Love in a mental hospital

Chapter 244: It is not determined by one’s own opinion

Freud, the founder of psychological research on dreams, believed that dreams are the distorted satisfaction of repressed wishes, and the meaning of dreams lies in the satisfaction of wishes.

There has always been controversy about this.

Gu Ran didn’t care before, but now he belongs to the opposition and he doesn’t have that kind of perverted desire.

The word "abnormal" has a derogatory meaning. No matter what a person thinks, it should be neutral. Only words and actions can be good or bad, so it should be "abnormal desires."

Even in his dreams, Gu Ran was studying!
After Gu Ran finished writing his "Private Diary", he glanced at his phone and saw that it was almost time for his usual morning exercise, so he locked the diary and walked out of the room.

Alone in the room, he was worried that he would not be able to help but think too much.

To be honest, it's all about reminiscing, for example, the subtle difference between Yan Hanxiang at the age of eighteen and forty.

Stop!

Gu Ran quickly walked out of the room, away from the soil where evil thoughts took root - the bedroom.

When we got to the swimming pool, the water was clean and transparent blue-green, and it had a constant temperature and humidity system.

There is no one at the moment.

Gu Ran swam two laps because Zhuang Jing might come at any time. This worry suppressed his thoughts well and stopped him from having any random thoughts.

Soon, Zhuang Jing came.

"Good morning, Aunt Jing." Gu Ran wiped his face.

"Yeah." Zhuang Jing smiled.

Gu Ran thought of the eighteen-year-old Xiao Jing, and her eyes that were as clear as crystal when she looked into his eyes.

Gu Ran concentrated on swimming.

Zhuang Jing glanced at him and started swimming too.

After a while, Yan Hanxiang also came. The three of them evenly divided the swimming pool into three parts and swam in their own part.

Occasionally when they stopped to rest against the wall, Gu Ran felt as if he was still in a dream and that this swimming trip was just another outing for the three of them.

After the morning exercise, Yan Hanxiang said, "Gu Ran, give me a massage today too."

"Yeah, okay." Gu Ran responded.

He didn't know whether he was answering Yan Hanxiang in front of him or his eighteen-year-old girlfriend.

"Then you guys go first, I'll swim for a while." Zhuang Jing said.

They went to the SAP room together, and Gu Ran restrained his movements as he gave Yan Hanxiang a back massage.

Although I rarely press the button for Yan Hanxiang, for some reason I am so familiar with it, it's like entering a cell phone number, I don't even have to think about it, I've already entered it.

In this case, Gu Ran needs to restrain not only the [Great Magic], but also this sense of familiarity.

He was afraid that he might not be paying attention, so he did other familiar actions, like driving. He always went straight back to {Jinghai}, and occasionally sent Chen Ke home. If he was not careful, he would drive on the road back to {Jinghai}.

Yan Hanxiang didn't say anything and enjoyed Gu Ran's massage with a very comfortable look on her face.

Seeing her expression, Gu Ran smiled, and all his bad thoughts disappeared. He began to massage her very attentively.

After he got serious, although his technique hadn't changed, the feeling towards Yan Hanxiang had changed.

She opened her eyes and looked at Gu Ran. He had a focused expression, his muscles were taut and graceful, and he felt as hard as stone, yet had a softness that stone did not have.

In order to stop herself from thinking too much, she took the initiative to ask: "How are things going with Qingyan recently?"

"Um"

"Hmm what? Whatever happens, happens."

“It’s a complicated situation.”

"How complicated?"

"She unilaterally announced that the five of us, Su Qing, her, Chen Ke, and Xie Xiya—a female high school student patient—were together."

"Is this complicated?" Yan Hanxiang said with a smile.

"Then Su Qing agreed."

"That's not bad."

"Actually, Su Qing said that her opinion was the same as mine. I said I would listen to her. She said she agreed, and I quickly said I disagreed."

"Hmm" it was Yan Hanxiang's turn to hesitate.

The two said nothing more.

After a while, when the massage was over and she stood up to leave, she suddenly said, "I don't comment on your relationship. I guess it's useless to say it, but it should be okay for me to tell you what I think?"

"You say."

"If you are only with Su Qing, after you get married, I definitely can't let Qingyan live here anymore. It will affect your relationship. If she leaves, I can't continue to live here either - I like my current life very much, living with Xiaojing and you."

Yan Hanxiang smiled, and she subconsciously reached out and patted Gu Ran on the shoulder, then left without waiting for his reply.

Gu Ran didn't quite understand what she meant.

Of course he understood that people hoped he would be with He Qingyan.

What he didn't understand was that if she continued to live here, things like "Dance Hall Dream" and "Desert Dream" would definitely happen again. Did she want to maintain this kind of life?
This matter is sensitive, Gu Ran doesn't want to think too much about it, there is no point in thinking about it.

What he was thinking about more seriously was that he was reluctant to let He Qingyan move away.

This is not just a love between men and women, but also the reluctance to part with friends and the nostalgia for the happy times in the present.

