bad love

Chapter [-]

In the end, after my mother was sure that she had fallen asleep, I got up from her arms to rescue Wen Jichen.I thought that a conversation between our mother and daughter would make Wen Jichen feel lost, such as the sentence I said.

"I won't fall in love with anyone, and I don't need to find a boyfriend."

I don't know how many things like that.Wen Jichen was not as depressed as I imagined, on the contrary, he could still say to me cheerfully: "You mother and daughter are so hypocritical, I got goosebumps all over the floor."

I reached out and hit him: "Who told you to listen!"

Wen Jichen dodged nimbly, and quickly stood behind me and hugged me: "Hey, you don't need to find a boyfriend? Seriously, I almost laughed out loud when you said that, you little wild cat..."

"If you say that again, I'll beat you!" I turned around and went to fight with Wen Jichen again, but Wen Jichen would avoid me every time, and every time he teased me, there was nothing to hide.

After arguing with him, I went back to bed.

When I lay back on my bed again, I still didn't feel sleepy.I wanted to get into my mother's arms, but I was afraid of waking her up, so I could only hold her hand in the dark, blinking non-stop, trying to get sleepy.

That night, my mother told me a lot about my childhood.

For example, she raised orchids in a yard. She said that when I was young, I always liked to look at the flowers in the yard, and I always touched them with my little hands.I once plucked an orchid and got spanked by her.

She said that between the ages of four and seven, she had no money to send me to kindergarten.Some people may ask, is your family really so poor that you don't even have money for your children to study?

I heard that my father is a man with no skills. He graduated from middle school. He always eats, drinks and has fun with some gangsters in the town all day long, and steals when he has no money.

Before that, I really didn't know how my mother fell in love with such a man, even though he was my father.

"That morning, it was still winter. At that time, the winter was much colder than now, and the ice in the river could make people run on it. I was also fond of playing at that time. Your grandparents died early, from the age of 12 Since then, I have been living alone. On my way to school that day, I passed the big river in the town.” Mom’s eyes were looking at the ceiling, black and shiny, as if she was smiling or crying.

I huddled in her arms and kept listening.

"The ice on that big river is obviously very deep, but when I slipped over it, I stepped into a huge ice hole. The water in winter is more than ten degrees below zero... I only had one thought at the time, It's just that I'm dying."

"And then..." I widened my eyes, not knowing such a past.

"Then, all the punks in our town stood by the river watching me laughing and calling me an idiot. In the morning, no one was there, and I sank into the icy cold water, and my feet started to cramp. Fortunately, I knew how to hold my breath, otherwise I might Really died there." After a pause, she continued.

"Your dad was looking for those gangsters with breakfast in his hand. When he saw them laughing on the side of the road, he knew that I fell into the river. Without saying a word, he threw the breakfast and jumped into the river... Those gangsters saw your dad jump in I’m worried, and I’m in a hurry, take a bamboo pole and hand it to Dad to pull us up…” When Mom said this, her tone was extremely gentle.

I asked, "Because of this, you like him?"

Mom nodded: "Well, he sent me to my house and saw that I was the only one in my house. He was very surprised. I fell ill after I fell into the river, so he stayed to take care of me. Your father is also handsome, at least in When I met him, he was white and clean, very delicate. I have never seen a man who is clumsy and can be so gentle..."

"Hahaha, are you tempted?" I laughed.

"He has always been very kind to me, and he also wants to improve for me. He started to be self-motivated, found a job, and then we got married." Mom's tone was still very gentle.

"In the year before you were born, he was still very kind to me. He raised a lot of orchids in the yard. He was also smart, and the family's financial conditions gradually improved, but since I was pregnant with you... his whole life People change," Mom said.

I heard something from her gradually icy tone.

Probably, father went out to fool around during mother's pregnancy, and often came back drunk until midnight.In the end, he actually brought the women outside directly home.

Only, she didn't tell me how Dad died.

I haven't had a birthday in almost 20 years, and the reason is that my father died on the day I was born.

How am I going to do it, to celebrate my dad's birthday on the day he dies?

I have always been very indifferent to family affection, and when it came to my father's death, I didn't have much emotional fluctuations.I don't know what it's like to be part of a full family.

In my short life, the role of father is dispensable.

But I think my mother absolutely loved my father.When a woman talks about the man she likes, the affection in her tone and expression comes from her heart unintentionally and cannot be pretended.

He is so disappointing.

That night, for the first time, I didn't have any nightmares and slept peacefully.

……

The next day, Mom woke up as if nothing had happened.As if it wasn't her who confided in me last night, she turned back into a hag, making trivial jokes on me.

She pretended nothing happened, and of course I kept silent.

Some dull past cannot disappear, so we can only bury it in the deepest part of my heart and never dig it out again.

The difference was that Wen Jichen suddenly mentioned at breakfast that he wanted to return to Beijing early.Of course, the stepfather and mother didn't want us to go back so early, and stayed in Hong Kong for a while to accompany them.

I don't know if it's because of the conversation I had with my mother last night, but I have a hunch that it's part of it.

He feels depressed.

He finally had a sense of crisis about the two of us.

I have been eating breakfast silently without speaking. If Wen Jichen leaves, I will definitely follow him.

"Have you decided yet?" Stepdad looked up from the financial newspaper.

"I'm far away in Hong Kong, how can I control the branch in Beijing. The old courtiers under your company have always been dissatisfied with me, and it's so far away from Beijing, so I don't know what trouble they caused." Wen Jichen's face was expressionless, and his tone was cold say.

I took a deep breath, it was just breakfast, and the atmosphere was so depressing...

In fact, I don't really want to leave yet. I haven't seen my mother for a long time, and I want to spend more time together.

But when I thought they would go back to Beijing when I was a sophomore, I felt a little better.

"Okay, if you think about it, I'll book a plane ticket for you." The stepdad put down the newspaper and sighed.

Wen Jichen hummed.

"Why don't Doudou just stay here?" The stepfather suddenly raised his head and said again.

Wen Jichen gave me a sideways look: "She's been in Hong Kong for so long, she hasn't done any serious business, I have to watch her."

I stared, Wen Jichen, your uncle!