The Spirit World

Chapter 804: Life and Death Sorrow
"Of course I have thought about those things, but for me, are those things too? Too frivolous? Shouldn't I do this? Otherwise, I really lack the courage." Chang Yufeng was quite puzzled and uneasy.

He came here because Xun Huangying was guarding outside the star realm, so he could have a moment to chat with his mother.

It was just a chat, because for him, this was not something he could imagine.

His mother seemed to be more approachable, but people like him lacked this closeness.

He didn't know why, but no matter what, he felt that he was lacking the most sincere love.

For some reason, this feeling made him not know what to say or what to think, so he rarely answered.

However, he did lack a life as a [Responder].

He is not a responder, at most he is a.what?
He doesn't know anymore.

"What?" Chang Yinglan asked slowly, as smoothly as her breathing was flowing out slowly.

"What do you want to say? I don't really understand what you are talking about. And I have been asking you questions, but you have never answered. This is a very bad habit. I am your mother, and you don't answer my questions. I can't imagine what kind of state you are in front of others. Do you want others to talk to you so much, and then you say nothing and don't respond?"

Chang Yinglan touched her chin. Her snow-white, empty body completely lacked the reality of flesh and blood. However, for now, she really didn't care about this at all.

She thought for a moment and said, "Well, this is quite similar to your father. Back then, his old lover hated me for this reason. Who told your father to love me like crazy?"

At this point, Chang Yinglan really laughed out loud. She couldn't hold back her laughter anymore and burst into a hearty laugh.

"Hahahaha. It's funny to talk about your dad. That funny guy did a lot of stupid things when I was pregnant with you. You can't imagine how stupid the eldest young master of the Ning family would be when his wife was pregnant. Hahaha!"

This kind of smile comes from the heart, which is definitely not acceptable to other people.

Chang Yinglan shrugged indifferently. Her shrug was not a simple shake like others did, but she tilted her body and shrugged it upwards.

"You, what are you worried about? I see that you look so sad and don't want to chat with me at all. This is really sad. If you have so many important things to do, just go back. I won't make things difficult for you. It's rare for you to come here, and I would like to have a good chat with you. Now that you are like this, it's better to end our chat. Go back to the spirit world and tell your father to bring me something I can eat next time he comes to see me. The fish he brought last time, yes, monkfish, or sea bass, took me a long time to pick out the bones. Although it's good to kill time, but your father always brings these weird things, which is particularly annoying."

Chang Yinglan criticized her husband without any hesitation.

Of course, this kind of criticism is more like a wonderful thing called love.

After all, when a woman says something like this to her son, there will definitely not be any negative emotions in it.

How many couples are so rare to find this kind of love complaint?

After all, there are too many things that time will not erase. Only those who do not know how to cherish or those who are abandoned will forever be slowly hurt by the "complaints of love" of others.

Chang Yinglan stood up and looked at her silent son. He was not someone to be trifled with now. Chang Yufeng definitely possessed the same power as Xun Huangying, but he really couldn't figure out how he should face the dilemma for himself and this world.

"So, go back." Chang Yinglan slowly stood up and stretched. Her brows were furrowed, but her voice lacked the laziness that was her normal voice. "Can you use the King's Dharma Image now? Show me how to transform one, and let them see Chang Yufeng's true form in the spirit world. If they like it, they might follow you. If you take them to play, they might gain something new."

They, naturally, refer to the celestial bodies nearby.

Cute rice dumplings.

Lively little white.

Smart Ruyi.

There was also a timid little snake. The four stars who sat quietly and were not willing to talk were nodding excitedly in their own way.

The stars hang high in the sky, forming the Milky Way, so brilliant and magnificent that it is hard to describe.

But Chang Yufeng didn't think so.

He heard his mother's words, but only demonstrated the answer to one of the questions through his actions.

Chang Yufeng was wearing a black robe. His all-black attire instantly disappeared under the white robe of the King’s Dharma Image.

His silence was actually inappropriate for the period. In front of his mother, he was silent, and only then did he really feel like a son.

This is because he is very opinionated, but lacks a real feeling.
How much he had wanted to see his parents.

That’s a not-so-small dream, hopefully.

Now, he has seen his father and his mother, but he has lost the most balanced confidence in his heart.

How does he know if he is doing well?
How does he know whether he should do it or not?

How does he know if he wants to?

What to do?
What is important?

Or is it that everything about a person named Chang Yufeng lacks the most authentic pursuit?

What is he pursuing?
Are they your own parents?

Or your own life?
Or Lin'er's life?
Why can’t we always avoid “Lin’er”?
this person.
[It's really cool, just like you said! Dear Jang Young-ran! ]

Zongzi clapped his hands, while Xiaolan looked at the chubby panda Zongzi in a funny way and said in a very proud voice: "He's handsome, isn't he? My little master has inherited his master's perfect face! Even his long flowing hair looks a lot like his master!"

"Go and shave your hair, okay? Did you hear me? This way, you don't look like a boy at all. I'm not saying anything bad about you. Even if you are a child of an empire, you can keep short hair as a duchy citizen. It doesn't mean that people in the empire have to have long hair. Long hair makes you look less energetic. A real man should have energy and spirit. Show your forehead and put your energy and spirit in the forefront. Don't let your hair flutter long and look gloomy. This is not good. I can't control your dad, but even if he is your dad, I would also like him to keep short hair. Long hair is too long, and for a man, it's a bit melancholy."

