EVA: Shinji Ikari Returns from the Dragon Clan

Chapter 57 56. If it is not something that belongs to me completely, then I would rather have nothing
Asuka ate her bento in silence.

She had been eating fast food and junk food all the time and rarely tasted normal meals. She couldn't help but think that at least the food this guy cooked was actually quite delicious, even better than the food she had at the top student's place last time.

He also plays the cello.

His performance in driving EVA is also very high, much higher than hers.

He is very popular in school and in the headquarters. Everyone's attention seems to be focused on the stupid Shinji. Misato, Akagi, Kaji... no one noticed him at all. Although he was the only one calling him stupid, it was actually just to hide the fear of having his light taken away from him.

He is so awesome, he is so excellent.

but.

…I’m a little jealous.

Asuka thought so.

She had always heard of him in Germany, and everyone was comparing her to him, so even though her mother's death anniversary was approaching, Asuka decided to come to Japan. She was the best pilot, and she wanted to prove it to everyone. The best pilot should have gone to the JA Robotics Conference, but the first person Misato called was the stupid Shinji, not her.

The one in the past was Unit-01, not Unit-02.

So in Misato's opinion, in the adults' opinion, the best driver is——

——It’s not me after all.

Humans are solitary animals.

A person is born, a person thinks, and finally a person dies.

Some people say that one cannot survive alone. If that is the case, then she can just not be a human being and be a water flea. At least she is much more independent than someone who has to rely on others. So she does not need other people, nor does she need her parents, and she can live well.

result.

When Misato left the apartment.

I told myself not to think too much about her after going to the meeting.

But a few days after she left, Asuka felt a little lonely staying in the apartment alone. The moment she felt the mood, Asuka's mind suddenly went blank - Misato's place was obviously just a temporary residence, but she unconsciously regarded this place full of empty beer cans and fast food garbage as her home, and even accidentally regarded Misato as her family.

He said he wanted to live alone.

She also felt lonely because she had no way of surviving on her own, so she tacitly chose to continue living with Misato.

...a bit of hatred.

Why should I compete with her for the chance to pilot EVA against the Angel?
Stupid Shinji, such an excellent person, why don’t he do something else, such as being a chef or a cellist, or even if he really got here through the backdoor, just leave such a dangerous task as piloting the EVA to fight against the Angels to her!

No mom, no dad.

She only has Unit 2 left.

All the skills he possesses are designed for piloting Unit 2, nothing else.

She can't cook, can't play the cello, and if stupid Shinji has to do everything, then what's the point of her staying in Japan now? Wouldn't she be redundant?

I kind of hate Shinji the fool who stole the opportunity.

...I feel a little disgusted.

She shouldn't have such ugly jealousy. As long as she worked hard, she would definitely be able to surpass the stupid Shinji. She had always done this, from childhood to adulthood. When she was in Germany, there were disgusting people who were jealous. They were all losers that Asuka looked down upon, but this time it was her turn.

Asuka.

Your heart is really ugly.

I kind of hate myself for being jealous and hating others.

…I’m a little bit yearning.

Stupid Shinji said those cool words, saying that both adults and children wanted to be like him.

If I were as good as him, everyone's eyes would immediately turn to me, Asuka thought. Everyone would praise me, and I would immediately become the best pilot again. Even if Unit 2 was gone, it wouldn't be replaced, and I would be able to find the meaning of life. Cooking.

Cello.

Why take away all the light?

Why do we say that we think she is an adult, send her flowers, say that she is excellent, and send her a lunch box?

Asuka recalled what she saw when she arrived at the marine life research base.

From the beautiful marine animals in the tank, from the eerily clean orange-red ocean, from the sharp contrast, she was reminded of the photos of her mother taken when she was young and in college, which were in her grandmother's treasured albums.

Extreme beauty.

The ultimate in elegance.

The person in real life was in charge of the experiment of EVA Unit 2, but because of an experimental accident, he became mentally ill and eventually hanged himself in the ward. His appearance was so unbearable and unclean that it was frightening. After the experiment, she worked very hard for her mother and was successfully elected as the pilot of Unit 2, but her mother did not recover from her mental illness. She even saw with her own eyes the ugly appearance of her mother's body after she hanged herself.

That's why my dad cheated on his wife.

All love will deteriorate in the end.

Asuka hates gentle boys - gentle boys are actually gentle to everyone, but she easily mistakenly thinks that they are only gentle to herself.

Flowers too,

The same goes for bento.

——If it is not something that belongs to her completely, then she would rather have nothing!

Time passed and the lunch box was almost finished.

Asuka asked inexplicably,
"you……"

Ikari Shinji shook his head.

The blue-haired girl looked up and saw that the top student didn't seem to have any intention of refutation. Asuka felt relieved for some reason. These two people walked together all day long, and even if she was there, she couldn't blend in. It was hard not to doubt the relationship between the two of them, but since Misato said it wasn't true and she asked twice, it should be true.

"That's it..."

We go to and from school together every day.

The two people have a really good relationship.

Saying.

Stupid Shinji's apartment is also in that direction...

The fleeting thought did not stay in her mind at all, just like the bubbles in the kitchen sink that dispersed at the touch of a finger. Asuka was about to finish her lunch box, and at the same time, the ground began to shake...

Japan is indeed a country where earthquakes occur frequently.

After defeating all the apostles and proving herself to be the best pilot, she definitely doesn't want to live here, and she doesn't want to go to Germany even more.

Which country would be better to go to then?
And just then.

Asuka noticed that there seemed to be some huge creature in the ocean in the distance.

This leisurely daily life is like a speeding high-speed train that finally stops at the midway station. All relationships will change after this.

Ikari Shinji stood up.

He looked very calm, just dialed the mobile phone and said softly,
"Ms. Misato, we found the Sixth Angel on the beach."

I have been trying to figure out Asuka's psychology for a long time, and I'll leave it like this for now. If there's anything wrong, please tell me and I'll change it.

I tried not to use stream of consciousness, and the description was understandable, but I felt that there were too many psychological details in this chapter. I wonder if it would be a bad impression.
Thank you all for your votes, love you all.

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(End of this chapter)