhi did not avoid his movements. His eyes passed over his serious brows and he thought to himself, it turns out that people's eyes can be deceiving.

"Will it hurt a bit?" Su Chengyi asked, looking at the bright red that seeped out of the cotton cloth.

"will not."

Chen Jinzhi lowered his eyes and answered calmly.

Both of them knew that they should talk about something else now, but they didn't know how to start, so they only heard the sound of the wind passing by their ears and a few birds singing in the valley.

After a while, Su Chengyi released the cotton cloth that was pressing on the wound and confirmed that the bleeding had stopped.

He took a half step back and looked at Chen Jinzhi's long eyelashes.

"So, when did you start to know?"

His Adam's apple rolled up and down a few times, and his voice was a little obscure.

"If I must say it, it's probably a long time ago, maybe even earlier than you realize."

Chen Jinzhi raised his eyes, looked at him quietly, and answered.

"Yeah."

Su Chengyi lowered his head, not knowing what expression to make.

In fact, he should have thought of it long ago. He should be the one who knows what kind of person Chen Jinzhi is.

What kind of person could lie to her right under her nose?

No one can do it, unless she wants to deceive herself.

"Teacher Su, you know, you actually can't lie at all."

Chen Jinzhi smiled gently, with ripples in his eyes.

"When I feel guilty, my eyes will evade, when I lie, I will unconsciously increase my tone, and when I am nervous, I will turn the strap of my watch like I am doing now."

As soon as she finished speaking, Su Chengyi quickly loosened his fingers that were unconsciously turning the watch strap.

"Right, you're such a good guesser."

Chen Jinzhi lowered her head and smiled, her hair blown by the wind and gently falling in front of her eyebrows.

"So, I knew it all along, you understand?"

she said.

"Yes, I know."

As soon as Su Chengyi finished speaking, he sighed.

Although I had guessed this a long time ago, it was different when I heard her say it herself.

He always felt that he was living with the secret of Shura Field, and he could no longer bear such psychological pressure, so he chose to confront it.

However, Chen Jinzhi also knew about it a long time ago, and she has been consciously bearing this secret until today.

It’s hard to imagine that the so-called torture of lingchi is probably just this.

“If I had been smart, I probably should have left when I first realized it.

If I wasn't so smart, I would have woken up when I saw you hugging each other on that Christmas."

Chen Jinzhi looked up at the falling leaves and continued:

"Even a real idiot probably wouldn't wait until a situation like today to finally realize that it seems like it's time to end it."

Her tone made people's heart beat slower, Su Chengyi couldn't help but speak:

"It's my problem. I'm too indecisive and can't make a decision."

"I can't leave you."

Chen Jinzhi shook his head slightly.

Even at this final moment of confrontation, her eyes were still as gentle as ever.

“I always think, wait a little longer, I’ll wait a little longer.

You will eventually make a decision, and no matter what decision you make, I accept it, and I owe you that."

Chen Jinzhi didn't wait for Su Chengyi to answer, and continued:

"But it's really hard to wait for you to make a decision. If you saw me like this, you might find me a little strange."

"Most of the time I deceive myself, telling myself not to think about it, so I won't be sad. At first, the sleeping pills worked, and I just fell into a deep sleep, and I didn't have to think about anything."

"Later on, it didn't work anymore. When I fell asleep, I would have dreams, nightmares one after another. Sometimes I dreamed about my old days in South Korea, and sometimes I dreamed about you leaving me.

So, for a long time I didn’t dare to sleep. Of course, sometimes I was so tired from work that I couldn’t think and fell asleep right after touching the pillow. Every time this happened, I was very happy. ”

“Sometimes I feel disgusted with myself, wondering how a person can live like this, even I hate myself.

There were many sleepless nights when I kept thinking, can I be selfish for once?

I only live like this once, I don't want another life.

So can I be lucky once in my life? Now I finally know, no. "

"Sometimes, I suddenly become superstitious. When I was filming "The Awakening," I went to the temple near the filming location many times, so many times that the monks there even knew me.

Other people from the crew would go there occasionally. Some of them wished that "The Awakening" would be a big hit, some wished that their career would be smooth, and some wished that it would rain heavily tomorrow and the crew would have a day off.

I'm the only one who goes there for the same reason every time."

"Teacher Su, it was at this time that I finally understood why so many people insisted on believing in gods and Buddhas.

Because when people are at their wits' end, they really need this kind of comfort to support themselves and try to survive.

When I had time to stay in the temple and hand-copy Buddhist scriptures, I would occasionally lie down on the table and take a nap, listening to the wooden fish chanting beside me. It was rare that I would not dream. "

"The great master in the temple recites a poem: There is no Bodhi tree, nor is there a mirror stand. There is nothing at all, so where can dust gather?

He only saw me once, and then he laughed at me for having wisdom, but too much obsession, and being entangled in the mundane world. Vegetarianism and chanting Buddhist scriptures cannot save me, the person who tied the bell must be the one to untie it.

Speaking of this, Chen Jinzhi's eyelashes trembled slightly.

Su Chengyi seemed to see the lonely smoke at sunset in the desert through her words, and the ancient monks chanting scriptures for thousands of years, passing through the wind and sand, swallowing the bitter fruits of all living beings.

Chen Jinzhi looked lonely yet somewhat compassionate at this moment.

"The jade peace locket I obtained for you at that time, besides wishing you peace and happiness, actually had another wish hidden in it."

Having said that, she paused slightly, raised her eyes and looked into Su Chengyi's eyes.

"A red string and green jade tie the one you love."

"The master said that it can protect us forever and never separate."

"Look, it's gone now."

The corners of Chen Jinzhi's lips clearly curved slightly, but the sadness in his eyes rose and fell like the tide, almost drowning everything he looked at.

Su Chengyi spread out his palms and looked down at the last half of the red rope left.

For some reason, he suddenly felt a shock in his heart, as if the red thread that tied her and his fate together had been broken.

(End of this chapter)