The legend of Li Shuaixi

It was as dark as a ghost there.

Knowing that there is only darkness around me, I accept the fact that I am dead.

Floating on the sea of ​​light and sound.Naked without any decorations, the human figure called Ryoichi gradually sank.

There is no end.No, maybe it wasn't falling in the first place.

Because here, there is nothing.

Not only is there no light, but there is also no darkness.Since there is nothing, there is nothing to see.It doesn't even have the meaning of falling down.

Even the word probably doesn't exist.

In "It's useless to even describe", only my body is sinking.I am naked, dyed with colorful colors that make people look away.Because all 'existence' here is full of malice. [

'...that is, death. '

Even the whispering voice is like a dream.

It's just, observing something like time.Even though time doesn't exist in '', I can observe it.

As natural as flowing, as ugly as rotten, all I can count is time.

Nothing.

Even though I have been staring into the distance, I can't see anything.

Even though I have been waiting for something, I can't see anything.

Very smooth, very satisfying.

No... 'existing' is enough here because there is no meaning whatsoever.

Here is death.

A world that only the dead can reach.The world observed by the law of the living.

Actually, only I am still living here...

seem.I am crazy.

Over the past two years, I have been exposed to the concept of 'death' here.

That is not so much an observation, but I think it is closer to the intensity of the battle. [

In the morning, the hospital suddenly became noisy.

The footsteps of nurses in the corridor and the noise of patients who got up kept coming.Compared with the tranquility of the night.The hustle and bustle of the morning is more like a festival.

For me who just woke up, those voices were too loud for the days when I lived with my cousin.

Fortunately, I lived in a single room.Although it was very noisy outside, but because of the quietness in this small box, I was able to calm down somewhat.

Soon, the doctor came to examine.

'How do you feel, Miss Liangyi. '

'...Ah, not very clear. '

To my unfeeling answer.The doctor fell silent as if embarrassed.

'……Yeah.But it seems to be more stable than last night.Ordinarily, your current situation should not be very easy.Please feel free to contact me if you feel unwell. '

I only responded with silence to the doctor's words.Because I'm not interested in taking things for granted.

But he seems to be wrong.

'Well, let me explain briefly.Today is June [-], [-].You...Miss Two Rites were sent to this hospital in the middle of the night on March [-] two years ago due to a traffic accident.was colliding with a car on a pedestrian crossing.Do you have any impression? '

'...'

I didn't answer. ...I don't know about that kind of thing.

The last image that can be taken out from the drawer called memory is the figure of my classmate standing in the rain.As for why I had an accident, I have no impression of such a thing.

'Ah, there's no need to worry even if you can't remember it.

Miss Eryi seemed to sense the danger the moment she collided with the car and took a small step away.So luckily there wasn't too much physical damage.

However, instead, the head received a strong impact.Although he was already in a comatose state when he was transported to this hospital.But the brain doesn't seem to be damaged.So the inability to recall the past may just be a temporary confusion caused by two years of lethargy.Judging from the examination last night, nothing abnormal was found in the brain waves.

In short, it cannot be asserted that it will gradually improve.After all, there was no precedent for waking up from a coma. '

Even if it's been two years.I have no sense of reality.For the two rituals who have been sleeping all the time, the blankness is closer to ''.

From the perspective of the two ceremonies, what happened on the rainy night two years ago was no different from yesterday.

However, that's not the case for me.

For me now, yesterday is the real ''.

'Also, the damage to both eyes is not serious.Eye damage from blunt objects is fairly minor.Last night, luckily you didn't have a knife with you.The eyes were immediately bandaged up.If you want to see the scenery outside, please be patient for another week or so. '

The doctor's words were somewhat blaming.

He must be confused by the fact that I hurt my eyes.He asked me why I did that kind of thing last night, but I didn't answer him.

'From today.Physical rehabilitation exercises are performed every morning and afternoon.Please limit meeting with family members to one hour a day.If you can balance your body and mind, you can leave the hospital immediately.Before that, it will be very hard to be patient. '

Disappointed with the expected lines.

I'm too lazy to say something sarcastic, try to move my right hand

...the body doesn't seem to be his own.It takes time to move, and the joints and muscles hurt like they're about to split.

It has not been moved at all for two years, and this is of course the latest chapter of the Blood Demon Way.

'Well, that's it for this morning.Miss Shi looks very calm so the nurse will not come to accompany the bed nurse.If you have anything to do, just ring the bell there.There is a nurse on duty next door.Please don't worry about the little things. '

Very gentle tone.

