Indulge in life

"Forget it, I...forgive you!" Tang Weichao let out a long breath and said, "Actually, I don't hate you very much, but I feel that I have no ability to keep you, and it is also my own failure. A man with nothing, Maybe there is no right to ask others, and everyone has their own way of life, you don't have to bear any burden, that's unnecessary, I'm living a good life now, don't I?"

"But I still hurt you, didn't I?" Jiang Ruochan wiped away tears.

"It hurts... yes, what you said back then hurt me..." Tang Weichao suddenly smiled lightly: "But that's okay, this is also the motivation for my work now, otherwise I wouldn't be able to do this! So , and thank you!"

"You thank me? This is worse than scolding me!" Jiang Ruochan bit her lips: "I would rather you scold me, beat me up, vent your anger, and I feel better!"

Tang Weichao smiled wryly: "Okay! As for what? I just scold you and beat you up, that's enough? What can I get?"

Jiang Ruochan suddenly said: "If you want, or think it's necessary, I can give you my body!"

"Ah?!" Tang Weichao couldn't believe his ears, and stared at her blankly.

"You were already planning to ask for it at that time, weren't you? It was just to save the girl named Shu Tian, ​​we didn't..." Jiang Ruochan remembered something, and added: "Don't think too much, I I haven't lived with another man... that... If you want, even if you want to vent your anger, I'm willing to..."

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Tang Weichao shook his head quickly: "Don't think so! As I said, I will never hate you again, and I will never be angry with you again. You were also forced out, thinking about your own life , There is nothing wrong in itself. But... I still want to give you a piece of advice, most of the time life is plain and simple, you should rely on your own strength, do what you can, and live comfortably in your heart, that's enough! Having money doesn’t mean having happiness!”

Jiang Ruochan seemed a little lost.He nodded in a daze.Said: "Yes, I also understand that if there is no fate, it is useless to toss around. The lesson this time is already heavy enough. It is more than 30. How many years will it take me to earn it and pay it off? If it weren't for you , I don't even know how to live..."

She covered her face and cried again: "I'm okay to say. But I also hurt Xiaojuan, I hate myself so much! I'm sorry for everyone!"

Tang Weichao sighed: "Don't cry, you know, you get it, that's all. It's more than 30. It may be a good deal to get your life back to normal. In the future, please remember to live a good life and take good care of yourself." Xiaojuan, I believe you can do well!"

"Well, I will! You... don't worry!" Jiang Ruochan replied, sobbing, probably the most uncomfortable time had passed, her crying subsided, and she began to wipe her face with a tissue.

"Go wash it!" Seeing this, Tang Weichao pointed to the bathroom. "Oh!" Jiang Ruochan stood up obediently, went inside to wash, wiped her face, and returned to his side, her eyes were red and she was a little embarrassed. She used to come here as the future mistress, but now , it became such a situation.

"I still want to return this money to you slowly..." Jiang Ruochan looked at him carefully, for fear that he would get angry again, and added: "I will pay it back myself, don't let Xiaojuan know..."

Tang Weichao pondered for a while and said, "If you have this ability in the future, I have no objection, but don't think about it now. I also know your salary. Take care of yourself first! Remember! Do what you can!"

Jiang Ruochan nodded, and the two of them were silent for a while, she felt that she really had nothing to say, so she said, "Why don't I go back?"

"Okay, go back early, don't worry Xiaojuan, and be careful on the way!" Tang Weichao walked her to the door, watched her go down the stairs step by step, and closed the door after a while.

As soon as Jiang Ruochan came out of his room, and after turning around, tears welled up from her eyes again. This time, she didn't wipe them off, but let them fall and hit the stairs, forming wet marks one after another.

She really lost him completely. When she came here, she knew in her heart that it was impossible, but she still had such an illusion. This time it was not for his money, but for the former relationship. Xiaojuan supported him. She came here, but after everything was explained, she suddenly realized that she was far away from him, and she really didn't have the qualifications to have him again, and he didn't have any intention of accepting her anymore.