Chang Yinglan is someone who has traveled around the spiritual world, so what she said was absolutely reasonable and was the kind of "advice" that only comes from someone who has seen the world.

"Look, look, I say, you'd better make your look more novel, don't always switch between white and black clothes, do you understand what I mean? In other words, in your world, leave a little more other colors, don't think that the world is only black or white, otherwise, it will be very unfair to others."

"I" Chang Yufeng said the word almost with embarrassment.

"You can leave if you don't want to chat with me." Chang Yinglan was almost indifferent: "It's good to remember what I said, but if you have your own opinions, you don't need to follow every step I said."

Didn't she make it clear? She didn't remind her son to leave again.

She just stood there, watching the table in front of her son disappear. "After all, you still don't exist, right?" Chang Yufeng lowered his head and used all his strength to say this.

No one knew what he was talking about.

I don't know what he is thinking.

It seems that in all the nothingness, there is a single truth left.

Chang Yinglan did not answer.

"If I want to ask you if you still want to return to the spirit world, how will you answer me, mother?"

Chang Yufeng's breath recovered. He thought about Xun Huangying who was struggling outside the star realm. Now, he could only talk about some family matters with his mother. He felt guilty from the bottom of his heart.

Perhaps, this is what is called a response.

If someone somewhere loves you deeply, deeply, and you cannot respond, this love that forces you to respond must be tormenting, painful, and unforgettable.

What a painful response this is.

However, it was obvious that what he thought was not quite right.

Because Xun Huangying didn't feel very uncomfortable, he was cutting those tentacle monsters of the original base point just like cutting vegetables, without feeling any pain or embarrassment at all.

After all, Xun Huangying is a [Lone Wolf].
The [Lamb] does not understand the [Lone Wolf].

Just like a lamb will never understand a lone wolf.

This is eternal.

However, as of now, Chang Yufeng had not expected that Xun Huangying's divine power would recover so quickly. He even didn't know what to do to get his mother to talk to him about serious matters.

For example, her life and death.

For example, the life and death of Xun Huangying.

For example, the safety of the spiritual world.

Rather than whether or not you have a girlfriend.

He seemed very rebellious because in front of his mother, he didn't listen so carefully, didn't answer so seriously, and didn't have the real feeling of seeing his mother.

Well, there is.

A son meets his mother whom he has not seen for a long time - he does not see his mother's true appearance, and can even judge that his mother has not recovered to the state of a [living being] - that is, his mother is not really alive.

It is as if [Chang Yufeng], like a celestial body, can still appear in the starry sky, but in the time concept of the spiritual world, three thousand years ago, [Chang Yufeng] lost his spiritual world [life form] state, leaving only the [celestial body] [Chang Yufeng] that the spiritual world life form Chang Yufeng can no longer perceive.

He guessed that his mother was probably in the same state.

This does not mean that his mother was originally a reincarnated [planet body]. It only means that Chang Yinglan, as a [low-dimensional life form] in the spiritual world, lived on in the form of a planet.

The astral Chang Yinglan is alive, but the spiritual Chang Yinglan is still dead.
That's why she can't show her true face to others.

For example, a woman who is as beautiful as a fairy, or a woman with ordinary appearance, although both are possible, she did not do so and ultimately did not present herself that way.

"I know"

Chang Yufeng started talking again.

Everyone looked at him quietly.

This boy with a strong personality always needs to say what he wants to say.

This is natural and not nonsense.

"I actually want to tell you, mother, mom, I miss you very much, I miss you and my father, dad, I really want to say this, I really want to chat with you"

Chang Yufeng's tone is different when he says dad and mom and when he says father and mother.

A sense of strangeness and loneliness.

A piece of inner self.

I'm so sorry, my dear.
"But I really can't stay here. I am no longer a simple person with a life. I still have to bear the burden of things that I need to fight for my whole life to achieve, or that I cannot achieve. They can be just one thing, or they can be like trivial things that make me lose, regret, and make me unable to face myself. Can you imagine it? In my ten reincarnations, I haven't made any progress at all. I haven't done many things I want to do. They all hit me hard, and then made me understand that I can actually give up. I can face everything indifferently, because compared to time, they, them, and them are all non-existent memories. Compared to time, they are too small. I can't catch them at all. I can only let them leave my world little by little."

"I was so confused that I felt extremely depressed. But when I saw their faces appearing vividly in front of me, I really couldn't face their true feelings. I wasn't avoiding them. I was afraid. What had I promised them? If I didn't fulfill my promise to them in this lifetime, would I have the mood and the fortitude to face it?"

"To face everything that I encounter."

“How sad I am”

"But I have to face it, so when I really face it, I don't want to make a so-called commitment."

This monologue came too late.

This is a planet he does not recognize, and the planet of his mother whose life or death is almost uncertain.

Even Xiaolan and the Ice Elf could not understand his pain.
What is the source of his suffering?
"I am very sad, but I have to face everything, just because I want to fulfill the promise I made, no matter which reincarnation it is."

“I don’t really mean what I say.”

“I just don’t want to disappoint others.”

(End of this chapter)