I'm waiting for you in my memory

Chapter 54 Bugs and Apples (1)
The time it took to get home was much shorter than what Situ Jue imagined. How she got on the bus and where she stopped along the way was all chaotic in her memory. Head full.The professor's nostalgic and lonely expression when he talked about his famous wife, and Qu Xiaowan's half-hidden despair in the dark.The warmth of the middle-aged man's palm... There are still some words that keep buzzing in my ears.

"...I like young and beautiful girls..."

"...to be my graduate student...you will be my last disciple..."

"I didn't even know you were back. I waited for a long time and fell asleep..."

"...Is this why you distanced yourself from me?"

……

After getting off the bus, she ran towards home, until the lights of the small building were in sight, and she felt that she had escaped from the sky and returned to the familiar and safe world, not even Aunt Yao who answered the door. The face with any expression became inexplicably kind.

Situ Jue hoped that her parents would not be there, she wanted to sit next to Qiyun, close to his body, and pour out those unbelievable things at the fastest speed, let his reason and gentleness dispel the turbidity in her heart .

However, the moment she entered the door, it seemed that something caught her feet, making her every movement forward involuntarily slow down.

How would Yao Qiyun judge what happened just now?Yes, she knew him, he would frown and say coldly: "Situ Jue, I told you to stay away from him, how many times I told you, but you never listened. That's how you are, you don't shed tears when you don't see the coffin!"

He is so nervous about her, same, he will remind her mercilessly: you are wrong, wrong!

It is wrong to do an unsure thing only with good intentions and impulse;
Refuse to believe that the dirty dust that rolls up behind rumors is wrong;

It's wrong to be naive, it's wrong to be conceited, it's even worse not to listen to him!

The feeling of frustration spread quietly, so that when Situ Jue entered the living room and found that the light in Yao Qiyun's room was not on, she was temporarily relieved. Maybe she needed to slow down before facing his anger, even if it was only for a while.

However, it was after eight o'clock in the evening, and Yao Qiyun hadn't returned home yet. He was quite busy these days, which was expected by Situ Jue, but what surprised her was Wu Jiang's appearance.

Wu Jiang sat alone on the sofa in Situ's living room, holding a remote control in one hand and a half-gnawed apple in the other, with a smile amused by the funny variety show on his face, very leisurely.When he saw Situ Jue appearing, he quickly stood up and beckoned her to sit beside him.

"You're finally back, how are you? Tell me quickly."

"God knows!" Situ Jue was holding back her words and didn't know where to start. She had never hidden so many things on her mind since she was a child.Wu Jiang was originally her best trash can, but when Qu Xiaowan was involved, things began to become subtle and weird.She glanced at Aunt Yao who was watching TV in her small room, but kept monitoring the situation outside from the open door, and lowered her voice, "We are not at home, thanks to you, you can stay alone, 'KGB' Didn't give you a good look?"

I don't know why, among the guests of Situ's house, Aunt Yao was the only one who looked unkindly towards Wu Jiang. Of course, she didn't dare when Xue Shaoping and his wife were at home, but in private, especially when Wu Jiang came to see Situ Jue, this half-old lady His eyes are more vigilant than a falcon, and his sense of smell is more sensitive than that of a dog.Situ Jue often finds it ironic that Aunt Yao doesn't like her nephew being with her on the one hand, but on the other hand she is particularly concerned about her contact with other boys, as if she will do shameful things behind her nephew's back if she is not careful.

Wu Jiang didn't mind, shook the apple in his hand, and said with a smile: "I see what her face is doing. I didn't come to find her. Could it be that she dares to drive me out? I came here with my mother." , she went to drink tea with Aunt Xue, so I'll just stay and wait for you, do it myself, have enough food and clothing, and don't need to be waited on by others. By the way, do you have any records from Zou Jin? You should tell me quickly. "

"Go, go up and talk." Situ Jue signaled Wu Jiang to go upstairs with him, avoiding the pricked ears not far away.

Only when she was completely nestled on the soft chair in her room did she feel that her ears were really quiet.

"I begged for everything I should ask, and he didn't express his opinion. Anyway, I think Xiaogen should be mentally prepared." Situ Jue said sullenly.

Wu Jiang rocked on the rocking chair opposite her for a while before saying, "In short...thanks, Situ."

Situ Jue sneered, "Are you being polite to me? Besides, is it your turn to thank me? If we call it a friend, Xiao Gen is also my friend. This is not your fault, so don't be blind."

"Anyway, when I thought about it later, I shouldn't have asked you to come forward. I was confused at the time, and it's your fault."

I don't know why, when Situ Jue heard Wu Jiang's unremarkable words, she felt her nose sore, and those clips that just passed wildly challenged her psychological defense.She hurriedly asked: "How are you and her doing lately... You know I mean Qu Xiaowan."

