I'm waiting for you in my memory

Chapter 73 Meeting with Memories (2)
"I've waited for him too. You don't understand what happened between me and him. If you can't wait for him, and I'm the one who had an accident, you'll let him be buried with me because he doesn't want to be with me?"

"I didn't ask you to be buried with him."

"I know, I should watch him cry in the hospital at this time, people are like this, the previous things are not important anymore, I will be a widow for him when he dies, and I will take care of him for the rest of his life when he is disabled, this is very touching, It's great, but why should I be so great? I don't want others to be moved by me. Now I have my life. Every day, so many people are lying in the hospital because of a car accident. What can I do? Yao Qiyun and I completely It's over, I don't want to talk about who is right and wrong, but he is no different from a stranger to me. You can say that I owe you and my father, because I am not filial, but I don't owe Yao Qiyun anything! "

Xue Shaoping tightly pinched the thin strap of the shoulder bag, and took a breath, "Who did you learn to be cruel now?"

Situ Jue didn't speak, maybe she just learned to protect herself.

The seminar ended without a hitch.Situ Jue released a brief industry report on behalf of her employed organization. Driven by Fu Zhishi's leadership, most participating manufacturers gave her report a high evaluation.After the meeting, Fu Zhishi and Tan Shaocheng tried their best to persuade her to stay for a few more days, but Situ Jue finally decided to return the next day according to the original plan.

On the day of departure, she went to the hospital to visit Yao Qiyun again. Although the hospital did everything possible to rescue him according to Situ's family's request, he still showed no signs of improvement.Xue Shaoping didn't say anything to Situ Jue anymore. When Situ Jue sat down, she even poured Situ Jue a cup of tea very politely.

Situ Jue took a sip, saying it wasn't bitter would be a lie, but deeper than sadness was a sense of powerlessness.It is said that blood is thicker than water, but they always push each other to the point of no return.

Xue Shaoping's waist prevented her from standing for a long time, and she could only feel better if she sat down slightly.Like Situ Jiu'an, she will only get older and older in the future.

This kind of sentimentality made Situ Jue unable to pretend to turn a blind eye anymore, she tried to put aside all the unpleasantness, she said that she had to go back and deal with the matter over there, but if they wanted, she could come back and take over from Yao Qiyun. The burden that should belong to her is to accompany them, take care of them, and they can even go abroad with her to live, anything is fine, as long as the two elders are willing to forget the past and say "you are still our daughter" instead of "" Marrying Yao Qiyun is already your best choice."

Xue Shaoping said lightly: "I only have one son. You have your own life."

Before rushing to the airport, Situ Jue still went to the place where Yao Qiyun lived. What made her make this decision was the wallet he was carrying when the accident happened.Xue Shaoping insisted on not taking back the things she gave to Situ Jue. The wallet was among a pile of scattered objects, and the cash and cards inside were neatly arranged, just like Yao Qiyun's usual style, without any surprises.Situ Jue even thought that there might be one or two old photos in it, but in fact there were not.Just when Situ Jue was puzzled by her mother's intention to give her the wallet, she found a few long hairs inside the wallet.Those few strands of hair were gathered into a small bundle and stored neatly. It was obvious that their appearance there was not an unintentional coincidence, and Situ Jue then picked them up to compare with the strands of hair he had pulled out from his head at that time, whether it was Hair color, length or curl, it doesn't matter.

It was the only thing she had left on him after the bathroom passion.

If this hair only shocked Situ Jue, then when she used the key to open Yao Qiyun's residence, she had completely lost the ability to think.

She now understands why she returned to her former home seven years later, only to find that every arrangement and decoration in the home is no longer what she remembered.Yao Qiyun almost moved most of the old furnishings of Situ's house to his "new" residence, especially the upstairs bedroom of Situ Jue, and the room on the first floor that she used to live in and later belonged to Yao Qiyun. Migrated here.Even if she described it in detail in memory, it would be impossible for them to overlap as perfectly as before.Situ Jue couldn't believe his eyes, as if the space was spinning, he returned to the old days.Some small items, the photo frame on her desk, the alarm clock by the bed, the old and faded bear pillow, she almost forgot that she had these things, and now they jumped out of the grave of memories one by one, quietly Crouching where they have always been, gazing at those who have returned from another time and place.

Soon, Situ Jue found the wire transfer slips she had given to her parents in the past few years in the desk drawer, the passbook she sent later, the pills that Wu Jiang gave her and disappeared mysteriously after returning to China, and even slipped them into Yao Qiyun's pocket when she teased him The business card of the porn industry...anything he could get related to her was quietly collected by him and kept in this memory-possessed room.