Although he is reluctant, Gu Ran will not change. Since he has chosen Su Qing, he cannot maintain his current life just because he likes the hustle and bustle.

The only thing to worry about is He Qingyan's mania.

When Yan Hanxiang said this today, did he have this in mind?
"What are you thinking about?" Zhuang Jing walked in wearing a white towel.

"Aunt Jing." Gu Ran came back to his senses.

Zhuang Jing put down the white towel and lay on the bed.

While giving her a massage, Gu Ran told her what had just happened, as well as his decision and concerns.

After listening to Gu Ran's confession, Zhuang Jing said, "Perhaps Su Qing doesn't want her to move out either."

"Will it?" Gu Ran was puzzled.

"Of course most people wouldn't do that, but Su Qing has been with Qing Yan since she was a child, and she has long been accustomed to her style. And Qing Yan probably wants to be with you, in large part because she can't bear to leave Su Qing."

"this."

"Didn't you see what they were thinking?" Zhuang Jing asked with a smile.

"No, it would be weird to keep staring at them, and I don't want to rely too much on [mind reading]."

"You did remind me. I have been using [Shooting the Sun] these past two days."

"You are doing research, unlike me."

"Heshen." Zhuang Jing smiled.

Gu Ran's heartbeat quickened.

Eighteen-year-old Yan Hanxiang also liked to pat Gu Ran on the shoulder;

The eighteen-year-old Zhuang Jing would occasionally say this about him. For example, if he was stingy, she would call him "Grandet"; if he ran fast, she would call him "Cao Cao".

This didn't mean anything, it just made him think wildly.

After getting to know them in real life, they would occasionally reveal this side of themselves.

But
Gu Ran wondered whether to use [Mind Reading].

In the end, I gave up.

It was the Black Dragon Dream, so what? Nothing would change, and he didn't want it to change.

The one he loves is Su Qing.

The dream ends here, Gu Ran told himself.

After arriving at {Jinghai}, before the ward rounds, the four people in Group 2 gathered together to discuss the candidates who would go to Haicheng International High School today.

"I can't go," Gu Ran said, "Xie Xiya's mother has an appointment for psychological counseling today."

"I also want to treat Li Xiaoye and Hu Qian." said Chen Ke.

"You go." He Qingyan immediately said to Su Qing.

"The floors are going to be lowered today, so I have to be there," Su Qing said.

"Why do you have to be here?"

"I'm the team leader."

"It's not that I can't be the team leader. Let's start voting to re-elect the team leader. I'll vote for myself." After saying this, He Qingyan looked at Gu Ran and Chen Ke.

"I'll vote for myself too." said Gu Ran.

Su Qing glared at him fiercely.

Gu Ran could understand being glared at by her. No matter whether he didn't vote for her or he was fooling around with He Qingyan, he deserved to be glared at.

But He Qingyan also glared at him.

Why?
"You don't vote for your wife?" He Qingyan asked. "What a delicate question." Chen Ke laughed, and at the same time relieved Gu Ran's embarrassment, "I vote for Su Qing."

"You won't be as shameless as Gu Ran and vote for me, right?" He Qingyan looked at Su Qing.

"Why don't you all go together?" said Gu Ran.

"You want to be alone with Keke in the office?" He Qingyan immediately turned her gaze to him.

"I agree to let He Qingyan go." Gu Ran said.

"One vote." Su Qing pointed at Gu Ran, then pointed at herself, "Two votes."

"Why are we suddenly voting? I don't agree!"

Finally, after seeing Gege's safety pants today, He Qingyan walked towards the Maybach unwillingly.

But before getting in the car, she was already whispering with Xie Xiya with a smile on her face, looking back at Gu Ran from time to time.

I always felt that letting her go was a mistake.

Gu Ran now even suspected that the two of them had planned together that Xie Xiya took off her school uniform in the psychological clinic yesterday.

When Chen Ke was treating Hu Qian in the morning, he suddenly asked Wang Jiajia to call Gu Ran, who was discussing how to escape from Jinghai with Gu Ran who was about to be discharged from the hospital.

"Need a translator?" Gu Ran walked in.

In room 102, Hu Qian sat cross-legged on the bed. Chen Ke, who was not wearing a white shirt but a skirt, was also sitting on the bed, facing each other.

Wang Jiajia, the head nurse of Room 102, followed Gu Ran in and closed the door.

She glanced at Gu Ran's back inconspicuously and felt that he looked particularly energetic today, exuding attraction all over his body.

It is a pure human masculine attraction. I really want to stay by his side, and my vitality will become stronger.

"No," Chen Ke said, "I want to borrow your hand for a moment."

Gu Ran raised his left arm, and with his right hand he formed a knife and chopped at his wrist: "Is this enough?"

"I'm not going to chop it down!" Chen Ke said with a smile.

"pity."

"What are you feeling sorry for?" Chen Ke couldn't do anything about him. She explained with a smile on her face, "Do you remember what happened on Hu Qian's first day in {Jinghai}?"

"Remember, what happened?"

