EVA: Shinji Ikari Returns from the Dragon Clan

Chapter 88 86. Learn to love yourself before loving others 3k
Pirate Ship.

Rapid torrent.

Asuka had a lot of fun today. A super sweet smile appeared on her face. She was laughing with joy non-stop, and even her steps became lighter. Although these activities were not very exciting for both of them, she did not find them boring.

In the blink of an eye.

Two or three hours have passed.

The hem of my floral skirt got a little wet when I was doing whitewater rafting, but it has dried now.

She held Shinji Ikari's hand.

He was humming an unknown song happily.

At some moment Asuka suddenly noticed the expression of the boy next to her. He looked very calm. Since arriving in Japan, she often saw Ikari Shinji smiling in daily life. This boy seemed to be the kind of person who was always carefree, but recently he didn't seem to smile much.

It seems that Shinji is not very happy.

Why is this?

When she thought of this, she couldn't help but feel anxious.
Asuka thought of herself as Shinji's girlfriend. These days, she felt that she seemed to be very sensitive to Shinji's emotions. This should be the bond between lovers. She would always pay attention to the other person's mood. She couldn't help but ask,
"Shinji, isn't this fun?"

"very nice."

Shinji Ikari said sincerely.

Hearing his words, Asuka couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

"Cheer up, idiot Shinji! I thought I was the only one enjoying myself. This is a date with me. It's an honor that those stupid boys in school would love to have."

as punishment.

Simply holding hands is no longer enough.

The beautiful girl held Shinji's hand tightly with her fingers interlocked, and couldn't help feeling a sense of satisfaction.

She loves ice cream the most, and she got an ice cream kingdom from a fairy tale. The whole kingdom is covered with sweet and cold ice cream, which will refresh after eating. There is no hateful villain old witch who catches children to eat. It is a real treasure.

Asuka glanced into the distance.

Next is the Ferris wheel.

The huge spinning wheel sparkles in the sun, and as it spins it's like a huge colorful whirlwind, attracting the attention of people nearby.

This project is basically played by couples, and it is rare to see someone playing it alone.

That was the last project.

"Shinji, let's go ride the Ferris wheel."

I heard that if you kiss your lover when the Ferris wheel reaches the highest point, you will be able to go on forever. This is what Guang told her, full of little girl's fantasy. Although Asuka doesn't really believe in this kind of thing - after all, there is no such thing as eternal love in the world, and the love of parents is the best lesson - but with Shinji, she can still give it a try.

I hope Shinji will always be by my side.

After all, Unit 02 can be replaced by Unit 00. If I lose Shinji again... I don’t know what to do.

Of course she has her own little thoughts.

There is no unconditional love in this world.

Asuka thinks that all likes are conditional, and all likes will deteriorate under stronger temptations. So she has to make Shinji more and more dependent on her. As for the bento, it feels not enough, and the kiss is just a taste. Should we do that kind of adult thing? It should be soon, and by then Shinji will definitely become something that belongs to her completely.

After playing in the amusement park, you can also go to the movies.

They were all cliché couple date spots, but Asuka thought it was great.

soon.

The Ferris wheel started slowly.

The two people sat close together in the cockpit, as if they could hear each other's heartbeats.

Looking down from a high place, one can see the layout of the entire amusement park, with few people. In the distance, some places in the Third New Tokyo City were destroyed beyond recognition by the invasion of the apostles, with only ruins and broken walls.

A few minutes later.

Almost reaching the highest point.

Asuka thought it was time. With only two of them, they could do anything here without being discovered.

She glanced at Shinji Ikari's face and wondered if she should kiss him. Or she should just ask the stupid Shinji to kiss her first, which would be more romantic. In TV dramas, the male and female protagonists who have gone through all kinds of difficult adventures always have a grand kiss at the end, which is very romantic.

At this time, Shinji Ikari looked out of the cockpit window.

Here it comes again.

In this situation where they were alone, he knew exactly what Asuka wanted to do.

He is now like the little white rabbit in the fairy tale who is cornered. Asuka is the evil big bad wolf who is about to be eaten by her... Ikari Shinji thought to himself that this is a strange metaphor. This is not the set of a Stand user. At least as a boy, he is the big bad wolf. It's just that in this relationship, he has always been passive, and this little white rabbit does not suit his taste.

Even though Ayanami told him not to cut it, he wasn't that kind of person.

After all, from the beginning.

We agreed not to let that beautiful girl make the decision. He thought it was time to start cutting off the relationship. From that kiss, this relationship was wrong. Let Asuka be strong, not the kind of false appearance of using arrogance to cover up the inner fragility, but to be truly strong inside, so that she will not collapse immediately when encountering setbacks.