"I can't tell, so let's do that." As if he didn't say anything, he then smiled and said, "Why do you ask this?"

Situ Jue avoided his eyes and asked earnestly, "Wu Jiang, can you tell me what exactly is it that you see in her?"

Wu Jiang was still shaking the old rattan chair that creaked, and he threw the core of the apple he had just disposed of into the trash can.

"How can I say... Let's take an apple as an example. It's like a hungry person picks an apple out of a lot of fruits. After one bite, the taste may be a little different from what he imagined. After the second bite, he feels That's not bad, maybe apples should taste like this, and they gnawed into cores without knowing it... Cough cough, the key is not the word 'gnawing', but that at this moment you suddenly find that you are full, even if You still have bananas, pineapples, watermelons, or pears in front of you, and you don’t want to try anything else.”

Wu Jiang's metaphors are always bad, and Situ Jue said angrily: "If the apple you picked looks delicious, but it's actually sour and astringent, you have to eat the last bite? Does that make sense?"

"So what?" Wu Jiang shrugged, "Sweet fruits are everywhere, but I picked my apples."

"What if it's worm-eaten inside?" Wu Jiang was still rocking the chair, and Situ Jue, who was preoccupied by the rocking, was upset. She leaned over and pressed on the armrest of the chair, stabilizing it.

It's not that she didn't think about it, even good friends should leave room for it, just like when her mother met her colleague's husband holding hands with other women, she kept silent in the end.She said that sooner or later this colleague, immersed in a happy marriage, would find out the truth, maybe never.In short, it should not be an outsider who exposed this cruel veil.It can be reminded, needless to say, judging from her mother's philosophy of life, Situ Jue has fulfilled her obligations, but facing Wu Jiang, she found that she could not do it at all. Let those principles and skills go to hell, she only knows that she has It is obligatory to let your good friends know the truth and avoid harm.

"Wu Jiang, I advise you to wake up, Qu Xiaowan is not worthy of your love at all, you know what I saw..."

Wu Jiang took Situ Jue's hand away with a smile, and interrupted her, "This chair in your house is very comfortable." He started to shake it again, this time he shook it very fast, faster and faster, faster It made his face blurred in Situ Jue's sight.

"Where did we just say that? By the way, apples... apples! For those who love apples, if the apple they choose has bugs, he has two choices: first, treat it as if he didn't see it from the beginning to the end. The worm ate the whole apple very contentedly; second, when he found the worm, he was so disgusted that he threw it away immediately. However, even if he threw away the apple, he was still a person who loves apples, and the feeling of love is not It will change because he throws it or doesn't throw it, that's not his choice. His choice is to eat the apple happily, or look sad at the apple that has to be thrown away, and be disgusted by the bug at the same time."

Situ Jue listened dazedly to Wu Jiang's words, and she vowed to stay away from Apple in the future.

"It still doesn't work. Is there only one apple in this world?"

"What if the apple hadn't been completely destroyed by a bug?"

"Can……"

"Okay, Situ, can I thank you?"

Wu Jiang didn't know when he stopped, probably because of the violent shaking before, his face was very ugly.

It was only then that Situ Jue felt that her best friend had become a little strange. She used to think that she knew him as if she knew another self.Could it be that when all people grow up, they will have a small black room with closed doors and windows in their hearts, and they will hide in it when necessary, so that they will feel safe?But she is still foolishly alone and bright, the sun can come in, and the wind and rain can also come in.

She thought she understood.Those "secrets" that I can't wait to tell can only be swallowed silently.

"It's up to you. You eat your apple, it has nothing to do with me." She didn't know if her voice was particularly stiff.

Wu Jiang quickly returned to normal, with a trace of apology on his face, he said anxiously: "I have no other intentions... are you really angry?"

If before, Situ Jue would definitely scold him to relieve his anger, but now she just wants to let herself be quiet, and push Wu Jiang to the door, "Okay, you go back." When she reached the door, she suddenly remembered something He patted himself on the head like an incident, went back to the room, picked up the apple core from the trash can, and stuffed it to Wu Jiang without any explanation, "Don't forget 'your apple', what if you miss it? "

Wu Jiang didn't know whether to laugh or cry, he didn't answer it, and he didn't answer it, he retreated a few steps in embarrassment, and was soon separated by a door.He embarrassedly found a trash can and threw the fruit core away, then came back and knocked on the door, "Then I'll go back first, if you are friends, you are not allowed to have overnight feuds."

He waited for a while, but there was still no movement in the room, so he had to leave first.

After Wu Jiang left, Situ Jue lay on the bed, waiting for Yao Qiyun to come home.She didn't know when she fell asleep, and her heavy eyelids shrouded the darkness like dark clouds, and soon, chaotic dreams followed.

(End of this chapter)