I'm waiting for you in my memory

Chapter 68
"Deadhead... How is it the same as now? I was guarding against him at that time, and I thought their personalities were inappropriate. But Qiyun is indeed a good boy, you read that right. He came to our house... a family, We're always getting old..."

Even if he couldn't see what was going on in the room, Situ Jue could still imagine his father shaking his head.

"You don't think about other people's feelings? He is a person, not a pawn of our family. Besides, he is getting on well with that girl surnamed Tan now, so don't mess it up."

The two argued, and the speed of speech became faster, and only a few words could be vaguely distinguished.

"...not biological...treat him well...Jiu'antang...the company...as long as he wants, he can hand it over to him at that time."

"Don't force him with these things, it's a lifetime thing. I don't agree with you doing this."

"...We are just such a daughter." The mother was probably also anxious, and her voice raised slightly involuntarily.Situ Jue pressed her ear against the door, and she finally heard the next sentence clearly.

"I talked to Qiyun, and he didn't object!"

She straightened up and turned to lean against the wall next to the door. The temperature of the wall penetrated her back and soaked into her heart and lungs.

That is really a kind of cold dependence.

Situ Jue didn't need to know the result of this dispute across the door, because she had already heard the result.

Yao Qiyun will marry her.

She once dreamed that she wanted to be with him for the rest of her life.However, who would have expected that in the end his "no objection" would make her heartbroken.

Just like a smug warrior, blindfolded, ready to overcome thorns and thorns, who knows that he fell too hard and got up with a bloody head, only to realize that he rolled to the finish line by mistake.

But this is not the life she wants.

After Qu Xiaowan's death, Zou Jin, who never showed up, called Situ Jue once and asked her if she thought about leaving.As long as Situ Jue nods, he is willing to exhaust all his connections and do his best to send her abroad, stay away from right and wrong, and start his life anew.

Situ Jue refused without even thinking about it, not to mention that she had never planned to go to a foreign country alone, even if she had, she didn't have a visa or a passport, so it would be easier said than done.Although Zou Jin could help her, but if she left at this time, it would be tantamount to admitting that she had lost. That would not be called "going", it would be "running away".

She didn't want to die, and she didn't want to escape, she just wanted to stay and wait for the day when the truth came to light.

She survived the angry slap of her father and the tears of her mother, the spurning of her friends, the death of a grasshopper on the same rope, and the last second when she realized that the person she was waiting for would never come back alone.

When Tan Shaocheng said with a smile at the door of her house, "Qiyun is too careless, I don't even know if the bank card is in my place", she felt that she hadn't lost.

Aunt Yao knew that she had no confidence now, so she taunted her all day long, and intensified her talk about Yao Qiyun taking Tan Shaocheng back to his hometown in the countryside to pay homage to his parents in front of her for a whole afternoon, but she still felt that she had not lost.

However, when he promised to marry a notorious woman whom he looked down upon in order to repay the Situ family's kindness, or for the sake of the Jiu'an Hall that would belong to him sooner or later, she suddenly felt that she had lost long ago, and held on to the spot with that breath in her mouth. Just kidding yourself.

There is no so-called truth, the truth has long been settled.

Situ Jue thought, for everyone's sake, but also for herself, maybe she should have left long ago.

Situ Jue found Zou Jin the next day and told him that she wanted to leave as soon as possible and as far away as possible.

Zou Jin put in front of her on the spot what he could do for her and the suffering she might face next.

"Have you considered?"

Situ Jue nodded.

At this time, there was only one person she could trust and trust, because she knew that this person was willing to do anything for her in order to atone for her sins.

Zou Jin took her to several places that day to prepare for her decision.

At dusk, Zou Jin's car was parked at the intersection one stop away from Situ's house. It was raining heavily outside, but he could only take her here.

Zou Jin said: "I will arrange the next thing for you. Someone will take care of you over there. You don't have to worry about the money. What you have to do now is to wait patiently. Of course, if you regret it, there is still time. "

Situ Jue stared at the front of him in ecstasy, the water flow gathered on the glass in front of the car was broken up repeatedly by the windshield wiper.She had to think about her parents, they had lived their lives upright all their lives, just for a daughter who didn't live up to expectations, and for a long time to come, they would have to endure other people's pointing and pointing.The most pitiful thing is that even if her depravity is confirmed, in the end, she is still struggling to plan for this daughter's future.She was reluctant to part with them, and even once thought about it, admit it, just treat herself as a lost cause, listen to them in everything, and don't let them be sad or disappointed.

However, just closing her eyes and thinking about it, she felt shuddering, a lifetime is so long... sooner or later they will drive each other crazy in the name of love.

After a while, she turned her face to look at Zou Jin, but she hadn't seen him for a few months. He seemed to be aging at an incredible speed. Although he still had the same facial features, there was no new addition on his head. White hair, but the high-spirited, suave and free-spirited earlier has been completely depressed, and the old man's twilight is beginning to show signs.She didn't dare to look closely at the blurry shadow reflected on the glass, suspecting that she would be like this sooner or later.

