I practiced as a monk alone in Japan.

Chapter 282 Desire to Win or Lose

People don't like to make plans that are too long in the future.

The destination is too long, and the end is nowhere in sight. The hardships along the way seem excruciating without the immediate gratification of seeing a plum nearby.

The same goes for Asagiri Rin.

She didn't even have any plans for tomorrow.

For a long time, I put a shackle on myself during my long and boring journey.

Force yourself to become a certain kind of person, force yourself to act according to certain behavioral norms.

That was the most peaceful period of my life, but also the most incredibly boring.

The various kinds of people we meet are simply the same soul in different shells.

The so-called "everyone will have a different tomorrow" is nothing more than a series of different stories that reveal the same boring essence of life.

She once thought that this kind of life would never change.

She will eventually experience the same loneliness and waste as her mother. That's why she named the club "Wasting Life".

The fact that that club has survived to this day proves its value; it truly was a waste of life, utterly meaningless.

She often thought of the boy named Tsukino Gen, though she never told anyone, and even deceived herself into believing it. She thought of him last night, and the next day she pretended to have amnesia in her heart.

Because she felt he probably wouldn't show up. No one would be foolish enough to remember a promise made years ago.

Especially those years when I was young and didn't know any better.

It seemed very sincere at the time, but as we grow a little older, we realize how childish that promise was.

Therefore, those who grow up are like believers who have suddenly awakened to the truth. They resolutely bid farewell to that unattainable temple and return to their boring and pathetic reality.

She didn't even want him to keep his promise, or to appear before her in any way or in any form.

Now she understood.

It turns out that I was afraid and dreadful back then.

While he feared that nothing had changed, he saw a completely different version of himself.

A dishonest, pretentious, and soullessly dull version of myself.

Unexpectedly, he actually appeared, appearing before me without warning on that day.

He uttered that extremely cliché line: "Long time no see."

For a while, Asagiri Rin really enjoyed reading Yanxia's books, and many people often wrote: "All good things must come to an end."

Their experience was like this.

We met at the most innocent and pure age, interacted without any ulterior motives, got to know each other, and healed each other.

Then we parted ways amidst the beauty.

It seems that this is good enough, so that we won't see any ugly changes in each other, and we can keep this beautiful memory in our hearts forever.

But now, Asagiri Rin understands this deeply.

The simple phrase, "We may meet again anywhere in life," contains so many beautiful hopes and emotions.

To meet again is such a precious and miraculous thing.

She is now very grateful that he was willing to find her, even though she was such a terrible person back then.

My vision was blurry as I stared at the ceiling, and I could hear indistinct sounds around me.

As if trapped in a quagmire, they embraced each other tightly, as if tomorrow were the end of the world, which is why they were hysterically entangled today.

It seemed to be the first time in my life that I had been surrounded by so much sweat. Even though the air conditioning was on in the room, it couldn't stop the temperature from rising.

She doesn't like to imagine love as something too sacred and precious.

Because this shouldn't be a luxury item; it should be something that anyone can own and control.

She doesn't want to become the kind of child who sees happiness approaching but is instead afraid of getting hurt.

And now, she cupped his face as he kissed her collarbone.

Feeling the weight of the two of them.

Something needs to overflow from the bottom of your heart, overflow from your eyes, like a grand dam breaking.

Finally, she gave herself completely away.

There was nothing to regret or feel nostalgic about.

He was so gentle that he made me feel happy.

"well enough?"

He smiled and asked softly.

Seemingly to be mindful of her own feelings, she stopped moving, leaving only his burning body heat enveloping her, using that familiar scent to soothe her fatigue during the process.

It was indeed quite strenuous.

For a girl experiencing this for the first time, it's quite remarkable that she's managed to persevere this far.

Her fair legs couldn't wrap around his waist, and she could only lie slumped on the bed.

The violent heaving of her chest seemed to speak volumes; she was like an innocent victim who had just escaped a fierce pursuit by assassins.

His eyes struggled to maintain their limited clarity.

Are you feeling smug about asking that question?

The girl looked at him with a hint of annoyance, but her expression was anything but cold.

In Gen Tsukino's eyes, she was even somewhat cute.

This young lady is almost too perfect, both in terms of the physical sensations she gives me and the way she keeps biting her lip and staring intently at me.

It inspires a fighting spirit and a desire to conquer.

It was as if only by 'trampling' this entire land could it be completely conquered.

He then realized that war is a human instinct, and there is no such thing as a utopian world where everyone is materially wealthy and there will be no conflict.

