Love in a mental hospital

Chapter 173 Whose [Psychological Shadow] belongs to you?

Gu Ran dreamed again that night.

He Qingyan's inhalation in the office during the day, although the process was short, it stimulated him in a solid way - it was because it was so exciting that the time was short.

Staying alone in the bedroom, before falling asleep, it is inevitable to have wild thoughts while lying on the bed, and then enter the dreamland after falling asleep.

He remembered Zhuang Jing's teachings and used the [Cranked Shepherd's Staff] in his dream to find the [Blooming Heaven].

But it was not [Black Dragon Dream]. As soon as he fell asleep, he was sitting in the office, with He Qingyan in white kneeling between his legs.

Romantic black curls are within reach.

"." Gu Ran had nothing to say.

I am speechless and unable to speak.

In the dream, Gu Ran didn't intend to do anything to feel sorry for Su Qing, but as he said before, he could only prevent the beauty from falling into his arms, that is, actively keep a distance, and he could not "stay calm in his arms."

He Qingyan usually goes to bed at 11 o'clock, gets up at o'clock, and leaves bed at :, so that she can maintain her energy for the day.

He hopes to have a harmonious and formal relationship with Zhang Ying as colleagues.

"What is it?" Su Qing rarely cared about her.

On the contrary, he had dreamed all night last night and was still energetic during the day.

While eating in the morning, He Qingyan yawned.

Gu Ran's heart beat violently.

In the afternoon, Chen Ke served as a teacher and led everyone to learn gardening. Gu Ran was approached by Zhang Ying because he wanted to learn about the ward.

Is it because you have recovered from your illness and have a sense of shame? After all, she took the initiative.

"I'll take you to eat next time." He Qingyan smiled.

"——I kept eating. It made my mouth hurt, the corners of my mouth were bleeding, and my stomach was full. The key is, the food didn't taste good at all."

This is the first time they have been alone together, and under Zhuang Jing's arrangement, the two will also conduct some slightly unethical experiments - Zhang Ying has naturally been informed of some information in advance.

To be more precise, it’s about reducing your high energy levels to just enough for the day.

"What did you eat?" Zhuang Jing asked.

Zhuang Jing and Su Qing both looked at her.

He Qingyan said nothing, but her expression showed that she had a bad idea.

On Tuesday, He Qingyan felt really tired, and even slept with Su Qing and Chen Ke during lunch break.

There must be a reason why He Qingyan ate something unpalatable all night long, and it was not accidental.

Gu Ran didn't speak the whole time. He didn't dare to speak.

"I'm so sleepy." He Qingyan said.

"Why do you feel sleepy? Didn't you sleep last night?"

Or do you subconsciously feel that if you tell this matter, it will hinder Gu Ran's pursuit of Amelia Su and ultimately affect her own plan?
Whether it was a disease or his own instinct, He Qingyan could no longer tell.

"I'm sorry," Gu Ran took the initiative, "Xiao Zhi was said that by Master Aqiu yesterday. It's all my fault."

According to Freud's theory, everything in dreams has implications, and recurring nightmares must be a sign of mental illness.

Such an awkward atmosphere was not what Gu Ran wanted.

"The food I ate during the day," He Qingyan said, "I choked on and it didn't taste as good as I expected, so I continued to eat it in my dream."

Was it [Black Dragon Dream] last night?
In this rare [Black Dragon Dream], he did nothing, just sat there and enjoyed it. Was he tortured?

The scene in front of me is more than just sitting in peace? !
The first time, Gu Ran didn't have the mind to think about anything else;
The second time, he tried to verify whether it was the Black Dragon Dream, but unfortunately after "He Qingyan" looked up at him, he couldn't think of anything;
The third time, Gu Ran decided to let "He Qingyan" know how powerful he was, and he wanted to take revenge on him during the day;
For the fourth time, "He Qingyan's" technology advanced by leaps and bounds.
I don't know how many times later, when "He Qingyan" was so tired that she nestled her face on his lap and couldn't open her mouth, only her tongue could still be used, she woke up from the dream.

He Qingyan said: "I had a dream last night——"

The little woman continued: "Today I will take you to observe a patient."

"What's wrong?" Yan Hanxiang asked immediately.

She didn't look at Gu Ran the whole time.

The little woman shook her head gently: "I know you mean well, and I should say thank you to you."

The two of them walked in the elegant and white ward, saying nothing for a while.

Gu Ran had to suspect that [Black Dragon Dream] cured He Qingyan's hypomania.

To put it bluntly, we can chat with each other when we meet at work, but not say a word after get off work. If someone resigns, it is equivalent to disappearing from each other's lives - this is the kind of relationship.

"No need." Su Qing refused.

Gu Ran said nothing.

In front of Zhuang Jing and Yan Hanxiang, she didn't dare to show anything strange.

Seeing that she was not under pressure, Yan Hanxiang and Zhuang Jing stopped interfering.

But is it necessary to hide it?
In the past, there was nothing she dared not say, which can be seen from her chat with Yan Hanxiang.

You must not, absolutely cannot talk to Zhuang Jing about this matter!
Unless she asks.

