The Spirit World

Chapter 463: Green Orange Sound
【Those who disobey the will of heaven must cross the river by boat. 】

How should I say this?

Actually, this matter is quite personal.

I wanted to commit suicide at that time...

I am obviously not a child anymore, but I still play with those kids in Bailing Mountain every day. How old are they and how old am I...

I feel bad...

I'm just, very unhappy...

Of course, you might think I'm twisted or something... It's not much fun to be with these kids all day, you know... At first glance, they look lively and cheerful, full of youthful vigor, but in fact, they are so annoying...

It's not okay to just talk about their bad points. I'm not the kind of person who is petty and doesn't hold grudges. But if I really have to say good things about them, I really don't understand what's so good about them.

I just...feel...uncomfortable...

I feel uncomfortable everywhere. My hands, legs and head hurt. Nothing goes well. Wherever I run, I feel miserable...

then……

I went to seek death...

I am going to jump off the [Thousand-foot Cliff] of Bailing Mountain...

"You? Jump off a cliff? Why?" The fat man was puzzled, his face wrinkled together, and his eyes were squinted so hard that he could not see.

"I was just unhappy... At that time, my spiritual power was declining, and that old man arranged for me to stay in Bailing Mountain and not do anything wrong..."

"You're a girl..." The fat man leaned back, a little bit incredulous. Looking at Jun'ichi's figure, not only was she petite and lovely, but even after getting to know her, the smile on her lips didn't seem to mean she was going to commit suicide...

"Not really... Girls who go out of Bailing Mountain are all sought after by the young masters of wealthy families..." The fat man pretended to drink tea, and stared at Ju Chun with his squinting eyes.

"Tsk tsk tsk...ah...men..." Tachibana Jun'ichi scratched the itch on her wrist. She scratched with her little hand and looked at Chang Yufeng who was staring at the three dice. He didn't seem interested. When he noticed she was looking at him, he just smiled.

"Tsk, so it's very personal..."

Jun'ichi Tachibana scratched his head and rolled his eyes.

Anyway, I was having a brain twitch at that time... I was having a brain twitch... I just wanted to jump off a cliff...

I don’t know why…

I had no grudges against anyone at the time... I ate everything well and was in great shape every day, but I just felt very unhappy, which made me feel that it was so boring...

It’s boring, it’s really boring…

How should we live our lives? You see, I was so eager to cultivate immortality and almost succeeded, but I didn’t know I would have to survive the heavenly tribulation.

Heavenly Tribulation...

Heaven's calamity for man...

If God doesn't want me... I... why am I still alive... I was originally engaged... but I didn't know that the man died... I am still named as his wife, but in fact, I have never met him...

I think……

I felt so miserable at that time...

If you enter the world, you have to live a life of widowhood; if you leave the world, you can’t improve yourself no matter what you do. You are just a big waste.

What a waste, I feel uncomfortable wherever I go...

But, to be honest,

I can not be reconciled……

I……

So unhappy...

Really, I don't see the point of living...

I'm really unhappy!
I yelled to all the people in Bailing Mountain!
I'm going to die! Come and see me!
Give it all to me! I’m here to see! I’m going to jump off a cliff!
"Pfft..." Chang Yufeng laughed out loud after hearing this: "Hahaha, it really seems like something you, Orange, would do."

"Ah, this..." The fat man didn't understand what was going on. He looked at the two of them, completely confused.

“Hahahahaha… I think so too… worthy of being me…” Tachibana Junichi patted his chest, rubbed his dwarf a little embarrassedly, and laughed: “Don’t look at me like that… Really… I’ve already talked about very personal things…”

"I get it. You two are both gods. Compared to a mortal like me, you are so awesome..."

The fat man collected the dice and put them in the box.

They all collected the notes on their faces and folded them aside.

"You jumped off the cliff and met Lan Luo? Or did you encounter that book?"

"No...I didn't jump successfully..."

It's just... embarrassing...

The main reason why I failed to jump was that I was knocked unconscious by the then Young Master of Bailing Mountain...

"Young Master Bai Lingshan... Have you ever seen the Young Master Bai Lingshan?" The fat man's saliva flew out of his mouth excitedly. He wiped his mouth and looked at Junyi Tachibana in surprise.

"Yes... I have definitely seen him... Ning Gongji... the young master Bai Ling at that time..." Ju Junyi picked up the wine beside him and drank half a bowl in one gulp.

