For the rest of my life, please advise

Chapter 4
When love begins, we often don't know it is love.

Date: 2009.4.3
I propped my head and looked at the dark tunnel outside the car window in a daze. The glass reflected a person playing with the IC card in his hand. I suddenly thought of a person who would turn over the IC card on his fingertips while walking to the subway station after work.

In the days after leaving the hospital, apart from the regular return calls from the nurse station, the only remaining contact with the hospital was when Mr. Lin’s white blood cell index dropped, and my mother-in-law called the doctor twice, and the process was nothing more than "thank you" and "no." You're welcome" is the official answer.

Returning to X City today, I rushed out of the books in my head, and suddenly found some invisible things overwhelming.After a long time, I realized that these vaguely lingering things are called caring.

In the evening, I lived in the Sansan dormitory. Her school is very close to the school where I re-examined.After taking a shower and brushing his hair, he turned around and saw Sansan's playful face: "Girl, why do I suddenly feel that you have a tone of 'you only lower your brows but care about your heart'?"

"Please show your morals as a science student and don't drop your book bag."

"Then when do you plan to finish it, Doctor Gu?"

"...You should continue to recite ancient poems." Don't expect to find anything reserved in this woman.

"I know you are cowardly, my sister just took your mobile phone and sent him a text message."

"what?!"

I frantically flipped through my phone, and a message "Do you have a girlfriend?" was lying naked in the sent mailbox.

Inadvertently making friends!Absolute inadvertence in making friends! ! !

I can't wait to hit the wall: "Sister! I have a retest tomorrow! Can't you give me a good mental state?!"

"Good spirits are common, but good men are rare. Little comrades, work hard, work hard." Sansan grabbed the towel and floated into the bathroom.

I buried myself in the quilt in grief and anger, and looked at the incomparably rippling text message on the screen. I never wished so much for a moment, there must be a bug in the mobile communication tower!
I didn't receive a text message on my phone until I went to sleep.Before falling asleep, I hypnotized myself: "It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, he doesn't know my number, so he probably thought it was a prank text message."

Then I realized how wrong I was!

Doctor's handwriting: Hahahahaha...

(What are you laughing at? You dare to leave a phone call after you have just known each other for ten days. I haven't looked for you yet!)

Doctor: I left it for the patient, is there any problem?
Date: 2009.4.5
It is said that the School of Geology is famous for its yang and yin decline. When we arrived at the scene, we found that women are not as good as men.

A petite girl obliquely in front of me was holding the phone: "Retest on Ching Ming Festival, actually retest on Ching Ming Festival! If it doesn't record me, I'm a ghost and I won't let it go!" As soon as she finished speaking, the soles of her feet slipped.

When I rushed over, I only had time to help her up from the ground: "Sichuanese?"

The watery Sichuan girl grabbed my hand and stood up: "Yeah, it's easy to climb half of China to come to the retest~"

In this way, I met my future classmates and roommates, Comrade Xiaocao who was a little off-line.Xiaocao always said, there are so many people, why is it that I helped her up, what a wonderful fate.I didn't tell her, in fact, many male compatriots who are eager to move also want to help, but they are not as fast as me...

After the written test, interview, and physical examination were all over, Xiaocao politely declined my offer to take her around X City: "I'm going home, I have to go back to get down to earth. Let's take a look at X City for three years. No rush, no rush."

Seeing her limping and jumping into the taxi, I never asked, girl, how did you know that we were recorded?

Date: 2009.4.8
Three days later, I received the admission notification text message. At that time, my mother had just hung up the phone at the nurse station: "There is no bed today, and your father can't go." Now it is hard to find a bed in any hospital. I don't know if I should continue tidying up the covered suitcase.

When my mother was halfway through lunch, the phone screen lit up: "A patient was discharged early this afternoon. Come here as soon as possible. It might be gone by tomorrow."

Reliable young man.

One o'clock in the afternoon, the hospital.At the nurse's station, Dr. Gu has already signed the admission form, and the procedure went smoothly.

I cleaned the table, chairs, bed cabinets and went to the boiling water to wash the rags. At the door, I received a call from Xiaocao: "Lin Zhi School Lin Zhi School! We are going to be classmates!"

