The Spirit World

Chapter 253 You will be my pride when everyone mentions you.

I was scolded so harshly that I suddenly became scared. He wanted to kill me! He wanted to avenge Lin'er!

Lin Er...

I suddenly looked towards Xun Huangying, who looked at me calmly and pitifully.

That kind of pity, that kind of compassion, that kind of unreserved gaze made me daze.

Xun Huangying saw him and looked at me as if confirming what he said.

That look seemed to say that everything he said was right.

"I…I'm not! I!"

I stood up, everything I had! My blood, boiled for a moment! Everything I had! Was set on fire.

"What?" Mami looked at me, and Shirley also looked at me.

I looked around in panic, but I couldn't see him!

The nightmare in my heart!

"Now, there is new bad news."

Xun Huangying jumped off his seat. The carriage was speeding, but he stood too steadily, as if he no longer belonged to this world. This carriage in this world could no longer carry such a huge planet as him.

"The [Tiangong] will not sit still and wait for death, and I think neither will you."

"Heavenly Palace?!"

I shouted in surprise, but Xun Huangying heard me and just laughed with disgust. He finally regained his usual spirit and looked out the window. We were now running in the middle of the Arc Light Forest, and we had to look up to see the arc light hanging above our heads.

I was wondering what Xun Huangying saw, or what he was told.

Where did he - this lingering ghost - come from?
"Are you...going to...take care of the urgency?"

Shirley, however, spoke up.

"It's okay. We can understand that people have three urgent needs."

She saw me stand up again, and I came to my senses and could only nod in approval.

My expression was very ugly. From fear to daze to shock, my emotions went through so many twists and turns, it was like I was on a roller coaster ride.

"Ahem, but Sir Jack, please be patient. We're almost there."

Tomoe Mami was rather embarrassed. Then, she quickly tapped Xun Huangying's shoulder with her finger, timidly holding her staff and said, "Master Xun Huangying, I really want to ask you a question."

"Tell me." Xun Huangying turned to Mami and said, "I may not be able to answer it."

"It's okay, it's okay..." Tomoe Mami waved her hands quickly: "Thank you, Master Xun Huangying, for listening to me."

She seemed to find the question very formal and sat up straighter.

"How did Master Jack summon you? Or are you not a summoned creature, but some kind of... beast species that has never been seen in the [Spirit World Chronicles]?"

"I'm just curious. Sorry if I offended you."

Tomoe Mami is quite interested in finding the wild shadow.

After all, Xunhuangying is too special. It is said to be a summoned creature, but it does not need to return to the summoning space. It is said to be a different race of creatures, but it has never been recorded.

Although Mami Tomoe is not very old, she must have read enough magic books and has some basic common sense, which tells her that a chubby wolf cub like Xun Huangying is a "mysterious creature" that should not exist.

I saw Xun Huangying shaking his head, and then he sat back in his seat with a nod. I thought he would still say that he was just a lamb.

But I didn't hear such an answer.

His voice was calm and his extremely serious look made me realize that he was no longer the person I knew.

Although, I also saw that he had regained his former "arrogance" and "indifference".

He said.

"I... I am not a summoned creature. You could say that I am just a carrier of a spirit. Without that spirit, I would cease to exist."

He said it very seriously, and I don't think anyone would doubt his serious expression at this moment - serious, indifferent, doing nothing, just looking at Mami so calmly.

Without making any noise, there was no "smile", "wink", "frown" or "nose" that could make people suspicious.

Everything he said seemed to be true, and you couldn't help but believe it.

But I know him. He feels that he is not a carrier of some kind of spirit, but a terrifying creature that may bring the threat of destruction to the world.

He wanted to destroy the world more than once...

How can I believe everything he said...

Sometimes, I have to admit that Xun Huangying is no different from me after all... He didn't complete what he wanted to do...

Although this may sound outrageous, he was not destroyed, no matter what.

Is he feeling mixed emotions right now?

When he placed his hope of destroying the world on a useless person like me, did he ever think that his plan of destroying the world was becoming increasingly impossible to achieve...

If so...

"Is she a goddess?"

Tomoe Mami asked, and Xun Huangying then glanced at me. I had been looking at him, so I naturally saw the little temper in his eyes for no reason.

"Yes, a goddess. A goddess you have never seen before. Her spirit resides in me. As long as this spirit exists, I can exist as well. It will never disappear."

"What a great goddess power."

Mami Tomoe looked at Xun Huangying in fascination. This "thing that was the product of the spirit of a mysterious goddess" was so magical.

"Do you know every ability of the goddess? Or, what abilities does the goddess have? I am very curious. Please forgive my offense. Master Xun Huangying."

"It's okay. I forgive you."

Xun Huangying shook his hands. He looked dejected, as if he had encountered something bad.

"But regarding the ability, I'm sorry, I can't tell you. Of course..."

He leaned back in the seat, slumped over, but his wool prevented him from moving down, so he once again struggled to move into a comfortable position.

"When this person beside me is needed, you will naturally know my abilities."

He was talking about me.

Xun Huangying seemed quite disappointed, and my mood also fell to the bottom. I was sad that I was just being haunted by the "ghost" of "me"

Scold, scold...

I was also in low spirits, but in the eyes of Mami and Shirley, I was just feeling down because I had to go to the bathroom.

"Children in the country are different from you."

At this time, Rosades actually spoke. I could understand why he had been silent. When I got in the car, I almost understood that he had handed over the command authority of this mission to Bachi and Mami.

This is something I don't know, but it should be obvious at a glance.

He would not step down to give command unless it was absolutely necessary.

He had been silent the whole time and didn't say anything else after asking me about my studies. When he spoke this time, we all looked at him.

