For the rest of my life, please advise

Chapter 5
The doctor turned around and said, "Go out the gate and go one street east. There is a wonton restaurant. You can buy vegan wontons."

In the afternoon, my mother's temperature finally subsided, and I rushed back to the ward.

I remembered the doctor's explanation at noon, "Oxaliplatin is psychotoxic, and the more I think about it, the more uncomfortable it becomes." So I massaged Mr. Lin's stiff shoulders: "After you wake up from sleep, you will feel comfortable after hanging up this bottle of protective blood vessel." .” Teacher Lin closed her eyes suspiciously.

It was only when the cloth slipped past the end of my nose that I realized that I had fallen asleep. When I opened my eyes, I saw the white robe in front of me stretching out his hand to adjust the dripping speed of the bottle.

Teacher Lin seemed to be asleep. I slowly pulled out his somewhat numb arm from under his neck, closed my eyes and lay down on the quilt. Just as I was about to stretch, I felt a hand covering my head.

I opened my eyes, watched Dr. Gu rubbing my hair in the gesture of stroking a puppy, and then walked away leisurely.

This is - suddenly possessed by something?That's all I could think of after he left.

Fa Xiaoyinxi once said that the hurdle between a man and a woman is not actually "be my girlfriend", but the first physical contact.I don't know if this is considered physical contact, but since then, whenever I see Dr. Gu, I feel uncomfortable all over, and a rush of heat rushes from my back to the back of my head.

Doctor's handwriting: The 20 days between you were calm.

(Aren't you calm?)

Doctor: Sure.

Date: 2009.5.27
The third chemotherapy was a painful process. Teacher Lin had already lost 20 pounds, and her cheekbones were protruding. He started to vomit in the morning and vomited all the jaundice fluid all night long.By the time the bottle of oxaliplatin was hung up this morning, Teacher Lin, who was lying in my arms, could no longer even make a sound.Touching his ribs one by one through the sweaty pajamas, I suddenly wanted to cry.

I went to the doctor's office and said, "Is it possible not to have chemotherapy? Normal people can't handle it without eating, drinking, or sleeping." Let alone a person who has just had surgery.

Dr. Gu handed over Mr. Lin's pathological diagnosis: "Your father belongs to poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma."

I looked at him blankly.

"The degree of malignancy is high, the prognosis is poor, and it is easy to transfer and relapse."

I stared at the pathology report in silence, and then asked stiffly for a long time: "Didn't the pathology section after the operation be very good?"

Doctor Gu looked at me and didn't speak.

Before leaving the office, I asked Dr. Gu: "Whether chemotherapy is effective, can you tell me the truth."

Dr. Gu frowned slightly: "Eliminate the possible remaining cancer cells and prevent metastasis. Others - the effect is limited."

At night, I sat on the rest chair in the elevator with my knees in a daze, looking at the starry sky outside through the window glass.

Hearing footsteps approaching behind me, I turned my head, and Dr. Gu stood beside me, with his hands in his pockets.

I smiled politely, turned my head and continued to look at the sky.

"Don't look like the sky is falling."

"Where is it?"

"You're sitting here in the middle of the night."

I glanced at my watch: "9:15 p.m. Beijing time."

He turned his head and looked at me: "Go back to the hotel and rest."

"No, Teacher Lin can't fall asleep if I'm not here." Although I know I can't fall asleep when he is there.

However, he got up and walked back with the doctor.

"Lin's school."

I turned around, and the person who had already entered the office came out again, handing over a bar of chocolate.

"Thank you." At this time, there was no long-winded comfort or alarmist talk, just a shallow smile.

Date: 2009.5.28
In the morning rounds, Mr. Lin saw Dr. Gu and said only one sentence: "I want to go home."

"You haven't eaten for two days, how can you go home now?"

"I want to go home."

"Waiting for your blood test report."

"I want to go home." Just these four words.

Dr. Gu raised his head: "Can I get out of bed? Can I walk?"

"can."

"Come and show me."

"..." bleak.

"If your indicators are not up to standard and you can't continue to eat, I can only suggest that you add fat milk to supplement your nutrition."

"I don't hang up..."

Dr. Gu ignored it completely and nodded to us.

Teacher Lin wrinkled his face in grievance. In front of us, the lawless and incompetent demon king met a doctor who didn't buy his account at all.

Date: 2009.5.30
After three consecutive days of fat milk hanging down, the response to chemotherapy gradually subsided, and Teacher Lin's spirit recovered slightly.

I took the water glass to the elevator room to breathe, and looked out through the glass.It rained after four o'clock in the afternoon, and the humidity has not receded.I remember once seeing a saying that any city, viewed from a low place, is ordinary, but viewed from a high place, it is beautiful.Even simple street lamps can reveal a kind of quiet beauty when they are condensed in the humid air.I am smelling the air that has been washed so much by the rain——

"How is your father? Still throwing up?"

I turned around in surprise and looked at the white-robed man in front of me: "Doctor Gu, are you on the night shift again today?"

