I'm waiting for you in my memory

Chapter 40 The Emperor's New Clothes (1)
Yao Qiyun helped her aunt clean up the mess of the party until late at night.During the period, it was not easy for Situ Jue to go to him to have a heart-to-heart "heart-to-heart talk". When she pricked up her ears and heard that there was no movement downstairs, she sent him a text message, "Don't listen to what my mother said is useless."

After waiting for a long time, he replied: "It's okay. I'm tired, go to sleep, good night."

Looking at this concise text message, Situ Jue felt uneasy and deeply disappointed.

In fact, she would rather Yao Qiyun show dissatisfaction, or even fight with her.If he doubts, she is willing to explain, even cut out her heart to show him.Or he has emotions, not to mention it at least means he cares about her.But he didn't, he dispelled all her urges to confess with such a calm retreat.

In the next few days, Yao Qiyun was still like this, there was no difference in every word or deed, and there was no sign of anger at all.No matter at home or alone, Situ Jue still took good care of him as usual, even brought her an extra breakfast in the morning, as if the "ordinary party" that night really had nothing to do with him .

However, even if his human skin mask can deceive the whole world, how can he deceive Situ Jue?Situ Jue knew Yao Qiyun too well, she was like a little bug living in the flesh and blood under his mask, lurking for a long time, easily discerning his reserved restlessness and duplicity.The more he pretends to be innocent and the world is peaceful, the more it shows that he has something on his mind.

In those days, she deliberately confronted him in some small things in life, and deliberately provoked him by tripping.If it was in the past, he would either quarrel with her, or give her a "little punishment" in private, or simply pamper her, and the two of them would laugh and quarrel.But now he has been enduring and retreating, no matter how excessive or annoying she is, he has maintained the utmost friendliness and humility in front of her, which made Situ Jue feel the indescribable alienation and strangeness.

There are more and more reasons for him to be busy, and more and more reasons for not being with her. Exams, experiments, papers... Anyway, people can't protest, anyway... It seems that they are more important than staying with her.At this time, Wu Jiang had already paid off the debt owed to Situ Jue, but Situ Jue lied to Yao Qiyun that he had no money in his meal card and wanted to wait for him to have lunch together.After he heard this, he quietly put his meal card and enough money for a week on the dresser in her room.

Situ Jue was already driven crazy by him from the moment he saw the meal card. She couldn't bear it anymore, and she didn't need to bear it any longer. She grabbed the meal card and went straight to the clinical medical school, and grabbed Yao Qiyun, who was doing pathological experiments, from the laboratory. out.How could Yao Qiyun not understand her temper? If he didn't obediently come out and speak clearly alone, she might finish every word she wanted to say in front of everyone in the laboratory.

The two stopped at the rockery at the back door of the laboratory building.

Yao Qiyun shook his head, "You have a quick temper, what can't you go home and talk about?"

Situ Jue refused to play Tai Chi with him, "Stop doing this! Yao Qiyun, you hypocrite, tell me what's wrong with you, why are you pretending in front of me?"

He smiled wryly and sat on the stone fence of the rockery, "Ah Jue, what are you doing? I don't feel uncomfortable at all, where did you say that?!"

"you're lying!"

"I have opened my eyes. Don't you expect me to feel uncomfortable to be happy? What's the point?"

Situ Jue's eyes burst into flames, "Okay, you swear to the sky in front of me that you don't mind what happened that day at all."

"Swearing is the least costly thing, what's so difficult about it, you can take it seriously after I say it?" Yao Qiyun didn't think so.

"Yes, I'll take it seriously when you say it. If you even make a false oath, then I really misread you and punished me to be blind."

She waited for him to say it, but he didn't say it in the end. After thinking twice, he just lowered his head and said slowly: "Why do you say these words to force me, even if I feel uncomfortable in my heart, does it make sense?"

Situ Jue couldn't believe it, "Wu Jiang and I are good friends. He doesn't care about me, and I don't care about him. Others can misunderstand, but don't you even know?"

"Of course I know." Yao Qiyun's tone was still flat, "It's not just me, maybe even your mother knows, and Wu Jiang's parents are probably the only ones who misunderstood... Ah Jue, I'm not angry with you, you're right, if I vent my anger It's nothing to you. However, your mother is such a careful person. She could have closed the door and told you in private what she said that day, but why did she say it in front of everyone? Understand? She said that to me. She was afraid that I was not awake enough, so she gave me another vaccination. She wanted me to completely die of that heart. It is impossible between me and you, even if it is a little bit Neither can."

