Am I really hallucinating?

Chapter 157 I Don’t Understand
Zheng Fan came out of the class office, felt it, and confirmed that the growth rate of the "white bars" in his body had indeed increased.

After absorbing the light source, Zheng Fan has the ability to temporarily appear in reality, which needs to be recharged after use.

The charging speed was very slow before, but Zheng Fan noticed that when he interacted with people who could see him, the charging speed seemed to increase to a certain extent.

Among the few people I have come into contact with so far, Lin Yilin provided the greatest help, followed by Jiang Si and Luo Ye, and then Lin Yilin's teacher Niu Qianliu.

Just now he asked Kiyono Koji to test whether someone who couldn't see him but knew of his existence could provide help.

The fact is that it is also possible, as long as the two interact clearly. But the degree is similar to Niu Qianliu, and the help is quite small.

Qingye Hesi probably couldn't see Zheng Fan, so Niu Qianliu's words were unclear. He could see it, but the feedback of the white bar energy was very weak. He could only guess that it was because he himself was raising a Gu.

Jiang Si and Luo Ye, perhaps because they are not from the white world.

In this way, it is indeed the binary little sister who was born in the white world who can bring the greatest boost to Zheng Fan.

And when doing it with multiple people at the same time, the charging range can be superimposed, so the speed increased yesterday was quite considerable, and the white bar has already crossed one-third of the distance to full charging.

Zheng Fan thought so and continued walking outside for a long time before he was ready to go back.

……

Jiang Si woke up hazily in a bar box, scratched his head, grabbed a bottle of wine but found it was empty. He could only pick up the cold tea beside him and drink it in big gulps.

She was still a little sleepy. It seemed that she woke up a little early today. It seemed that she was still shaken by the reunion last night.

He opened the door a crack and glanced at the still deserted bar outside. He could see the bright sunshine shining in, and Jiang Si had a more accurate understanding of how early he had woken up.

Normally, when she woke up, it would be almost dusk outside.

"Are you having a reversed day and night schedule now? This will cause you to be deficient in vitamin D. Be careful about osteoporosis when you get older." A voice suddenly sounded in the box behind her.

Jiang Si suddenly realized that she didn't even notice that there was someone next to her? The other person touched her while she was sleeping!

But this voice was very familiar.

Jiang Si turned around and saw Xi Cai sitting on another sofa as expected. She was sitting upright and even looked a little well-behaved.

Whoosh!
The red line passed by quickly and was avoided by Xicai.

"We just had a disagreement..." Xi Cai was about to speak when she saw Jiang Si's eyes flashing red in the dim room, and he quickly approached her.

The hand knife thrust forward, but Xicai reacted quickly and raised her arm to block it.

The red line spread, and the two people's bodies kept intertwining, their limbs frequently collided, and the wine glasses on the table were cut by the deflected red line. The movements of both people were very light, as if they were dancing, or it could be said that they were dancing, like a way for both parties to confirm each other, but there was repeatedly murderous intent hidden in it.

But after Jiang Si made a wrong step, the momentary elegance and harmony disappeared again.

Jiang Si continued to attack fiercely and then crouched down and swept low. Xi Cai dodged with a light jump. Jiang Si kicked in the air and immediately stretched out his hand. The red lines floating around him suddenly straightened and tightened.

He was merciless and wanted to cut it into pieces without any pause, but Xicai's body suddenly turned into countless flying papers. Even if it was cut by the red line, it was only a little bit. Finally, when it gathered into Xicai's appearance in front of Jiang Si, it was still unharmed.

Jiang Si subconsciously stepped back, but Xi Cai disappeared in front of her in the blink of an eye.

She looked down immediately but was too late. Xi Cai also leaned down and swept down, hooked her ankle and swept her to the ground easily.

"Okay, calm down. Did you drink too much last night?" After Xi Cai kicked her down, she did not pursue the victory, nor did she use the counterattack that Jiang Si secretly prepared. She just fell to the ground and stared at him coldly. "I'm sorry, you must have been looking for me for a long time. When we meet again, you have become like this." Seeing this, Xi Cai also lowered her eyes slightly and said with a restrained smile.

Jiang Si pulled herself up with the red string: "I'm not looking for anything in particular, I just go with the flow."

However, she temporarily gave up the idea of continuing to take action.

"That's right, after all, I haven't done anything for you."

Jiang Si sat back on the sofa in the box: "Why did you come here? She's not the real Xi Cai, why do you have to speak in her tone?"

"I am Xi Cai."

"Tsk." Jiang Si was unhappy, but did not continue to argue on this issue. Instead, he said, "You said you noticed me when I first came to Dadu."

"Yes, I happened to have something to do in Xixikoko at that time, and I was very surprised when you first came. I thought you would not go out alone or even come here from the violent world." Xicai also walked back to her seat and sat down.

"But I also know that you won't accept me as I am now, and I am also very hesitant about meeting you directly. In the end, I decided to contact you as an intermediary first, and then slowly see if there are any good opportunities."

Jiang Si looked down at the broken wine glass in front of him: "Then let's just assume you are Xi Cai. Why did you, or you two, suddenly leave?"

Xi Cai nodded: "I'm really sorry for leaving without saying goodbye. But I really didn't have time to see you at that time. My family was already overwhelmed."

"Because of the business alliance?"

"Yes. The reason for my mental instability during that period was, on the one hand, indeed because of our encounter, and on the other hand, it was the influence of the business alliance. Our family was liquidated by another faction in the internal struggle of the alliance. The family was getting worse and worse, and the reason why I was approached by 'me' was because I had strong demands during that time." Xi Cai stroked her chest with one hand and narrated calmly.

"Tell me. I can find my dad..." Jiang Si subconsciously put himself in the situation and spoke frankly.

"Jiang Si, we are not children anymore." But Xi Cai interrupted, "The relationship between the forces cannot change decisively because of two children. My family is originally a refugee from the white world, and a fence-sitter between the violent world and the white world. Your father cannot accommodate us."

Jiang Si looked at her and said, "So you became like this, did you save your family?"

"A little bit." Xi Cai said, "At least my parents and some relatives were sheltered. I became like this unconsciously in the process, from pain to acceptance, and finally to complete peace. Even now it feels incredible to recall it. I am inseparable from the other me. I am both that illusion and still Xi Cai, with everything about Xi Cai."

Jiang Si frowned, not understanding, really not understanding: "Can that still be called an illusion?"

"I don't know, but I still have a sense of unreality. I imitate the normal physiological schedule of humans every day, and I often feel a sense of crisis that if I don't do this, I will disappear quietly soon."

"So what are you doing now?"

“Try to understand something that’s gone.”

"what?"

"Do you remember what I asked you? Have you learned what I taught you before, Jiang Si?"

"I've said I don't understand. Even if I know how to take care of the things I like, how to talk to the people I like or need to please, and how to boldly adapt to the other person's preferences without too many concerns. But I just did it, and I still don't understand why. I don't have any strong feelings or feedback. It's still not as strong as the feeling brought by fighting and killing."

Xi Cai listened to Jiang Si's words and smiled: "It's very difficult to understand."

"Yeah, so what does it have to do with you?"

“Because I found that I couldn’t understand it either.”

(End of this chapter)