bad love

There are many helpless things in life. What you want to own does not belong to you, but what you want to break free is bound by layers of shackles.Some people say that people are always obsessed with the memories of the past, the present day will disappear in the past, and every tomorrow is a continuation...

Just like now, this big boy is standing in front of my eyes, but I don't know him.

"How do you feel?" His eye-catching chestnut brown hair dangled in front of my eyes. I had a severe headache, and there were always double images in front of my eyes. I could vaguely see that delicate and handsome face.

I didn't say a word, I opened my eyes slightly, and after I collected myself, I could see clearly.

This is an extremely strange face, the dark and deep eyes reveal a light that I can't understand, and the skin is as dazzling as beautiful porcelain.I slightly parted my lips, the color of cherry lips was particularly eye-catching.

Not long after waking up, I fell asleep again...

"Liu Xiangsi! Come Liu Xiangsi!" Wang Yanxi's cheerful laughter echoed in my ears.Her pretty face looks very beautiful under the sun, I smiled and followed her footsteps, and there are many close friends beside me, Xia Yan, Gu Beicheng, Lin Haonan, Andy, etc., and a doctor in a white coat.

He is holding hands with Xia Yan.

"Hey... This kind of life is really (le) lifeless!" Andy was sitting on the leather sofa at the moment, with a trace of sadness on his extremely handsome face.

I sat on the side, listening to his broken Beijing dialect combining Chinese and Western, and gave him a cold look with disgust: "That's right (liao), it's lifeless! Illiterate! If you don't have knowledge, just watch more TV!"

Andy said innocently: "I've already watched it! I saw it on TV!" He pointed to the TV in front of him, and I followed his hand to look over, and the handsome face of Daoming Si played by Jerry Yan appeared in front of me. before.

Daoming Si on TV, holding his forehead, said helplessly: "Hey...it's really lifeless..."

I twitched the corner of my mouth, Taiwanese idol dramas are really comparable to Korean dramas, and they are also mind-boggling.And Andy is chasing such an old TV series?

I looked at this huge house blankly, Lin Haonan, Xia Yan, Liu Xicheng, Wang Yanxi, Gu Beicheng, andy were all there... But I always felt that something was missing, and my heart was always empty.

Could it be Chu Peiran?

No, he's completely out of my life.I looked at all this frowning, illusory and unreal existence.It is said that if you sleep too much, you will die. I am not still sleeping, am I?

"Liu Xiangsi, let's go together. Once we get out of this door, we will no longer have to live in a troubled and painful world... Your first half of life was so sad, now walk with us..." All Hand in hand, standing in front of the glowing door, reaching out to me, smiling.

Looking at the beautiful and soft light, I slowly frowned again.That kind of light does make people feel peaceful and happy, but I always feel that it is not what I want.

I shook my head, "No... I don't want to go." I stepped back and said to them.

Wang Yanxi turned around, smiled and said, "If you come now, you can avoid too much pain. Even if you don't go with us now, you will still have to go alone in the future."

I widened my eyes and looked at them in disbelief. Each of them had peaceful smiles on their faces, but I felt very strange.

This is not the Wang Yanxi I know...

They wouldn't show this kind of reborn smile, we are all still struggling in the world, so we wouldn't show such a peaceful smile...

I pushed Wang Yanxi away, "I don't want to go, you go on your own!" I said loudly to my friends.

"Your decision is doomed to double your pain in the future...Since you chose to end your life in that way, why are you refusing to leave now?" Xia Yan said calmly, looking at me.

My breathing started to become uneven, I don't know why... Is it me who wants to kill myself?Why should I seek death?

I don't know anything, I just know what I'm waiting for, I know I still need love...

"I don't know... let's go." I looked at the glowing door and said blankly.

"Human happiness comes from love, and pain also comes from love." Wang Yanxi said calmly, no longer smiling.After finishing speaking, she turned around and took Xia Yan's hand.

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I was awakened by the dream again, with cold sweat on my head, it was obviously a beautiful dream...why is it so scary when I wake up and think about it...

"Lovesickness! You're awake!" Wang Yanxi's voice full of surprise rang in my ears.

Oh my god... this angry growl... is completely different from the girl in the dream!

As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw a group of people surrounding my bed.

Most of these people are the same as those who appeared in my dream, andy, Xia Yan...their eyes are shining, and at the same time, there is a look of worry.

"You are really crazy, you...you are so lucky to be standing alone on the road, and you are not killed!" Xia Yan frowned and said reproachfully.

I looked at them blankly: "I...why am I standing on the road?"

"Did you forget? The driver who caused the accident said that you had been standing in the middle of the road. He had already braked, but he still hit you." Wang Yanxi said.

I bowed my head and thought for a while, my head hurt so much that I couldn't think about anything at all.A few fragments flashed through my mind like a movie.

I have been crying, crying and running, running for a long time...

Standing in the middle of the road and stopped...

"You mean... I'm going to commit suicide?" When I looked up again, I met everyone's faces and said doubtfully.

Xia Yan's brows tightened even more, and there was a complexity in his eyes that I couldn't understand. "You can't remember anything?" Her voice was cold.

"Ang...it seems like this, but fortunately, I remember you all." I said with a grin.

"What about him?" Xia Yan didn't relax after listening to my words, but frowned and pointed at the man sitting beside my bed.

I squinted my eyes for a moment, this face... I seemed to have seen it the last time I woke up.

I smiled and said, "Of course I remember, he is a doctor! I saw him sitting here when I woke up last time." I nodded slightly to the handsome man to show my gratitude.

The man's originally gentle face instantly stiffened following my words.

Not only that, I can clearly hear all the people present, they gasped.

"I... did I say something wrong?" I opened my mouth and looked at them blankly.

No one answered me, and the air seemed to freeze in an instant.

"You don't remember? He's your boyfriend! Wen Jichen!" Andy suddenly broke the quiet and weird atmosphere.