Chang Yufeng wanted to ask, but held back. He just looked at the box in his hand without saying anything.

"Hey, how old are you today? I know that those who practice Taoism are all long-lived, but it's rare to see someone as young and beautiful as you..." The fat man also drank some wine, and drank most of it with a gulp.

Chang Yufeng doesn't drink alcohol, not even sake.

For him, his current state is more like an outsider, and he is always thinking about that...

Wearing a floral skirt and short sleeves... a modern woman...

Judging from her appearance, she might be a girl, not very old.

This person is weird... From his makeup, you can tell that he is not a local, nor is he from the spiritual world. He looks like someone from another world.

The point is, it might be the same as yourself...

How strange...

Xu Jiaqing's banquet for the heroes is so grand? Can he invite people from other worlds?
"I... am 115 years old... you didn't expect that... ha-ha-ha-ha-ha..." Junichi Tachibana got drunk and became even more generous. He slammed the table and said, "It's good to cultivate immortality! Cultivating immortality can prolong life. Who wants to die? There are so many people who have fought for their entire lives just to survive! Those who want to die are just because they are too full and have nothing to do... You are thinking about all these things, what are you thinking about... Just think about staying alive! All those hardships didn't kill you. It's just a little torture! Don't you think?"

Jun'ichi Tachibana's face turned slightly red, and he let out a "huff", and a sweet smell of wine came out of his mouth. It was unclear whether it was the smell of wine or her.

“Yes, yes, yes… this person… living a lifetime is not easy…” The fat man gulped and burped. He drank like crazy, and he didn’t know why, but now he is burping…

Chang Yufeng looked at the two of them, and couldn't say he was helpless, so he just shook his head gently.

The truth of this world is that there is no point in life unless you give up.

But that’s not all…

There is a saying that goes, it is difficult to defy fate... Some things are like being possessed, the heavens are against you, you just can't accomplish it, you can't accomplish it well, you can't do it at all.

One thing is very important, that is, the right to choose is still in your hands.

No matter what you do, whether you have a choice or not... the final choice lies with you.

It’s nothing more than the amount of concerns that will affect your choice... As long as there is a choice, no matter what the other option is, there will always be an option to escape it in front of you.

"Right... I said... at that time, I was just stupid... and useless... Really, no matter what others said, I felt that it couldn't shake me, but when Ning Gongji said that to me... I suddenly understood..."

"what did he say?"

The fat man didn't seem to care about the information about Lan Luo that Jun'ichi Tachibana said. He looked at Jun'ichi Tachibana with burning eyes.

"He said..." Jun'ichi Tachibana paused: "I... envy those people who want to die when they say they will. They can let go of all the ties of the world... without any reason, they will give up everything they love without hesitation... They can be so free and easy... They can even give up the matter of living..."

"Ning... Gong... Ji..."

Chang Yufeng said the three words one by one.

Ning... Extreme...

Perhaps, I should have had, and must have had, an image of this person since I was born...

However, in his mind, there was only a man in white clothes soaked in the wind and snow, smiling at him.

Maybe he should call him father...

but……

He knew nothing...about this man...

He didn't want to get to know... a man who was related to him by blood.

Hearing that he might say something like this, I felt a warm feeling in my heart. Then, I felt melancholy...

The melancholy of having nothing to do...

"Ning Gongji... Actually, the story of him and his wife is quite touching... They are separated forever, and both know that they are alive, but it is difficult for them to see each other. Sigh... It's just like the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl on the Qixi Festival, or maybe even more miserable..."

The fat man was a little sad, and drank a glass of wine in silence. It can be seen that he was also quite sad...

Wine, wine...

That's the kind of thing...

It is heartbreaking to be at the end of the world.

"He said, why don't you try to think about the beautiful things in this world... Suffering, the most terrible thing about this kind of thing is not its difficulty, but its suffering. If you feel it is suffering, then it is not in vain that you have come here..."

Junyi Tachibana took a deep breath, as if at this moment, she was still standing on the edge of the cliff where the cold wind was blowing, looking at so many disciples who came to watch.

Be it confusion, accusation, sigh, or encouragement... she didn't listen to any of it. However, the young master of Bailing Mountain, the former Lord of Bailing, Ning Ji, also known as Ning Gongji, was also standing on the edge of the cliff and spoke these words to her very calmly.