Although Zhuang Jing needs Gu Ran and Zhang Ying to conduct the [Black Dragon Dream] experiment, it is impossible to completely divert their teaching time, which will affect Gu Ran's learning.

So for the time being, the experiment will only be conducted every Friday.

"Sorry," the little woman suddenly blushed, "I forgot to give you the information in advance yesterday. I should have given it to you in advance, and I should have reminded you to read the book."

Doctors absolutely need to read, especially before surgery.

Gu Ran has seen an example of a gynecologist suffering from mental illness. She performed gynecological cosmetic surgery, that is, vulva plastic surgery, and would read surgical and anatomical atlases without eating or sleeping.

Not to mention Gu Ran himself, what kind of patients come and what kind of master classes are there.

"It's okay. The occasional surprise exam will help me study more diligently." Gu Ran said.

The little woman smiled slightly. It was not polite to say this, but it gave people the feeling of a young woman whose husband had just died, apologetic, reluctant and weak.

The two walked into a ward.

The patient is a female in her early thirties and a civil servant.

When the two men entered, the patient was suffering from an illness and fell into unconsciousness. He was foaming at the mouth, eyes rolled up, limbs twitching, and incontinent.

The air smelled of shit and urine.

In general mental hospitals, when female patients take off their clothes when they are suffering from bipolar disorder, for example, male doctors will help subdue the patients, but in Jinghai, male doctors must avoid doing so.

So after just one glance, Gu Ran withdrew.

Three female nurses are handling it.

After giving some instructions, the little woman also left the ward.

"What have you discovered about the situation at hand?" she asked Gu Ran.

If he relied on [Mind Reading], Gu Ran could get the standard answer directly from the little woman, but he would not do that.

It's like driving a car. Even if there is a reversing image, he occasionally doesn't look at it. He only uses the rearview mirror to judge whether to reverse into the garage or park sideways.

He recalled the scene he had seen before.

"When the patient fell to the ground, he obviously fell to the left, and there were many signs of skin injuries. He may have anxiety disorder or dissociative movement disorder;

"I can't tell anything else."

"It's already very serious. The patient was admitted to the hospital with the main complaint of 'episodic falls for 3 years.'" the little woman said.

In other words, from time to time, the lower limbs suddenly become weak and fall to the ground, which looks like a flat fall. The little woman continued: "Check the 24-hour dynamic electroencephalogram."

The two chatted around the patient.

The little woman was only responsible for telling the situation and then asking questions for Gu Ran to answer.

For example: Based on the information provided by the medical history, if Gu Ran wants to make a definite diagnosis, what other medical history and auxiliary examinations need to be collected?
Another example: In the case of this female civil servant, what kind of psychological treatment can be taken?

After the patient was cleaned, the little woman asked the nurse to prepare an observation room.

The observation room is very similar to an operating room, but no surgery is performed. It is only used to observe the size of the patient's [psychological shadow].

Whether it is medication or psychological treatment, the effect can be judged by the change in the size of the [psychological shadow].

The premise is that the patient is seriously ill and has [psychological shadow].

Patients in the sanatorium do not have [psychological shadows] and cannot observe the effects of treatment through this method.

The sleeping female civil servant lay on the operating bed with various instruments attached to her body.

The collar of the hospital gown is slightly open, and a little bit of snow can be seen, but in today's society where clothing is free, one in ten women on the street is more exposed than she is, especially in Haicheng.

Gu Ran and Zhang Ying lay down, put on convenient surgical clothes, attached some instruments, and entered the patient's [psychological shadow].

The [Barren Grass Plain] in front of me was familiar yet unfamiliar. It was not night, but dusk, a time when neither the sun nor the moon appeared.

In the orange-yellow sky with a hint of darkness, the grassy plain looks like a sunset oil painting with a simple composition and extremely dark colors.

"The patient had been ill for one year and had no [psychological shadow]. A year later, he was admitted to the hospital and was treated according to anxiety disorder. His condition worsened and [psychological shadow] appeared. Now," Zhang Ying looked to the horizon, "it's getting dark."

Once it gets dark, the moon appears, and the black veil shrouds the night, the nightmare will appear.

At this time - it is the most dangerous moment, the 'source' continues to attract nightmares, and the nightmares continue to corrode the patient. The patient will either go completely crazy or commit suicide due to being unable to bear the pain;

It is also the best time for treatment. Because of the appearance of nightmares, as long as you kill the nightmares, you can follow the black butterfly to find the 'source' of the patient. Solving the 'source' can directly cure the patient.

Of course, the side effect is that a layer of the patient's mind is scraped off and he loses his emotions to varying degrees.

"Dean Zhuang Jing specifically told me to let you try the [Cranked Staff]," the little woman said.

Gu Ran nodded.

He imagined that he was an iceberg, and most of the consciousness in the dream body entered the second level of dream, fishing for the "Cranked Staff" like a fishing net.

After "catching", the small part of consciousness that stayed in the first layer of dreamland immediately closed the net.

He raised his hand and shook it, and a wooden stick that looked like a Hanamaki lollipop appeared in his hand.