"I'm afraid that my memory is like an hourglass. It will become less and less, and one day it will be blurred. Ah Jue, it's been seven years, and I can hardly remember the way you laughed, the sound of your voice... because I'm too cowardly and scared Painful, I don’t want to think about it all the time, but I don’t want to forget. So you left, I still live in the memory.”

This is a text message that he edited but did not send. It is stored in the draft box of the mobile phone, and the time is the day before she returns to China.She rummaged through his cell phone, and there was no her number at all.Perhaps this is the same as the notes in the black boxes of "Behind Time", it was just a dream at that time, after packing, it was destined to have nowhere to deliver.

Situ Jue sat in front of the old desk, looking around.Yao Qiyun was actually a single room. He locked himself in it, but suddenly a person squeezed in. He dodged, evaded, and gradually got used to it. In the end, he complained that the space was too cramped, while he was busy adding furniture. .Finally one day, this person couldn't bear it anymore, and the space was returned to him. He was used to the empty dwelling of the two of them.He tried to find a new tenant, only to find that all the tables and chairs in the house were tailor-made for that person, and it was no longer necessary to add new ones.

Situ Jue has a grudge against Yao Qiyun, how can a person say "forget" so easily. The word "forget" is originally a combination of "death" and "heart", that is, a heart must be dead.She has never forgotten, because the past hurts her heart.Situ Jue repeatedly fantasized about Yao Qiyun's remorse, imagining that he was stuck in the memory and couldn't extricate himself, but it was precisely because she had replayed that scene in her heart so many times, when the real scene finally came, after the initial pleasure, she found that She was far from gaining so much satisfaction, and the pain he endured did not make her feel better.

Yao Qiyun's confession in fantasy has already comforted Situ Jue unknowingly for a long time, which is enough for her, how the real Yao Qiyun has become less important.She would rather he live a good life and grow old slowly in a time and space completely disjoint with her.

When Situ Jue arrived at the airport, there was still a long time before the flight took off.Lin Jing had an impromptu meeting, but she agreed to rush over to see her off.They meet at a Thai restaurant at the airport and have dinner together on the way.

Situ Jue kept waiting, repeatedly looking at his watch while waiting.The light in the restaurant is not very bright, with black decorative lines and faint blue lights.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and her hope gradually faded.On the eve of despair, the person she was waiting for suddenly came in the rain with a black umbrella.

He stood opposite, travel-stained, as if he had driven a long way.

"Am I too late? Ah Jue."

Situ Jue stretched out his hand happily, and Mrs. Yao's bracelet was still twirling around her wrist.

A bell rang in the distance, the day had come to an end, and their time had just arrived.

……

Lin Jing said that when Situ Jue woke up, there were tears on her cheeks.

"Have a nightmare?"

Situ Jue shook his head.

After the two simply finished their meal, Wu Jiang still came.I ran so fast that I almost couldn't catch my breath.

"Fortunately I caught up..."

"Didn't I tell you not to send it off, why are you here again? Seeing that you are sweating profusely, if you don't know, you might think something happened." Situ Jue's tone seemed very relaxed, but he stood up involuntarily .Wu Jiang's short silence made her smile freeze on her face, making her look a little helpless.Perhaps from the second Wu Jiang appeared, she already had a premonition, and she only hoped for his negation to dispel the uneasiness in her heart.

Wu Jiang put his hand on Situ Jue's shoulder, "His condition is not very good, the injury is too serious, the most serious injury is the head injury, my colleague has done his best, I thought there would be a turnaround, today For a while in the afternoon, everyone thought he was waking up, but... just like your mother said, he seemed willing to let himself go to sleep. When she came to me and asked if there was any hope, I couldn't bear to suggest her Prepare for the worst, but in fact, you can only do your best and obey the destiny..."

Situ Jue was stunned, and murmured "Thank you" in a low voice, but there was no further response.

Wu Jiang was a little worried, so he stroked her arm instead, "Listen to me, Situ Jue, if you're sad, just cry, don't hold on."

"I'm fine." Situ Jue suddenly turned around and hurriedly looked for her luggage, "I have to go."

"Are you really determined to go?"

"Well, I have to go now. Listen, the radio is already calling." She hastily picked up the coat that was hanging on the back of the chair, and when she let go, the coat slipped to the ground, and she bent down to pick it up again. Did not stand up.

Lin Jing sighed, and picked up her suitcase for Situ Jue.

Situ Jue looked at Lin Jing, raised his head, looked at him eagerly like a child, "I forgot to tell you, in fact, before you came, I had a very good dream, as if it was real , is more likely to be true than it is now."

Lin Jing and Wu Jiang looked at each other, followed her words and asked, "Is it about yourself?"

Situ Jue thought for a while, "No, it's about other people. But I'm happy for the people in my dream, at least they are complete..."

(End of this chapter)