"Please understand this... It's you who chooses how to live... Although most of the time, no one can change most things, but your choice to live is still up to you... Look at those female disciples who get along with you... Their feelings for you are not your bond. The sadness of those who love you for your behavior... Or perhaps, it is heavier than your own death..."

Ning Ji stood with his hands behind his back, taking it calmly, his heroic eyes so bright and sharp.

Most women are meant to love him... right?

The wind is cool...

"They, it's their business! You're just trying to provoke me with your words... I'm dying today! Not for anything else, but to protest against the injustice of heaven and earth!"

Junichi Tachibana was determined to jump down. She was wearing a gorgeous yellow dress that looked like a gust of wind, and she was flapping her arms and legs, as if she was beating in the rhythm of despair.

"So what if the heavens are... unfair..."

Ning Ji sighed, but did not stop him. Instead, he looked at Ju Junyi.

"The unfairness of heaven...what? Humph! You were born to have smooth sailing! How do you know about the unfairness of fate!" Ju Junyi was angry and stared at Ning Ji viciously.

That was clearly unprovoked anger, and it was going to be directed at him.

"This Bailing Mountain has been yours since you were born! You are very lucky! Of course you will say that fate is unfair, so what!"

"If you are the one destined to be here, it would indeed be a tragedy of destiny..." Ning Ji sighed again. He turned around and stopped looking at Tachibana Jun'ichi, as if he wanted to leave.

"Hey! Tell me! Lord of Destiny! Where is Lord!"

Ju Chun roared, her yellow dress swaying gently, and was blown upwards by the strong wind on the cliff. Her hair was loose, her black hair was shaking, and she was still throbbing. That kind of wild beauty suddenly appeared, making the impending demise of this beautiful face even more regrettable.

Perhaps, it is really a pity...

"There is no answer... fate is unfair..." Ning Ji turned around and looked at Tachibana Jun'ichi's slightly surprised face.

"Destiny, how can it be fair... Perhaps, choosing death is the choice you have already made... It is difficult for me to stop you... Although I will still do my best to keep you safe."

"Heh... So the destiny you just kept talking about is also unfair in your eyes..." Ju Junyi laughed softly and looked at Ning Ji in front of him with disdain.

"Unfair..." Ning Ji seemed to be answering, but also seemed to be talking to himself.

So, things were far more embarrassing than I said, because I was trying to commit suicide at the time, but I was just too... crazy...

In the past, I focused on cultivation, not caring about anything else... No matter if I improved my cultivation or not, I didn't want to live happily, but I wanted to have a better life. I was also a vulgar person at that time, so I wanted to cultivate immortality so that I would no longer have to live a hard life...

However, I was already at the age of 15 and my failure shattered all my fantasies...

Have you thought about it?

I could have become a god, but now, I can only be a useless person without the strength of the Golden Level...

Of course I have the ability to distinguish right from wrong, and I know which is more important, God or trash, and which one makes me more comfortable...

I blame... How can I not blame...

I can no longer compare myself with others... because I am always the last one in the trash... and others no longer bother to compare themselves with me...

The fact is, I did jump, but I didn't fall to death, I was rescued.

I felt embarrassed because Ning Gongji didn't come to save me...

I just find it outrageous...

Maybe he really thought that I chose death as the only option, or maybe he thought that saving a person who wanted to die was a very sad thing...

"Yes, what a pity... one of them is in heaven, and the other is in the underworld... I guess they basically won't see each other for the rest of their lives... They love each other so much, it's such a pity..."

Junichi Tachibana drank the wine and touched his belly, which was burning with the wine. He said he felt uncomfortable, but it was not good. Maybe the wine soothed his nerves. It made him feel better overall...

Chang Yufeng did not interrupt the whole time. He was quiet and anyone with a discerning eye could tell that he had his own thoughts, and the two men had no intention of pulling him aside to chat.

"What happened next? Did you meet Lan Luo? That strange book?" The fat man drank wine and cracked peanuts.

It was like the audience had moved a small stool and sat over there.

"Yes, I became famous later on... I stayed in the library all day long."

"Wow! I didn't expect you to be so well-read..." the fat man teased.

"No, no, I was just looking at it blindly... I just stayed up all night reading an ancient book... guess what happened?" Jun'ichi Tachibana was talking about the lawsuit.

"What's the matter?" The fat man was attracted and put the peanuts into his mouth without chewing them.

The teeth were chattering.

"I met a...divine man..."

(End of this chapter)