He leaned on the cane as if he had placed his hand on the hilt of a sword. The young Rosades must have been a swordsman with extremely strong spiritual power. His posture was very tough, and except for his gray hair, he didn't look old at all.

"For a country boy, even if he learns the art of summoning, it is difficult for him to actually summon something. Without a dedicated teacher to guide him, it is entirely possible for him to summon anything."

He seemed to want to mock Xun Huangying intentionally. When he looked at Xun Huangying, his eyes still glanced at me.

Throughout the carriage, he had glanced at me several times and suppressed me with words several times. Now, seeing him suddenly speak, my surprise turned into a sideways glance with a slight movement of my head.

I really didn't know what expression I should have in response to what he just said... and his next words made it impossible for me to muster up any more energy.

"Of course, this cannot be blamed on him. He is also a victim. Shirley, you have many teachers to guide you and books to read. You must cherish them doubly."

He looked at Tomoe Mami again.

"The same goes for you. You can't let your guard down and let others catch up with you."

The world was as cruel as if it had just experienced a fire that wiped out all life, and his words, one by one, were like needles piercing my head, leaving me wondering if he did it on purpose, or... accidentally...

But I have no right to blame him.

It's my own fault... I deserve it...

Do not!
How could I think like this...

When did I start to feel sorry for myself?

What’s wrong with me… I never thought that being involved in a big commission would be like this, being lectured, compared, and ruthlessly ignored.

His words were so cold, as if the current Rosades was not the Lord Rosades who was testing me...

He once... encouraged me...

I don't want to believe that he is now mercilessly mocking me. My master, Old Tom, should know him...

If he was so hypocritical, how could my master Old Tom push me into this pit of fire...

I don't understand...

I can't accept that either...

This is not what I thought, and I don't want to believe it.

How, horrible...

The more I thought about it, the more it seemed like wild imagination, and the more disheartened I became.

Yes, I was born to be a disaster! I indirectly killed so many people!

I let the fire kill so many people!

I am the culprit!
Correct!
I!
I missed the Dragon Race! I missed the chance to go to school and study! I missed the chance to learn something that would change my life!

The characters, knowledge, and education I learned all came from my parents! I have no other learning experience!
I am worthless in front of others!
I!
Live in this world!
how……

Pitiful……

Can you feel it? My pain... I feel cold and trembling! I feel angry! I feel hopeless... everything humble...

My hands are shaking...

Rosades is still teaching his daughter not to get involved with "guys" like me, and when choosing friends, she should not choose those from such a poor background, and when choosing a partner, she should never fall for such a poor boy.

choose……

That illusory life...

Don’t be like this kid... lying in the name of the so-called goddess!
"Mr. Rosades!"

Tomoe Mami's voice echoed throughout the carriage.

"What you said was very rude! It's unbecoming of you as a knight!"

Tomoe Mami spoke word by word, stringing together and piercing my thoughts!
I seemed to see my...friend...in her determined eyes...

Lin Er...

But Tomoe Mami is Tomoe Mami...

She shouted loudly, speaking for me and shocking Rosades into shutting up.

"Please think twice before you act!"

Rosades closed his eyes and rested again.

It was as if he had never said those extremely harsh words to this unknown person...

Once again, I had an epiphany.

A girl! A second girl!
In front of me, speaking for me, blocking those needle-like words in front of myself, and making me... this guy with no sense of existence.

Naive guy...

Cowardly guy...

Stupid guy...

I could only stare at them blankly.

When will I learn some lessons?

They are like the opposite of me, truly brave... truly dedicated to those weak souls in need...

Be brave!

I beg you!

I begged myself like this!

Protect? Lin'er is here to protect you? You coward! You pest! You unwanted bastard!
You should be braver! You want a girl to protect you wholeheartedly! How stupid you are!

sorrow!

Rubbish!

coward!

you!
You!
Hopeless!
asshole!

I am... such an unsympathetic... bastard...

Courage... Have I lost it...

Have you lost your courage...

I want to! Be brave!
Be brave! Courage! Be brave! I will be brave!
"Cough cough!"

I lowered my head, as if trying to adjust the sound in my throat to be calm enough.

Enough so that everyone in the room can hear it clearly.

Maybe I should change a little bit...right now!

"Mr. Rosades!"

"If you have any prejudice against me, you don't need to hide it, just tell me directly..."

My voice seems to be trembling...

I suddenly realized... In this world... I only knew Lin'er and Xun Huangying...

In this strange world... in this wilderness... on this journey that has no end... it seems that I only have Lin'er and Xunhuangying...

Maybe they don't know that they are the only two left with me...

If I lost both of them... I would definitely...

No one...will care about my safety like they do...

No one can be like them... The first thing they thought of was a poor wretch like me...

My tears, along with my words, pulled out my loneliness, and trampled it mercilessly on the ground...

I cried... I thought to myself, I should be brave... I shouldn't cry... But I couldn't control the loneliness that penetrated my chest...

I was left with wounds all over my body...

"You shouldn't...you shouldn't...say things like this...all of your words...are directed at me..."

My nose was running. Maybe they also wanted to see this poor guy who finally started crying.

"I know. I have never been to school. I know I am a farmer's son. But I..."

I made a wish...

My ambition is…

The raging fire in my heart...

It burned me, scalded me, and left a long mark...

I……

I made a vow that I will never forget.

"I will...work hard...I will work harder...I will become the best guide in the world...I will become the best in the world...I will prove to you...I am not...a...a nuisance..."

I think... I may be speaking incoherently.

Well, let’s just call it a vow.

I know that "Records of the Spirit World" may not be popular, and I also know that this is caused by many factors...

But, let’s just say that my writing is bad.

All the characters in the story will get the destination they deserve, instead of giving up. Giving up means nothing, just like what I had before I gave up.

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(End of this chapter)