"My colleague came home during the Dragon Boat Festival and transferred a shift with me."

The two watched the street scene silently for a while, and he walked away to make a phone call in a very low voice.I squinted my eyes halfway, and when I was drowsy from the air blowing in from the window, I put a mobile phone in front of my eyes.

I looked at the jumping call time on the screen, and then at the doctor holding the phone, he just raised his chin towards the phone.

I took it, and his temperature was still on the screen, which made me a little bit at a loss: "Hello?"

"elder sister!"

"So your full name is Du Wenjun."

I saw the doctor turned his face away, smiled, and hurriedly added in embarrassment: "Happy Children's Day."

"..."

The atmosphere was even more awkward.

I looked at the doctor and then at the phone, and suddenly realized: "Is the exam coming soon?"

Xiao Du: "There is still one week."

I scratched my hair: "Despise the enemy tactically, and value the enemy strategically. I wish you an early victory in the War of Resistance." I hurriedly returned the phone to Dr. Gu.

I didn't know what was said on the other end of the phone, but Dr. Gu smiled and said, "Okay, let's go read. Maintain a normal routine, don't drive late, and take the exam with a normal mind."

Date: 2009.6.1
After discussion by the doctors, Mr. Lin's chemotherapy reaction was too strong and his body tolerance was too poor. After the chemotherapy, he suspended the course of treatment and went home to adjust for a period of time before continuing to the next step of treatment.

In the morning, I left the hospital first and went back to school to defend my graduation thesis.

Xiao Yu hugged me for a long time (actually, I still don't know why she is so clingy to me), and she didn't let go until I promised to bring her delicious food next time.

I didn't see Dr. Gu, he went to prepare for the operation before making the rounds.

Doctor's handwriting: Anyway, you don't worry about my mood.

(Why did I worry about your mood at that time? Besides, I didn't know what your mood was at that time...)
Date: 2009.6.30
After one month of interventional treatment with traditional Chinese medicine, Mr. Lin's complexion gradually improved and his weight increased.

After returning from the routine examination at the city hospital, my mother was busy making soup as soon as she entered the door, and told me to call the hospital to report the examination results.

Call on duty.

"Hi, hello, this is Department of Gastrointestinal Tumor Surgery." A familiar baritone voice.

"Hi Doctor Gu, I'm Lin Zhixiao."

Quite officially, you come and go, until the end, the other person casually said: "By the way, Du Wenjun's score is out, and he crossed the line with 19 points."

"Very good, congratulations to him."

"I'll tell him. Goodbye." Hang up lightly.

Date: 2009.7.4
After I became a qualified graduate, I became a qualified vagrant.Before, my mother always thought that I was taking the postgraduate entrance examination related to the undergraduate major, but it turned out that the day when I saw the notice, something happened.She didn't like the geology major very much, and started to be cold and violent to me.In dire straits, I accepted the olive branch offered by Sansan and became a cook for her, and she became an honorable engineer in City X.

After taking a shower at night, the two of them were lying on the bed together, and Sansan suddenly started to gossip: "Principal, are you happy now?"

"Very happy."

"Like a person in unrequited love?"

"..."

"How are you and Dr. Gu? Hiding, hiding? I'm not interested in your phone."

I looked at the ceiling: "Just—the normal doctor-patient relationship."

"and then?"

"?"

"And then, there's no more? My girl!" Sansan jumped up, "Don't tell me you like someone, just take a look at it and it's over."

"Ah... how about that?"

"Try to be together."

At that time, I really didn't expect to go to that level.I just simply feel happy seeing him, nothing else really matters...

"Love is a strong longing to be with the other person. It means that you hope to be with you in the future, to hold your hand and grow old together." Sansan looked at me with hatred, "You kind What is the difference between liking a painting and liking a vase?"

"Oh……"

Sansan suddenly turned her head suspiciously: "Is the doctor interested in you?"

I shook my head seriously: "No." (Quite sure.)
"It shouldn't be, such a juicy girl, he is not a monk."

"There are so many girls in the hospital, you just think he's in heat when he has nothing to do... Besides, how long have we only known each other?"

"Honey, haven't you heard of love at first sight and love at second sight? Time is not a problem, as long as you see each other right. Come, come, and tell me about the things between the two of you."

I talked for 10 minutes, and the three or three old monks listened as if they were in meditation, and suddenly poked my head: "You are just, young, female, er, outer, cousin, big, uncle, er, heart!"

After Sansan's enlightenment for two consecutive nights, I have two basic understandings: First, a doctor is a man, not a lotus flower.Second, he may vaguely seem to be interested in me.

With these two levels of understanding, I suddenly became enlightened. Although I was still confused about the road ahead, I saw the way anyway.

Date: 2009.7.21
After 50 days, I returned to the hospital again.When I gave Xiaoyu the youth ball made by my grandmother, her laughter resounded throughout the corridor, and she was taken away by the head nurse...

(End of this chapter)