Love is like sugar and marriage is like water

Chapter 22 The End of Love
Zhao Ji was so desperate - so desperate that he felt like he had fallen into a bottomless pool of water, struggling with helplessness... All thoughts were lost.

He didn't know what to do to get Li Shi to change his mind - he made countless calls and sent countless text messages to Li Shi and Li Heng one after another, but there was no response.

When he made a call, his phone was turned off - both of them were turned off.

The text messages sent by both of them were not answered...

A determined thought immediately came to his mind - find them quickly, he would find them at any cost, and kneel in front of Li Shi and beg her forgiveness.

He immediately became strong - if he wanted to withstand this sudden and unexpected blow, blindly obeying such an outcome would definitely not work for him.

But where to find it?
Zhao Ji went to ask Mrs. Lily, but she also shook her head and said, "I have never been to the place where Li Heng and the others live. I don't know either!"

He regretted not asking for their detailed address.I only know that they live in D city.And City D has a population of 80 million, so finding them is like finding a needle in a haystack.

……

He returned to the inn dejectedly. Just as he was packing his luggage to leave, he suddenly received a message from Li Shi. He hurriedly opened it and read, but it said this:

"Zhao Ji, I didn't want to send you this message, but I couldn't help but send it. This is the last time I send you a message - we will never see each other again. In this world, we will never meet again in this life. . If there is still fate in the next life, then let’s meet again in the next life!”

"Why?" Zhao Ji hurried back.

"We just missed each other. I left you not because of my inferiority complex and willfulness. On the contrary, it was because of my self-confidence and pride - no, I had to do this..."

"Li Shi, I love you. Come back soon. I'll wait for you, okay?"

"But it's too late for you to say these three words 'I love you'. When I knelt in front of you and cried yesterday afternoon, if you had said these three words to me! I would stay, forever I won’t leave you anymore.”

"But, Li Shi, have you ever thought about it, I have my concerns..."

"What worries do you have? Isn't it just because of your poor self-esteem? Isn't it because you always look down on me from the bottom of your heart? Isn't it just because you are hesitant to marry me?"

"No, it's not...listen to my explanation..."

"I don't want to hear it. You didn't say those three words at that time. You trampled on my self-esteem - the self-esteem of an innocent girl, do you know?"

"Li Shi, I love you..."

"Don't be like this... I'm already dead... Obviously, it's better to be like this... Farewell forever."

"I'm coming to find you—"

"Please don't come to me. Even if you come, it will be in vain."

"No, I'm coming to find you. Please tell me your address -"

……

Later, there was no news.

Zhao Ji called the phone, but there was the sound of power off.

Ugh……

"I love you!" Zhao Ji repeated this sentence dozens of times with tears in his eyes last night - no, at least hundreds or thousands of times...

He faced the rustling autumn wind and shouted out those words in vain and cheerfully. He faced the belt-like river and shouted out those words again and again...

However, he did not have the courage and courage to shout it out in front of her, but hid these words in his heart.

He regrets——

He regretted not telling her that he was in love with her...and he liked her from the bottom of his heart, and he was willing to marry her.

However, at that time, he hesitated and held grudges but did not say these words.

When he met her in that room that was destined to have an ominous premonition, his love had already happened before he could clearly realize in his heart...

Even when he and her brother Li Heng were sitting together in a boring, sullen and speechless manner, he didn't realize that his love had already happened...

But after about ten minutes, Li Shi didn't come back...

He was panic-stricken, terrified, and out of his mind because of the possibility of an unfortunate accident... He began to look for her everywhere, and when he called her name like a madman on the shore——

Only then did he realize that his love burst out from the bottom of his heart with that unstoppable and irrepressible power...

He does love her——

However, it was already too late - Li Shi would no longer buy his fault...

"it's out of the question!"

Many years later, when he talked about this relationship with his friends, his friends would not believe it.

"How is that possible? That Li Shi is really a weird girl...a rare one in the world."

When others said this, he hesitated again... He didn't know if this was possible or impossible.

However, whether others believed it or not, he knew it was true.

Although these emotional affairs between him and Li Shi were only for a short period of less than ten days, they did happen to him and affected his life...

Afterwards, he was thinking——

If Li Shi had even a trace of coquettishness, coquettishness, and coquettishness in her body, and if her social status was not that of an illegitimate daughter but a girl from a normal family, Zhao Ji thought that Li Shi would not leave him. Go.

This is because Li Shi is paranoid and willful, and has extremely strong self-esteem. She cannot endure the things that any other normal girl can endure.

At that time, as a young Zhao Ji, although he had already had a failed marriage, he did not sum up the experience, so he did not understand the mystery of this.When Zhao Ji stood outside the door that night and saw Li Heng for the last time, if there was no hesitation in his mind that had not prevented him from confessing what was on his lips...