I laughed: "Maybe we can still be roommates. There are only four girls in the re-examination. I heard from the senior sister that we lived in a four-person dormitory." (After half a year, the four girls were divided into three dormitories, Xiaocao University Laughing: "Fate is destined!")
I was infected by the cheerful laughter on the other end of the phone: "We have three years to visit City X until we get tired of it."

After hanging up the phone, I turned around, and five meters away, Dr. Gu smiled at me with his hands behind his back.

I haven't seen him for 20 days, but the kind and warm taste in his smile has gradually become stronger with the seasons outside the window.

In the warm afternoon sun, I looked into his smiling eyes: "Doctor Gu."

He glanced over my phone and nodded.

"Thank you." The competition for beds is so fierce.

The corner of his mouth slightly raised: "You're welcome, you should." He passed me into the office.I looked at his back and always felt that there was something different about him.After a long time, he told me calmly: "Oh, it's just that the heart rate is a little faster."

In the afternoon, my mother accompanied Mr. Lin to the examination, and I was sent to consult the chemotherapy plan.

Knock on the door: "Doctor Gu."

The person who was typing the doctor's order on the screen turned his head and looked at me for five seconds, then glanced at the chair beside him: "Sit."

In front of the beauty, I was sitting upright, and my eyes subconsciously moved to his fluttering fingers.Just when I was feeling "it's a waste not to play the piano", my fingers stopped.

I looked up, and Dr. Gu just looked at me with a smile: "What do you want to ask?"

Seeing other people's hands in a daze, I awkwardly raised my forehead: "Teacher Lin's chemotherapy plan."

He took out the pen in his pocket, opened the notebook in my hand, and wrote while talking: "XELOX plan. The main ingredient of the chemotherapy potion is oxaliplatin, which belongs to the platinum anticancer drug, and the amount is not large. Afterwards, I will add some medicines for protecting the liver and heart, and at the same time, I will take Xeloda..."

"Chemotherapy response?" This is what I am most concerned about.

"It varies from person to person. Oxaliplatin has certain toxicity and can cause nausea. Vomiting cannot be ruled out."

When I got out of the office, I looked at the mixed Chinese and English handwriting on the page in my hand, and I was wondering whether the quality of the doctor's service should be so good now, when Dr. Gu's voice came from behind: "Lin, Lin—"

I turned my head and saw that he kept Lin's mouth shape: "Lin Zhixiao."

"Oh, Lin Zhixiao," Dr. Gu paused, "Go and buy a pair of gloves for your dad, and you can't touch metal or anything cold during chemotherapy." Then he turned and walked back to the office.

I saw him mutter under his breath, "The boy's name..."

Doctor's handwriting: Hahahahaha...

(Why are you just giggling besides giggling.)
Doctor: No, I just thought it was silly at that time.

Date: 2009.4.9
A new group of intern doctors and nurses came to the ward, and a large number of people cheered in the corridor, which was very exciting.Hearing the sound of the doctors next door making group rounds, my heart beat a little faster.When the director opened the door, I subconsciously lowered my gaze.

The ward was blocked by nearly [-] people, and the air was a bit thin. Director A and Mr. Lin shook hands together, making me dazzled, and my eyes shifted to the side.Dr. Gu is hanging in front of his body with his medical records in both hands, his eyelashes drooping quietly, with a slight smile on his face. This expression reminds me of Mahakasyapa’s smile that I heard from my grandmother when I was a child. It seems transparent. , but it is not clear.

Later, the doctor recalled: "I didn't see you for 20 days before, but my heart was still peaceful. When we saw each other again, I realized how happy I was."

At 08:30, the head nurse came to give Teacher Lin an injection, followed by a new face, small, with crooked eyes and two sweet dimples when he smiled.When the head nurse was giving the needle, she squatted down on the ground, dragging her cheeks like a little mushroom, looking up without blinking.

An hour later, the little mushroom came to change the water for Mr. Lin.Watching her sign the water change record stroke by stroke, Teacher Lin couldn't help asking: "How old are you, child? Where are you from?"

"From city A. I'm 21! I'm not a child!"

