Yijuan cloud

Chapter 257 Only Hate, No Love

"Juanyun, when I see you alive in front of me, nothing else matters. I will resume Xing'er's original position and give him a generous burial."

"As a minister, he deceived the emperor and committed crimes. I allowed him to return to his hometown and give him a generous burial. I treated him well. What's more, his death was a mistake."

He hugged me from behind, and his voice was gentle and seductive: "You and I have been separated for more than two years, just like yin and yang. Now holding you still feels unreal, like I am dreaming. I am afraid that when I wake up from the dream, you will not be there... …Cirrus, don’t leave me again, and I won’t allow you to either.”

I let the shackles whisper in my ears and became intoxicated. My whole body was stiff, confused and sad, and my anger could not be suppressed.

For a moment, it was like falling into an ice cave, and the chill spread from the bottom of my heart to my whole body.

Everything started because of me!

I asked Xing'er to take me out of the palace.

I thought that since I was not a member of the harem, I could just leave; I thought that I had asked Liang Xianyi for the Lin family’s edict to avoid death, and then I could leave the palace safely; I thought that if I was unhappy, I could be like Xing’er. Just like before, I sneaked out of my home just to be free.

Unfortunately not.

There was a palace and he was the emperor.

And I actually wanted to shake that unbreakable cage.

And how I loved him so happily...

At that time, he was just a down-and-out prince, with no power and little edge, but he was the person I wholeheartedly recognized.

Now he has become the emperor after going through all kinds of hardships, eradicating dissidents time and time again, and finally secured his position as emperor.

But I have already been deeply involved with him, with no way forward and no way back.

"Actually, I am the one who really deceives you. Xing'er is just for my use. You should kill me."

I said calmly.

His cool lips stopped behind my ear, but his arms tightened tighter and tighter.

Breathing roughly and caressing there, it was like the tip of a knife piercing me.

"Cirrus, don't say such things. I know you have me in your heart. You are just angry with me. How could I kill you? I love you, I really love you."

He turned over my stiff shoulders and stared at me.

I also stared at his face without moving.The tenderness in his expression turned back to coldness and solemnity. He stretched out his hand to touch my eyes and still said softly: "Even if you were so cruel and deceived me by pretending to die for two years, and yet you were here carefree, I won't take the blame at all." The fact that you are alive is God's greatest gift to me, and I cannot love you enough."

"But you are so brave. You actually settled here in such a big way. It's really hard to hide it from me. And that Fan Li, he knew you were still alive, but he kept it secret. He is deceiving the emperor..."

"Are you trying to punish General Fan for being a bully? Everything is my fault..." I said hurriedly.

Liang Xianyi lowered his eyes, a wry smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, and said: "Julian, you are so considerate and considerate to others, why don't you understand me? When I knew something happened to you, I was really sad. In the ruined temple, my heart is as sharp as a knife, even if thousands of arrows pierce my heart, that's all."

"Also, do you know how I survived in the past two years? I admit that I shouldn't have killed Xing'er. It was my fault, but he is already dead. Please forgive me this time."

"I don't want to pursue the matter of your departure from the palace anymore. Let's let go of the past, okay?"

Two years ago, when he was in the palace, one Fu Ming made him angry with me.

He didn't even allow me to fight for brother Jun Lei.

As soon as I mentioned Brother Jun Lei, he would quarrel with me endlessly and ignore me for several days.

At that time, I allowed myself to understand his difficulties in becoming emperor, and I thought about getting back on good terms with him, but he still had a grudge against me and didn't feel there was anything wrong with me at all.

Now I have committed the crime of deceiving the emperor, but he keeps saying that he is wrong and will not pursue anything further.

Even Fan Li will not be held accountable.

But I saw more clearly Liang Xianyi's cruelty, no, the cruelty of being an emperor.

And the palace was also a cruel place.

I shook my head, stared at him and said: "But Xing'er is dead. When I see you, I will think of Xing'er. I don't want to see you again, let alone enter the palace. You said you would let go of the past, then you Just let me go, okay? Just pretend you've never seen me."

Liang Xianyi's face suddenly turned pale, he stretched out his arms and pressed my head to his chest, keeping me close to his heart and said: "Cirrus, I will never let you leave me again, even if you hate me, I will never No. Don’t even think about it.”

My anger finally defeated my reason, and I used brute force to push him away.

"It's useless! It's useless for you to keep me by your side! I don't have any affection for you anymore. I only hate you! I hate you!"

He stretched out his hand to hold my chin, and regardless of my desperate struggle, he pulled me into his arms.

"Do you only have hatred for me? Lin Juanyun, you said that your heart belongs to me and you will have no regrets, how can you change it again?"

(End of this chapter)