Classmate Li Zhuangsheng doesn’t want to be reborn

"I understand, I understand everything." Qin Luanyu whispered, her lips close to Li Zhuangsheng's. "I know you're in so much pain. You're too reserved; you can't be a bad person."

Li Zhuangsheng was stunned, perhaps captivated by the faint fragrance of the flowers.

Is this a kiss? She's kissing me! Why?
“I feel very uncomfortable forcing you to say these things.” Qin Luanyu stroked Li Zhuangsheng’s face. “Really, I just think it would be better for you to say it.”

Li Zhuangsheng stared blankly at the other person, still lost in confusion.

“My mother passed away when I was very young. I was extremely sad during that time and was depressed all the time. I think I was really depressed. My father was busy with his career and rarely cared about me. In fact, he wasn’t very good at parenting. He always bought me a lot of material gifts, thinking that this was how he was good to me. That was the darkest period of my life… Of course, it’s also possible that I’m being too sensitive and haven’t experienced setbacks since I was young. After all, there are many people in this world who have lost their parents but still live strong lives.”

"For a long time, I hated everything around me, thought about suicide, thought about sleeping with men and just going to the bottom... Of course, I didn't do any of these things, because I met you. At first, I just thought your books were weird and funny, but I didn't expect that you in real life were gentle and rigid, completely opposite to the protagonists in your books."

“During that time, you always encouraged me patiently and chatted with me all night long. Even though you didn’t know who I was, I never gave you any tips. You made my sleepless nights easier to endure. Before that, I used to be unable to sleep for nights on end. You suggested that I go running to relieve my mood. I was able to become an athlete thanks to you.”

Qin Luanyu smiled and blinked, her eyes seemingly welling up with tears: "You saved my life, big brother!"

"Did I save your life?" Li Zhuangsheng finally came to his senses.

"Yes, you saved me! You saved my life!" Qin Luanyu cupped Li Zhuangsheng's face in her hands, her eyes reddening. "My life has been completely changed because of you, and my soul has been elevated because of you. This world has lost a Qin Luanyu who was trapped in a sea of ​​suffering, and gained a national-level athlete, Qin Luanyu. You are the one who saved my light. In all the years we've known each other, you've become a part of my soul!"

"Do you know why I came to see you?" Qin Luanyu's voice trembled with emotion. "Because I know you need me now. You saved me, and now it's my turn to save you!"

Li Zhuangsheng stared blankly, feeling the surging emotions emanating from Qin Luanyu—emotions he had never encountered before and might never encounter again.

"So, that's it..."

Li Zhuangsheng nodded slowly, and all his doubts seemed to disappear in an instant.

“I’ll tell you, I tortured and killed a kitten. I’ve never told you about this before. It was when I was in junior high school. I saw a stray cat on the road meowing at me. I rushed up and kicked it hard. It crashed into the wall, then coughed up blood, fell to the ground meowing, and stopped moving after a while.” Qin Luanyu said softly, “Actually, I regret it very much, and I feel ashamed. It’s really shameful to torture and kill a weak creature.”

Li Zhuangsheng paused for a moment, then shook his head to comfort him: "It's alright, it's alright. Although what you did was wrong, you were understandable at the time. Although it was wrong, we just won't do it again in the future."

“And let me tell you, when my mother passed away, my first reaction wasn’t sadness, but fear. Fear of her death, even wanting to run away from her body. I’ll never forget that cowardly version of myself.” Qin Luanyu bit her lip. “I actually wanted to run away, afraid of my own mother.”

Li Zhuangsheng opened his mouth, but couldn't think of anything to say. He just stiffly patted her shoulder: "It's okay, it's okay..."

He couldn't utter any other words, nor did he know how to comfort her. Qin Luanyu rested her head on Li Zhuangsheng's shoulder, her voice trembling: "During that time, I wasn't sad about my mother's death, but about losing my mother, losing the mother who loved me the most... Actually, I wasn't sad because of her, but because of myself. I think I was really selfish, thinking only of myself from beginning to end."

"It's okay, it's okay..."

Li Zhuangsheng couldn't help but hug her and gently pat her back. He didn't know how to comfort her, so he could only respond mechanically.

"We've exchanged secrets." Qin Luanyu looked up and pressed her face against Li Zhuangsheng's. "Do you hate me like this?"

"No, of course not!"

"Well, so think about it and marry me!" Qin Luanyu wiped away her tears fiercely.

"Eh... Eh, no..."

Li Zhuangsheng was stunned. How could you change your mind faster than turning the pages of a book!
And why marriage? Shouldn't they date first?
Qin Luanyu raised her head: "So, you know my secret, and I know yours. The fact that we don't dislike each other proves we're a match made in heaven, doesn't it?"

"This is such a huge leap!"

"You saved me, and I saved you. So we're a perfect match!"

Li Zhuangsheng reached out to stop him, then pressed his other hand to his forehead, trying to recall: "Wait a minute... I don't know about the beginning, but why did you save me? I admit you helped me a lot... but when did you save me?"

"You must be feeling terrible right now, being forced onto a life path you don't want." Qin Luanyu stared intently at Li Zhuangsheng. "I will help you get rid of all of this!"

Li Zhuangsheng was stunned.

"Besides, we're destined for each other! You must really like me!" Qin Luanyu proudly patted her chest. "I am Qin Luanyu, beautiful as a flower, with a slim waist, long legs, and a perky butt. I have never liked any boy other than you, nor have I ever had a close relationship with any boy! I am your masterpiece, and you are my savior! I can proudly say that I am the perfect anime heroine you've always longed for! A girl who fell from the sky and was raised by you!"

"No...you, you..." Li Zhuangsheng was so shocked that he couldn't speak.

What does "a child raised from the sky" even mean? That's such a niche term! Although... Qin Luanyu is really amazing, Li Zhuangsheng's heart couldn't help but pound wildly at this moment, and a joyful smile appeared on his lips.

"You like Xie Jiangqing because she seems like the female lead, right? But I'm more like your female lead than she is... no, I'm your female lead!" Qin Luanyu continued, a smile playing on her lips. "I'm very tolerant of your relationships with them, you know. I may not be your first, but I'll be your last! So, how about we get married?" (End of Chapter)