She is very regretful, regretting beyond measure, not only because of that short gaze, not listening to her sister's advice, not only because of losing a good man with real potential, losing the opportunity to have wealth and enjoy life, but also because of her first A real heartbeat, and the feeling of happiness from the bottom of my heart, however, all of this will never happen again, it is she who messed up all of this and lost this

Just now in front of him, she was really thinking in her heart that she was willing to give her body to him, even if he no longer loves her, even if he possesses her out of revenge, she would be willing, because that would be considered true. She wanted to have him once, but he didn't even give herself this chance. She was really disappointed and could only go back crying all the way.

Because, for the current situation, she has no one to blame but herself. She hates herself, very much!

When she returned to the basement, Xiaojuan was still waiting for her worriedly. Seeing her come back, she seemed to be relieved, but when she found her crying like this, she became flustered again and kept asking what was going on. Having trouble?

Jiang Ruochan hugged her younger sister, lay in her arms and cried loudly again, and then gradually calmed down under Xiaojuan's constant comfort, took the towel she handed to her, and sat on the side of the bed in a daze, not knowing What to do.

The room in the basement is very narrow, with a single bed with bunk beds, a very simple old table, two wooden horses, a simple wardrobe, and some cardboard boxes piled up against the wall, which contain some sundries. There was no place to take them out, but it was a relief, because they wouldn't have to pack them up if they moved out soon.

Jiang Ruojuan sat on the mat beside the table and looked at her sister worriedly. She went to Brother Tang to deliver New Year's goods and food to express her gratitude. How could she come back so sad?

"Sister, you... What did Brother Tang say? You are..." Seeing that Jiang Ruochan was about to calm down, Xiaojuan asked again.

Jiang Ruochan's tears were about to stop, but when Xiaojuan asked, they immediately dripped down, she sobbed, "He...he said he forgave me, and wanted me to live with you... "

"Then why are you crying?" Jiang Ruojuan's eyes widened, she couldn't figure out why her sister was so sad after being forgiven.

"But...but...he will never want me again..." Jiang Ruochan burst into tears again, and said intermittently while sobbing: "Sister still has him in her heart, he is the only one, but, just now, My sister said she was willing to give her body to him, but he didn't even want it... It will never be possible for me and him... Woooo..."

Jiang Ruojuan's face turned red, and she said angrily and amusedly: "Sister, what are you talking about? At this time, you just thank him well, why are you still thinking... thinking... giving him...it's not the right time to say anything ah!"

"I know it's not the time, but I'm afraid I won't have the chance to see him again. When I said that, he didn't hesitate at all, so he refused. Tell me, how much he must despise me!"

"Why don't you have a chance to see him? Where is Brother Tang going?" Jiang Ruojuan suddenly became nervous, ignoring what her sister said later, and hurriedly asked.

"No, he's not going anywhere, I mean, there's no reason to see him alone in the future, with him..."

Jiang Ruojuan breathed out, patted her chest, and said angrily, "I was shocked, I thought Big Brother Tang was going to leave Yanjing, then it will be really hard for me to see him in the future, and I can't thank him!"

Jiang Ruochan nodded, suddenly remembered something, raised her face to look at her sister, her eyes became brighter the more she looked at her, Xiaojuan felt embarrassed, she couldn't help smoothing her hair on her temples, and asked: "Sister, What do you think?"

"Good sister, are you also very grateful to him, Brother Tang?" Jiang Ruochan asked excitedly as she grabbed Xiaojuan's hand, regardless of the towel in her hand.

"Of course I am very grateful to him. If it weren't for him, when would we be able to pay off our huge debt! I always think, even if we don't eat or drink, it will take at least five or six years. I'm 30 years old, what should I do!" Jiang Ruojuan looked terrified, and didn't dare to think how miserable it would be.

"Do you think that Brother Tang is a good person?"

"Of course he is a good man. When I first met him, I said he was a good man. Otherwise, how could I support you in dating him? I also advised you not to leave him! But you just don't listen, or..." Jiang Ruojuan murmured He pursed his mouth, still a little dissatisfied.

"Don't talk about me, I know I'm wrong, but it's irreparable!" Jiang Ruochan stopped her from continuing, and said, "Then, good sister, do you like Big Brother Tang?"

"I like it, I... Hey, sister, what do you mean by asking that!" Jiang Ruojuan seemed to have sensed something.

"Just like it!" Jiang Ruochan actually smiled, showing her face and said: "My good sister, it is no longer possible for my sister and your big brother Tang, but there is still you, since you like him too, go after him, okay? Be him girlfriend, marry him in the future!"