If my eyes could see, I would definitely see that doctor's modified smile.

The doctor who turned to leave left a sentence as if he suddenly remembered it.

'Ah, yes.A life counselor will take care of you from tomorrow.She is a woman who is about the same age as Ms. Eryi.So please relax and talk.Because what is missing for you now is communication. '

And just like that, I was alone again.

Lie down on the hospital bed.I held my head, closed my eyes, and existed there in a trance.

'my name…'

asked with dry lips.

'Two rituals, style. '

but.That person is not here.

Because two years has killed me.

All the memories lived as two rituals can be vividly recalled.But so what.What is the memory of me who died once and came back to life again?

The gap of two years has completely severed the connection between the former me and the present me.

I obviously have no doubt that it is the two rituals, and it is not anyone other than Shiki, but... Regarding the memory of the past, I have no real feeling that it is my own.

I, who just came back from the dead like this, just watched the life of the person named Two Rites as if watching a movie.The character in that movie, I don't think it's me.

' Exactly.Ghosts on film. '

He bit his lip.

I, do not understand myself.

He didn't even dare to decide whether he was really the two rituals.

I couldn't help thinking that I was someone who didn't know the truth.

The body is as empty as a cave.Not only the air, it seems that even the wind can pass through.

Although I don't know the reason, it seems that there is really a big hole in the chest.

It was a very intense restlessness...a very intense loneliness.

The missing piece in the puzzle is the heart.My frivolous self can't bear that gap.

Too empty to even find a reason to live.

'So...what the hell is going on, Shiki. '

Although I asked, there was no way to solve it.

For such an incredible thing... I can't help but feel uneasy and anxious like tearing my chest.I didn't feel any pain or sadness at all.

There is anxiety, and there is pain.

but.That is the feeling that the two rituals have.

I don't feel it.No interest even in resurrecting from two years dead.

It's just that there is no purpose here to read the full text of Hammer Sword.

I'm alive, in a situation that doesn't have the slightest sense of reality.

The next day came.

Even I, who can't see the light, can feel the morning coming. It's a trivial discovery.

I get a fair amount of joy out of this so-called little thing.Just as I was thinking about why I was so happy, the examination started and ended inadvertently.

It was not quiet in the morning.

My mother and brother came to visit me and talked for a while.

Completely like a stranger, the conversation can't be grasped no matter what.I had no choice but to deal with it according to Shi's memory, so my mother went back with peace of mind.

It's like acting, it's funny from beginning to end.

In the afternoon.Here comes the life counselor.

She is probably a woman like a speech therapist, extremely cheerful.

'Hi, okay? '

I've never heard of a doctor saying hello like that.

'Why.I thought you would be very haggard, but I didn't expect your skin to be so shiny.When I first heard about you, I thought you were a ghost-like person under Liu, so I couldn't get interested at all.Well, lucky to be the kind of cute girl I like. '

Judging from the voice, it looks like a woman around 25 years old.Sit down on the chair next to my bed.

'first meet.I'm a speech therapist who helps you with your aphasia.I'm not from here so I don't have ID, but since you can't see it, that's okay. '

'...Aphasia or something, who are you referring to? '

Asking back without hesitation, the female doctor seemed to be nodding.

'That's right, people usually get angry when they say that.Aphasia is not a good image, let alone misdiagnosed.The Lu family is the kind of person who sticks to their books, and they are not very good at special cases like yours.However, you are also responsible.If it weren't for the troublesome reluctance to speak, there wouldn't be such a misunderstanding. '

As if very intimate, the woman laughed.

…perhaps downright biased.I figured the woman must be someone with glasses.

'is considered aphasia. '

'Yes.You suffered a brain injury in an accident.Only then will there be questions such as broken speech circuits.But that was a misdiagnosis.You don't speak because of the physical aspect but the mental aspect, right?So it's not aphasia but speech disorder.If that's the case, I won't have a job. It's not a good thing to lose my job in less than a minute.It just so happens that my job is not very busy, so I will stay with you for a while longer. '

... redundant care.

I reached for the bell for the nurse.

Suddenly, the female doctor quickly snatched the bell from my hand.

'...you bastard. '

'It's a good risk, a good risk.If I let the Lu family know what I just said, I will leave immediately.Is there anything bad about being considered aphasic?Wouldn't it be possible not to answer those chatting questions then, understand? '

...that's exactly what it says.But what kind of guy is someone who can speak so bluntly.

I turned my bandaged eyes to the unidentified female doctor.