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823 Accompanying 2
How long has Brother Luo Heng not looked at me again, how long has he not said a word to me, even... such care seems like a dream.But it actually happened in front of me.I used to think that brother Luo Heng would never talk to me again until I died.Is this a dream?If it's a dream, can you keep me from waking up again?
The change in Luo Heng's attitude towards Shang Wan made her very happy every day. The things she recorded were very trivial. Even if Luo Heng smiled at her, she could write a long paragraph stupidly. He said to me today Laughed.Just like the youthful crush when I was young, it filled pages and pages.

Until the first two weeks.

Shang Wan wrote: I think my life is coming to an end, I can’t get out of bed, I have difficulty breathing every day, my heart hurts so much that I can’t sleep every night, and I have to take a lot of medicine every day.I have always felt that God is unfair to me. Why do other girls have a healthy body and a strong heart? They can laugh, run, fall in love, have children, and be with the person they like for a lifetime.But I have nothing, nothing... But now I am not complaining, but grateful.In my last days, Brother Luo Heng treated me as before, he cared about me, took care of me, was gentle, and spoke softly, I was really happy and happy.It's just a pity that I have no time, and I have no more time to be with him.I never regretted what I did before, but now, I do.

I caused Brother Luo Heng to lose Wen Ruchu, and I left again, who will accompany him then?When he is happy, who will share his happiness with him, and who will wipe his tears when he is sad?

Shang Wan, how could you be so selfish back then!

No, I can't leave Brother Luo Heng alone, but what should I do?what can i do
In the following week, Shang Wan only wrote one sentence: I seem to be selfish again, but Brother Luo Heng, please forgive me again, please forgive me for being selfish for the last time.

This sentence made people feel inexplicable, but Shang Wan didn't say any more words, and finally reached the record of the last week.

Shang Wan wrote: Brother Luo Heng came to persuade me to have an operation today.My uncle has been persuading me to do this operation. Although there is only a 30.00% chance, it is better than waiting to die. I don’t want to. I don’t have much time. I’m racing against time. Gamble on such a slim chance?If I die on the operating table, I won't be able to see brother Luo Heng for the last time, I don't want to.But... Brother Luoheng wants me to have an operation, and I will never disobey his words.Even if he tells me to die now, I can't refute it.

After the operation time was set, Shang Wan wrote the last entry in her diary.

I will have surgery tomorrow, and everyone is expecting a miracle to happen, but I know that is just a beautiful fantasy.

Just like me, I once expected Brother Luoheng to see my persistence, like me, and fall in love with me, but no, he still doesn't love me.

But I'm already content, because in this life, even if I can't wait for brother Luo Heng's love, I have already waited for his care and concern, so death is no longer scary.

If I die, will Brother Luoheng shed a tear for me?Probably not, he hates me so much, hates me for meddling in his life, hates me for making him lose his favorite woman, hates me for forcing him to marry me, hates me for occupying the position that originally belonged to Wen Ruchu.But even so, I still hope that after I die, he can shed a tear for me, just one tear, hehe, it seems that I am still so greedy and selfish, and I will never change it.

(End of this chapter)