Before loving others.

No matter what, you have to love yourself first.

The reason this relationship lasts until now is because Asuka gave up loving herself and he extended a life-saving hand.

So just when the beautiful girl opened her mouth to say something.

"There's something I want to tell you."

Shinji Ikari said softly.

Asuka, whose complexion seemed to be stained with a light layer of rouge, paused for a moment with a blushing face, and looked over in confusion. This statement really ruined the atmosphere.

What's the matter?

Let’s talk about it after we get off the Ferris wheel.

All the pretty girl wanted now was a kiss and then to snuggle in Shinji's arms and feel that motherly warmth.

For a moment, Shinji Ikari really felt a little soft-hearted.

He thought that it would be better to just let it go, even if it was just love between friends.

Anyway, this is Ayanami's attitude. As long as she keeps it a secret from Asuka and accepts the kindness of the two girls, it doesn't matter if she is discovered. By then, the beautiful girl in front of her will definitely be inseparable from her. After all, she is so mentally fragile and so easy to give up on herself.

But the older boy sighed and continued, "From the time I met Asuka until now, I always felt that you didn't love yourself very much..."

In the Ferris wheel cabin.

Because of this sudden remark, the extremely ambiguous atmosphere just now disappeared.

The atmosphere between the two people suddenly stagnated.

Asuka was about to ask for a kiss when she was stunned. She thought to herself, what a stupid thing Shinji said. Did he have too much fun dating her and lost his mind? But since that was the case, she had no choice but to take responsibility and punish him by making him hug her for a whole day. She? She doesn't love herself? Is this a joke? Humans are born selfish creatures. Doesn't this count as loving yourself?
She is the strongest ace of the European Air Force, the pilot of EVA No. 2, and even such a small thing as loving herself...

Even though she understood what the boy meant, Asuka still found it hard to believe.

She lowered her eyes and asked silently,
"What does Shinji's stupid talk mean?"

"When it rained heavily before, I felt that Asuka didn't take care of herself."

Shinji Ikari paused and said,
"Even though you were soaking wet, you still insisted on going back by yourself, but it looked like you would be outside for a long time. At that time, I had no choice but to follow you, fearing that you would do something stupid under impulse. And the time you took the initiative to come to my apartment later, you were a little self-destructive at that time, and you didn't care about yourself at all. Suddenly, just to prove that you were an adult, you kissed me."

It's obviously a hot day.

But these words make people feel cold all over.

The boy in front of her knew too well what she was thinking at that time. The German lady opened her mouth, her shoulders trembling as if she was a little cold, but she said nothing.

How to refute this statement?
She wanted to say that she just came out to relax because she felt that no one valued her, and she would actually be back soon. She wanted to say that the time she went to your apartment was not because Unit 2 was replaced by Unit 0 and she felt she had nowhere to stay and had to seek comfort from you, Shinji, but because she really liked you.

She wanted to say that she was not giving up on herself.

"No, I love myself very much..."

To cover this up.

Finally she said in a panic.

Even if it's a lie, you have to say it.

Otherwise, it would be like telling someone that he had lost. Asuka stood up anxiously and hugged him unexpectedly, trying to stop him from talking, but Ikari Shinji continued to talk.
"I've always felt like you've been feeling insecure lately. Although kissing and hugging are normal things in this relationship, Asuka, you prefer hugging, which can bring a sense of security, rather than kissing. Although it may be an illusion, you seem to be treating me as a substitute for your parents, and you're looking for the feeling of those two people in me."

Will it be accepted if someone likes you as a substitute?

The pretty girl's face turned pale.

People always feel embarrassed when their hearts are touched.

She was indeed looking for the love she lacked in her childhood in Shinji, mixed with that touch of true love, but this shouldn't matter. There are so many couples in the world, and not every love is perfect. Many people are looking for what they lacked in their childhood in their partners, right?

She lacks a sense of security because of lack of love, and wants Shinji to stay by her side all the time. Who can blame her for this? Why can't it be the same for her?
A premonition of danger emerged.

She didn't want to lose Shinji.

Because if that happens, then you will really have nothing.

"Asuka is probably afraid of losing me, and also afraid of being denied the qualification to be the pilot of Unit 2."

Take a deep breath.

Shinji Ikari looked out the window and then moved his gaze back.

He stared into Asuka's blue eyes, and his words had the power to pierce people's hearts.
"So you've been trying to please me too much these days."

Thanks to Fengqi Qinglin and A-Jie for the reward, and thank you for the votes from the big guys. There is one more update.

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