The peninsula is like a shadow

Chapter 135
Li Yan regretted that he didn't read the affectionate letter. He regretted that even if he didn't read it, he should have put it in his pocket instead of tearing it up and throwing it into the small trash can. He threw it away so casually. The small trash can was placed on the table. The sides can be used to hold shellfish shells.

As for why Xu Xian went to pick up garbage, Li Yan no longer planned to discuss it with her.Li Yan discovered for the first time that although Xu Xian's clear eyes were no different from the past, Xu Xian had learned to add more meanings to them. For example, if you don't believe what I say, I won't admit it anyway. If you want to bully It's a very simple way of saying "Abba, I'll beat you up."

"I promise you, I will not resent Kanako, I will only be grateful for the kindness she once treated me. I know that there may not be another woman in this world who can take care of me like she once did. Is it okay if I say this? You should be able to You can see my sincerity. I have never hated her."

Li Yan decided to surrender. In the presence of that letter, everything he said was in vain. Now Li Yan only hoped that Kanako did not write too many personal things about him.It’s just that Xu Xian’s next question made Li Yan fall into silence again, because Xu Xian’s question was like this,

"You left home and wandered away at such a young age. You must have suffered a lot of unimaginable hardships. You had no choice but to join the Yakuza. You have been living in evil for the first half of your life. Why are you still kind-hearted? You helped Jessica Oni You didn’t ask for any reward. You helped Shirley and almost died. Oppa, is it because you have some persistent beliefs in your heart that can’t change the world?”

Faith is a very unfamiliar word to Li Yan.Li Yan does not believe in ghosts and gods, let alone any belief.The left eye jumps, and the God of Wealth arrives.The right eye jumps, who engages in feudal superstition?Does this count?

But Xu Xian asked so seriously that Li Yan had to reconsider the issue.Do you really have faith?Do you really have a kind heart, even if your hands are stained with blood?

"Xuxian, I think you should leave immediately. I have no faith, and I'm not kind-hearted as you said. I'm just used to it. I've killed more people than you think. My world is not something you can do. Understood. So, I’m going to eat.”

"I said, welcome you to my world. Give it to me and I'll help you warm it up. It should be a little cold."

Li Yan was defeated. He watched Xu Xian pick up the lunch box and put it in the microwave to heat his own rice. Li Yan threw away the chopsticks. How did he educate this child?Is there nothing in this world that she is afraid of?Is there no way to completely subdue her?
Fortunately, Xu Xian respected his eating time and allowed Li Yan to eat the remaining two portions of braised pork ribs smoothly. After eating a little, Li Yan drank another cup of scalding hot water.

"Why do you like to drink hot water?"

"Because scalding water can quench hunger and cure diseases. When you have no money to buy food, you can beg for a cup of hot water. When you feel cold, a cup of scalding water will warm you up. That way you won’t get sick and can keep walking.”

Li Yan gave Xu Xian a reason, and then watched Xu Xian leave the security room with red eyes.I didn’t lie to her. When you were homeless as a child, others might be wary of your begging, but if it’s just a cup of hot water, the chance of success is very high.

And it was the cups of scalding water that allowed Li Yan to live to this day. If Li Yan had faith, maybe this cup of scalding water was it. As for what Xu Xian said about being kind-hearted, maybe it was the scalding water that made his blood flow. Not cold yet.

"I think there is a possibility between us."

Go Ara's temporary schedule was to show up at a filming location because of a favor, pretending to be a chance encounter.In order to show that Go Ara is a very busy SM artist, she should be followed by a bodyguard.Li Yan was in the security room. Li Yan was afraid that Xu Xian would appear again and wanted to go out for a walk.

Li Yan smiled when he heard Gao Yala's words. He was about to say that he had a woman to refuse, but suddenly realized that this reason was no longer valid. Thinking about Jessica who was still lying at home, Li Yan nodded.
"If what you're saying is that it's possible that you and I are consensual, maybe it's okay, but I'm very busy recently."

"Oh, is that so? What are you busy doing?"

"Too busy dealing with the women who are looking for me."

"You only have one woman, Kanako, and you think I don't know? And you were very clumsy the first time, and Kanako was on top."

Go Ara smiled so happily that she even had to press the corners of her eyes with her fingers, otherwise she might leave wrinkles if she kept smiling. She was about to be photographed, so she should be in perfect condition.Li Yan knew that Gao Yala also read the letter. Li Yan didn't understand why Kanako would include this incident in the letter. No wonder it was two pages long.Have you written down all our experiences?This fact made Li Yan very depressed. Gao Ara became even happier after seeing Li Yan's expression.

"Tell me, how did you stay in a flower street like Shibuya for ten years? Kanako said you are a man of great perseverance."

"She's talking nonsense."

"He said you are too brave, so it is best to find a woman who exercises regularly in the future."

"Gao Yalaxi, do you think it's appropriate for us to discuss this?"

"I'm a woman who wants to be your friend. I think it's quite appropriate. You won't talk around and affect my image. What should I be afraid of? Do you have to live a submissive life all day long? Do you know that you are so strange? How precious are people in the eyes of female artists like us who are struggling in pain?"

Li Yan did not answer again. Gao Yala said that she was a woman struggling in pain. Li Yan felt that he might understand or not.But from another perspective, if he were like Go Ara, and his every move might be secretly photographed, Li Yan felt that he would become crazy.Beat up those who took photos, and anyone who wanted to peek into his life.So Li Yan didn't speak out of respect for Gao Ara.

But Gao Ara, who was sitting in the back, didn’t seem to want to end the topic and said in a low voice,

"Do you know what the first thing a famous artist does? Let me tell you, it is to find a good psychiatrist, pay him a lot of money, and let him help you relieve the pain in your heart. I even Don't dare to shout at home, because the neighbors might sell it to the newspaper. Do you know that we who smile every day are already in pain and want to pull our hair and run away?"

Li Yan was silent for a while and then responded,
"I've seen Yoona crying in the car. I heard from Crystal that Sulli would sit alone in a place without moving for a long time."

Gao Yala leaned back on the chair again, smiled inexplicably, and continued,

"So many female artists are stupid. As long as someone seems to treat them well, they will be very infatuated. I am not. I have seen too many betrayals and know how cruel the world is. I thought everyone is the same. Yes, but you are different. You are more ruthless than those who betray, ruthless enough to kill people. You are warmer than those who are hypocritical, but you are true. Do you know when all this started? "

"Lee Yeon-hee?"

"You are indeed smarter than I thought, Li Yan, you are worth my risk. So even if you think I am an immoral woman, I will continue to say these words in front of you without any scruples. Because I know that you will not Talk it out. It relaxes me and I feel comfortable, like the soul is finally in a safe place."

Go Ara loves to laugh, and her smile is very beautiful. Li Yan stood far away from the camera and watched the program crew he met interacting with Go Ara. He tried to put himself into Go Ara's perspective, and he could fake this surprise himself. Come out, once, twice, but never more than three times.

It seems that I really can't become an artist, even if I rub my sour face and complain like a few red babes, I can't do it.Li Yan suddenly understood how impudent Gao Yala was in front of him.I'm afraid her heart is full of thoughts that she has nowhere to express, and she really won't say them out.

Is this a normal feeling between friends?Li Yan suddenly discovered that he really didn't understand many things before.But Li Yan has no regrets. He doesn't like to think about things that are too complicated.

Just like Kanako left to find her happiness, she must have been holding back a lot of words in her heart. Li Yan decided to wish her good luck, and this time his blessing was sincere.

(End of this chapter)