Mother: "What a coincidence, my father is also from City A."

For the next 10 minutes, Teacher Lin and I stared blankly at our mother and the little girl chatting in Wu Nong's soft language.

"There are so few people in City A here, and I actually met a fellow villager here!" The little girl danced with excitement, looking at her posture, she wanted to give her mother a hug, but halfway she realized that it was not suitable, and then plunged into my arms... …

It's true that there are beauties who take the initiative to throw themselves into their arms.That was the only sentence that was on my mind at the time.

I went to eat at noon, and met Dr. Gu who came back from the outpatient clinic. Just as he was about to say hello, a person rushed out from the nurse's station.

"Mr. Gu! Is the big emergency medicine test at the end of the term, CPR or electrical cardioversion?"

I watched Little Mushroom anxiously circling Dr. Gu, and suddenly saw me, "Ah, sister from my hometown!"

Once again the beauty is in my arms, I just feel that all kinds of situations are out of the ordinary.In the hospital, there are new nurses who call old nurse teachers, and interns who call doctor teachers, but Mr. Gu, are you cross-breed?
"Because he is really a teacher!" Little Mushroom took it for granted when he came to change the potion, "Let's go to class, invigilate the exam, and change the test paper."

"I'm really not her teacher." Dr. Gu looked helpless during the rounds, "The director went out for a meeting before, and I took the place of a public elective class. The invigilator was randomly arranged by the computer, and the test papers were changed. I was caught by my brother to help ."Oops.

But this does not prevent Xiaoyu from saying "Morning, Teacher Gu!" "Good morning, Teacher Gu!" "Goodbye, Teacher Gu!"

Teacher Gu was under a lot of pressure: "Son, your real teacher is sitting in the office."

Little Mushroom's name is Cheng Yu. In her own words, she is a girl who is so simple-minded that she is a little careless.On the first day we met, I spent lunch in our ward with takeaway, and gave me all her father's salary and her mother's unit... These days, such a simple child is really rare.

After a long time, Xiaoyu hugged my arm and acted like a baby: "Master, I knew you were a good person the first time I saw you! The second time I saw you, I knew you could cure the teacher!" It's messy, but that's all for later.

This time I came for chemotherapy, and I got to know the nurses a lot, and occasionally I would chat a little more. As for the doctors, the 5-minute ward rounds were still the same, except for Dr. Gu.I went to the valet processing place to get black fish soup at three o'clock. He came in to make rounds and came back at 03:30. He was still chatting with Mr. Lin in the ward.Seeing me coming in, he nodded and said goodbye. When he passed by me, he smiled and said, "The fish soup is very fragrant."

I looked at his back suspiciously, with an indescribable feeling, as if he hadn't done anything out of line, but it always made people feel that he had done something more.

At night, I was washing dishes in the boiling water, and I turned my head sharply when I heard "Sister!"

"Little Du!"

The little guy just had his hair cut, and his short length is very energetic.

"The head nurse said that you will not come to the hospital this month."

"Well, there are still two months. But Dr. Gu said he should come to say hello to you. How are you two?"

I look to the sky, what kind of problem is this...

So he ignored it directly: "How is the review going?"

"I can't say it, I feel that there is a bottom, and there is no bottom..."

"This is in a good state, despising the enemy strategically, and paying attention to the enemy tactically."

"I want to study medicine." Little Du was silent, scratching his nose.

I looked at the awkward boy in front of me and nodded, "That's a good idea."

"Hey, Dr. Gu's school is probably out of reach."

I patted his arm: "The higher you stand, the farther you can see, the more paths you can choose. Now, don't think about anything else, just work hard to stand on a higher place."

When Xiao Du left, he said to me: "Do you know what Dr. Gu told me? He said, 'Don't think about anything, just go all out and pass the exam." He smiled slyly, "You two have made an appointment, right? ?”