That situation will be different again, then Li Shi will stay and maybe marry him.

However, Zhao Ji pushed the hope of happiness to tomorrow, and the last glimmer of hope and straw that could have been grasped completely slipped from his hand.

That day, when he packed his suitcase in the inn and was about to drive home, he saw the waitress Xiao Wei who was abandoned by her fiancé at the "tea tasting" teahouse.

She sat on the bench where he and Li Shi had sat in the park on the shore. Her face was pale and bloodless, but she did not look depressed, but full of vitality and vitality.

There was a tall and handsome young man standing next to the tall and beautiful Xiao Wei, chatting and laughing with her, and telling her something.

In a short period of time, Xiaowei came out of the shadow of broken love...

And on the other side of the sparkling, gurgling river, the familiar statue with eyes like his ex-wife's still showed its gloomy face from the dark green bushes of the old yellow jujube tree.

……

He returned home, and after a few days' rest, he went to D City to find Li Shi.

But in the huge city of D, he was nowhere to be found... He tried every means to search, but to no avail.

He has been unwilling to give up his love for Li Shi for a long time. He has been searching for it for a long time, and he has been unwilling to give up——

However, after searching for several years, he finally had to give up hope of finding them.

From then on, Zhao Ji never saw Li Heng or the others - he never saw Li Shi again.

Some inaccurate news about Li Shi reached Zhao Ji's ears from time to time - some said she was dead, some said she was married...

However, for him, since he separated from her, he has never seen her - she has disappeared forever.

He didn't even know whether she was dead or alive?

But he went to D city every year, hoping to meet by chance... Just like that, several more years passed.

Once, when he was in the carriage of a high-speed train, he hurriedly saw a woman getting up and packing her luggage to get off the train. The woman looked like Li Shi...

But he wasn't sure, so he didn't bother.

Li Shi's beautiful face reminded him clearly of the face he would never forget, as if it was engraved in his mind...

However, he believes that this may be an accidental resemblance that deceives him.

In his memory, Li Shi was always the girl he knew during the most flawless, energetic and frustrated period of his life...

The impression she left on him would always remain the same as the last time he saw her in that small dark room.

……

But then again, Zhao Ji should admit the fact that he didn't grieve over losing her for too long.

He even felt lucky that the God of Destiny did not let him marry Li Shi, which might be the best marriage arrangement.

He often comforted his poor self with such bizarre thoughts - if he had a willful and eccentric wife like her, he would probably not be happy in this life.

At that time, he was still young, less than 30 years old. His future, this short and fleeting future, seemed to him to be infinitely extended, and everything could be started over.

Zhao Ji thought that those things in the past, including those unforgettable feelings, would never happen again to him, and they would not become better or more beautiful, right? ...it will only get worse——

He later met some other women. Compared with Li Shi, some were prettier and some were uglier...

——However, the exciting emotions that Li Shi inspired in his heart were the kind of fiery, gentle and deep emotions that might never happen again.

No!For Zhao Ji, a lonely man, no pair of beautiful and burning eyes can replace the pair of eyes that stare at him with the light of love.

Li Shi's feelings in his heart have reached a ceiling that no woman can surpass.

No woman's heart nestled against his chest could echo his soul with such a trembling of infinite joy, sweetness and warmth!
Zhao Ji was destined to have no family, wife or children in his life. He is still alone and alone, living a lonely and lonely life.

However, he kept the last message she sent him like a treasure. Even if he changed his phone, he would never get rid of that phone. He kept it under the box...

He kept the geranium flower that Li Shi had thrown to his brother from the window and then given to him as a gift, which had long since dried up and decayed.

When he was free, he took it out and smelled it, and it still exudes a faint fragrance——

It's just...it's just Li Shi's little hands that were as cold as the dead, the hands that he could press against his lips only once, the little hands that she wanted to create a future with him - if she really He's dead, maybe already rotting in the tomb...

And what about Zhao Ji himself - what about his own situation?

Over the years, he has been like a walking zombie, accomplishing nothing and sleeping in his comfort zone.

What is left from Zhao Ji, from those joyful and worrying days, from those winged hopes and pursuits?

——He didn’t leave anything worth remembering in life, just as he said… there was no trace left at all.

It is a pity that he lives in an environment of virtual love for Li Shi, but it is not as good as a grass growing in the wild.

Although a small piece of grass is insignificant, the faint fragrance it emits, even after being blown by wind and rain, will last longer than a person's contentment and ecstasy - it will last longer than a person's contentment and ecstasy. A person's own feelings of joy, anger, sorrow and joy may exist for a longer time!

The love between Zhao Ji and Li Shi ended hastily...

It is undeniable that for ordinary people's love, such an ending may be a new beginning.

　I hope you like my new book——

　　
　
(End of this chapter)