She gave Zou Jin an answer for the last time.

"I'm waiting for your news."

Quickly pushed the door and got out of the car, Situ Jue couldn't say "thank you" in the end.Maybe Zou Jin also needs such an opportunity, this is the only thing he can do, for both the living Situ Jue and the dead.

Situ Jue rushed to the door of the house in the rain, his clothes were already soaked, before she took out the key, the door opened, and Yao Qiyun just walked out, dressed as if he was going out, holding two umbrellas in his hands.

Situ Jue stroked his wet bangs, lowered his head and squeezed through the door.As if afraid of getting wet from her body, Yao Qiyun turned sideways to avoid it. When she entered the room, she heard the sound of the door closing behind her, and Yao Qiyun seemed to have given up her plan to go out.

Mom stood up to meet him, not to hand Situ Jue a dry towel.As soon as she opened her mouth, she asked, "Where have you been?"

Situ Jue didn't answer right away, Aunt Yao was taking out a change of clothes from her nephew's room, which he wore when he went out this morning, and it looked like it was mostly wet.Of course, one of the umbrellas in his hand was still dripping water from time to time.

Situ Jue didn't make a sound.

"I asked you something, where did you go?" Xue Shaoping did not give up asking, even though her voice sounded unusually calm.

One second, two seconds... The silence was unbearable, like waiting before execution.Situ Jue found that everyone in the family was looking at him, and his father no longer had the typical rage when he faced a disobedient daughter. There was only the last bit of disbelief in his eyes, as if standing in front of him was someone he no longer knew. people.

Situ Jue licked his sore lips.

"I didn't expect so many people to pay attention to my whereabouts. Now that I know everything, why ask?"

Xue Shaoping said: "Where did you come back from? I will ask you one last time!"

"Yes, I went to Zou Jin, are you satisfied? What else do you want to ask me? What did I do with him? Does anyone want to know? I can..."

Another slap.The taste of slapping is similar, the only difference is that it is mother's hand that is being waved today.

In the past twenty years, no one has touched a single finger of her, and others say that she is the apple of the eye of the Situ family—of course she is now, otherwise, why would she have tasted the taste of everyone's slaps one by one?

People can slap the fallen ones.

"I haven't tolerated you enough? Your father is right, I spoiled you, you are hopeless!" Xue Shaoping bent down, covered her face and cried bitterly, "For this sake, you still have to find him, you find him What is he doing? There are so many men in the world, they can't do without him, you are so cheap?"

"I'm as cheap as you can imagine." Situ Jue turned to look for Yao Qiyun, but he turned his face away hastily.

She stood up straight and pointed in his direction, but her hands trembled disobediently, "Even if all the men in the world die, he won't be able to pick up my rags!"

Xue Shaoping lowered her hand, with an unbelievable puzzled expression on her face, "Why did I give birth to you? You had a high fever when you were three years old, and the doctor said that there might be no other way. I should let him give up. You are not my daughter, I I wish you were dead then."

Situ Jue thought that if she had to go all out, nothing would matter anymore, which was not bad, as she would be more relaxed if she had less worries.But when it came to this critical point, I still felt a heart-piercing pain, as if the flesh and tendons were being torn apart when the consciousness was clear.She absurdly thought of Nezha, who cut the flesh and bones to return her parents. Is there still Jiang Taigong in the world who gave her an immortal body made of lotus root after his soul disappeared?
Maybe Tan Shaocheng is right, she has her own set of philosophies.Just yesterday, Tan Shaocheng said to her defeated general, Situ Jue: "Do you still remember that time you insisted that I was a villain who informed you, but I didn't do that. At that time, I really didn't think about what to do to you!" So, what can I do to you? You taught me a lesson. Speaking of which, I should thank you. I might as well share my self-comforting experience with you—do you feel pain now? It’s nothing, when I was young My mother asked me to buy vinegar. I was afraid that she would wait, so I ran so fast that I fell down and my feet were covered with blood. My mother heard me crying, and came out to take a look, and found that the bottle was broken and the vinegar was spilled all over the floor. , there was a tear in my trousers, she pulled me up and beat me up on the spot, without even looking at my feet. The pain in my feet is nothing, the wound will heal and new flesh will grow, but vinegar and Pants are all money, if you spend them, there will be nothing left! Compared with hurting your hands and feet, heartache is even more worthless, and even bandages are saved. Who can see? Poor enough to be numb is better than you can feel Any kind of pain I feel is pitiful, and you have never tasted that kind of feeling... I hate to look at you like this, as if you are the only one who is high and high, only you are a piece of beautiful jade, and everyone else is as cheap as a tile. Tell you , Nothing is predestined, broken jade is not as good as a piece of tile. Jade is dead, tile is alive, and that tile is jade.”

Situ Jue no longer regrets it. It was right for her to go to Zou Jin, and it was right for her to leave regardless of everything. It's right to live in a place where you don't even have a legal identity. Even if you can't survive it and you are deported, you won't even think about going anywhere in your life.

She completely cut off her retreat, and there was no place for her to turn around.

(End of this chapter)