Situ Jue was silent for a moment when she heard the words, she knew her mother's way and attitude in dealing with people, as long as she thought about it deeply, she would find that what Qi Yun said was indeed the truth.He was more aware of this than she was, not because she was stupid, but because his situation forced him to be more sensitive.

"My mother is my mother, let's leave her alone." Situ Jue sat beside Yao Qiyun, looking at him eagerly.

"I don't want to. You know, sometimes I comfort myself by imagining your mother as a bad person and making things difficult for me, so that I will feel better for a few seconds. But in fact your mother is not bad at all, I think It can be seen that she didn't approve of me coming to your house at first, and the reason why she didn't say anything later was because she cared about your father's feelings. She has been very polite and tolerant to me these years, and I am very grateful to her. And What she said that day was right. Ah Jue, if I had a daughter like you, I would make the same choice as your mother. I sincerely hope that she will find a harmonious, complete and well-matched family and marry a A husband like Wu Jiang who matches you well and gets along with you can live a stable life, instead of a poor boy who has nothing and depends on others, and depends on your family for every penny and every meal."

"But I'd like to be with you, I think it's very good." Situ Jue said in a crying voice.

"The problem is that I don't think it's good!" Yao Qiyun took her words without any pause, and his sharp tone never before shocked Situ Jue, "Ah Jue, you are like an extremely expensive piece of jade. It’s beautiful, and it’s hard to put it down. Yes, my heart is moved. I’m a layman, and I can’t restrain my greed to possess it when I see something good. But I dare not hold it in my palm, because I’m afraid it will break, I’m afraid I can't find a place to put it, treasure it, and I'm afraid that everyone, including myself, thinks I don't deserve it. Even if I can keep it by my side against all odds, I'll just be terrified every day, feeling like a Thief."

"What did you steal, can't I be my own master?"

Behind Situ Jue's brimming tears was full of anticipation.The girl he yearns for has the most magnanimous heart, and Qiyun has no doubt that as long as he nods at this moment, she will follow him to the ends of the earth.But where is the end of the world?Could it be more boundless than the gray tide of reality?
"You can be your own master, but can I do it? I can't finish the kindness your parents have given me in my life. Don't you think they raised me, and I will ignore their wishes and steal their most cherished treasure? , Is this more shameless than a thief? It’s not Yu’s fault that it’s too beautiful, and it’s not the poor’s fault that they worry about gains and losses. The only fault is that they shouldn’t be placed together. I blame me for everything before, why don’t you just take advantage of it…”

He tried several times but couldn't get the sentence out, but Situ Jue spoke it for him.

"While you haven't loved me that much, while you haven't said that sentence, while you haven't done anything that you must be responsible for, let's just forget it, shall we?"

Yao Qiyun looked away with difficulty, not daring to look directly at her frustration and tears.She said what he couldn't say even after gritting his teeth a thousand times. It was indeed what he wanted to express, but why did it sound so frightening?
He repeatedly told himself that there is no painless parting, you are right, you are right, and she will be fine!

"Yao Qiyun, don't use high-sounding words to cover up that you are a coward, you are not worthy of me, not because you can't afford a piece of jade, but because you don't even have the courage to fight for it, you just hide in your tortoise shell Self-pity and self-pity. If you have been like this, you are not qualified to have any good things, and you are doomed to be poor all your life, poor from the inside out. I wish you nothing and grow old with low self-esteem!"

Situ Jue wiped away the tears and left, until her back completely disappeared, Yao Qiyun realized that his hands were so tightly clasped, as if if he relaxed a little, it would break away from the control of the brain, to hold her and keep her.He took off the rubber gloves and slammed them on the rockery. After a while, he slowly picked them up again, took a deep breath, returned to the laboratory, and finished what was supposed to be done meticulously.

Yao Qiyun did not guess wrong, of course Situ Jue would be "okay", she has never been a person who would close the door and wash her face with tears when encountering unhappy things.She has tons of friends, tons of activities, and tons of dates.The momentary tears will be evaporated without a trace by her happy nature in an instant.

(End of this chapter)