"That day when she bumped into the table, you covered her forehead with your hand without hesitation. If you had covered her forehead with your hand, I think the hypnosis effect would be better. Of course, this is just my guess."

Gu Ran looked at Hu Qian: "Do you mind?"

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"She said she would give it a try and she believes in Dr. Chen," said Gu Ran.

Hu Qian: “.”

"What did she say?" Wang Jiajia wondered.

"She didn't say anything, she was just speechless." Gu Ran walked to the bed.

"Why 'speechless'?" Wang Jiajia asked again.

"Because she didn't say 'she believes Dr. Chen'."

"If you didn't say it, I wouldn't feel anything, but now it makes me nervous!" said Chen Ke.

"She doesn't believe you, but I do." Gu Ran smiled. He stretched out his hand and gently covered Hu Qian's forehead.

Hu Qian's eyelashes trembled.

She was embarrassed to look at Chen Ke or Gu Ran, so she looked away. By chance, her eyes met with Wang Jiajia's. She felt even more embarrassed when she saw Wang Jiajia's face full of envy.

"Okay, let's start now." said Chen Ke.

"You are sleeping at home alone, and your mother is out."

Hu Qian's heart beat faster as she heard footsteps approaching slowly and tentatively.

After the hypnosis treatment, Hu Qian fell asleep. Wang Jiajia stayed with her while Chen Ke and Gu Ran came outside.

"How is it?" Su Qing asked.

Chen Ke said: "The effect is even better than I expected. Perhaps Hu Qian herself did not realize how deeply impressed she was when Gu Ran desperately covered her forehead with his hand to protect her."

"How deep?" Gu Ran was curious.

"If Hu Qian has [psychological trauma], when you perform the removal surgery, Gu Ran, you may be able to defeat the monster in the crack of her mind with just your own hands."

"I want to try everything you said."

"Have you forgotten the first time you entered [Psychological Shadow] and were stepped on by He Qingyan?" Su Qing looked at him.

"You should have said, 'You forgot the first time you entered [Psychological Shadow], you were knocked out by Nightmare with one punch'!"

"For you, having a girl step on your head should be a more impressive experience." Su Qing said with a smile.

“Even if it’s profound, it’s because of humiliation.”

"I don't see any sign of revenge from you."

"It is never too late for a gentleman to take revenge. Sooner or later, I will trample her under my feet!" Gu Ran swore.

"I think this is difficult." Chen Ke smiled gently.

"Do you think I can't beat He Qingyan?"

"It's not a question of whether you can beat me or not. Gu Ran, you are very strong. If you really want revenge, it won't take ten years. So, the problem is that you don't have any intention of revenge at all. The reason you want revenge is just to deal with Su Qing."

"We are just chatting, why do you have to analyze it so seriously?" Gu Ran was puzzled.

"Did I analyze it?" Chen Ke covered her mouth in embarrassment. "I'm sorry, maybe I haven't recovered from the hypnosis yet."

When hypnotizing, the hypnotist must also enter a certain state.

Even when taking an exam, your mental state will be different from usual, let alone when treating patients.

"Let's go eat." Su Qing said with a smile.

She didn't really want to check Gu Ran's accounts.

However, since her boyfriend was stepped on the head by someone else, she was somewhat eager to try.

It's not that she likes him, but she just thinks that it's very abnormal that others have done this to Gu Ran, but she has never done it.

After dinner, I returned to the office.

"It's rare that He Qingyan is not here, so the three of us can open our hearts and have a good chat." Gu Ran said.

"Qingyan seemed to have said something like this yesterday." Chen Ke recalled.

"I was just imitating her, but it was also a real thing."

"What's the matter?" Su Qing leaned back in the swivel chair comfortably.

"This morning, Aunt Xiang told me her opinion on our relationship."

"Yeah." Su Qing responded.

"She said that if I were with you, she would move out with He Qingyan and it wouldn't affect our lives." Gu Ran said.

Su Qing said nothing.

Chen Ke looked at them.

"What do you think?" After a while, Su Qing asked Gu Ran.

(move out)

(Qingyan's disease)

Gu Ran heard reluctance, worry, sadness and confusion in Su Qing's voice.

What Zhuang Jing said was indeed right.

"Then let her stay here." Gu Ran said.

".What do you mean?" Su Qing looked straight at Gu Ran.

Chen Ke didn't expect that a simple "chat" would involve such a deep issue. She didn't even dare to breathe.

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"Private Diary": Friday, September 19, the weather forecast says there will be a typhoon next week

It seems that whether to reject or adopt He Qingyan's proposal is not just my business.

Su Qing, Aunt Xiang, and even Aunt Jing, their thoughts are also very important.

Before this, did I know what I really thought?

Just like Hu Xi doesn’t know what my hands mean to her, do I know what I really think?
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"Doctor's Diary":
I accidentally protected Hu Qian once, and unexpectedly left an impression on her that was beyond imagination.

We should be gentler and friendlier to people in the future, because human hearts are more sensitive than we think.

(Zhuang Jing's comment: When you take care of others, don't forget that you are also a human being.)
(End of this chapter)