Resources are just a reason; fighting is a primal desire.

"What are you talking about? And given how things are, what's wrong with letting me be smug for a bit?"

He smiled and kissed her cheek, which was slightly damp with sweat, but there was nothing unpleasant about it; it was incredibly cute.

The young lady gave a disdainful snort, but obediently turned her head away.

It was as if she wanted to make it easier for him to kiss her.

"I can't stand your smug look. Don't think you've succeeded just because you think this is the end of the matter. I just couldn't hold back tonight."

Is it possible to go to such lengths just to be stubborn? Unbelievable.

Gen Tsukino never expected such a statement.

But thinking about it, it makes sense. If she didn't push herself like that, how could she become Asagiri Rin?
"Yes, it's because I've finally been blessed by Lady Luck and encountered such a good day." "It's because you're hopelessly infatuated with me that you had the opportunity to wait for this good day, not because you're so lucky."

She squinted and couldn't help but reach out and pinch the other person's chest.

There was no way I had the strength to raise my hand high and pinch the other person's cheek or ear.

That bastard's physical abilities are too good.

You should have realized that during the sports festival.
"Yes, yes, yes, it's all because of your existence, I understand that very clearly."

"It's good to know."

"Ah."

Gen Tsukino looked at her with a smile, making Rin Asagiri turn her head away somewhat embarrassed.

She thought for a moment, then asked in a very soft voice.

"are not you tired?"

"It's alright. Actually, no man would say he's tired at a time like this, unless they're already an old married couple."

"So there's still an element of bravado involved?"

"Of course I don't have it here; you have plenty of ways to prove it."

asshole!

I do have the energy to verify it myself!
However, the heat that can still be felt at this moment is also proof, making people tremble with fear and dare not provoke it.

"You feel the same way about Kazama?"

Asagiri Rin couldn't help but ask.

After the passion that drives people to lose their minds fades, what returns to the body is not necessarily complete rationality, and the so-called "wise man's time" of reflection is not necessarily the most correct thing.

Humans are essentially creatures influenced by emotions; when faced with suffering, they become cynical, and when they encounter happiness, they sing praises to the world.

However, the lingering curiosity, envy, and jealousy in my heart seem to always exist.

Especially that girl whose charm was undeniably no less than her own.

They even beat me to it. It seems like there's no way I can get over this hurdle.

Gen Tsukino had a bit of a headache. It seemed that the path he had chosen was bound to trigger such a conversation. He was just a little curious: was this self-torture?

Or are you genuinely curious like a scholar?

Or would it be the most competitive student in the class who would proactively ask the teacher: "How did Kazama Sakura from the next class do on the exam? Is she better than me?"
But Tsukino-sensei had no choice but to answer.

"Yeah, pretty much."

Ambiguity will not solve the problem.

Asagiri Rin squinted, her imposing aura becoming even more pronounced.

How many times did she do it with you the first time?

Then an even more blatant question arises: it seems that in such situations, reserve becomes something that can be discarded, and shyness is worthless.

Gen Tsukino looked at her helplessly.

"I don't remember very clearly, why are you asking this?"

Can't you remember?

Of course he remembers; he wouldn't forget such an important moment. But why bring it up? Even with the thickest skin, he couldn't bring himself to say it.

He spoke of it as if it were a badge of honor to be proud of, as if it were a treasure. Well, he had to show that he still had a bottom line, even if that bottom line seemed worthless.

Asagiri Rin grasped the other person's arms.

She seemed to sense that the boy wanted to 'escape'.

"I want more than her."

She only said this simple sentence.

This caused Tsukino Gen to fall silent for half a minute.

"Isn't that unnecessary? This kind of thing..."

"I do not care."

I don't know why you're putting your competitive spirit into such a strange way. Do you think you can achieve something through this and get attribute points in return?
Why don't you have any, bro?
"It's not a question of whether or not to help; it depends on your physical condition."

"I am healthy."

Asagiri Rin said defiantly, and even twisted her body slightly.

The boy gasped in shock.

It's hard to tell whether she knows how or not; even a small, instinctive movement is so alluring.

"But I have plans for tomorrow."

"You think I can't handle it? Now I've changed my mind, I want to be twice as much as her."

The young lady's display of determination also reveals her arrogance and ignorance.

Gen Tsukino's eyes widened.

"No, you'll disappear if you do that!"

"Are you crazy?"

"What I mean is that too much the first time is really bad, tomorrow you..."

"Just ask for leave, or are you going to be a coward at this point?"