Date: 2009.4.10
Teacher Lin, who was fine during the day yesterday, suddenly started to react to chemotherapy at night, and it completely subsided today. She lay listlessly on the bed, half-closed her eyes and squeezed my fingers, and Zhou Gong would go.In the afternoon, he lost some energy and returned to his spoof nature. He walked to the door of the bathroom with his arms folded, reached out and poked the metal doorknob, poked it again, and then turned his head with an innocent face: "Xiao Lin, I have to go to the bathroom." .” I went over to help him open the door with a black thread on my head.My mother told me that even if you wear gloves, try not to touch the cold.

Just when he blinked and said to me, "The spoon is made of stainless steel", and I was feeding him dragon fruit while "opening my mouth, ah—" while swearing that being cute has nothing to do with age, Dr. Gu opened the door and came in, standing on the bed Bian looked at it silently for a while: "Mr. Lin, you are 52 this year."

Teacher Lin nodded calmly.

Dr. Gu adjusted his glasses: "The first time the water has been hung up, the body is adapting well. If there is no problem in the blood test tomorrow, you can go home." After finishing speaking, he glanced at me and walked out.

I followed him out of the ward, and within two steps, Dr. Gu suddenly turned around and said, "Don't treat him as a patient, treat him as a normal person."

I looked at the doctor in front of me who was rarely emotionally fluctuating, and said "oh".

Dr. Gu supported his forehead, and his eyes fell on the dragon fruit and spoon in my hand: "At least, he can eat by himself."

"Oh."

"Buy a melamine spoon." After speaking, he turned and left.

I looked at the stainless steel spoon in my hand and said "Oh" slowly.

Date: 2009.4.15
I went back to school and started busy with my graduation defense. During this time, I went home to visit Mr. Lin from time to time, and my life was quite fulfilling.

That notebook has been lying quietly in my bag, and I occasionally take it out to look through it. The different handwriting of the two people are close together, which reminds me of a hand with clear bones and flowing water.

Date: 2009.5.5
If the first chemotherapy went well, then the second chemotherapy can be considered a disaster.

Yesterday I settled everything in the ward, but I couldn't wait for my mother who came to open the room for a long time.A phone call was made, and the voice on the other end said, "I'm not feeling well."

It is indeed uncomfortable, the body temperature is 38.6 ℃.I belong to the sub-health group in the office. I have been in a state of tension since February, and I have been on business trips a while ago.I touched her forehead: "Go to sleep. I'm with my dad."

Teacher Lin couldn't hold on for a long time, and he reacted as soon as the medicine was taken.

Date: 2009.5.6
Lixia has passed, and the weather is starting to be slightly hot and dry.I carried my breakfast, propped my head up and sat on the rest chair in the elevator waiting for the elevator.

"School of Lin?"

I opened my eyes: "Morning, Doctor Gu."

We were pushed into the elevator by the crowd and squeezed against the wall. I simply closed my eyes halfway.

The doctor beside him crossed his arms and lowered his head slightly: "Where did your mother go?"

"The hotel, I started to have a fever at noon the day before yesterday, and the low-grade fever has not subsided. The two of them couldn't wake up and the other couldn't sleep at night."

"You—" He paused without speaking.

After the doctors checked the room, Mr. Lin started to hang the water. I asked Xiaoyu to help me pay attention, and then hurried to the hotel with the thermos bucket. I passed Dr. Gu in the corridor, and he said, "Run slowly. .”

After my mother had finished her breakfast, I gave her medicine and scraped her skin. I went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, sent them to the valet processing point, and then ran back to the hospital. When the door opened, I saw Teacher Lin leaning on the bed pitifully: " My hands and feet are terribly numb."

I covered up my anxiety and reached out to touch his face: "It's okay, I'm here."

Before leaving get off work at noon, Dr. Gu knocked on the door and came in: "Is there anything I can do for you?"

I looked at him with the pigeon soup: "Can you help me feed Teacher Lin?" Teacher Lin was completely sluggish. He could drink some soup yesterday, but he didn't want to eat anything today.

The doctor rubbed his eyebrows and walked to the bedside: "Mr. Lin, you have to eat to supplement your nutrition."

"The meat soup smells disgusting."

"The vegetable soup?"

"I do not want to eat."

"noodle?"

Shaking his head.

"porridge?"

Shaking his head.

"ravioli?"

He hesitated.

I looked at the two negotiating men in front of me in amazement.

(End of this chapter)