Gu Ran thought about the female civil servant, her medical history, and the way she had an attack.
He let go of his hand and stood on the spot.

"It seems that there is no way to find the 'source' before it gets dark." The little woman said.

Gu Ran thought so at first, but he suddenly realized something and looked up at the sky.

The little woman then looked at the sky: "Do you think it is in the sky? Even if it is, we can't go up."

If you can turn into a black dragon, it will be no problem to fly into the sky.

Wait, Zhao Wenjie doesn't have [psychological shadow], but he can find his 'source'. Is it because he can fly?
If we could capture a [Monster] capable of manned flight and use it with the [Cranked Staff], could we avoid the [Nightmare] and directly enter the 'source' of the patient before dark?

Wait, when he treated Zhao Wenjie, he clearly entered a completely dark [psychological shadow].

If Zhao Wenjie didn’t have [psychological shadow], whose [psychological shadow] was at that time?
Why did the black butterfly fly to Zhao Wenjie's 'source' while killing that [psychological shadow] nightmare?
Gu Ran held the [Cranked Pastoral Staff] in his hand again, thinking about 'that [psychological shadow]', and then let go.

The [Cranked Shepherd's Staff] pointed at Gu Ran.

Gu Ran: "."

"What are you looking for?" the little woman asked curiously.

"The most handsome man in the world."

"." The little woman laughed.

Maybe she was embarrassed, maybe she hadn't smiled like this for a long time, or maybe she felt she wasn't qualified to be so happy. She turned around so that no one else could see her smile.

Gu Ran had no intention of looking at how charming her smile was.

Is that [psychological shadow] his own? How is it possible? He is not mentally ill!

Gu Ran thought of another possibility. In fact, everyone has a "psychological shadow". The "psychological shadow" of mental patients is the "infected" and original piece of "psychological shadow".

Okay, that’s it. Everyone has [psychological shadow], and mentally ill people have one more than ordinary people.

Gu Ran used [Suggestion Therapy] on himself, and the effect was outstanding!

Psychiatrists never fall into self-doubt!
A psychiatrist never becomes a psychopath!

Even if you lie, you have to deceive yourself into a normal person!
After leaving the [psychological shadow] of the female civil servant and finishing the afternoon class, Gu Ran hurried to find Zhuang Jing.

Zhuang Jing is their teacher and their supervisor, that is to say, they treat the patients and she treats them - mainly prevention.

He told all his findings and guesses.

"Don't scare yourself." Zhuang Jing smiled, "But your guess is very interesting. Maybe the [spiritual world] is the illuminated [psychological shadow]."

This idea
Gu Ran thought while trying to say: "If you think so, as long as my heart is pure and firm enough, that [psychological shadow] will gradually light up? When the darkness completely disappears, it will become a [spiritual world] that only belongs to me." 】?”

"When you dream about black dragons, you can pay more attention to changes in the sky." Zhuang Jing said.

"But your black dragon dream," she continued, "can not only enter [psychological shadow], but also enter other people's dreams - this conclusion is not yet certain."

About [Black Dragon Dream] is a complete mystery.

Their speculation is not necessarily wrong, but there is just no way to know for sure.

"Why can you dream about Hanxiang?" Zhuang Jing suddenly asked.

Now it was not only Yan Hanxiang, but Gu Ran also dreamed of He Qingyan.

"I don't know, either." Gu Ran said.

"Maybe the problem is her, not you." Zhuang Jing pondered.

"What's the problem with Aunt Xiang?" Gu Ran asked subconsciously.

"In the days when you dreamed about her, she has been investigating you and wanting to see you. Her strong thoughts surpassed the [psychological shadow]'s attraction to you and summoned your dream body there - maybe this is possible."

So, He Qingyan also strongly wanted to see him?
"I'll give it a try recently." Zhuang Jing suddenly smiled and said, "You should also try to strongly want to see me. Before coming to Haicheng, you should really want to see me. Just go back to the mentality you had at that time."

"This is too easy for me!" Gu Ran was full of confidence.

Zhuang Jing smiled elegantly and happily.

Coming out of the dean's office, Gu Ran kept recalling his mood before coming to Haicheng. At that time, he wanted to see Zhuang Jing, just like the trumpet's yearning for Kumbum Monastery and the Christians' yearning for Jerusalem.

He evoked this mood until bedtime.

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"Private Diary": September 3, Tuesday, Jinghai
I'm a little afraid of He Qingyan.

I was able to defeat her in my dream, but in reality I was definitely drained by her!

No, there will be nothing between her and me in reality.

I want to see Teacher Zhuang Jing, I want to see Teacher Zhuang Jing, I want to see Teacher Zhuang Jing
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"Doctor's Diary":
Mental illness not only tortures the patient's body, but also insults the patient's dignity. Ordinary people who have incontinence of urine and feces will have psychological disorders, students will not go to school, people in the workplace will resign, and mental patients will also feel despair.

Trying to escape reality can aggravate mental illness and make the condition more complicated.

(Zhuang Jing’s comment: If you have any better ideas to protect patients’ dignity, please tell me.)
(End of this chapter)