EVA: Shinji Ikari Returns from the Dragon Clan

Chapter 89 87. Only by overcoming the childish past can one grow
silence.

There was a long silence.

The Ferris wheel had reached its highest point and began to rotate slowly downwards. The so-called kiss could last forever. This legend between the lovers ended before it even began.

According to Asuka, Shinji was breaking up with her.

Neither of them spoke.

Shinji Ikari thought that he could just say "Hahaha, actually I have never had any love for you from the beginning to the end, you have always been entertaining yourself, I like Ayanami" to KO everything in front of him, and he didn't even have to care about the girl's life or death, but in the end he still chose this approach.

He was the first to break the silence.

"So, I hope Asuka can love herself first."

Shinji Ikari said seriously,
"The more you indulge in this kind of love that treats me as a substitute for your parents, the more Asuka will live in the past, but people can't always live in the world of the past, so don't continue like this. Before loving others, you must love yourself first."

"No, I really like Shinji."

Asuka retorted weakly.

And what's wrong with dwelling on the past?
She thought to herself, isn't that what everyone who is looking for their childhood is like? Even if they seek the security of their parents in their partner, doesn't that count as love? Living in the world of the past, holding on to everything in the past, isn't that okay?

Shinji actually broke up with her because she treated him as a substitute and because she didn't love herself enough.

So she shouted super loudly.

...like those teenage girls who express their love to their loved ones,
"I like Shinji very much. I like him so much that I can strip me naked and do anything perverted and lecherous things even if you idiot Shinji takes my clothes off right now."

Explosive speech.

Asuka, do you know how damaging this sentence of yours is?

If a girl says this to you, why are you still hesitating? Kiss her lips and take off her clothes.

The beautiful girl in front of him is so alluring, she is like a beautiful moth flying towards the fire, she humbles herself to the ground for you, but Shinji Ikari did not do that, he just recalled a comic about Stand users he had read, in which there were the invincible Star Platinum and the Scarlet King. The villains in the comic all have their own charms, and the big villain in that comic has a line that is very suitable for Asuka now.

"Just think of this as a test." Ikari Shinji sighed, "Only after overcoming the childish past can one grow."

"So Shinji still thinks I'm childish?"

"No, you are already an adult who can take responsibility, and you don't have to expose your breasts like this to prove it to me. However, although I treat Asuka as an adult, and although I am willing to cook for you and give you a hug when Asuka needs comfort, this does not mean that I am willing to be treated as a substitute for your parents and willing to live in the past with you."

The German lady's little head hung down.

Her clothes were dishevelled.

Shinji Ikari turned his face away without looking at what was inappropriate.

He thought that his words were nice, saying that he did not live in the world of the past, but in fact he himself could not escape the influence of another world. He initially noticed the beautiful girl Ayanami Rei because of the sense of identification with Blood Sorrow, but he gradually fell in love with her as they got to know each other later.

How can a person completely say goodbye to the past? But because of his bloodline, he should be very different from Asuka.

He gathered his scattered thoughts and said to Asuka:

"So that's the end of it."

Now this is a messed up relationship.

Time to end.

There is a beautiful girl waiting for him.

This is what it means to break up completely, Asuka thought, but she was still greedy. "What about kissing?" the girl asked in a low voice.

"No."

"What about hugs?"

"No."

She doesn't care that much.

The pretty girl rushed over, thinking that she couldn't keep Shinji because she wasn't attractive enough, so she decided to use her body to keep him and make him hers. But this time, Shinji Ikari refused her kiss and embrace, and she struggled for a moment, so she only got a hug between friends.

The two people hugged each other quietly in the cockpit.

It’s as warm as having parents.

But stupid Shinji doesn't want this kind of love. After all, he is just living in the past. What are you doing, Asuka? Didn't you say before that you can live on your own without mom and dad? Now you are looking for the shadow of mom and dad in Shinji. Isn't this too cunning?

Asuka sniffed.

"Okay, I'll prove to you that my love for Shinji is not for a substitute."

"Before that, Asuka needs to love herself first."

Shinji Ikari added,

"Asuka is Asuka. Don't feel like you have nowhere to go and give up on yourself just because your identity as the pilot of Unit 2 was denied. Asuka is not completely useless. She is a very beautiful and lovely girl, a priceless treasure, so you should take better care of yourself."

The pretty girl was silent.

She suddenly laughed and scolded,
"What are you talking about, idiot Shinji? I won't give up on myself that easily. Even without you, I still have Unit-02. Even without Unit-02, I can still go on by myself."

Don't treat Shinji as a substitute for your parents.

Overcome the childish past.

Love yourself first.

This was too much to ask, but Asuka believed that she could do it, because she had gotten to where she is today with her proud appearance - and by then she would be able to win Shinji back to her side. At least, apart from the love she had as a substitute, that adolescent love was not fake.

He actually likes himself, doesn't he?

At least, when kissing...he was not unresponsive.

"I'll take you back."

Said Shinji Ikari.

The date was stopped midway.

Asuka put on her clothes, not letting her beauty show at all, but the impression just now remained in Shinji Ikari's mind. The two of them were very silent on the road, without holding hands, hugging or kissing. When they arrived in front of Miss Misato's apartment, he was about to leave when Asuka suddenly called him:
"Hey Shinji."

"please say."

"If I go back to that day, will you still help me?"

Shinji Ikari turned around, glanced at her, then nodded and smiled. This was probably the first time he smiled like this in front of this beautiful girl since his relationship with Asuka became a mess.
“I’ll still reach out.”

Because you asked for help in front of me.

(End of this chapter)