I'm trapped in a block

Chapter 1020 Differences in Talent

The inner world is constructed by "perception of the outside world" and "self-examination", neither of which is indispensable.

Delta Three had noticed the gap between him and the other trainees since the start of their training, a gap that was simply too big to ignore.

“The difference in talent is like a chasm. Those with high talent can soar to the sky in one step, while those with low talent can only stay where they are, or even step into the mud and be unable to escape, no matter how hard they try.”

As a person with high talent, one can look at everything lightly and brush it off with the words “everything outside is false”.

But as a person with low talent, it is impossible to ignore this gap. It is a rare thing to not feel jealous and look at it correctly.

How is it possible for Delta III to not care about the outside world now?

His will is completely based on "reluctance to give up". He has been able to persist until now just to prove that "one can become a hotel employee with hard work". It is this sensitivity to the outside world that has allowed him to reach where he is today.

The gap in talent was like a thorn, constantly causing severe pain in his heart, but the pain also encouraged him to move forward and fight for his "self".

If Delta III had enough talent, he would certainly be able to focus on himself and not be attracted by the dazzling light from the outside world, but his talent is too poor. For him, any flash of the outside world is a light worth looking up to and a source of motivation for him.

He thought that through his own efforts, he would be able to touch those lights one day.

As an ordinary person, I passed the training and became a hotel employee.

Perhaps in the eyes of other trainees, training is nothing and joining the hotel is just a very common thing, but in the eyes of Delta III, this is an opportunity to prove themselves.

He did all this in order to keep his "self" alive, so that the "outside world" would no longer be so dazzling to him and become a little more normal...

Delta Three stood there, constantly thinking about his experiences during this period.

The instructor asked him to keep his inner peace and return to himself, but could he really do it?
He looked up at his companions around him. They were wantonly wielding the strength in their bodies. Things that were difficult for him to do were easily performed by them.

With talent, the world becomes a beautiful place, as if everything is simple and easy.

The students around them were the same, as were the instructors. They could calmly say "don't be disturbed by the outside world" because the outside world was never a big deal to them. The outside world did not put pressure on them, nor did it become a thorn in their hearts. They had never felt what Delta Three felt -

Inferiority.

"Yeah, they've never felt inferior to me, so of course they can't understand me."

Delta Three then realized that his inability to ignore the outside world was a sign of inferiority complex.

His inferiority complex became more and more serious as his training progressed, and it became his normal state. While it became a driving force, it also made him more and more confused.

"What should I do?"

Standing in the middle of the training ground, Delta Three was confused...

He stood there for an unknown amount of time. From time to time, explosions could be heard all around him, and black energy was flying everywhere. Delta Three still stood there quietly. Sometimes he would stare at a student, sometimes he would look around aimlessly, and sometimes he would stare at his feet, thinking about the immaturity when he first learned to walk.

He didn't know what he was thinking, but suddenly he took a step forward and walked amid the flying attacks.

"Keep your center of gravity, body upright, left foot forward, center of gravity forward, right foot pushes the ground, turn your body..."

This is the trick to walking that he summed up. When he was practicing before, he would memorize the formulas in his mind and walk according to the formulas. Even now that he is used to walking, he still unconsciously memorizes those formulas.

As the walking formula sounded in his mind, Delta Three gradually felt that the sounds around him became smaller, and the explosions gradually disappeared, leaving only silence.

When he walked for the first time and was immaturely practicing his standing posture, his inner "inferiority complex" was not as intense as it is now.

At that time, his inferiority complex had not yet become a thorn, and his eyes were not on other students. He was just looking ahead and moving forward step by step.

At that time, he was completely focused on his own focus.

His center of gravity swayed with his body, beating freely in his body to a rhythm that belonged only to him.

“If only I could keep going…”

Delta Three fantasized that if the training stayed at the "walking stage", he could become the best among the trainees through practice. "The most talented walking trainee."

Although the name sounds a bit ridiculous, at least he is the "most talented", which is something he dare not even think about now.

"At that time, I was really focused and only cared about myself. My heart was extremely calm. Why did I become so inferior now?"

He could no longer find that kind of peace.

Even if I recite the old formulas, walk the same path as before, and fantasize about my past self, I still can't find it back.

Inferiority complex is inferiority complex. Once it is embedded in your heart, it can never be pulled out...

After walking like this for a while, Delta Three once again circled around the instructor.

"How is it? Are you still confused?" the instructor asked calmly.

"chaos."

"You can't ignore the outside world." The instructor saw through his psychology.

"Yes." Delta III didn't want to hide anything and directly confirmed the instructor's words: "I can't help but care about those things... I have too low self-esteem."

The instructor, who was always sharp-tongued, seemed unable to say anything helpful at this moment. After all, he could not understand Delta III's situation.

Without the same experience, it is certainly impossible to empathize, let alone put yourself in someone else's shoes and offer strong suggestions...

"I can not help you."

"I understand, instructor..." Delta Three didn't dare to look at the instructor. He knew that he had disappointed him.

"Are you going to eliminate me?" he asked somewhat frustratedly.

"will not."

The instructor's answer surprised Delta Three.

"Why not? In the past, weren't those who couldn't learn skills eliminated?"

"Not this time. This is the last class. After this class, you can start working directly. The tricks I have kept are only to give you some self-protection power when you manage the hotel. They are not necessary measures."

The instructor explained calmly, and every word he said surprised Delta Three.

He is actually ready to take up the job?

This is the last class, so we don’t have to be eliminated?
No matter how well he does, he will not be judged by the outside world?

The instructor's words suddenly made him feel a little dazed. All his previous worries and anxieties turned out to be groundless worries and unnecessary troubles.

At this moment, the pressure from the outside world disappeared instantly.

Delta Three's inferiority complex originally came from the heavy pressure of the training assessment. After realizing that he no longer needed to be compared with other students in the assessment, his heart suddenly stopped hurting and he calmed down a lot in an instant.

What followed was a surge of joy.

"I can become a hotel employee..."

All the efforts are valuable, and he has managed to hold on until now.

It was also at this moment that an idea that he had never had before suddenly arose in his mind:

"I am no worse than other students."

(End of this chapter)